Green Warrior

Thank you for posting this. I am experiencing a kundalini awakening. It has been going on since November of last year. It has been a slow process and I can't seem to find the help I need around where I live. I felt it first in my third eye, and after that kept feeling each individual chakra every two months. I now feel the energy going through my body but not out of the crown of my head. There have been times where I feel like my head is being operated on and there are moments of bliss and love. Many emotional things are being resolved however I feel like there is so much much more to do. Once an emotion resolves, it feels like a piece of me (my ego) goes away. For me its a struggle because I have two kids and we are trying to move and make decisions but I am just going along with it. What is also confusing is I don't know if I will be awakened and enlightened or in a mental institution for the rest of my life. Does that make sense? My ego is definitely afraid. So once again, thank you for the post.

@Tronds World Thank you. How do you know the point of it? @Prabhaker Okay. I can believe my mind made something up. I did read about the chakras after I started feeling this sensation in my head but my "kundalini experiene" did come after I read about it. I will keep this in mind. Thank you. @Visionary Honestly, I am starting to not recognize myself. I don't know if I am dropping my ego or just exchanging one for another but time will tell. Thank you for your advice. @Arman I always need reminders to relax and to not worry. Thank you. @cetus56 Yes. Let me count the ways. There are several things that can be the cause of stress right now. A big move coming up. Also, one of the things that I am realizing I have lived my life for other people's approval so I would be liked instead of for myself. I get mad that I have done this and yet it's hard to undo. Working on that and letting go has been a challenge. Thank you for your help. Thank you all for responding. This forum really helps a lot. It's hard to find others on your path. It can be quite lonely.

Hi. I am going through a kundalini awakening. I feel energy going up and down through six of the chakras; not the crown of the head. I am nervous it is happening too fast because I read that it can be damaging to the mind. Just started mediating in august of last year and did shrooms 3 times which I believe started the process. Any advice? Thanks.

The Conscious Parent by Dr. Shefali Tsabary is a good book. I just started reading it. It discusses how to find spiritual enlightenment through your kids by always being present with them. Each kid is going to need a different kind of parent so by being present and listening to what their needs are you can change your parenting style for them. She does talk about traumas that will happen in kids lives and as parents we should sit with them and let them feel it instead of trying to make them feel better. So far a good read.

@Timotheus Thank you for this. Just listened. Very very helpful.

All I wanted was to be a cleaner/organized person and have higher self esteem. That's it. I came across Leo's video on self esteem. And he said something that completely changed how I thought but it wasn't something I had to follow. Like you should love yourself for who you are. He said in reality there is no such thing as self esteem and something clicked in me and then I just stopped the search for it. It's weird, I still have some esteem issues from the outside but the added search for it is gone. The need for high esteem is gone because everything just is. And no one has ever just said that. Now I am meditating, self inquiry and exploring a whole new world. It's hard not to trust Leo. He gives you tools to trust yourself. I am realizing I do need to have a little more skepticism.

Update: I did shrooms for the third time, outside this time during the day by myself. The last two times I did it in my house by myself during the day. I took 1.9 grams which is the lowest dose I have taken. I forgot to say before I did smoke weed with it. Just one hit. The nauseous feeling of shrooms can ruin it for me. I would like like to start by saying after the first couple of times, I felt like it begun the spiritual awakening process through the chakras. Not during the shroom experience itself but within a week of doing them. After the first time, it felt like waves of energy from my neck to my head. Then after the second dose, I felt my third eye opening (lots of pressure in head and then bridge of nose and the feeling of swirling between my eyes, and seeing indigo in my meditations). I waited two months to do it a third time. During my meditations I slowly felt the energy go from my third eye to my heart. Now it just started to go to my heart a few days prior to me taken shrooms. I had sort of an achy feeling in it. During this last shroom experience, while outside I put on the video @Peace and Love showed us in the music to inspire enlightenment post called full chakra healing and meditated. After an hour of listening to it, I think my heart chakra opened. And the only way to explain it was it was love. It was love so overpowering i almost couldn't take it. It wasn't an attachment love. Like, I didn't have love for myself or for other people but it was just there. The feeling was awesome and lasted 3 hours. Now two days later, for the first time I'm starting to see yellow in my meditations which is the solar plexus chakra so I think the energy is moving down. Also, my conclusion every time with shrooms and enlightenment is that I'm thinking too much. But this was a Great experience. Its weird. I type this and 1 year ago I wouldn't have believed it. Now, I want to share my experiences but I don't want to mislead anyone. The above is what I think I am going through. So based on my experience, take the shrooms with ease just like meditation.

@Vanish I have had the exact same experiences. I've done it twice. First time was nice and second time I just had my head in my pillow and couldn't wait till it was over. I was confused and disoriented. Maybe not ready to let go yet. I took 2.5 grams the first time and 3.5 the second. It was also when I first started meditating. I think you can have different experiences based on where you are at with meditation. That is my opinion though. After those experiences, I started feeling what I believe are my chakras opening. I plan on trying it again but titrating with smaller dosages.

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@Emerald Wilkins @Esoteric You both are great. Thank you for sharing. I have been neglecting about 3/4 of my body or the body. How often do you do vipassana? I am not familiar with that meditation yet.

@Prabhaker Thank you for your guidance. @Aware You are right. Thank you.

@NutellaTC Thank you for asking this and @Emerald Wilkins thank you for the advice. I think I am going through the same thing and I think I would have let it go if I didn't read this. I don't know if its because I have become obsessed with enlightenment and I just keep doing self inquiry throughout the day and not focusing basically on anything else and meditating every chance I get. Do you think Reiki helps in these situations too?

I stay at home with my children and a lot of the time my husband is traveling. I have a couple of fears, well my ego has a couple of fears regarding this since a lot of my meditation occurs when I am alone and responsible for the lives of others. If I have an enlightened experience, I will continue to watch and protect my children, right? This probably sounds silly but I have a fear of having no self and then letting go of the fear and anxiety that I think is currently protecting them. One of the harder things for me regarding ego death is letting my mental grip on them go. It always comes back to them. I can't let go because I feel like they need me. Any advice on this would be greatly appreciated? I love my family and I do fear that may change because I do not know what higher consciousness is going to bring me. Is that normal? Thanks in advance for any advice.

@Azrael haha I know. It sometimes happens when I'm driving with my two kids and I definitely panic but you're right. It is cool. Thanks for providing more insight.

@ajasatya Thank you very much!