Salvijus

Better yet. 1. Contemplate how fear arises. What causes it to arise. 2. And contemplate if fear can exist if there is no sense of I. 3. And would there be any desire for self protection or self-preservation, self-grasping if there was no sense of I at all. Therein lies all the answers as to why "I doesn't exist" or "ego doesn't exist" is incorrect.

Are you one of those who think "I" doesn't exist? Neo advaita teachings etc. This whole teaching that "I" doesn't exist is actually false I would say. If you scrutinize this subject more carefully you would see: ego, I, self-grasping, fear are all synonymous. You can't have fear without the "I" being there first to feel threatened. Hence, if there's even a speck of fear in your reality/mind/experience. Then there is still belief and investment in this "I". The source of all sense of insecurity, fear and lack. And so... If you follow the implications of the black sentence. You will see, to say "I doesn't exist" is incorrect.

@bebotalk you could've just sayed "no I prefer conflict, anger, judgement, bickering rather than friendship, goodwill, open light discussion without any name calling" It's okay. I honor your choice. I hope it brings you happyness:) Was nice talking to you Chau chau 👋✌️

A single chance to redeem yourself is worth more than ten thousand punishments. And who would perceive the need for punishment when effort is being made to stop conflict and bring about coherence? That is poor judgement imo. And probably incorrect perception of the situation to begin with. This comment also has a strong "let the one without ego cast the first stone" vibe to me.

@bebotalk lets have some truce. This conflict is not healthy for both of us. And it will never end in the manner that we talk to each other. Unless you prefer to be continuesly boiling with the fire of internal conflict and frustration and judgement. Then good luck with that to you. It's an offer for peace. Take it or leave it. Either way I'm out of this. Tcare

Awww. I thought we had a special bond . Oh well, it's good that you don't like me. It will bring us closer. hehe

"When two enlightened beings meet, there's nothing to do but smile"

Here's some thoughts to ponder that may or may not resonate with you. 1. You have some attachment to certain goals and you believe it will bring you happyness. 2. Once you feel like you failed to meet the expectations/requirements to achieve that fantasy desire that you believe will bring you great happyness. You become sad. 3. After sad follows frustration. 4. Now you want to blame someone or something for that feeling "why the world is so cruel" kind of thing. 5. You find nothing to blame so you put the hate/blame on yourself. (other people put blame on the world, bad childhood, parents, themselves, and if nothing works, on God itself) How to come out of it? At the stage when the feeling of "I failed" comes. Or the feeling of "I haven't failed yet but it looks like I'm about to fail and so I'm getting sad and then frustration follows". This is where you can change things. There is a lot of fear surrounding the attachment. Belief that without the achievement of the desired goals your ticket to happyness is gone. Your hope for happyness is crushed. And feelings of bewilderment are right behind the corner waiting for you to fall into a despair. But in truth you have a choice at the moment you feel that fear rising. You can simply chose to allow and let the egoic fantasies crumble. It can feel psychologically painful. Yet on the other side there is the Sun. The Rays of freedom. And a treasure of happyness that never fades and needs no effort to achieve it. Needs no conditions to be there. Happyness that you need not earn it or be worthy of. It's simply there for you all the time forever. Then it's the end to seeking, attachment, fear of loss, and misery. Amen

I love you too

Dopé

I emphasize with your frustration. It's not easy to talk to me but you're doing well imo 🙏

Your behavior is a reflection of your belief system Every action is a statement if you believe in seperation or in all pervasive union. One who knows the truth, the pervasive union in all things, acts accordingly in a way that serves The Whole system and not his little identity. If the implications of the above are undetstood. Evil(selfish) behavior and enlightenment are impossible to combine.

All evil is driven by fear. Not by love Your nature is love. You being but love, can you be evil? Only if you forget yourself

What about just be aware. Not of this or that. Just simply be aware intensely. It's enough.

Human games > psychedelic experience. It is only spiritual growth that is existencially valuable. Unless a psychedelic experience serves that purpose it is a useless thing. And if psychedelics are being used for spiritual growth and seeking truth, then it gets included into the "human games" category. Check mate

"What is?"

Nice. That was pretty good response I'm comfident one day we'll agree on something

Everything you do out of love (truth impulse) is right. Everything you do out of fear (egoic self grasping) is wrong. If you act out of love, you can't help but be of service to truth and all life. You can't help but feel one with the one in front of you. You can't help but feel intense fulfilment. If you act out of fear. You are in service to illusions and ignorance. You won't be able to escape the dreadful feeling of suffering and suffocation of the heart. And you will feel lost and isolated from others.

I have a theory that could explain some of the triggers like eating and lip sounds, saliva sounds that may or may not be true. My guess is. You have sexual association with these sounds and these sounds stimulate you in a sexual way (on a very subtle level). Hence when you're in the environment where feeling araused is inappropriate or unwanted yet you can't help but be stimulated by these sounds. You get angry. It can take a lot self awareness tho to really notice what is happening right before the irritation comes. But I'm confident it is a feeling that you really really don't want to feel hence you become angry. Sexual arousal would be my guess of what that underlying feeling you try to get rid of is.

Good. We can end here. A good place to stop Tcare

Call it what you will. But the fact remains the same. The question reveals a disparity between your behavior and that of a true sage who knows to be no more special than a blade of grass. If you wish to divert the attention on me being full of ego by all means go for it. But for how long will you ignore the implications of what the question has revealed? Because the implications are huge. And you could benefit greatly by sincerely pondering them.

The question was not an attack. It was an invitation. An invitation to self reflect about the difference in behavior of someone who knows to be no more special than a blade of grass and your behavior. Who but ego would become uncomfortable when it is being invited to self reflect?

Sigh... Who but ego would ever feel threatened by a question?

Oh. My bad then. I was under the impression that you hold yourself more special than others somehow. As a hypothetical question. If a person was to realize she's no more special than a blade of grass. Would she be running around announcing who she is to everybody?

The specialness we ascribe to being Jesus or Buddha or whatever else loses all meaning once you realize we are all equal in our true essence anyway.