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Not sure if @Leo Gura is aware of this, or if the account is even his. Would be interesting to see Leo on the JRE podcast which could be a possibility seeing as Joe’s aware of Leos videos The twitter account Rogan is following: @leogura1

OP I apologise I actually just read the title of your post when I responded because you used the word "think" and "disappointed". I don't think you'd be disappointed if you were enlightened you'd see every experience as equally magical. From what you say I'm experiencing similar which is a mindful awareness of neurotic patterns perhaps with enlightening moments. What I suggest to myself is to stay present as the self and surrender whenever the mind stirs up and just let it pass... It does feel like derealisation at times though

I guess it's not anyones business considering only the truth in his message and a non-concern for his personhood would probably be wise to keep from distraction

I think you need to drop this identity of being a victim as soon as possible, practice forgiveness if necessary and don't jump to make any decisions out of desperation. If you feel that your current job isn't fostering your authenticity and you're unhappy there you may find grace when circumstances force you out. my advice to you would be to yield and surrender control of your life and let whatever is going to happen play out and take its course without resistance

You = the experience the experience = transient Transience = Non-permanence "You" are in constant flux therefore "you" do not exist. "You" only ever exist as perception and as perceived.

"You" were/are going through an experience.

You're not enlightened because you don't speak from the perspective of the self but from identity

Take a look and see how you are projecting into the future what you THINK will happen. You don't even know what is going to happen in your life an hour from now, all you can do is predict and torture yourself in the meanwhile life is unfolding. You say you are not happy with what you're doing but it's comfortable. So what are you really saying here? Look deeper. What do you love the most? What about you could be of service to someone else? What activities do you do where you completely forget about this idea of who you think you are and lose yourself in the moment? These are the questions that you'll only ever find answers to when you step out of your comfort zone. What is holding you back is fear. But fear is not real because it exists in your mind and not in reality. Also, give up the notion that you are in control of anything because you're not. Surrender to everything that currently is and put you intention, attention and belief on what you desire. As you do this the movie that is your life will play out infront of you differently, things you once were attached to will fall away and you will adapt. One day you will find yourself some place new and you will be somebody else. "No man steps into the same river twice, as the river is not the same and neither is the man" Keep going

Everything that is not made of love is not real and therefore cannot/will not last. You have the awareness to talk about the things you mentioned which are real to you, you need to feel your experience and learn from it to move forward and to not think or rationalize away the "Why" of what happened or the way he is as you are in effect justifying your inability to move forward (if you feel that you are trapped in memory). The way out of this, hard as it may be is to not take any of what has happened personally, because once you make it personal you are making it part of your identity and perpetuating the story of being a victim. You are here to raise the vibration of the world by giving love and being loved. You DO deserve to be loved because YOU ARE LOVE MADE OF GOD. Yes your Dad most likely is a cu** but you need to be eternally grateful and trusting in that the insights you have gained through your experience serve a greater purpose that maybe you can't see right now because fear is obscurring the truth. Psychedlics (mushrooms not weed) did provide me the breakthrough I needed to heal. It is one thing to be able to speak the truth but it's another to be the truth and sometimes we need a little help getting there. You want to be at a place where you can say with absolute conviction "I am glad and grateful for the lack of love I have received growing up" because it has enabled you to seek and give love to yourself in abundance.

Everything is made of absolute love, just obscured by fear and disillusion You must forgive me as the original post was very personal to me and hard for me to write. I'm not in the position to give advice beyond my own projected experience but I do know that the message Leo delivers in his video is divine truth

My story: ============================================================================================================================================= I was raised by an NPD father and passive mother who allowed the abuse to go on in the family home (gaslighting, verbal and physical abuse by my father) and becoming the introvert scapegoat of the family while my (criminal) brother was the chosen golden child. From an early age I learned to ignore my intuition, treating it as false and that my father spitting in my face was somehow deserved and that I was a piece of shit. This lead me to become a perfectionist who could never find satisfaction with myself (or others) and always seeking external approval, I suffered from depression and low self esteem all throughout school having severe acne and social anxiety. Allbeit I have always been pretty smart going by the amount of subject material in philosophy and sciences where I looked for insights into the human condition and an answer as to "Why me?" I took a job at my fathers company which at the time I felt I had no other choice, my father was very manipulative and my goals/dreams were deemed stupid or unrealistic. As the years went by with daily personal development work I'd become a good looking guy who had a series of short lasting relationships with attractive women after many years studying PUA matterial but now knowing the reason for the brief and sometimes bad relationships was the inherent lack of self-love I had. I never became the actualised athete/actor/artist I imagined I'd be, and 10 years working for my father just blew by becoming accustomed to the feeling of hopelessness and anxiety. After using up all the self-taught knowledge I'd attained in digital marketing despite dropping out of college to focus on educating myself full time in my bedroom thinking that the key to my freedom and financing myself would be in internet entrepreneurship, He/My father publically shamed me and fired me when he saw me as a threat to his position when I acquired the confidence to speak up about my ideas to company stakeholders after developing his company and hiring key staff to progress his business, all while on a mineal salary. I sought therapy around the age I started smoking weed at age 25 to gain some insight beyond what philosophy offered into my own personal experience and how to overcome it. I was diagnosed as having OCD and being twice gifted, which I think came about from being isolated most my life and going into my visual imagination to entertain and live in a fantasy world where I could feel empowered. I am 29 now and have had a few psychedlic experience with mushrooms over the past 2 years which have given me great insights into truth while painful has been eye opening and pushed me toward enlightenment by abandoning my depressing story everytime a "thought" comes up to remind me of who I think I am based on past experience. ============================================================================================================================================= My message to anyone who has suffered from a lack of love growing up is to love yourself unconditionally with absolute beleif in your self-worth and ability. Do not get caught up in your current circumstance. It can and inevitably will all change but it is down to you. Look no further than yourself for approval and love others, even those who hurt you with the same tenacity you love yourself. Hardships DO make us stronger and as long as you are still breathing and your heart is still beating you can make a difference. This is not woo-woo talk, it is real. I am on course to making a large sum of money (7 figures) after founding my own business in the health and fitness industry online after completely surrending myself to reality and moving through fear into love but more importantly putting positive energy into the world and peoples lives being a "benevolent force" as Leo puts it. I love you, I am you. We are all on a journey and there is light at the end, there is light with you now no matter how dark it may seem at times God is good, YOU are good. To repeat what Leo said in the most recent video if you are in a dire situation and see no way out psychedelics can definitely help you. I still have a long way to go but my message here is this: You are not your past, please believe things do get better. I love you, take care