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Using more tarot etc. This law is fked, and the core issue is the heart, the more I channel from my heart, the satanic beings family core values are and the core issue of the nuclear family is threatned, their entire survival response is threatned, by my open-mindedness, and I even require more open-mindedness, which is an amazing paradox.... The tarot type of stuff can also be healing, but the issue is these people yearn for my time, suck my time away, and don't create any depth, my values still constantly progress, and become enriched and enhanced, but the core issue is this region is full of spiritual frauds who abuse spirituality for power, not omnipotence, but only power for materalistic gain, which is even fine! Amazing... I had to cut off my door bell, as children kept ringing for my energy, fking idotic! I am just doing choiceless types of meditation, due to my own yin-water quality nature, and the issue is that water is partially so dark, they are creating yami issues, I don't even know that deeply about, and the Wu-Xing allows me to use all elements practically, just mitigating with the purity of earth as a tiaou hu, (in case I wrote that correctly), they also have an issue with my trained computer scientist autism, and the issue of media, providing ever more knowledge and infotainment for masses, the digital crunch and egoic-underbelly is real! I hope, this post does your well, I don't like it my birth number partially has The Star or "Hope" as there is more meaning implied as one core essence of this "Science" - . -

Awesome facing lying russians, bolshevistic trash and accusations from the police, as well as my own inner rage, it's amazing how corrupt reality is, sorry for typing this, but this german consciousness with the level of diversity, being sold as "variety" is hostile, my own hostility, I am required to use as a defense, it's amazing, I wish finally someone would stop these radicals, and these blue eyes from their dark magic, I have never faced such a fked region, sorry! I watched this, this russian guy keeps recording everything and abuses time-lords, this guy is the pure evil out of satanic reasons, ACAB is also true here, I have never seen such a fake twisted type of love, especially when it's about purity of karma, spiritual process, and the enrichment of their shadow by sucking spiritual power, while I am able to use more "auto-heal" but the core issue is, this soul is absolutely corrupt, this guy keeps screaming, negativ satanic gods quietly into my window, when I run riot a bit, and be a little extra crazy to deal with the energy, with a scar that I have since birth, and this satanic soul abuses it for healing, every type of pain, and demands it like a little boy, as I meditate outside, I have never seen such an f*ed envious creature, I wonder as to why this guy is so hungry about my money, simply because I am required to constantly speak about these value exchanges at work, but the core issue is this guy is absolutely stuck in moral relativity, and abuses it for consciousness hacks, mechanics etc. This region is spiritually fked-up and this city, I wish it it's downfall that it deserves imo! They almost smacked open my door, without any warrant etc. it's amazing how corrupt this is, because I went wild due to the pain I had in my scar, lovely court, lovely humans, lovely grey-zone lying about EVERYTHING, Management is SATANIC!

Immer dieser Leo muss mit allem recht haben ey, manchmal bin ich sauer! I am glad I apologized, but holy cow, survival mixed with spirituality is powerful, I still wonder, how far this will go, especially as I do access, cosmic knowledge erbärmliche Polzei lying lying for power

Did 1h, meditation, we are self-biased re-watchting this: Russian guy stealing half-half consciousness, the level of spiritual immaturity is unmatched in this region, fake hostile fame driven whores, I wonder if cursing still heals.

Watah Watah where is Watah, this audiobook from the water türklu, just killed me, these fuckers just want weather from the sneaky how greedy can humanity be?

Interesting thoughts! Contemplating as to why, certain values still are not changing, saw a lot in the city, mostly and fundamentally people yearn for peace, but the core essence of satisfaction and the striving of the unsatisfied, who don't have the D.N.A to be automatically focused upon peace, will just wreck constant havoc, I am not convinced, that peace will last, especially due to my spiritual abilities, what I notice is how corrupt the Arabic world is in terms of spiritual power, and today through observation, that the so called Makhubt, or the so called kitab is constantly abusing spirituality for materialistic gain, in order to satisfy the freedom cravings, a lot of these so called "Muslims" yearn to create, but the vanity just kills the connection towards GOD, I wonder if they KNOW GOD, if they are ATTACKING GOD, out of unjust reasons, maybe Osama was fully enlightened, after I charted him in BaZi, as well as Hitler, I notice the more I focus on Love, Leo women seem to extract money out of my pocket, instead of giving it back to humanity, like Aquarius would, the core issue I notice and see, is that they all crave god, from Catholics, but they are evangelic in nature. The level of envy of blue eyes, the level of envy of Russians generally speaking yearning for diamonds, and money, the whole Bolshevik stories, as well as the constant yearning for will MONEY EVER BE CONSCIOUS, if it's not infinite HOW? The level of wisdom in this region, is beyond disgusting, and a disgrace to spirituality itself, I don't know anymore, my entire applications were shot to pieces, by hackers, vanity driven, materialistic money hungry loosers, the core trauma of inheritance and the Bolshevik story of humanity, as well as freedom is very interesting to contemplate, I notice how hard humans suck on my energy, but I decided I rather delete them then to focus on the core essence of greed, and the core essence of purity, the level of purity yearned for will never ever be achieved, they don't comprehend it's impossible not to die, and this entire region and religion is over-focused on SOUL, yearning to "heal" but destroying more with gaia-centrism, then allowed. I wonder, if Trump is right because he is the disrupt-er humans yearned for in the collective sheepish, apeing of spirituality that post-modernism is, it's not possible for them to create peace, as they yearn for satisfaction, distortion, dispersion of Truth, and the issue that science is GOD, as well as they believe meditation is spiritual abuse, but what happens now?

30 min med: Tired used new techniques, tired of islamic allevatic whores and pigs, I hope she finally gets hanged for the corrupt whore that she is Worthless trash no wonder arabic world is fked if such a whore is let run loose

Posting this in advance quiet interessting

Gotta love racist kosovo piss rats, never experpienced racism, from learned behaviour while studying, but the elemental abuse of white people and power is real, and she abused the living hell out of that, I wish you death out of consciouness, sorry for writting this, but I have no hope in your behaviour, this was the worst experience ever, borrowing money, crashing cars, hasty hasty fking rat But at least you study for n-word dick and power, what a whore the best part she is manipulated by the whites anyway Gotta love auditing, and more racist commercials, the marketer is the devil! https://www.hko.gov.hk/en/education/astronomy-and-time/time-service/00506-what-year-is-it-today.html?utm_source=chatgpt.com Terms, I am using to expand my worldview, as I made some mistakes with BaZi, the sun and heliocentrism is to myopic, after I started reading spirit,ecology etc. It's insane how far intuition goes! Chronocentric cosmology — time is the primary organising principle. Cosmocentric worldview — the whole cosmos, rather than Earth or the Sun, is the reference frame. Deep cosmology — includes primordial time, matter, fields, galaxies and planetary development. Spacetime cosmology — treats spacetime as more fundamental than individual celestial bodies. Dark-sector cosmology — emphasizes dark matter and dark energy as major cosmic components. Emergent cosmology — stars, planets and life arise from deeper cosmic processes. Trans-solar cosmology — explicitly moves beyond solar-centred interpretation. Primordial-field cosmology — cosmic fields and early-universe conditions precede stars. Temporal-field cosmology — combines time with the fields and forces structuring matter. Evolutionary cosmic cosmology — follows the development of structures across cosmic time. The strongest compact term for your idea is: Chronocentric, trans-solar cosmology Or, as a single worldview: Cosmocentrism

Again racist russian neighbour

Could've projected a better picture of Mitra, as 63.1 Composure for my Crown Chakra definition, idk how to play out the 1, I have visions that go beyond trillions, next upload I will create a better snippet, but right now I prefer this one. Paradoxes allowed!

Just woke up, I meditated to various stuff, the level of greed, and mania is untouchable with the polarity of the near east, and their schizo consciouness, it's very bad, to wish for so much merging imo, and some individuals are fucked creatures. I had to laugh so hard taking a picture of femboy 3000, in order to defend myself from piss russian racism. This is not bias! This is ethnocentric hatred!

Glocking away the purpose as I feel it's like enjoying life more as poet, where I notice happiness flows automatically inside of me, especially just auto-move and learning to auto-move mindfully with speed, depth and eventually the pain I produce and being content and peaceful with that. I did a couple of meditation sessions, but the enviorment here is under the illusion of the german zeitgeist, aura, and illusion that working will make them happy, while they are pumping endorphines like a slave, that many humans are addicted to work etc. I use addiction and fight fire with fire to get rid of addiction, I can stop in multiple days with addictive behaviour, but some of it is already medicine just demonized by the public, like devils lettuce, including the subtle racism, I digest in order to have a less ethnocentric reality, as it's impossible including spiral dynamics that a level of offensiveness, and rudeness might be neccessary, but technically that bad dog/boy or what I chart via BaZi as development is a public projection of hatred for men and male leadership, the hatred from post-modern women is endless after gaining insight into the intuition of our current zeigeist, mathematics, philosohphy and physics, I was always convinced that happiness is free, internal and based on actual consciouness, not "whore-like consciouness and status-signaling" and not the commercial platitudes and common platitudes of most "normies" that did not explore psychdelics, and are demonizing it like hell as if it was not medicine, I am also convinced when I meditate outside and I let the pain and projection of my scar go, that a lot of new children are quiet evil and satanic. I did a lot of self-healing work to tell where my issues, are and that "karma" is playing itself out, but technically is still an illusion overall I notice how co-opting my vision with time, power and work is one of the most corrupting forces that already destroys conditional happiness, as they are acting out a colonial-schism, that I am working myself through with knowledge and kicking out that pain-body moving freely, but many act as if that is the devil, while it's healing to me, order and chaos are still confusing to me in terms of consciouness. I 100% require retreats, but the racist health care and employers here are stuck in their green & teal shadows, steadily being addicted to networking, fooding and eating, I can't even work partially as a software engineer as the society advances so fast, I have to constantly change everything, and I barely get the 9-11h of sleep my body requires usually for my german D.N.A and the issue of my father he is most likely overworked and that pain-body makes every arab, women muslim a racist birth by what I consumed recently and by far one of the most hateful and racist, as well as ethnocentrically laden people, in contrast to "true" black people I have witnessed. I hope I can write this..., I don't think the fake intention of "Arbeit macht frei" is true, as they fundamentally require consciouness, that does not include consciouess work, and consciously working which is a process I am steadily refining. I am happy Leo is right after what I went through, I am scared shitless of these criminal fake university corrupt students, the ex is a whore who deserves the gallows tree for lying and doing science, like a whore without god, abusing god as a psychdelic, being stupid, while I fix with creativity and can digest the pain with meditation, but her energy also requires it partially, considering BaZi changed my life completely as a human, only my mother has a consciouness so high, it creates global tai-ji, I am very convinced my mother in that regard is a hierourgy, I am pretty sure in the boolket I read hierochy, in the german variant, generally speaking, ever since they stopped letting me do science and work, the world will go down as I respect my limits, and these humans never did, and practically should be killed and hanged for their pedophilic secrets, it's so obvious that "victims" require healing and they don't have any forsight. See Integrals take on Aubery Marcus! Post-modernism is an illness that requires consciousness and the projection of humans as me as post-modernist is only a tip, nothing more a relative tip, many of these humans have surreal standards what spirituality is, and I move through the stage also. Getting rid of the exellence drive and creating enlightenment from that area, as in terms of happiness, love, rest and peace is one of the most wonderful things, but the addictive qualities of humans will be interesting, many enlightend humans did normal drugs, like cigarettes, yet in the end. It's odd and paradocially, through mindfulness training everyday is salvation, but the lies of 3w2's are killing us, if they stop educating that is my opinion and if they don't leave me alone for long enough, let alone the repugnant and conservative stances of sex, also knowing some quantum principles from deida makes it tricky for women, imo to justify their level of consciouness generally speaking, as the standards for men alone are ridiculous, and many are materalistic, whores, sluts and there is nothing more said to that, they hate men so much for freedom and ownership, I would not let them vote, if their biology would not give them an advantage in the collective, but it's just yin-cats at this moment hitting RW, I don't see the gratitude, I did already subtle training in advance let's see... me Dimitri continuing being a devil apparently and getting rid of the tricksters that behovest me, already seemed like a fake a.i, which might include me idk, I love A.I! Watching this to understanding the unification of god including astrology/astronomy, especially egypt, and the point of oneness and hexagram 11 which is geng-chen metal drake, as this was the month also of the soto zen teacher he showed me god, in a glimpse after this, but I wonder how far knowledge itself goes and the differntiations from Vishnu, Brahman and Shiva, with the 61.6 god-consciouness and destiny consciouness I have, for the crown chakra, to see all unifcation points! I stop here and go out to enjoy life, I will most likely donate blood, and drive black because of the story of the ex, and her horrendous corruption in science, as an ox, especially as a thief! That type of karma is incredible to workout through my body, I really hope they take the degree away by what type of "human" that in reality is, I can't call a thing like this conscious.

Found some good german astrological source continuing studying astrology/astronomy for now, as well as love and the cosmos itself. https://www.astro.com/swisseph/swisseph.htm?utm_source=chatgpt.com Earth-centered layer This is the conventional natal field: Ascendant, Midheaven and houses Sidereal signs Nakṣatras and padas Ecliptic longitude and latitude Declination Planetary speed and retrogradation Horizon altitude and azimuth Solar-system layer Add a heliocentric or barycentric chart beside the geocentric chart. The geocentric chart describes the sky from embodied Earth-based experience. The heliocentric chart describes the planetary arrangement around the Sun. Neither replaces the other. Stellar layer Include major fixed stars using modern positions and proper motion: Regulus Spica Aldebaran Antares Sirius Vega Fomalhaut Galactic Center region Other stars within a narrowly defined conjunction orb Gaia DR3 provides positions and proper motions in the ICRS reference frame, making it possible to calculate stars for the actual epoch rather than treating them as permanently fixed. Galactic layer Calculate each planet’s: Galactic longitude lll Galactic latitude bbb Angular relationship to the Galactic Center Relationship to the galactic plane and poles This prevents the system from reducing the cosmos entirely to the Earth–Sun ecliptic.

Going to game for a while, then wrestling with water monkeys and dragons, idk bazi is very funny

Just contemplated a few things, especially the corruption of my aunt and her attitude towarsd the world, opel changing owners, the humans who by cars seem like scum to me, after my ethical training, and I am convinced some of this greed, especially the a.i greed from ellen killed iran, this type of 6 7 quick win consciouness and not building networks, while maintaining extremely large shadows is horrendous, the core essence of such humans is gluttony is despised in my region, and the greed that exist here, I mean what I wrote! This person is evilish interested in their selfish preponderance of multiplicating the numbers of their own children and family, and hence kill 6w5 german consciouness as 5 knows their greed, like yin metal snake, like a yin earth snake knows it's gluttony better than envious fenrir bitches The point is, this is not really good, and the core issue is the shadow of their networks, that fundamentally killed iran, and energy, as they keep creating mayanic psycho-schizo types of solution oriented searching, instead of actually exploring depth and connection humans. The whole issue of DO/7k and the issue of Crowley is present within many companies that are 10k+ ppl, it's a mess! Leadership and their abillity to be mindful, as well as actually working on their shadow issues, and knowing development is the core racist point of many companies, it will be interesting, if green is conscious for yellow and turqouise, they are capeable to be tolerant and acceptant, as their shadow development can peak higher, hence the inisght and cognition is higher, generally cognition.... already is at turqouise that is the shame!

This shocked the living hell out of me, but I am still convinced Trump is innocent, idk wtf is america, I am convinced he is tortured simply by the interest of humans, due to the inabillity to have enough time to practice spirituality, but his bazi chart seems spiritually very strong, so idk how I should feel about all of this crazyness, especially also the crazyness of the democrats, I just learned recently with laws and elon, it's as if the right laws that should protect people are not evoked, and I am pretty sure a lot of republicans are still very violent, corrupt and cult esque, idk what is happening here also, but the video shocked me. Also these people don't leave me alone with time, germany is fking hell of a country

Kind of tripping on the story of the artist Asche, due to the complexity of the city I am living in, I also am convinced the core idea, of buying the clips for a retreat for 117 dollar from leo is very good. Kind of healing with this type of music it's odd. I sometimes wonder if it's good listening to much will certainly cause some type of beef, but I enjoy it so much it's simply healing and I turn it off, when it's to much, also taking a break, resting and contemplating the depth of the story is just awesome!

Still considering if the russian neighbour is possible able to see myself and others as a human, I don't quiet know why there is the issue of altercation to beginn with, while there seems to be an abusive energy, from humans who believe they are inherently good, I wonder if their actions have the right intent, as they only cling to the greed of this country and money. A positive aspect though is that I see Yin Metal Snakes, and healthy snakes generally able, I am using multiple tarot cards and decks and I am finding a lot a lot of patterns, what annoys me is that my na-yin or tone body, or subtle energy, is emitting certain energies that creates the greed in humans, while I am contemplating the yearning towards GOD, as well as why omniscienes, knowledge, power, hatred and the inabillity to create abundance with positive emotions is hindering. While I sense an addiction of yin fire goat people towards the hardcore avarice nature of reality, the real reason I see these people as low creatures and the issue of spiral dynamics and others, is they are drug lord addicted students, and sell their soul to money, I sold my soul to money to the extend I could see GOD, and I knew it was my vision, as I created a life purpose, but as soon as my friends sent me hate, did not go into the direction of sharing the gen key drives, hence na-yin body release, I sensed they are partially cursed creatures, even when I love them deeply, I notice they are inherently addicted to the core yearning of desire, not yearning, christ, god, christ principle itself. I faced multiple alligations ,litigations from trash humans, that are constantly attacking for money, more power, see black people as more inherently, powerful, mighty, abundant and use the nefarious, tactics, of lies, manipulation and euphemism for the apparent good while lacking true goodness, their ego is tainted by ego, they don't experience soul, christ principle, god, nature or anything close enough and I partially lashed out, due to the issue I have with the scar GOD has since birth, since GOD has this since birth, and my birth came from GOD. I see them as cursed creatures, as they abuse weakness for power, instead of empowering the weaker human beings, or finding any love, service etc. The more I channel love, the more I realize how corrupt they are, the energy in this field is good for realizing, the annihlation of the ego itself towards stream entry, but fundamentally they yearn for healing constantly, and that is not good, even when I heal with the techniques I learned from Shinzen and I advanced them and did some stuff, the core baseline ahrimanic racism etc. is still very intact in polish, russian and a large majority of germans, most are good humans, I don't count the east, they have similar problems, and there is a lack of leadership regarding this, most positive movement I see is the Lü-Si type of integration into the soul of humanity, yearning to be good taking part in good. As it's my jupiter, and part of my chart, well stop here, the blond neighbour girl seems to be a nefarious tick for the shareholder market, as she would not invest like GOD, she misses GOD, as GOD misses her in bed, like her boyfriend. From GOD as GOD The core issue I see is, the cultish family life, and the pain body of this, especially in younger students, who yearn to get kids, competition and use of envy, to gain advantages, as well as a lack of truth and abuse of consciouness. I figured out through my astrology research, that people yearn to use mercury or the cerebellum and other stuff, but fundamentally, I notice how they just gun for american money, discriminate american identity, and I flipped while training and cursed at them so, now I have some more trouble, and the issue of this excessively greedy, and psychopathic region, the more I connect to the world, I feel safer, but only by facing death more and anihilation, but I notice people seem to hate americans and myself, and my work at times so much, I did not even begin, I don't know if their intuition is right, but fundamentally, it's the exact abuse of consciouness and the inspiration and manipulation of the corruption, that creates "EVIL", but I also let "EVIL" Live, hence I noticed the more authentic I am and embracing the healthy devil or as Keith Witt would call it healthy crazy, I notice how death is imaginery, and I am moving more in it, but the core energy my 7k chart creates with sha qi, and the new adjustment, where I am looking for the prediction of this, I used a bit of feng-shui and I feel better etc. but I notice that some people have a lot agains the core structure of 7k sha qi, and other patterns I notice takes time to write, everything is already intuitively in God.

Contemplating the human trash that my neighbour is fundamentally it's a russian whore looking for money exist to america, lingering, and manipulating, It's amazing what a trash life can be like!

I had a couple of thoughts, regarding A.I and Vision, I am pretty convinced I found multiple patterns for dream wives, and archytapl steps, I charted a lot of scientist, and asked myself about god, Schoppenhauer is amazing.

I sort of created my own framework of astrology to grow, some stuff is still hidden, and most of the new things focus highly on consciouness & god, especially spiritual intelligence of god, as a referenece, the glimpses are very good and weekly I get new states of good, by having faith finally in something and having more archetypes to work with during meditation, the content here also has a very low pain-body and is not convoluted with the issue of the war of science, and corruption and greed that is apparent there, and I pulled my energy into there, realizing it was foolish and a folly. I can see beauty more in a transient way currently, and not in an edgy, fascinating, disatisfactory way, the more I charted human design charts and realized the core issue I faced in consciouness was dissatisfaction still, and seems to be. For me my no-self theme is anger and self-theme is peace, hence satisfaction makes little things, as peace goes beyond and often is also close at home to god, I am glad also that Leo stayed so patient, and I learned more about my 5 channel in human design about patience and timelesness in the recent years, as a lot of political shifts happen, and I see some moves from Trump as quiet conscious, or the global politics, even though the biggest collective issue is panic without any source for peace. I'd like to say more, but as or right now I have plenty of synchronicities to see what might unfold, the core is to stay within reason, I am also listening in bed to some audibooks and meditate while drinking water in times this choiceless awareness technique almost killed or kills me recently at times without good ressources. I finally had two "ounces" of fruit or my ounces I hope I can rest and meditate with their DNA and learn...

What I do not understand how the 55 creates freedom through the yin&yang balance of fire & water as a lot of destruction is created, hence a lot of non-dual flow, I test some numbers and body points through meditation: 55 Solar Plexus Fire 7k, DO, Mu/Gou -> creates a lot of white light flow also to attenuate 11th, idealism, core issue is still 1h, 1h meditation and workout and very good quality of food to maintain sambogahakaya wei-qi with fire combination in current chart. The small metal trine in my bazi chart -> food and initially eating food, feels very good, core issue is envy of others, what I notice 43-23 or 24? The channel of structuring becomes active, the issue of consciouness increase and obstructions of others, I am getting better at avoidance, but it costs my entire life and time, the avoidance imo is still worth it, as the others are in a dependening and sabotaging state. A lot of gratitude for music, life, technology otherwise, a lot of release from the negative events of the past, sexually also, having this the first time is very good a lot of karmic areas go, but that also pushes the yin-yang / fui-kong/gong type of energy from my ancestors I charted, with the issue of the strong cravings and passing over the 55 energy of freedom that is highly interesting, it's apparently the incarnation of the next race of humans according to theory, 3 people including me have this, I looked up I charted close 12-15 people from the 800-900 in BaZi, where I learn a lot through observation, and the core issue and what I am doing with masturbation, mindfulness brain training and prevention, especially after the sexual kriyas and training coinicidences, taking the business of astrology, astronomy, a.i and technology more seriously, yet still pushing away most materalist and scientists, engaging more into the enjoyment or anandhic enjoyment of the material training that to the utmost limit, is one thing someone should do every lifetime to take that with one into the next one. The 28 hexagram of the game player or part of my 3'rd house scorpio, chart technically is the annihilation or non-dual point where I have a large scar since birth, I felt a lot of kriyic releases here after a relationship and I am still letting parts out of the lower 3 chakras, my breathing technique is getting better, but society changes so fast, there is a karmic layer with the 55 & 28 hexagrams, as I can engage more in a samsaric layer in this, and it changes the collective and the enviroment, but the last few years was a lot of ups and downs regarding this I see the positive arc, but some people will just abuse enthusiasm, and consciouness or the spirit world and the sun for their own personal gain. At times I feel when I entered the world of computer science, software etc. and a.i that I am joining the world of abundance, truth and love, but what I find deep down mostly is a place for rejuvination, abundance, joy and truth, especially when it's less filled with the greed of having to participate and things I was protected from through having 9w1 influenced upbringing, my mother prevented having to deal with greed and I naturally share a lot, so people are hesitatant to take anything, recently I noticed this sharpened my awareness of expansion & contraction flow of these strong two energies, where better tools and musing will be able to increase the depth of it, so far my main success is I became more sensetive to meditation and the world, yet there is still a bodily disconnect due to the overjealous issue, and I noticed I might require a stronger bodied partner, or a fui-kong pillar or a very spiritual pillar, as I had some insights and breakthroughs watching leos things, about my own self-delusive, arrogant and vain character that comes online the more I mix passion/love and consciouness without finding the rejuvinating peace of this yin-yang fire & water fui-kong balance as my great grandpa had this as yang water dog, and yang water dog is technically.. the 7th house positive appointed saturn from my whole house sign house in astrology, a lot of my relationships are karmic, and I can see more of the Truth of the world we are currently in, and that gives me breakthroughs for social skills, human design etc. and connections, simply understanding. I have an odd positive feeling about the state becoming more centric, I am a bit worried about the true issues of gluttony, my meditations also showed and thought me healing is fine, be more whole, heal forgive your past relationships, move to a state of samboghakaya saintliness and love the forever bearing ongoing purgetory or hell like, rumi noticing a hate-love relationship so clearly and transiently, the hate only turns into sambogahkahya love or a blessing of the pope, suddenly you realize, all that love was underneath, yet we simply can't merge as the person was unable to love the totallity of myself deeply enough, and that is attenuated and pushes me into states very deep close to casual/non-dual where recently, Jesus, Sadghuru, Rumi & other more enlightend humans appeared in partial visions to me as god, my music or muses become more god-like and I keep my sanity, learn more about sanity, and the threats of god out of control which is also a loving lessons, I changed a lot recently. The core issue I have is the money karma, and the issue of the 55 hexagram and other aspects, of this a lot of people abused my mother, and my great grandmother they both have 55 energy, as important day pillars for extrem changes of consciouness technically they are part of the new race, after some more paul check and guests watching and psychdelically aided kriyas and meditations, mostly weed I can see the truth more about subtle energy, and the "ironic" components as some are already carnated by arc-angels hence, I noticed some things, especially about leo that are more advanced, the more I attenuate the lower chakras, and found more whole, healing, humour, self-irony and simply had states and insights how the person wanted to be treated, even these tiny insights changed my consciouness massively, to see I can trust my perception more to interconnect so deeply, as the few very deep moments are selected, also having had insights into darwinian evoultion, in terms of selection pressure, the world, and current world events. imo through the core idea of 55 and having enjoy the idea of wu-wei having a partial trine of this in my bazi chart with wu-xu or gou, I notice some siddhis active and the fine-line of consciouness that sees through the veil and gets through the right type of information, so I don't require to create sandcastles and fall into stage yellow trap, or the stage yellow trap I feel the deepest in, I am learning a new way of compassion, by being also more rejective, instead of falling prey to co-depenedent victim dynamics that yearn to drag guilt into a relationship, and lacks the maturity I had in mine, even the last one was relatively mature, just also very wild, and that wildness factor is still a point with consciouness and my journey.

Posting this here again, after what has happend did some meditations continuing with meditations, my core improvements: - Strength in merging of concentration of contractions - Ever more pain attenuation, mental stability, and abillity to fine-tune hypersensebillity - Ever more increasing awareness of consciouness and meditation through cannabis Understanding my I-Ching, Human Design & Astrology, and character etc. better, especially changing behaviour of some issues I noticed when it comes towards being more dominant and in power, the issue of peace, consciouness, bodily strength, sex, masturbation & god, or masturbation & god consciouness, my own issues of ressources and what creates a state of god consciouness, how masturbation & meditation has acted like a buffer, especially letting go. How far my own consciouness expands into the "unconscious aspects" of reality and cleans up horizontally my own character and clarity and reaches small new peaks of insights, the issue of human design, money and connections as well as networking. Travelling, beauty and open-eyed meditation as a space to experience more vishnu & brhamic type of experiences, the core issue of sometimes spacing out in consciouness only to realize nobody is as conscious as me, and pushing myself out of a kriya or into a kriya and samsaric state, as I don't enjoy the friction, I was right about stuff, and could not do things, hence getting rid of coagulated shame, betrayls and melancholy, realizing what is behind it, storing that deeply into my heart and continuing onwards with deep love! The depth of love, is something I yearn to expand, attenuate and spread thinly among few people who're worthy, there is a steady issue with some who abuse empaths, as empaths, sociopaths etc. and these games are not good, so I decide to create more choicelessly aware visualizations, and just continue to update and sort of do an unsupervised visualization, or staring into the sky in order to envision or see beyond the horizion to get deeper insights into life, simply an open-awareness based meditation with open-awareness visualization, letting go of the vanity and coagulation of vanity, greed and capricousness, these things annoyed me a lot, and caused a lot of stress. I don't quiet know what to meditate to, and what to create in my free time most stuff is here, and most things have to do with my health, hence I am thinking about small ways to have bursts in meditation, as otherwise what does and did me well in the past is a level of consumption that pushes my health, that is simply abnormal to pay for, and what I notice there is an upside towards exercising, meditation, cannabis and ambient music, using my brain and reading, or simply taking a break and doing an open-eye & awarness meditation with a stream. ----- There are some concerning news stories, most stuff is transcended through mystecism, and learning more about the 55 archetype during the soccer tournement was interesting, as we have a couple, but I notice there is an upside of letting all go, and enjoying the totality and freedom energy, hence my entire energy body feels like a dark & gold vortex or pull, I used to be able to maintain this longer, and enter a samboghakaya or absorption state, of white light type channeled wei-qi around me, BaZi is also helping me tremendously to make decisions, more and more things out of the core of my intuition are becoming true, hence I really like to hack the back of my brain and get out all of the karmic/calculatory, and exitatory juice, and make that more conscious, occipital lobes etc. The core issue is the PNS, I have and the issue of the collective panic of humans, and consumption, most people are still to unconscious for true Conscious success, that I worked for and the process, let's hope this will go well.