Shaun

I couldn't have put it better myself. When gran isn't here, she ceases to exist but only in your direct experience. From her experience, she still exists.

Obviously incorrect. Humanity clearly exists. The reason humanity is in such a state is that we still think we are human havings and doings, not human beings.

It was to do with an enormous phase of solipsism I went through most of last year, it was pretty scary stuff.

I'm surrounded by decent people who have pulled me out of insanity and have led me to the obvious insight that there's vastly more to life than just me. People are honestly the best medicine.

Exactly. This shows that you aren't creating anything. You are a creation. You are arguing with guys behind their computer screens who are pretending that they don't exist.

I would say solipsist.

It depends which teaching you go by.

There are other beings, I'm one of them. All of this nonsense about other people being imaginary is totally dysfunctional and needs to stop as all it does is creates further separation and suffering.

The general consensus I've seen is that god/consciousness experiences itself from innumerable imaginary perspectives or finite minds. The I am feeling is the godhead ln each of our experiences. In one of Leo's awakening videos he posed this as a possibility that god/consciousness can split itself into many dimensions, one of which is mine and one of which is yours. I've got two theories in each dimension, the experiencer is totally alone and other people in it are imaginary, and these dimensions don't overlap in any way These dimensions do overlap and what you label as another person, cat bird etc is just the overlap point between your experience and theirs. Just chucking theories around, can't say for sure at the moment what's true. Put it this way, if all god can do is is limit itself into @Schahin and only Schahin, then it's not much of a god in my opinion.

Scotland needs independence as soon as possible. We're getting dragged out of the EU against our will and the only reason England is holding on to us so tightly is because of our resources.

I don't intend to sound as if I'm making light of or belittling what you're going through but failure is not what you are, it is a thought about a situation. The first thing you can do is see failure as a story you are creating about yourself. It probably doesn't feel good so let that one go. Take actions from a mindset where ideas of failure, lazy useless, etc have been dropped.

@SoonHei I just watched the video. Being alone, dreaming up reality, family being imaginary, etc feels like utter hell. Being an independent entity or expression of god within god feels awesome. When Leo tells me that he is just an illusion that I'm imagining, that makes me feel like shit because it's utter nonsense. @Nahm Trust the sensations, right?

If absolute truth will cause a complete mental breakdown and utterly destroy my life as Leo puts it, why are enlightened people so happy and at peace?

It's all just endlessly confusing. I might just stop all meditation/seeking and just live in the present no matter what I'm doing. It's so much simpler that way.

Your explanations on the subject are actually quite beautiful, not dark or solipsistic at all.

It kind of did, yes.

Most likely because I imagined it so. I've no idea why I would imagine you to appear happy with being alone. That's the weird thing going on here.

Yes The duality was what filled my life with boundless joy and motivation. Now the arse seems to be falling out of that foundation, putting everything into question and lots of existential terror arises as a result. I will say though that the things which would normally cause me suffering before I discovered spirituality now hardly have an effect. They have been replaced with something far more significant. I don't fully see your point. An awakening is probably the only way really.

I'd say that's pretty awesome. We are each like programs on an infinite computer and we can somehow see and interact with each other. That was my old understanding until I came across Leo. I've got this thing going on where I always take the most terrifying and depressing things as being true. I maybe just went down Leos way because he seemed a hell of a lot more clued up about this stuff than nearly every other teacher.

I will never touch a psychedelic again. For now I will stick with Rupert Spira's model of reality where there's once consciousness and each person is just a temporary finite mind or dimension of experience within it, a bit like an infinite sponge and each of us are like a bubble of emptiness within. It's less bleak and makes more sense to me. Maybe I will know for sure one day, or maybe not.

There's a lot which just doesn't add up here. Why would god/me imagine the truth to itself and go through the misery and terror of realising it? Why does nearly everyone say that they exist? Could it be possible that Rupert Spira's many finite minds one consciousness model is actually correct?

I've represented it here as best as I can. Basically the sphere is infinite consciousness/ the universe and as such can't actually be called a sphere. The marker right in the centre is just my ego/point of view. Other egos/people are nothing more than my thoughts and labels projected on to the one and only experience represented by the marker?

We will see what happens if and when I have a really deep awakening to absolute truth. Until then, no suicide will take place as I am currently in a state of not knowing. I will NOT throw away my life at this point as it may impact others.

Really folks, what this all comes down to is, am I the only observer/experiencer in the universe? Meaning that if I throw something at someone, hug them or whatever, they only appear to feel it but don't actually as I am only imagining them to feel it? If the answer to this question is honestly yes, and I prove it true beyond all doubt through practices, I will blow my head clean off with a shotgun and be done with it. This will hopefully result in me reincarnating and forgetting all of this until I re-discover it, setting up an infinite suicide loop. If the answer is no, and I am just one of trillions of observers within the one reality and all the lovely folks and critters I see around me experience the universe just as richly as I do, then no problem. Business as usual, on with the meditations and doing what I can to make the world better. It's really as simple as that. You guys are either awesome people going about your lives, like me, even if it is all just one enormous shared dream, or you are all just illusions that I'm imagining, kind of like Rupert's cardboard cutout analogy. Please somebody out there see my point.