Salvijus

Honestly, I don't know what to say. Just make sure you have some kind of daily spiritual practice and it will sort itself out. Don't look for a girlfriend. If it happens - good. If it doesn't happen - very good. If you're looking for happyness and you think someone from outside will give it to you, then it's not a wise attitude. Whenever you feel sad don't go outwards for solutions go inwards. Don't waste time thinking about how to get girlfriends. Just work on yourself on and on. Until your life is fixed. You want girlfriend? - you meditate. You want to be successfull? - you meditate You want to be social and charming? - you meditate. Whatever the problem there's in your life. You meditate. Always go inwards. You think oh my life is a mess, what should I do? You meditate. Don't try to solve the outside situation, solve yourself first. Make yourself in such a way that whatever happens - you're okey. That would be my advise.

@winterknight who was the first self enquiry teacher? Was it Ramana Maharshi?

I know that self enquiry works. Don't know anything about shamanic breathing tho.

Self enquiry vs meditation? Is that your question?

Standing still. If I move my eyes somehow sometimes the picture moves a little

First loose the attitude. What you're asking is how to manipulate a women to like you. This is so sick...... Women are not things to satisfy your hormones. How do you attracte friends? you don't. There's just some poeple that you resonate with and some you that you're not. girlfriend is just that. She's a friend. She's not someone you manipulate to feel one way or the other to satisfy yourself.

I've been in the same situation. I've been on a classroom chat then when the school ended. After a year or smth I thought what am I still doing there. And resisted to leave because everybody will know Anyways I just did it. I just left it. First few days I thought oh what will they think of me. Am I being unfriendly. Then I forgot about them. Now I feel great. It was annoying bondage in the end. My advise - just do it. It will hurt for 2-3days. Then you will feel great.

@caelanb I'm asking if the tension happened due to meditation practices

How long do you do self-enquiry? Maybe give it some more time. Do it for 5-7years. i'm sure it will sort itself out by then

I had tension on the face but it was because of meditation. Somehow self-enquiry produced this tension on my face. Witch after some time I could feel during the day also. It become very annoying also. And I couldn't relax while lying on my back, trying to fall asleep. In other words, I couldn't fall asleep while lying on my back because this face tension would increase alot Do you experience something similar? So if you have the same problem then there's only one solution that worked for me - kriya yoga. I did kriya that creates allignment in energies and suddenly all the tension from face got very nicely into my forehead. Now it's a very pleasent sensation unlike before. And it doesn't produce any tension. So It really solved this problem fantasticaly I would say.

You can't make him understand anything untill you fix the relationship. Right now you're debating who's smarter. He or you. And there's conflict and heated arguments. In such atmosphere he will never going to admit that you were right even if you are. That would mean he lost and you won. He will be avoiding that in so many ways. It's just pointless bittering and arguing. First if have to become friends with your dad. Only then he will be willing to be open to your ideas. You have to create a joyful atmosphere, a very comfortable, joyful, loving atmosphere. Only when people are happy, they loosen up. They become more open to new things. When heated debates are happening and when you both are on each other's throat..it's like a fight. Who's right and who's wrong. Both want to be right no matter what. And how do you win? By never admiting defeat. That's why those conversations you have are producing zero effect, only anger and frustration. Anyways.... I'd give him Inner Engineering book. That book simply has no flaws. It's made in such a way that you can't even argue with it. It just so so logical. And book itself is very light and funny with many jokes, it's very easy to read. Unlike other nondual books that use very complicated language. It's a huge advantage that the book is always funny because only then people's minds opens up to new ideas. It's easy to read,.it's very engaging and there's unbeatable logic in it that if your father reads it there's no escape for him. Edit: also he puts all the wisdom in funny stories that captures readers attention. It's not just dry informacion or philosophy. That's a big reason why this book is so good for beginners to nonduality. Sadhguru made this book exacly for this purpose. Exacly for your father you can say. To take even most religious unthinking or whatever mindset and direct them to nonduality.

I'm bowing down to you. Don't lose it. Not many people can say what you did. This is freedom. These desperate people who can't exist without relationships makes me roll my eyeballs everytime Being desperate is never good. In any situation of life. These are wise words to live by

Why do you like running?

This energy pulling down is real thing definitely. I experienced this myself. Once I enter a certain room or space. All of the sudden all kinds of cravings and petversions and depression everything just hits you from nowhere. I recommend you stay away from negative low conscious people. Even being around them has a big effect. That's way serious yogis deside to go away from people somewhere. Another thing you can do is play this chant in your room or wherever you live in. It will set up a necessary ambience for your growth. It will remove all the negative energy also. Sadhguru often talks about how important it is to live in a energized place because it doesn't matter how much you tell someone to do spiritual practice if he lives in an unsupportive space he will not do anything. But if the energies are high then whoever is there will be uplifted. Energies will push him up. It will create a desire to go forward. The same way you feel like something is pulling you down, the same way something can just pull you up, without much effort from your side. Also avoid wearing dark clothes. Only wear something light like white or yellow. If you look closely you should notice that whenever you're feeling low and depressed there's a tendency to wear dark clothes. So just be mindful of that from now on and aim for light color clothing.

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I know I said it before but I want to tell it again. What you're experiencing is just energy/prana/Qi/Chi/Life force. It's not kundalini. Just ignore it. It happens to everybody who does self enquiry for 1year. It's just a sign that you're going in the right direction but it's not a goal by itself. It's of no significance at all. Just you amusing yourself, that's all. Enlightenment is not a fancy experience.

Mooji lives in portugal. And you said you do his self-enquiry. Try maybe visit him for a week you'll have a chance to ask your questions about kundalini. Tho, I already know what he'd say. "It's child's play", "it's nothing" God I love Mooji Watch till 2.30 from the start. it's an answer to your kundalini questions

Interesting. I don't know why but I think I would be the one who gets irritated also it's very subtle resistence. Some kind of energy dark or dishonesty maybe, idk.

@winterknight what would you recommend for someone who can't fall asleep in the night?

@Anirban657 why not sadhguru? He's very accessible in India.

No it's a 15min long Try it And tell me aren't you feeling even a little better then before.

What you did was probably not designed for producing happyness. Maybe it was opening chakras or third eye or enlightenment or psychic abilities or who knows what you were doing. It's extremely subtle process. Each kriya does different things I guarentee you. If you do shambhavi you get there in 2-3months and then you go take a blood sample and your blood chemestry will be changed. Chemistry of joy and happyness. This is guarenteed to you like science. If I said it takes 20min to boil the rice. It's like that. It takes 2-3months to boil you from inside into a bliss manifacturing being.

It takes 2-3months to achieve that not years. Chocolate helps. Tho it's not a perfect solution. But it helps. You just dissmissed it without any reason or experience in this. Anyway it's not like you have a better choise right now, isn't. You can try finding some happyness producing kriyas in books or internet. Maybe there's something. Or at least try Isha kriya witch is free. Resistence is caused by your fear of failure. You know you've been unsuccessful before and now you're afraid of it. Only when what's happening within you is in your hands, only then you will dare to walk life full stride. You will have the strenght to fail a 1000times or maybe even die as complete failure and still be happy because that failure makes no difference in your life anymore. What your self esteem will do? You will build this confidence up up up and it's true that then you will feel like "yes I can do it" and the resistence will be gone. But you will crash the moment you fail on the floor witch is called reality. And you will fail there's no question about it. Because if you're not good at mathematics,. believing that you're a math genius is not gonna change the fact that you're not

What good is your self esteem? You will feel confident that you're a success. You will feel "yes I can do this, I believe in myself". And you still will fail. Success doesn't come to you because you believe in yourself. It comes because you're capable. Anyways...... Your problem is much more complicated then that. You're struggling to do something that you don't like. Right now you don't want to touch anything that causes you some misrery or frustration or failure. Because you yourself are struggling to be happy and on top of it you try to do things that make you even more unhappy. The only solution is you need to become happy from inside. Then doing something that you don't like will be no problem because anyways your happyness is no longer determined by what's happening outside. When how you are becomes your making. Then you'll see. Whatever needs to be done you will do it joyfully without any self-esteem meditation. And you will produce much better results because brains work at their best when you're happy. Buy some organic dark chocolate or use some nootropics or do some happyness kriya. it will create a pleseantness inside you. It will a be great boom to you when it comes to do things that you don't like.

Reminds me of a quote "Reality is an illusion but the illusion is real"