Shin

Don't give up ?

When you don't remember the last time you fapped

Grasp this and you will never have any "problems":

Different practices will work for different people. Ultimately there is no practices, because they all lead to the same place -> basking in your own intimate presence. This you cannot do when your identified to the mind, this is why you need focused meditation in the beginning, To learn that you aren't the mind.

Which makes me think, I'm making love to you right now

I remember imagining this years ago, I was literally in tears and felt so naked, vulnerable. There was so much positive energy in me that my body was internally making love to itself.

3. Hates self-reflecting/think deeply about stuff So yeah, Don't expect most people to appreciate that you question them or what they say @Charlotte You make them suffer so much you have no idea.

The concept of time is starting to be a vague notion, I almost never think of the future anymore, the past was already quite dead in my mind for months, maybe a year+ who knows. For the first time ever since childhood, I had this sense of wonder about life. You know, just like when you were a toddler and had nothing to worry about. There was just this moment, and only this moment, and everything was so intimate, close to you, as if you were basking in your mother womb (closest feeling I can think of). Like there is nothing to achieve, no goals, no desire of any kind, just appreciation of life as it is, which paradoxically makes you more prone to do what you need to do since you don't worry and are fully invested in what you do ! Now this is kind of a weak embodiment, I can feel it can go way beyond how I experience this right now, like not even close to 10% of how deep this can go, but it's a start. This feeling of 3rd person, or headless perception was still there this afternoon, it's still extremely subtle, but it's sticking.

Too bad we're in winter though

Currently.

I don't know if I can or can't. And that wasn't your original question, you're trying to tease me right now, aren't you ? ?

Blue screen is really really bad. Open a post on a technical forum somewhere on the net, surely there is a reddit sub for this, so make a post with a screen of the blue screen. Could be a lot of things, so be patient because you'll have to try a lot of fixes, or ask a professional in real life.

Why not ?

Going back to 2 hours of meditation a day feels amazing. So calm and peaceful, crystal clear mind and an ability to live in the moment clearly enhanced. Today I got some non-dual glimpses, like, I watched my hands at different time without perceiving them as my hands, but just hands. Also, I got some very subtle and short glimpses of oneness, when I was talking to my parents, like we were intimate without even talking, and linked into some transparent field (I like a 3rd person character like in a video game). Same thing when I was going from my flat to the train station, the people and the buildings where so "Impossible to describe ( ). There is definitely a dream componant to this, it really feels the same in a lot of ways

Then don't question too much about those kind of things, you will know it experientially later. The basic idea though, what I think it will happen, is that there will have no notion of control. Nothing is controlling anything in the first place, so you can't say you don't have control or something has no control, control never existed. Which doesn't mean there is no control, it means there is not a notion of control at all, it doesn't even come to your mind to think if you control or not something, because experientially there is only one being that exist. Just like there is no one else than you, so there can't be a feeling of loneliness, since that means you expect someone else to exist, which isn't the case if you awaken (to a certain level of realization, maybe not at first). You will be alone, but you won't be able to feel lonely, because there never were anyone else than you.

That's mean ?

Nonut + 2 hours of meditation a day =

Free Shaktipat for me plz

What I said

The better the curve, the better surprise butt sex ?

A forum member just pm me to say he realized his true nature while doing the course. You still sure you want to discard this course because the teacher has 11/10 girlfriends, smoke cigars and ride Teslas ? ???

What do you mean by suffering ? I'm not enlightened and I can definitely not suffer If I see clearly an emotion for what it is. By that I mean still feeling the emotion (of sadness for example), but not attaching my sense of self to it, and therefore not adding unnecessary suffering on top of the sadness, there is just sadness.