Shin

There is only illusions, so she is as real as it gets.

From the point of view of the ego, sure, you can, and will most likely lost it several times until it sticks (which means total surrender/abidance to it).

You're not gonna know if it's real by doing mental masturbation Meditate the whole day, then focus really hard on an object, boom you got a Samadhi and you will know it's true.

What if the only way to know is to become it and everything else is just a silly idea in your mind ?

Because I ever made sense ?

If nothing is real, then ... ... Everything is real !

You don't wonder those kind of question anymore

Not real.

If you go deep enough, you can't not meditate every single second of your life. And that would still not be enlightenment lol

Knacked

Didn't thought about fapping or sex in general the week I thought I was gonna die. Only a matter of time until you get this addiction out of your system, just like all other addiction, it's nothing special. Anyone can do it, it's only hard in the beginning.

It's been a week I didn't sleep correctly, forgive me

No Leo, please listen bro, just take the red pill ... All women are sluts, they ALL wants to suck all the dicks they see, they only care for the dick ... Of course, they are crazy, so sometimes (all the time) they cry when they realize I lied (they deserve it) just in order to fuck them hard in the ass. They are only pissed because I move to another pussy, they miss the dick, it can't be for any other reason. Get real.

See the genius of the mind, how deceptive it is ... I mean, look at what a "proof" is ... Just a belief you take by reading some internet page ... Even the scientist who did the paper did not experience what he discovered, it's filtered by maths and stats concepts ... A psychedelic though, it's direct experience, That's TRUE empiric and experiential science

Does a color has an ego ?

Technically that's true. Concepts about enlightenment are not there to believe in them though, they are here to guide you experientially in your path. Unfortunately, until you free your mind of holding on to beliefs, which happens when you stop to identify to the mind (being the seer/watcher behind it), any beliefs whatsoever will be seen as an ultimate and pure truth to live by. It is so extreme in religious circle that it becomes ridiculous from an outside perspective, but it's happening in every level of our lives. It just happens that, since it is seen as "normal", we don't qualify it as neurotic, but it is. The tendency of the mind to cling to a belief is equally proportional to the degree of consciousness of the body/mind you have. You don't need to reject or cling to any beliefs whatsoever when you see you're not the mind, all beliefs are accepted as potential truths, which is very different than what the standard mind does. At this point you won't care about believing something to be right or wrong, or to belong conceptually to a community, all those things collapse and are seen as a waste of time and energy. The beliefs are stored as eventualities in your mind, And if one interest you for some practical reason, you will do the empiric research yourself to confirm or disprove it.

"Knowledge" is important to make sense of what you will experience, and not dismiss it for some mental state. If you get some glimpses, that's not it. If you get an awakening experience, that's not it. If you get self-realized, that's still not it (only half way). Most people will get stuck at the first two stages, and get arrogant as fuck. The ones who get to stage 3, oh boy, they are even more arrogant ...

All women are hypergamous ... Are you even living on planet Earth ?

What are you expecting ? What kind of help ? What do you think could help you ?

I'm always wary when someone says that

You're searching an external solution to an internal problem. It will never work. And btw, Joseph says the same exact thing.

Thoughts aren't the problem, lack of awareness is. If you say thoughts are the problem, people will start to hate and fight them. Which of course isn't gonna work and just make things worse.

No help will come. See through the mind, that all thoses negative and neurotics thoughts patterns are just content in you. Just be the observer ... There is no escape to this, you either ascend by letting the mind die by not participing in its endless drama, Or continue to lie to yourself and go deeper into hell. No help will come, it's all up to you, No Help Will Come