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Okei that makes sense. But just be honest to yourself why you're doing it. Is it because you genuinely believe this will heal your pain or you simply can't help yourself and you want that experience at any cost.

Your legs probably have gotten numb from sitting in a cross legged posture and after adjusting your posture a bit blood started to flow and rushed up from feet to the head. It creates the tingling sensations and buzzing energy sensations and what not. It's not a big deal. Your mind probably has a tendency to exaggerate simple things to crazy proportions aswell. Something to be mindful of.

You probably just damaged your body. Psychedelics have the potential of doing that but people like to brush it under the rug. Or say it's all "spiritual" pain don't worry. Just do more psychedelics. Especially the problems with the heart area and lsd are very common. Why do you think Ram Dass the lsd guru had a stroke and went into a wheelchair? Stuck emotions? Also I smell a strong desire in you to do psychedelics again and I believe it will override all rationallity in you. If my guess is correct you're likely to invent any bs excuse possible just to justify doing psychedelics again regardless of your health safety. It's a common thing that happens in psychedelic communities.

Here's what I think. Most people only feel alive when they are being stimulated. But when nothing stimulates them they feel down. They feel lost. Their mind is looking for stimulation to feel alive again but there's nothing. So they are in despair basically. When one learns to be fully alive and glowing just by doing nothing. Then it's the end of boredom.

@CoolDreamThanks no no... This forum is full of gurus believe me

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I personally just worry about maintaining certain principles in life that are sayed to bring better life. Dharma is another word for it. The Laws of creation. The rightful path and the right principles of life. Eat right, sleep right, speak right, live right, think right, desire the right things, serve the right purpose, do everything the right way. That is to say. Live in accordance to dharma. Live in accordance to Law that governs all life. When you live in accordance to the Law. Whereever that takes you is not your business. Because it can only go one way. Towards a brighter tomorrow. This is true in my experience so far but I'm still testing. "In the beginning there was Law. And the Law was with God. And the Law was God." Pursue God. What else is there to worry about. Everything else is just a compromise for ego.

This makes sense. Because you can't have a relationship if you build the walls of fear around you. Because these walls push people away. And relationship is about taking the walls down and embracing others as a part of yourself. So trust is essential.

Nobody is forcing you to do anything. But you have to understand, everyone's heart including yours heart is asking for release and healing 24/7. I simply responded to the call that your heart is making. Even if you're not aware of it on the conscious level of the mind. The cry for healing is always there. And it is the grudges and judgements of other people that suffocate the heart the most. So don't take it personally when I'm talking to you. Because I'm not talking to you even. My only interest is to get past the ego defenses and aliven the heart a bit that is suffocating and crying for help because of all the resentfulness and pollution there. Talking to the ego is a waste of time anyways.

Ego never trusts anything. Ego is always fearful and seeks to control everything to ensure its safety. Trust, however, is a choice to face fear with open arms and discover what lies on the other side. Perfect safety and perfect love of God.

There's much more actually... And it gets more intense with each step on The Way.

rape you haha. No actually you'll just remain in pain that's all. And your heart will continue to scream for help. Basically what's already happening will just continue on and on. Until you chose to look deeper into what is running the frustration.

I have to go. Will reply later Tcare

Really let that sink in

@bebotalk I'm not trying to be better. I just see you trying to cope with pain with the wrong tool. And huge unwillingness to look at what is behind the resentfulness. I promise you. If you spend a little bit of attention into what is behind the resentfulness instead of desperately trying to protect and justify your resentfulness. You will find great discoveries.

There are truthful ways of seeing life and there are ineffective ways to see life. Your disagreement is not disagreement at all because you've not genuinely considered and pondered that perhaps there is truth in those words. You just plug your ears and say "that's not how I see, that's not how I see" that's just your ego in huge unwillingness to heal and consider that perhaps it's wrong. Lucky me, I consume egos for brakefast Muahahaaha.

@bebotalk so you created an elaborate thought system to justify all your resentfulness and on top of it now you think you don't need to change because you can progress as it is Funny stuff. I would say there is a better way. Consider the possiblity that there is a better way to find peace and release from internal conflict. Because the current way you're so attached to has never solved anything.

Well it's about time to recognize that deep down there is a desire to cope with the pain and the resentfulness is just an ineffective way of achieving nothing. It's unhealthy for you. And you lash it out on others. And it becomes is unhealthy for everyone. The solution is in a 180° opposite way. That is the only way to make progress.

To be treated as if you're inferior and unworthy to talk to can be painful. One thing is it makes you resentful. Another thing is you want to avoid being hurt again so you created this mindset to create distance and protect yourself. But let it sink in. "holding grudges are just unwillingness to experience pain in its fullest" instead of becoming more resentful become more vulnerable and feel the pain that is behind the bitterness fully. And it will heal your mind.

Holding grudges is just unwillingness release to the pain. Whatever hurt you experienced this far, the solution, the release and the healing is waiting for you on the other shore. Where judgements are layed aside. And the ancient song of the heart resounds again.

Today is an auspicious day. Feeling blessed by the love and presence of Andrea bocelli during today's concert. A huge honor and gift to behold him Thank you Lord Amen

Body is intelligent. It knows what it needs to survive. You don't need to understand intellectually that it is time to go to sleep. Body knows it's time for sleep by itself and tells you. Same way body knows what to eat and when to eat it and how much to eat. The body tells you this info from moment to moment. Just the same way body knows with whom to reproduce to give rise to healthy offsprings. Body will tell you very clearly what to go after. Based on this you could draw conclusions. Is your body an intelligent being or no longer intelligent? Is your body feeling sleepless till 5am? Does your body crave food that has zero nutritional value? Does your body tell you to go after people that are not valid for reproduction? (Children, old people, your relatives... Animals, table Etc.) My belief theory is that people are becoming more and more distant from nature and more and more unnatural. Body has lost all sense of what it is supposed to desire to survive because it is losing its connection to nature. Living in fake environments. Breathing air conditioned air. Walking on concrete. Being bombarded with frequencies all the time that are not of this earth etc.