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Depends who you're comparing with though, are you comparing yourself to your friends, family, colleagues? I've got a long, long way to go. I've definitely grown though and I'm realising things now that I didn't ever before. One time last week I laughed at myself for all the stories being spun in my head when not so long ago I'd have bought into their rubbish and let them get me emotionally. I'd say that if you are arrogant about consciousness then you're not very conscious at all. So being humble is good - you're not tricking yourself and you're leaving room for growth.

Sometimes it will pop into my head, yes. It's quite a strange thing to zoom out when you're talking to somebody and realise you're not actually controlling the talking...

I'm doing 20-30 minutes per day but the questions do pop up throughout my daily life as well. I've noticed that after meditation I usually feel calm and happy, but after self inquiry I feel really shitty for a while after. Anyone else get this too?

Hello from Scotland! I've been on the enlightenment path for 2/3 weeks or so, doing Neti-Neti once or twice a week, self-inquiry daily, meditation daily. In the self-inquiry process I've started to notice that despite trying to "zoom in" and find who I am, who is perceiving etc, I realise after a few minutes I'm not really doing anything at all. I'm still sitting in the same position and my awareness hasn't changed that much, just that the focus is on a certain part of it or is trying to reach a certain part of it. This happens especially when my consciousness dilates - the sensations seem to move from their usual location and I'm left calm, peaceful and detached from thought. It feels like the state occurs without any control and disappears in the same way, but somehow my awareness has changed. When it shifts back I realise that nothing in the surroundings has really changed and I've done nothing to achieve the awareness shift. In this state I can find it difficult to keep looking for who I am. Anybody else experience this? Should I accept this realisation as part of the process or am I doing something wrong? Are we really doing anything at all in self-inquiry?

I've made the self-inquiry habit and I will keep at it. I appreciate all your advice and I'm seeing some things I'm doing wrong, thankyou!

I understand that I'm aiming to disidentify from that belief, and yes it's still there in everyday situations. During meditation less so. Are you saying that even though it might not feel like I'm really doing anything except sifting through my awareness, that this is the key to really not knowing and this is where progress is made?

When Leo refers to meditation with self-enquiry is he talking about Neti Neti or is there a different video where he demonstrates this? EDIT: never mind, found it on his channel.