Salvijus

I've adressed this in my second paragraph. That unconscious desire leads to futile waste of energy and unfulfillment. Trying to murder someone is unconscious desire. Like you sayed that one is actually looking for relief from suffering in some way, which is ultimately a desire for peace and freedom and god. So even a desire to murder someone is a desire for god. But because it's unconscious, it becomes a waste of time and in this particular case very toxic. My suggestion in the second paragraph was not to act on your impulses unconsciously but rather to look deeper into your desires and really see them for what they are at their essence. Theirin lies your answer to what direction to take in life and clarity from all confusion over this matter.

Reminds me of this somehow lol But yea, it was appropriate for you to take it as a compliment.

It does. It will be a great day for humanity.

Naaah, slowly you're starting to admit progression on the path, levels of more and more peace, more and more authenticity, more and more wisdom, more and more grace and radience. It's not too long until your neo-advaita ideas will fly out the windom, muahahaha.

Hmmm.. that was pretty clean. You've almost even admited that there's progression towards more growth and awareness and that spirituality has stages whereas before you would've sayed "everyone is already awake", and made that into an excuse for complacency.

Bro, your desires are not an obstacle to god, they are your bread crumbs to god. Each desire if you look carefully at them has a deeper meaning than you ascribe to. Your desire for wealth is a desire for expansion and freedom. Your desire for relationship is a desire for love and the joy of intimacy and union. Your desire for status and recognition is your desire for god's greatness radiating through to touch other people, to become devine and radiant and beautiful like god is, like your true Self is. There is no desire that doesn't lead to god. However, you can waste lots of time not being truly concious of what is the core of your desire and end up trying to fulfill your desires in unconscious ways and ways that lead you nowhere except dissapointment. But if you embrace your desires and look deeply into them, what are they truly about, you'll gain much more clarity and direction in life and everything will arrange itself accordingly in an effortless way and there'll be no more conflict. "Just follow your heart, the key to every descision, it's as simple as that"

I love you starstruck

I think i can relate a bit to your experience except the spine pains. That tension that comes during meditation in your left side i used to have aswell but more bellow the eye somewhere on the temple. The conclusion that i came to is that it's some sort of energtic blockage and lack of alignment or smth, I'm not even sure. But what i found is that as you progress eventually that knot dissolves and the energy moves then into the center of the forehead. Then it longer bothers you but becomes pleasent. I think it's a common thing for meditators. You should've asked your teacher about it maybe.

*insert women throwing panties meme*

Somebody give this man a nobel prize

Making this video is the most embarrassing and cringe thing I've ever done. Tho, interestingly enough i feel elated afterwards. Kinda cool.

That should've worked i think. Maybe you have lots of judgement around your desires. Desire is a rather loud thing. What makes it look barely visiable is the inner critic that is constantly supressing it with fear and self-judgement. If you remove all the filters of what is acceptable and what is not, what is possible and what is not, and you ignore the fear of all the possible things that could go wrong. Then your authentic desires will be like a loud beacon banging on your head and won't allow you to rest until you follow up on it.

? i was breaking into tears yesterday for no apparant reason for quite some time...

I'm moved

I think you're just teasing everyone's balls with your foxy fragrance right now lol

You're already doing it. Just being upfront about your desires and not restricting them creates the energy flow that attracts the manifestation into being. This thread is the proof of it. Everyone is falling for you right now. You're charged like a magnet. However... you could amplify it many times more if you did it more conciously... but it could get a bit esoteric, not sure how into that are you.

If you stay upfront about your desires and let it radiate, there's a big chance you'll manifest it in your life pretty fast. This thread itself is like a beaming sex magnet

Lol. Here's my upgraded next level advice: Complain more, cry more, and get it all out. And when you get tired of it move on and be happy, like walking on sunshine. The process of grief is going to be there inevitably. Spending time in silence with yourself would hasten the healing and promote acceptance. This is good advice.

I can teach you and help you how to abide in perfect effortless presence as a natural permenant state. No joke. But it's late now im going to sleep. I'll reach out to you tomorrow if you wish.

? Or sometimes i like to think of it like bathing in the sun. Sun radiates life nurishing, abundant, healing energy but if a person is sitting in his house all day, he doesn't benefit much from the rays of sun. Similary if a person is living inside the dark cave of his ego, he may barely get to see and benefit from the Light of god's glory and grace through his entire life

How do you make peace with anything that you don't like? Just by putting your awareness on it and ? allowing ? it to be without any resistence. Soak in it conciously until it gets resolved in the light of your awareness.

God prefers to radiate his love nonstop