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I could workout in the morning, on coffee and do that briefly there is no other way to get anything done in that regard to get my body healthy, just doing a little I was a freaking monster.

Claude is so fucking unethical that was the entire point,they had to revert back to modernism, as the post-modern students here could not up their language capabillity to a teal perspective, it was a huge issue, doing it solo as construct-aware person with an ibliss whore that just craves your dick for success during that time, but it took me everything to have a breakthrough into the strucutre. I wonder how this all went from watching hentai porn as a teen, in order to cope with society, to legit this whole Epstein NGO thing holy fucking shit, I bet I am on some kill list at this point. I also get weird death threats and messages at times I block everything, mostly when I flourish it's very odd.

Interesting take, can't watch it all at times I just post.

Just contemplating more after this A.I mess hit, and I was not capeable of getting a research spot, and having this devlish gf, who just hated A.I for no reasons, why I get a lot of love and support from using the tooling of A.I in my personal consumer space, especially the NLP based stuff with ChatGPT etc. and Grok is better then what I could test for with DeepSeek, as it serves a more general purpose knowledge, and some advanced learning techniques, especially not being able to talk to DeepSeek and other newer chinese models, make them less efficient in sovling problems and helping humans from my POV, and I was working on scaling that with R & Cloude, and Anthropic will most likely do smth. at one point in that, but I have to see where I will go I waste a lot of time, as I require more peak health and I just focused on some core understandings, of my personal life first, after this psychosis with alcohol and cannabis, I can't really deal with alcohol, due to having alcoholic parents, gaming and masturbating or weed or just working out is better, but I have werid people around me imo.

Very interesting take and experience, thank you for sharing this! I had my fair-share of experience at a German university, and Europe is even more fucked imo, in terms of A.I and have to push the academic scientific elite, to the highest pinnacles ever in order to match the competition of China, seeing and meeting good amount of chinese people it's a huge difference in culture and attitude, let alone the whole reinforcement agent thin around DeepSeek etc. in 2023-2024, when I worked for a company, that immediately used me to minimize token expenditure, while I am tired of doing that, and I know this my entire life, as I have partially an economics background, but I don't really get supplied with the health to do the work, and I never found much joy in constantly minimizing prices, feeling like a micer, and being used for something I don't enjoy doing, if I don't get a way to scale my life upwards, and I really hated that personally, and it goes into the depths of mathematics very quickly, or your smart and find a more thumb-rule based solution, in order to scale down tokkens, but I ask a lot of questions, and hence use a lot of tokens, as most people don't have the nerf, to deal with questions in tech, considering how "hostile" StackOverFlow was in the recent years, and gatekeeping an entire industry partially, I often had to face massive pain, before even someone answered a question there, now I find StackOverFlow with all the code proofs that one can run even just with Codex etc. as most chinese models, would most likely not benefit hardcore developers, but more "casual developers" or people that have to fullfill multiple roles, this is where I see there is more benefit to OpenA.I, also it having it's hands on the univerisies with gemini and IIRC IntellJ and other things, where they are subsidized by the state itself. I did not get around testing Kimi-K3 and this red panda thingy, but from my experience having a friend from Beijing, who was incapeable of solving advanced questions in evolutionary algorithms etc. gave me some hope, to not just run bias as chinese person = more value coder etc. as a german friend of mine wrote this 0.7 grade, and it's very difficult to get behind evolutionary algorithms as it's highly mathematics turned into mechanical algorithms, I had no chance of doing this, I understand the concepts, but my coding was and is not near that level of capabillity. Imo, a lot will be decided with EU regulations, as there is still a lot of brilliant talent, and they keep getting the right people from the east to solve novel problems like this Rieman-Zeta function thing that has been finally solved. Within the car auditing company I worked, I often found it personally weird, that a lot of people who complained about the hallucinations of GPT, fundamentally did not understand it's their own perception from a more psychological viewpoint, and I presented a case on how this works, but I found papers so deep from MIT, I could not do the math to explain it to them, as you'd be forced to even build or fine-tune the model to hallucinate less, and I barely face this problem, it was very weird, and just panic and terror prone, as they give little time to make decisions, and this Putin & Trump as well as A.I arms race war, is one hell of a difficult problem. Even now I get offers from the university I am out of it now where SpaceXAI is featured, and the whole neuroscience A.I spectrum, where I worked with a famous scientist in that area briefly, shows me that there will be the neccessity of the U.S having the computing power, it's not even about China, but the core issue of Russia meddling with all affairs to have a piece of the cake, I lived in China, I worked with chinese people in online sales etc. before studying a more c.s laden subject, now a.i laden subject, and I can clearly see the benefit, but China also requires help with it's surrounding forces, and I hope they don't collectively panic, and just take over the world, as others have a right to life the way they want, and a lot of asian people move to europe for a more time-based easier lifestyle with more perks and benefits, and not constantly working 996 hours, or even just worse experiences, it's odd, I am glad China is meddling via this Thick Face Black Heart principle, but the nationalism, and this lucifer soul thing can be a serious issue, where the U.S will most likely defend it's computing power till death, but as there are many top researchers that are asian or asian american in the U.S I presume there can be some level of democratic concilation, what I fear the most is this Trump business style, deal first, information later, that is fine for opportunity and exploration, taking an unsupervised learning perspective, but a lot of this tech, will not align with western values for the earth, but as the zoomer generation imo is less enviromental conscious, and gen-y people that I meet that have advanced degrees all move to tech for money, I don't really know what will happen, or if a metor or world event will just end us, watching a lot of stefan burns and other stuff, that tracks the earth, seeing all these earthquakes etc. It will be very interesting, if A.I can be used and leverage for real enviromental and global problems, also social problems, instead of just scaling, models and tech, in order to communicate, defend, create drones & automation, and this whole warfare paradigm, it's a neccessity imo to defend, but I can't really tell who is right or wrong, imo it's russia expanding into Europe and causing these problems, while the more eastern states yearn for independence and get european support, it's very odd, but this is my take on this. At best China & the U.S can create a mutal relation with each other, as far as I know europe regulates very heavily to not be totally bought by China, and uses it's more enviromental conscious production value, to stir the people into older questions of science, that require solving etc. but this is my experience anyhow!

Watching this set, I never though the job-center would still hand out these opportunities, a lot of them pay beyond average, but the core issue is just the lack of integration of interdisciplinary fields at a university, I wanted to specialize only to see, that the most willing and advanced students also partially were more interested in the core point of making A.I more viable to human needs and to facilitate that, but the core structure is so soulless, the only thing that made sense to me is to focus on beauty, and that pulled me to a closer relationships with most professors besides shit 8's in the enneagram, many of them take this for granted and imo do shit work. No, idea if the set is good.

The person was obsessed with fame, and this bolshevistic tendencies and this Leo Astrology consciousness of luxury, but being quiet frankly a murdered, and I know I got one sleeping in me 2, that is not good. the constant fight for control of activity and what is fun, and a lack of overlapping interests, she lacked open-mindedness about technology vehemently, as she is obstructed by this gaia centric feminist beta cuckhold larry consciousness.

I cleaned my laptop and fixed the flickering of the monitor using a different cable, not these hyped ones from the market, I don't even know where I have this cable from but it's finally fixed, now there is some new hope but the same issue of organisation and the complexity of the work I undertook, I have one very advanced job offer, that I would take as it's sort of like resident evil drug level research with ml, and I partially could've taken these lectures but got stuck in evolutionary algorithsm that are outdated, and less domain knowledge based and I am very good in domain knowledge and memorized knowledge, it's just I stopped doing, it after including more an american mindset of solving problems inductively, but that made me go for and create a lot of options generally speaking, I am going through the optionality now, as I wasted and still gained experience in the meanwhile I will most likely call all of them first and speak with them, that turned out well, I was able to capitalize quickly on opportunities, but somehow this smoking cigarettes and cannabis got to me, it's not very good if I can't continue to work on my infrastructure and health, and a lot of bias surrounding it with the think tanks within science, I am glad I also do well without it, but people also think without it I am crazy at times for the high gratitude energy I have generally I have 4 Yong Shens in superior quality and a lot of combos on subtle energy, i am learning about, but I have to mitigate everything with the cosmic centeredness of Yang Earth that is still not easy to build that level of depth, so I often use aids such as music, in a few days or weeks I should be recovered to go back to 30 minutes of meditation daily without seperating it, I was pushing 1h30, but the ex and her low consciousness fire monkey dipshitness caused a lot of issues.

I noticed overtime, how using THC and any psychedlic can be a cruch, I am a genetic freak who benefits even more from living as clean as possible, and naturally gain high state access, depending on how relatable that is, I mean cmon, I almost deleted my entire life during a mahasamadhi state with LSD, that is beyond rare for most to even touch nirodpha kalpi samadhi. IMO, this whole psychedelic bang causes also a massive lack of responsibility of the ones who're doing it, as they all move to the creative realm, and the issue with cannabis is it increases only ones own intereoception in my experience, people are so high, but they are in their own world, if they don't have a meditative practice or a way to merge, they are simply even to arrogant or to high to relate anymore, and it increases this by 6000% or so, this is information from Dr. Keith Witt from integral life. I enjoy cannabis, mostly with music, as it helps to merge the entire field and people can explore their consciosuness, but for God-Likeness etc. I did not find cannabis all the time to be useful, I hitted god-like states with cannabis often when I am very close to breakthroughs in my personal life, but that energy also just accumulates in my heart, I just become 6000% aware of it, and I contemplate mahasamadhi, and tbh I am afraid to leave the planet with the snip of ones fingers, I would enjoy trying different combinations, LSD & cannabis mixed sort of leveled my consciousness in order for it to be more attenuated to the surrounding states, but if very bad energy and entitites arrived, I sort of have to resort to physical defense etc. The stronger and more healthily I could lead my body, the better the effects of cannabis in the short-term, but as my body automatically releases a lot of ananamides and endorphines, when I workout for a period of time, I was able to test various strands of THC for a year and meditate it increased my level of consciousness, but the core point is to not let health and lifestyle detrioate, to workout and to drink and eat healthy foods, is more powerful imo, then any psychdelic, especially with strength training, but as you get older and the body weaker, IIRC psychdelics can be a good tool for inspiration and rejuvination to push towards good etc. or a good aid, for a retreat, I did some retreats aided with various forms of LSD, but in the end GOD just announced himself and I was pushed into this state, it was completely aribitary, at times I see psychdelics a waste for healthy productive life. The whole point of psychosis, as I just had one it's partially awakening, but you still have to get out a large majority of the junk out of ones body, and not be near nefarious creatures, that have negative opinions of psychdelics, you can suck that up like a sponge, if you don't repell their energy, or you can be in a psychdelic state and just learn how to repell negative energy, I had that demonic warfare once, with a gf of one of my best friends, I am glad she is gone and he moved to the U.S with kids, this was a horror dispelling here in an LSD/Cannabis & hash state it was the oddest experience, ever but the only thing I could do she was kind etc. but beneath that kindness was just betrayl like with the ex, I saw the similarities, but that was like dealing with a succubus, she sucked the psychedelic state out of me with lies, I have never seen a less effective state of LSD when I took it and f*ed her, and I thought wow how amazing, but her vagina just pulled non-duality out of it, it was the stupidest experience ever, as I was stuck just being the witnessed bored to death, fucking her to death, she riding me to death, and my body just being non-reactive, as I yearned the psychdelic state more than her.

Crypto should never be the only investment you do, there are many stocks & bonds and profitable ways anyhow I stop here

It's not about replacing humans, but you can't decide for greedy profit makers to remove them, a lot of A.I usage saves me personally a lot of human effort in areas, where you can gain competence fast and also increase the productivity of the worker, there is no need to ask uneccessary questions, and you have the abillity to use it as an inquiry tool, the whole point is not to get sucked into the power mania, the A.I usage can create, some seem prone to that? I don't personally for me it's a holistic competence tool, I can get to a lot of questions and ask questions that get to the bottom of a problem or raise the understanding that get's you to solve and understand the root problem, it's the best tool for inquiry ever created, the whole point is it helps to deal and avoid, neurotic, hystorianic, and extroverted freaks who're just out there for their old money, and have 0 moral qualms about anything. I use solar energy provider for my energy, they offer also a lot of products in that regard, but I did not have the luxury to get into it, so I am forced to deal with an enviroment that is stupid enough to make me use more energy. Yes businesses have no idea, if they would use it properly they would remove themselves very quickly as they would see their own corruption, there is no need to constantly network and creat feast to make decisions, the rooms would be smaller, the information denser, and more critical, and you can easily release a couple of people who're just there for the image of the company, as they make the company look good etc. but Also you're underestimating how real this war is in Iran for just atomaric power, a lot of kids/youth are steadily using renewable energy types of devices with scooters, e-bikes, and they are all hooked on the power grid, serves, cloud-serves, aps, authenticators etc. all of this in the end is connected to software and hence a.i or not, if you use an app, everyone who uses android studio as gemini included, it's not a matter if it's enviromentally viable, the whole point is could we even now produce enough energy to be enviromentally viable, or are we just gaslighting via development to feel better about ourselves, or actually care? For e.g I hate using the dish washer for what I cook, but they create appartements so small, I am almost force to run this things 2-3 times a day for what my body needs, and I buy a lot of enviromentally friendly products, the core issue is the denial of the modernists to move back to such a restrctive force of development, especially with boomers etc. it will be impossible, and the newer generation is as dumb as a brick to me, they would care mostly about what new ideas exist even to create new energy, Sam Altman has some offers, but it's been some time till I got into investments, through this fucking shit gaslighting with helping africa, I fucking hate it, most should go there first before they even post a video. Even if we're more intelligent then A.I and businesses know more how people use a.i as they are constantly collecting usage data, it's more about control, not replacing humans, and yes I agree we're more intelligent than A.I if I have a creative insight for a prompt the same type of consciousness moves into the A.I and it generates the intutive response, or I can just do it solo, but the core issue not using A.I is highly restrictive and limits humans potential, as you can just ask a lot of deep questions and get deep answers, most humans will not be able to answer you, as A.I mirrors your level of consciousness and most humans can't if you come from a high level of consciousness and insight, most humans will not understand untill you move their heart into a insight, that is my experience. A.I is here to stay, I worked in 3 tech companies making it work, and it was a hot seat also from the very start almost working at the depth of it, but the core issue is simply I was hated online, got hacked by chinese people, my steam account got hacked, the A.I & security field will be way hotter in the next years and now, then the A.I human creation part, NLP, creating translations for museums, holograms, AR etc. A.I is simply using mathematical formulations to create autmative value that is a very simple explanation, but it also includes a lot of advanced mathematics, the largest gain I see in using A.I i can upgrade my own intutive insights, without making it a constant memory based clarification, as this chiefdom type of old money like Trump technically is consciousness has to go, it's racist a.f from my pov. The whole point with A.I investment or any investment, if you lack knowledge you will just loose money, and you can simply also hire some people to take care of investments and also invest ethically, A.I & crypto should technically be conscious windfall investments, you invest because you know it can blow up, but you don't rub your fingers and hands like a greedy witch at home and a 3 year old and invest your life savings into it, I did not do that, and invested also into stable tech companies and had a relatively high ROI, for dealing with absolute idiots and sharing information with people that should not have them, I joined some options traiding stuff to test stuff, but I got hacked etc. huge issue with tech security, and a lot of bias also there it's very annoying the modern/ethnocentric underbelly within tech. I also worked for ergonomics tech with andorid, but the more you get in it and are critical, you can turn off your w-lan, bluetooth etc. as they all tear massively on your health and heart frequency etc. anyhow I stop I don't expect understanding from this forum.

omg this is the worst these evil eye things are sprayed all over this city I moved too, I interpret it now as a perspective of horus eye, but I was never faced with the conformity of the superstition of "the evil eye or blue eye" as I thought it would mean awareness, idk the symbology here is weird at times. Eating in groups instead of alone, and forcing one to do that I find conformist

What I instead want to focus on is not that hyperreality self-inflated yin-metal snake type of consciousness of being pulled into the illusion of money and grandeur with clicks and clicks over again, and the issue of being glocked away by the billionair friends of my aunt, is just the issue of buying even into the lifestyle illusion, it's the most pathetic choice I have seen to lie in such a circumstances to your nephew and I fundamentally despise her ever since, but at least get spent 50k for a boat license or whatever, and hide all of your bullshit in mini-dogs and thi neo-liberal post-modern hog shit, of anti-care and masculine hatred, and penis envy, and acting like a helpless yi-chou damsel in distress, as you're the "wife" for a yang-metal day master whicch I am, and I got fooled plenty of times, of her "open-ai" broken xin-metal mao chart, and this IW/IR pattern that I also have which is the luck pattern, that has to be pushed further and strengthened, you have to bite through, which is the wisdom of the Yi-Chou hexagram in a baby/nano nutshell, from the BaZi site I look at, but what I also see is this. I now miss a massive opportunity to become wealthy, due to this sabotage, and they just being pulled and befriending these billionairs for their fake choice of healing or helping them, there is nothing serious about that, anyhow it's part of my own fault that these things happend, but they also limited options massively, I stop here, and think for a while.

I watched the entire thing, what I can say briefly is how this interconnects with the yin-metal snake year the ex-gf was born in as well as the issue of my aunt being yin-metal snake day master and the issue of illusion, as they are the most "paranormal yin-metal", I could name more snake day masters as Leo is a snake day master, and it's been an issue with the illusions these yin-metal snakes spin, and I partially create the hyperreality but pull back vehemently in order to do consciousness work, but this "horse" attitude of many, just production, extraction & production causes a massive backlash, where many choose seduction over any productive logic, that creates abundance or value, I notice how charm/seduction can have value to get into certain fields and to make things not as dry, and to engage emotions, I learned that while presenting a lot of stuff, I am still not the best, and I have a lot of fear, but I just go through it instead of just presenting numbers & facts, and then being next with a few applauses, I did not really enjoy that, I was forutnate I presented my character and story, to actually fit the post-modern paradigm in one company I worked, at as it simply shows they pre-selected for skill, now I can present my character and life and see if I fit long-term, but the profit business of this Taurus Ji-Chou person, and that he grew up dead poor, and now is a millionair caused massive issues to me, as he was walking around with me making use of Geng-Shen business sense it happens all the time, these people just want to do business with me, but they give little time to see the production value of their system, and are hideous about their intentions, which causes not a favourable production logic oriented towards understanding a product, creating value benefits, and being able to sell something or provide value, being spirial dynamic and abraham maslow aware, but the exact production logic they run, causes the extractive capitalism where seduction is used to just push numbers, instead of engaging with what I learned in HCI, an inquiriy into then needs, and offering the serivces or ideas that can solve the underlying need or helps with that. The simulalcrum thing is something I never understood about students in certain classes, they just focused forever on creating an image or person and identity that fits the digital space, even when I studied and worked in it and used it, I never understood why they are so called towards hiding their persona online? I prefer my quietness, sure I am shy at times and I was a shy person, and I enjoy the privacy of not using my name all the time, but it was odd how they viewed the whole crypto-simulacrum thing, while for me the digial asset, is a real as a physical asset, to me there was no difference, ever since I got hurt online once, I can clearly also see, yes it hurts and the physical social domain is real, and we should care about it, the current issue of the left is the massive issue, that they all run to academia, instead of having any grit and sell their souls to academia, I made a deliberate choice after moving to China and living and working there and then working in a science institute, and said yes I am going to study this path I underwent, as I like and enjoy education, but I never liked the profit based thing, and I enjoyed entreprenurial topics when I was 16 or so, which makes it more obvious now with my IW Yang-Wood heaven stem in BaZi (interconnecting here again), what I clearly can see now with this totaliterian dysneyland and many Xin-Metal snakes being this totalitarain disney land, it's mostly just a form of escapism, with the option to enjoy the illusion, enjoying it fully is wise, like it's said in the Yi-Qing I read yesterday "Sich Genügen Lassen" is intelligent for simplicities sake, but the core issue of buying into the illusion and feeding it, is not good, the totalitarain disneyland I presented to the ex, with a lot of sex/cannabis/fun & games while providing entertainment, costed me a lot of time away from my purpose, but something was also amiss, mostly the core point of even having had a loving relationship, and the sex I gave her made her automatically also love her, as I was quite the G during that time, but she kept following the past, what if you would be at 26, and just inserting doubt, like a stupid monkey, instead of actually working on the situation, as this lazy fucking whoreass was not doing anything for her studies, just "pretenious care" for family, this is similar to a simulcrum of disney land, there is a lack of doing anything of value, and the relationship was just focused on impregnating here, as she abused black d.n.a and fundamentally the fecundity I have, she is a dirty fucking cum swallowing whore, and I wish her if she has children that something serious happens, so she actually knows what she is doing. I am looking more forward to the other two videos of the blog, as I enjoy the ironic academic persona he has to pulls you into I felt drawn into when I was younger in academia, also usin Obsidian for notetaking is absolutely insane game-changer for me even just the 25 minutes. Mostly Leo's perception and the psychdelic video I posted is way deeper, but this is good grist for the mill, with what is happening with Twitter, or any recurrent type of application. I hope I can get back on track with psychedelic work, but that will take 2-5 years, and I might quit them all together, the more I realized how powerful my dna is as every chakra point in the crown chakra is defined when I look up esoteric stuff, just food, exercise and meditation helps me tremendously, but it has to be strength training, with endurance, meditation and the old psychedelic effects, still are there and can push me, especially music, and just going hard at home for a bit can push me to very deep states, anyhow. I will do the other videos tomorrow and first write a different post.

Watching this and the anime on the side:

Watching an anime and cooking, I barely have food after this exhereidation from my aunts side, and I invested everything I could into gaining more competence in cs & with women, and building my own life style, and working out, I heavily dislike some things about stuff, but most of my money should go into proper food and nutrition it helps me the most, but I also have to speed-up, I should've not invested into going out, I went to out to often to know it's not good, and meeting a girl online, was fine for what it was, but the secrets such a whore can save is just purely pathetic and it shows me they deserved to be kicked out of their pro leauge and fantasies about life, I can't be an inspiration to a whore that is utterly corrupt, I am very glad Leo is still different, even when I utterly hate parts of him following him now for 10 years, and seeing the issue, of bashing the monkey for ones own benefit, bash the fire monkey, but leave me alone, fuck this fire monkey, consciousness, I saw enough of it in China, idk if it's actually just lucifer, and the water monkey actually is just an incarnation of ahriman, as the water monkey has an issue of dignity interconnecting it with the queen of cups and what these people act like from observation I charted close to 1000 people to understand psychology more, and hidden dynamics of this including relationships, also to have an upperhand in certain things.

It's fantastic that this white african gaslighting exist I now have way more debt, and I could not work myself through, but fuck success, I fucking hate Yi-Chou wife beater guilt tripping

I could study and do more, but this gaslighting Yi-Chou shit about food and just oxes in BaZi are fucking satanic my entire life, I faced this issue and me and my mother faced serious setbacks with this shit degenerate greed, and power over strength mentality, we're more strength oriented while these oxes manipulated more and more, the same with my grandma, to some extend she steadily was unable to be of any guidance, and just pushed her anger onto others, instead of perspective, if she was allowed to explain the perspective, but some are so feed-up I just often think they don't know what they are explaining but seem quiet satanic. It's extremely disgusting, when I went eating with my mother we faced serious issues with all of these people my food stopped tasting and these fuckers sit around for my taste buds to test, but I fucked them up volutairly as they are so fucking greedy about food, they never suffered the issue a Ji-SI faces and imo they are disgusting creatures, that don't realize how fucking psychic eating alone is, fuck them at times, and their pain perception, just fuck ox children in BaZi fucking assholes.

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First session doing a pomodoro with Obsidian, very powerful, but I did only 25 minutes, and I am still learning in the process while doing it, procedual thinking is my strength and putting procedual thinking into memory, I could even now test some knowledge, but I want to see if the Zeigarniceffects kicks-in and I already share so much I should keep some stuff that I do private, as people really craved my knowledge the more serious I got, besides these lucifers whores, and I am done with fake lucifer whores, if you're not asian, I am very biased about this, there is enough energy, and these peoples fires is sick, a true fire monkey on the day and not month, I've had plenty of these acting like they are the true monkey, but they abuse your face and tear you down for their nefarious purposes, it's a shame I ever interacted with such a person, because I valued beauty etc. but this person just hijacked my nervous system, with this bullshit overdemoniring looser energy, that has nothing to do with equanimity and balance, and these whores love to disturb that, I frankly despise white fire monkey women in the month as of now, or other patterns I see, your fire is sick, you only go for glory and might, and this has nothing to do with GOD, and your the most egotistical, envious monkey even by element, and you claim your spirit, but your not AKASH?!

This is interesting I watched half of it, I have a different opinion as quantum science is not quite touching the depths of A.I, yet but in 1-2 years it will most likely even great a deeper depth of technology present, I presume this will go very fast but 2028 will be the starting point most likely

I started to get into the Quaran with an audiobook, and see some soul interconnections, with Moses etc. and my name and just some aspects how people see me, and it's historically interesting, after raging against it and being pulled in partially public terrors out of resentment and hate, and some weird interactions after meditating etc. I like the knowledge of history, but the Quaran till now has not served me on the spiritual path, as it sort of involved a delusional love to me chatting also with Muslim girls etc. and it quickly become offensive instead of critical and objective or just even neutrally critical, and a some art I found is against Jesus, and I feel a stronger connection archetypally to Jesus & partially now Moses, after understanding the audiobook more, but somehow this was connected to earth quakes? I don't know as Jesus is typed INFJ and I am an INFJ, moving to orange/green or green/orange mbti, I found some truth but mostly from Sufis like Rumi etc. I don't really enjoy interacting with people from the Quaran, it's often more business than actually having any insight in the Truth that points to God in religion, I also bought a 50h audiobook version that I plan to meditate to in the future, a bit to get a grasp of the pointers in the language even if I don't speak it, but there are a lot of holy people in the Quaran, just looking it up and using the audiobook and Wiki helped me more then to entrench myself in the culture, as I find the culture to be mostly backwards, also technologically, but these are the issues of our times, and there are more radical influences of the islam I've meet then peaceful ones, and I harbour some bias after negative interactions with the religion itself, and the issue of culture, I wonder if it can be pointers for retreats, during retreats I could listend to some genuient practiconars, that use meditative mindfulness practices and eventually some Quaran pointers to gain state-access, to me I am mostly interested in the spiritual knowledge and history, not the dress-up culture and food culture etc. imo this causes a lot of war already, I don't like to go about religious survival, I see it's purpose, but I prefer christianity, and I also just started to get into that with audiobooks mostly, as I focus more on an agnostic point of realizing development, or even atheistic, I did not believe in God really, before I had a direct state experience, now I am very open, but I notice how the survival sneaks in, if I consume the audiobooks, anyhow my 2 cents.

Just found this

This album is just killer to convert myself from attending this piss NGO, and the issue of modern women, generally this guys music is just fascinating. I understand way more about my life, and we share the issue of Ji-Si, I am not perfect and I find it weird, as I enjoy a lot of hentai/anime stuff in the past, this music is the anti-thesis as what I watched as a teen, the guy is 10 years older than me, and also born on the 3rd, but of August, so I wonder how that alone affected him, especially as he is from the region I am living now in, I see the stark difference in corruption, here is a lot more hideous and hidden wealth, I wonder how much is connected to America, and it's development, but now we have a lot of chinese people in companies pushing and advancing science, they work way way way more 2-3 days on end, from what I experienced, but some geniouses go way further here, idk what to say currently. Just going more into Thot tarot, I would be seen as Horus child, and this person is technically the person who watches me from the new/same generation depending how far you spend the cohort, also seeing the Friend archetype from BaZi in action is very different then what humans come to, as I am 7k warrior profile this music is perfect for me to contemplate the pain I recently faced in the last 10-20 years, and it's also quiet complex and mysterious, also the realness is beyond. Anyhow,

Cleaning up the visionboard having done deepaks work, printing it out, it's not perfect, I have to use what I learned and what worked for me, and what also created capital Good, as I sort of fuse it, you can't take spirituality outside of survival, if you're not doing a retreat and even there it's infused in my experience, the look box tip is fantastic, and I really would like to make better use of my business sense, as many enjoy it besides this water snake thing? Idk if I am correct, the core issue with the last boss was simply, he was overworked and had better health, and got fired by Rolce Roys, this went so deep as it went to the indian president having connections to the company, and I figured out he has karmic payment to me, and is a Yi-Mao so he also has to learn maturity according to BaZi and these Xin Ken lectures, and what I see with the Yang wood spectrum is they don't build enough structure but are blamed for every type of wealth creation, it will be interesting, I am still dealing with the issues of certain things, and I fucked up vehemently financially after yearning to teach the ex-gf how to be responsible, but she was an irresponsible fire-monkey whore, who just games, does nothing creative and just acts dominante and with control, similar to my old psychologist and they both were 3w2m, I know I manifested her, but it was not enough for what I was going for, and she was simply the worst supporter ever, this type of women only deserves to be fucked, I hate it when they steal etc. it's the lowest form of consciousness ever, they justify everything and have some issues with children I don't get it's like this pedophile debate with Marcus Aubery, where integral analyzed the points. Anyhow I will get to working with the integral stuff soon, it will take a while till I get my stuff back, I had massive issues with my body I somehow fixed with just pushing the coffee envelope and even eating coffee beans to counter-act some of the cancerous effect of smoking, as my gut has strong Yang-Earth energy, generally my strongest energy are fire, water & earth in BaZi, and I am not done generating insights via this or knowledge to work on health, but mostly what I notice is taking care of health with earth perspective is still not as easy, and I am just running on coffee and water, due to the issues of gaslighting about food in the family from this guilty conscious Yi-Chou paradigm, I see it in Leo, I see it in my aunt, they have a serious issue facing black people, and they themselves do to little to justify what they post, while me and my mother do the little things that give a little back, but I could not implement that with this ibliss fire ape, I had enough of these in my friend group, none of them generated core value, and it's pure hell for them to not be innovative as Yang-Fire is creative, and spiritual, but they are not connected and they turn ill as soon as they are on a path towards transcendece this becomes a hell hole quickly with just emotions and wu, and not any structure for emotions and wu. Ironically I have a Xu-Wei partially combination to Sun & Moon integration I have to ask what type of energy it generates as it gives IIRC even Leo and Sadghuru TaiJi, but it has been an issue, since they subtely econimically attacked me yes even you stinky Sadghuru I can't know your wife died or was born on the same day as me, it's the same birthday IIRC, yes same birthday, and that we felt so connected, I swear if you delete me because I cried via video, I will poke your but with astick, you're angry at the man who did this anyway to you , anyhow worst case just delete me I've seen and peaked enough, I am pretty much done with reality last year I would've killed myself on my birthday if I had a gun, because this whore was so fucking abusive, I hope she gets raped, killed and feed to pedophilic satanists, because she is the women version, I am very happy someone cut open your vagina, you're a fucked beign and betraying whore.