Shin

I only read the post of Zambize in the thread. 95% of my post are just there to make jokes to bring some smiles, because the forum is waaaaaaaaaaaay too serious on focused on the mega ultra deadly important goal to be giga spiritual. Fun, life and joy is probably bypassed by half of the forum at that point, it's scary and sad.

The thread in a nutshell «I'm jelly of Leo being happy, so I will say 5 meo is a hoax and that he doesn't know what he's talking about, when in truth I have no idea myself either (but I make smart comment so no one will know ahahah)» You know it's true ?

The non-dual police is SOOOOO scary !!!

Please don't tempt me.

Actually I wasn't joking, Fuck you MATE !

Only in the short term, because you'll get used to those things.

You must be so fun irl, I wanna meet you

Yeah, I'm lucky to have my best friend I would get there eventually, but she makes the process way faster by calling on my bullshit

Objectives of today Daily meditation Daily walk Daily study Contemplating on what I'm bypassing/why love can't flow Have fun

Dips to be the first one to lick his feet ?

Going to go meditate in a plain. It's 20 minutes away from where I live, so If something happens I won't be able to distract myself (not taking the phone).

Still don't get it, and don't understand this sentence either

What are you talking about mate ?

How ? I personally was way more into "Shin" when I thought his problems wasn't self created.

My bad. A good thing Nazis eradicared them then. I knew there were some truth in Hitlers words !

They also invented terrorism and sexism.

You don't need to, but it makes the character even more real, for himself.

They wouldn't take their character seriously if they didn't. A good movie consist of actors that are completely lost in their character !

It would be a limitation if it couldn't be done

Lots of introspection and shadow work right now. I realized I was bypassing somethind I still can't identified clearly by being a spiritual smartass and hiding behind jokes. Something that makes me compassionless and which blocks my capacity to love and feel emotions fully. Almost felt like I was gonna go this night while taking out the dog again, there was several times where there was no me to experience things, but just things.

I'm at a point where I'm wondering if insanity is the only way to go. I mean that, when your all sense starts to shift, how could you not becoming insane even for a few days/weeks ? You go out and see only fleeting ants called human being doing their thing, You look at a wall or a building and it's just, well nothing. You sit in class, and even if you hear and see hundreds of other people, you still deepluy feel alone meta physically speaking. You don't even know if your body/mind is actually real, it's just a bunch of perceptions, where they all seem to converge behind the eyes. Is this only resistance, or is it unavoidable ?

That's exactly how it feels, except I fear it and try everything to not face it, even though like you say it's inevitable.

I don't try to look like I know something I don't anymore.

Then it's only a matter of time until it becomes a joke ?