Salvijus

You won't know until you're woke

That's nice. Doing a pilgrimage is on my to do list How much did it cost you for 2weeks?

Nobody belongs anywhere, nobody exists on purpose, everybody's going to die. #Rick And Morty This gives me goosebumps

Yey chocolate is good for health

How do I adress the large issues in my life?

Happyness and enlightenment are not necessarily connected. Happyness is just an emotion. An experience. Enlightenment is not an emotion or experience. It's just a boundless freedom or nothingness where there's no suffering. There're ways to generate happyness very fast. Like kundalini, kriya or some tao techneques can get you into brain orgasms very much but it's not enlightenment. It's not freedom. It's just an emotion. It depends what kind of practices you do. Being happy is not a big achievement actually. It's the most basic thing.

It's a survival instinct to be part of something. Because alone you feel weak. And when you're weak subconcsiously you're afraid of death. If you're the only one who thinks Justin Bieber is amazing in a prison. Do you see how vulnurable it makes you? Suddenly you're like the enemy to others. You can actually die if you say something like that in prison. People think if you're not one of them then you're against them. If you're different then immediatly you will be labeled as wierd, crazy, and demoniosed in many ways. And then executed. So naturally nobody wants to be that guy who's different. Everyone wants to belong somewhere because it's safe. Your safety for survival gets setisfied so now you can relax a little bit. That why it seems to feels good when you're a part of something. But it's just fear.

Is suicide justified?

Lol This reminded me of Seriously tho. Watch some simpsons to cheer yourself up Life is so beautiful, don't waste your chance to experience that

I don't know. I feel I understand this logcally very easy, without any awakenings. 1 is something. It exists. It's tangable, it's physcial. You can hold it your hands. 0 also exists. But you can't hold it in your hands. It's nothingness. But it exists. It's a thing but not a physical thing. Like space. Space is also non physical but without space nothing would be possible.

1 is something, 2 is something, 3 is something, 0 is also a thing.

This is true. When we're around people we tend to be very self-conscious, too mindfull about ourself. Very worried how we look and stuff. The problem is that we can't relax. We're always alert what's happening around us and how we look. Always stressed not to look bad. To look normal. Just all bunch of fears how to look, how to be in every situation. This is causing anxiety. The answer is not self esteem. Look at the children. They laugh like crazy, they shout and jump and do all the crazy stuff. You think it's because they have strong self esteem? You think an innocent child who's feeling totally at ease with people around him is doing self esteem afirmations? No. The reason a child is so relaxed is because he doesn't give a damn about what people think. He's absolutely mindless, empty, non caring, free from concern. That's your answer. These qualities are what will make you authentic and at ease with people. Being absolutely mindless. When other opinions doesn't mean a thing to you. When you're naked and you don't care at all. That's what you're looking for. Self esteem is not a solution. If lets say you gain self esteem and self confidence today. You meet people and you're so super confident that whatever you say you believe that it's fine. I'm super good. Everything I do is awesome. This gives you same space, it lets you relax more. Now that you think that you're always good you don't worry that you might look bad anymore because you really believe that I'm great. This will grow into a big arrogance. Just look how very arrogant people are always seem to be expressing themselfs without any fear of looking bad because they always believe that they are killing it. They think what they do is so great. But they don't have that freedom that if the next moment they make utter fools of themselfs they are still okey. No. They would be terrified. They can't stand looking foolish. That's not freedom. What you want is to be a total fool and still be okey. To laugh and dance and sing like a crazy and don't care what people think. This doesn't take any courage or self esteem. This takes a total sense of abandonment. Forgeting yourself totally ? that's way children are so good at being crazy and wild becouse they have no opinions about themself. No courage or self esteem either. We on the other hand have strong opinions about ourself and we think by producing a positive image in our heads will solve something. No. Get rid of all opinions about yourself. Go back to zero. Self esteem leads to arrogance. Sense of abandonment leads to innosence and freedom from concerns. P.S. I like reading these posts of yours. They're somehow honest and with a lot of open-mindedness in them Edit: you think some great sage someone like sadhguru is always at ease because he has a strong self esteem or that he doesn't care at all what people think? Or why when a person gets drunk he is suddenly so relaxed and easygoing?

Wow.. you have a good therapist

Your ability to know what you want is best when you're quiet. But when you're quiet and you still don't know what to do. Then just be like that. In a state of not knowingness. And be like that. Don't try to force your descision. Forcing things in life is no good. Even if you're in the bathroom

distract yourself with something. watch some cartoons or tv shows. Community and rick and morty are a great shows that are not about sex

But the thing is (I think) that by relying on friends and having girlfriends to be full your problem will only get worse. There's one solution that comes into my mind. Find yourself a spiritual minded girlfirend that also pursues enlightenment. Then your needs will be satisfied, you'll be able to focus more on the important stuff. And you won't be distracted because your partner is also going in the same direction sounds like a solid plan to me

Could the problem be that you're just not interested in the subject? For example, I have a terrible focus on things I don't care about. I spent 12years in school going to history classes and I didn't learn a single date. I just couldn't hear what teacher says because I had zero interest in the subject. But I used to sit focused and concentrated intensly on math questions for long periods of time without any fail. Not being able to focus when studying, that sounds like you're not interested in the subject.

This is a good article From my own experience the most intimate self-equiry method is when you watch the effort to meditate itself. Try it sometime to watch the effort Also this is a beautful self-inquiry example

Arrogance is not bad but it's stupid and it can only happen from ignorance. In reality no one is more important then anyone else. And wars happen just because of that. Because somewhere we think our happyness is more important then others. And that can happen only if we're arrogant.

There's some truth in it. Some feel stuck and don't know any other escape. But you do. You've been exposed to spirituality. You have everything that you need to grow and transform yourself.

Truth is that neither Henry's nor Bob's desire matters. You're impying that everyone should have equal right to get what they want. But actually nobody has any rights at all. Nobody deservres anything. It's a human's invention and arrogance to think that you have any rights towards anything. People should do what is needed, not what they want.

The nature of his teachings are very familiar for me to the vippasana meditation and bhuddism And vippassana is a decent practice tho I don't know much about Tolle. Maybe I spoke to soon

One answer would be. the opposite of self-survival is self-offering / offering of your self One is about protecting yourself another is about giving yourself away. I don't care I think this is a nice analogy Practical things to do. Volunteering. Selfless acitivity. Doing something good for others without any reward or expectation of getting something back. Or you can just sit here and make yourself into a process of offering to the whole world without moving a finger. But that's not yet possible for you

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Honestly, I don't know what to say. Just make sure you have some kind of daily spiritual practice and it will sort itself out. Don't look for a girlfriend. If it happens - good. If it doesn't happen - very good. If you're looking for happyness and you think someone from outside will give it to you, then it's not a wise attitude. Whenever you feel sad don't go outwards for solutions go inwards. Don't waste time thinking about how to get girlfriends. Just work on yourself on and on. Until your life is fixed. You want girlfriend? - you meditate. You want to be successfull? - you meditate You want to be social and charming? - you meditate. Whatever the problem there's in your life. You meditate. Always go inwards. You think oh my life is a mess, what should I do? You meditate. Don't try to solve the outside situation, solve yourself first. Make yourself in such a way that whatever happens - you're okey. That would be my advise.