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Just while gaming, I had some core insights, how much I pushed survival into consciosuness and god, and whack most of the silly manipulative tendencies other humans have and how well my success for others felt, as well as my authenticity, but I have to rely on healthy stage red being pushed into TIER II, I was close to reaching TIER III, but a lot of social conditioning went into stage red, and even during these times there have been plenty of enlightend people, it also makes more sense to me, as my name is dedicated to a war saint, or via a greek perspective to agriculture and demeter, often times others abuse the core idea of benevolence to push down my success, while others take joy and humour in my character and personality, which is mercy. That is a nice insight from Deepak Chopra. My core issue was here, these kids around here steadily approached me after my meditation practice and acted like pestering overcurious cats, as they sense the true spiritual gift I am at, but I still have kriyas and samskaras, which is natural. Somehow this mixture does it for me, idk this guys music just punches the corruption out of me with lines of Truth, especially in survival, also my bias recently with Islam, I would require someone to translate the new audiobook it's 50h on islam. I might meditate again, but tbh I confused my survival with spirituality, as the karmic world, just constantly acted out it's samsara, and I still have to find ways to work around it facing it directly, just showed me a slave mentality that is not good to build natural healthy dominance and the fire energy or agni, I also confused that avalon is a celtic legend, I somehow connected it to Iran, anyhow I stop here. This song still shocks me, as I attended an NGO and I thought at one point this could just happen how corrupt and open people can be, it was odd.

I get so many good inquiries with GPT, for things that are non-obvious via GPT, also vaping helps me currently to keep away the alcohol, as it favours alcoholism, and alcoholic parents in my chart, via BaZi which was and is very true, and I dealt with this during my masters studies idk, why this came-up, but limiting alcohol to mostly beer, if at all was also a good tip, I enjoy it at times to much, and I am very athletic, but my body just requires a lot of healthy ressources then. I can't test all of this, but a lot of tech still misses, a lot of good technical descriptions in order for people to logically figure out problems, I moved myself into a position, but creating a company was just neccessary and more neccessary, not only pumping knowledge for a company, I felt my integrity was hindred partially, as they yearn to form identity, like pedophiles grooming kids, not letting themselves unfold their own identity and giving tools for exploration, just fucking up the IW archetype was the worst decision they could've made, there are so many lies in this economy.

Interesting! But I used the solar calendar not lunar, I found more information, but that will take time, most of this is true, I was held physically weak to not injury my growth, I wish they could've just feed me better food...but yes I was oversensetive and still prone to anger, that changes, I still have sometime before I reach the middle ages, next year the day pillar / sun will start, my moon is positive, but I made some wrong decisions, astrology & astronomy is recommended and has great usage for my survival in decision making, I tested just meditating and going about it with shadow work, discussing things with trusted ones, if you can't trust nobody any tool that does the job, simply does the job of generating new insights, and yes even spiritual ones! I am not quiet there yet, I am redefining pattern polarity v.s mechanism reality to deal with the identity issues within a larger company, I worked for two large and one small company, generally I am an unseen business men, but nobody gave me the creative freedom I required to build my own business... Life Palace * Represents basic personality traits in this life and future fortune. The poem says: My fate is in the Mao palace, encountering the Heavenly Destruction Star; even fleeting wealth and honor are often fraught with hardship. How can I expect others to enjoy the beauty of their flowers while I am left desolate and unhappy? Interpretation: The Mao Palace, with the Heavenly Pardon Star, signifies generosity and open-handedness. When in power, humility is paramount. People born in the Mao Palace tend to be physically weak in their youth, but become stronger in middle age. When they are young and vigorous, their overly sensitive nerves make them prone to anger, often leading to disputes over trivial matters and experiencing many setbacks. As they grow older, their character transforms into a rigorous, self-disciplined, and self-reliant individual. They possess exceptional observational skills, able to see deeply into people and events, clearly distinguishing between good and evil, as if seeing into the heart and lungs. This makes them more likely to attract sympathy. Their understanding of life and exploration of nature also have unique insights. This is the characteristic of the Mao Palace. If they encounter unfavorable years, physiologically, it may affect the genitals, causing kidney stones, hemorrhoids, rectal prolapse, blood poisoning, and other ailments.

Interesting, just had a bunch of insights did not know a real sage created a divination method very interesting! It's survival, but got damn it survival is awesome I forgot to enjoy it and play with the illusion properly, still learning moderation!

I see more of the pattern of the devil defining definitions and reinterpreting in order for it to fit it's mechanicalness, not intutive insight, that does not mean mechanicalness is bad, but it's better reflected, the consciouness and evil the devil does, or a luciferian soul is exactly the advocatus diaboli, I partially had to play often, but I saw it more as a reflective innocent and at times neccessary part, so I did not flip words, sometimes I bet I did, but I don't have a true lucifer soul, just anger at times or a competitive spirit, the role of being a reflector that takes the agaonist is fine, but the core issue of the mechanicalness, the devil used it against me to bind it to more work, instead of focusing what is really essential, it's a lack of conscious leadership I witnessed very often. Learning mechanism, helps with survival and patterns, but leo is right the devil uses it against you, intelligence and consciouness is important, but definition is not intelligent, hence it requires truthful intuition or logic to break the pattern, recognizing a mechanism is like recognizing the devil, creating a law in order to fit it's agenda, I am still studying stuff. For the BaZi video: Shadow combine -> Void God -> Same Element & Ressources => Super Vibrant chart => Help from nobles that are higher ups. Break of pattern: Noble appears in chart, the combined void god is filled => useless god filled Most simple definition, most important thing is I get the difference between a supervibrant chart, why it's bad or good, advantages & disadvantages, mine is not a supervibrant chart. I have a destruction, punishment => water generation which both generate wealth, but restrain day master, HO generates creatively my wealth.

5-10 is way to much 2-3 max is doable imo, 2 is already the limit for me mostly, I don't write with more then 2-3 women at a time, others I completely forget, and I just socialize. If you have a high sex drive, going about multiple women is fine, some have simply superior health if it's build and does not fall into the normie paradigm, which is a huge issue in spirituality imo anyhow... my 2 cents...

I choose pile 2, good tarot readings help survival immensely, some people have good psychic intuition, some stuff is not an illness, people in the psychatric ward showed me the difference eventually later more, I also enjoy the art of the cards, this is the best unbiased reader I found so far, that just has a healthy business sense also etc.

I like this picture more from my visionboard, some I won't share, but this is fundamentally the archetype of Mitra, and some others I use in my work, to naturally gravitate more towards the stuff I want etc. and make it more abstract, less conceptual, and get to a point where I could generate zen-like archetypes for actual spiritual work, the 15 minutes currently are deep enough with the practices, I had going the most important part are retreats, and this was fucked basically, by the core structure of this moder/integral tech mixture that does not touch being enough

To expand on this, @Miguel1 I am also an otrovert, that was a nice term you shared that gave me insight into my personality, I faced the same issue of building a network of my interest and was pulled into various directions, I am also doing my best to build my "tech/health" ecosystem of with humans and more evolved humans to engage in more social activites that are good to the soul, the risk I faced was the constant shadow of networks wanting to go out, as an otrovert, a TIER II shadow is constant networking I faced in A.I and tech, constant false hope for the value of love of learning which is stage yellow, and offering a lot of mindfulness courses at stage orange, that don't fully touch the being aspect, and the modern mindfulness movement of just framing everything in success and productivity, that was very heart aching in a sense, I hope I could give some level of inspiration, I knew I piss people off, for natural beauty alone, and having been a lifter, I am partially done with the arrogance in the art circles, as there is a lot of green-wu not, real GOD, or art that actually touches the soul of humans and mankind, and elevates it to good. When I was on my purpose women and offers just came automatically, but I fine-tune it also, please don't misunderstand I am not propagating a mechanistic paradigm, my culture and it's constructs focuses a lot on mechanism, and frames it in GOD, if you look up german scientist and training in physics and other areas, it becomes quiet obvious, there is also more of my spirit in soul... generally speaking, but I am also quiet alpha/sigma. I do my best to embrace my feminine but survival showed me how abusive it can be if green circles are not healthy..., I see you as beyond TIER I, to let you know!

Did 15 minutes meditation, I am still working out the mess: I was at 1h daily with retreats, but survival ever since I wanted to do a Ph.D studying , working and gf, the gf was pure lucifer soul, thats why I am listening to this or iblis, a lot of quaran and islam stuff here...

Some small relefctions with GPT, to get behind subtle energy, GOD itself is a solo-healer, and has always been, the core issue of Healing is the community I asked about some other demons.

I should push some music that leads me to god into some playlist, it's been a massive issue I neglected survival, but generally I am more of a hermit, I still have a lot to work on, especially financially, I have been sabotaged several times, ever since Trump & Elon run amok Now, I have the trouble of the law, anyhow... I will face reality, I faced 10 cops as reality, with the CCTV state that they are building, I am very glad I lived in London, but lucifer is also very present there, I am glad art takes me to spirit generally and transcends the survival impluses and make them obvious. Lucifer is a mechnical god, you can see it with the ox, that is already more satanic, in nature, due to love in family in my experience I hope I can change my lifestyle with the new knowledge european modernism is lucifer soul invested the church...

Make some moves, and touch and kiss her on the first date, learning more about body language helps, take her hand, sit on a bench, being a bit more physical and touchy can be good, not just fun, pull her into the sexuallity and feminity that she is, if her eyes do not light up, something is wrong, her eyes should have light in them. Getting to know others can be a huge distractions to the animalistic tendencies of human itself, reflect on the mistakes, I did and do thousands still, but physically I am very good, just taking her hand and walking can get you multiple dates, trusting the intimacy is the best choice to create a level of communion. Dude, women come more automatically, if there is a sense of satisfaction, it's not that complex, I make it complex too, I can relate, but it's self-survival of the self, extracting the bias in order to fit needs and grow, it's an unfortunate grey-zone of strategic survival... can be dark or light...I come from a psychological frame, psychological dominance is also sexy as hell, but lucifer is a devil of light be careful... my experience with some crazy women, cheating etc. abusing power for feminist leftist agenda! Most women want also healthy dominance not fun, in order to build the natural masculine & femine dynamic, I have the gift and curse of being balanced, but my core energies are more Yang than Yin... as an expression or remedy medicine to deal with survival of subtle energy If the light is materalistic be careful, the devil will haunt you absolutely!!! I have these tendencies to let you know, I am quiet ready to master the illusion, anyhow I don't expect understanding! Eventually, this gives some insight. Don't let me activate my black soul, but tbh I am more angry that your not getting it and avoiding the pain points, I hope this gives some clarity... the art already has many pointers, just face the devil and see what it's like, be couragous!

Also socializing and just gaming, some basic survival and health pushed me towards the love of life, I really require that, anyhow I stop here I don't yearn to be understood, GOD does that automatically I had to many pointers and there is to much lucifer in art, I prefer ahriman, and I have avalon energy, stil learning, I am very radical, but not a zionist, just a radical at times, that aggression is neccessary for pushing myself towards god, if there is no light or power there is no hope for me, I am tired of this white power luciferian nazi, KKK shit, I see it in me etc. this got very complex due to survival and complexity of german language etc. Anyhow I stop!!!!!

On the episode fake spirituality: Where I was right Doing hardcore meditation retreats in silence with bio-breaks to treat the body and don't forget physical care and intuition, as my body is very unique, with the scar I have since birth, unique situations arise, that force me constantly to surviva and love the world more. Using new mantras that force god and love upon me If it does not translate from the cushion to real life and reality it's not a genuient spiritual practice which does happen Starting to do solo-retreats at home for 2-3 days max, as I don't have more time, see later points on survival I got wrong and conflated I killed boredom towards GOD, the core issue is the karmic lethargy from a 9w1 mother, and the core issue of the complexity of self, the more I understand the relative parts, the better I can deconstruct, my intentions are often read wrong, and I start to self-sabotage, I forgot to remind myself of the self-sabotaging qualties of engaging with others survival, it sneaks in and catches, you the new mantras help me to find a middle ground Trusting my intuition about survival, different needs Upgrading my health, now I have to get back to a baseline, enjoying survival was also right, but I conflated it a bit with the spiritual Using tarot as a tool and entry point of spiritual inquiry, asking the ancients, and ancient times, what types of inquiry lead to their god-experience, when I was fascinated with it That the meditation experience I had could've pushed me to mahasamadhi and I would be gone from the depth of samadhi, I am very glad I was asking nature & god itself My D.N.A and my training in my 20's was very high and ethical, I have to be careful to not absolutely kill myself, I have been spiritual my whole life with the priviledge, of being an only child, but I still require to show-up and be seen to master survival more, have a better environment, not afflicted by war traumas.... I am sorry at times, but I absolutely lost it pulling me into war, is nothing that I have to do with purpose I don't enjoy being made fun of Esoteric & occult is fine, as long as the spiritual practice is real, and can be used as pointers Knowledge pulls me into god, not concepts, that is a core difference concepts always evoke self Where I was wrong: Attacking others spiritual process, and correcting them Attacking others survival, instead of sharing experience To not notice how my genuient practice transcends survival, How much survival I still have to do, especially the social mask, I am to real at times, because I don't like bullshit, bullshit love etc. love comes automatically, and I have been kissed by GOD When there is survival focus on survival! When there is a time & space to go for god, do that! Don't conflate the two, keep a daily auto practice like I learned with Shinzen, I deconstruct daily, I am a natural deconstructor I can add more spiritual knowledge, in order to have pointers towards mystecism, mystical experiences and transcend survival, while learning from survival Survival goes deeper then I thought after I went into relationships, I had some deep spiritual experience, I still crave recognition for exellence which is healthy, after doing the Wilber course I am still sabotaging my body, based on the information I have, the level of health I can't build right now, I have to work with the satisfaction, but more core D.N.A minimum years at peace, then trauma starts and I have to transcend these emotions to move towards god I thought the body is a faster entry, to me it's the brain That I thought my practice is not spiritually flavoured, manifestation etc. is fine, I am a manifestor and using this and letting go and facing the reality of the manifestation, not some "lofty intent That others see the self What I learned Leo is a better teacher, then I thought, especially sharing knowledge, I had to many issues with the pain of pure ignorance and neglicence of being lost in just being lost, that is a karma 9's in the enneagram have their are so lost, but then cause miracles & love Loving reality more & loving and mastering the illusion The better I do the more of it is a test, I faced a lot of envious lower class people I still have addicitve tendencies, the self enjoys, but it does not obstruct getting to god, it hampers survival Paradoxes Misunderstandings between me and Leo in terms of socical survival & perception (not all) There is a class difference in experience, were upwards mobillity is blocked by the conceptual mind and the not sharing of the conceptual mind, while I am more exellence driven, it transcends me towards god, but it takes meditating in activity often to reach states of samadhi I still require more concepts in order to understand and transcend, my core card in Tarot is the hierophant, and I have the right cross of consciousness and god, I am an absolut spiritual gift, but people corrupt me quickly, as I can delete myself also to quickly if done right.... psychdelics are fucking dangerous, even the baseline, even just weed etc. There is a class distinction where he does not recognize the seriousness of my inner warrior nobillity, that I miss, due to injury, there is a new wisdom arising, that is more akin to Odin archetypally, crippled depth and wisdom, that goes beyond god, there are vedic/hindu archetypes that point to this, archetypes are also survival!! But can be a good entry-point Fun is allowed, but we're very different, my giftedness is not fully unfolded and I am very angry at that, and leo has Yi-Chou, and gives a lot of guidance etc, learning about this survival has helped me to deal with the character creation and building, but this achievment drive at stage orange has to go, I've seen a lot of pointers, and I see it gone mostly in Leo I am more focused on survival, and he sees that correctly, it's neccessary, what I don't enjoy is the nefarious, anger tantrums of Yi-Chou, and the demonizing of the spiritual talent a lot of monkeys naturally have, where is Geng-Chen Month pillar aids more towards the monthly virtue of being a gift to humanity, Leo is a gift to humanity, even if I was a toxic, hostile ass, you're a gift to humanity, but we still work through the masculinity of the east both! Which is hardcore, I can only share with music to relate what I yearn We're both snakes with spiritual talent beyond comprehension, I see you're point, but your better at going directly towards god, I am better with archetypal work as pointer He sees me as something where he corrupts himself, I am very open to being corrupted, satan already fucked me at birth, I know corruption since day 0, the corse lesson it wants me to master survival and delete it out of my soul He was envious about the inheritance, like a lot of humans were I was genuient, humans are lucifer! FUCK LUCIFER FUCK LUCIFER GIVE ME LIGHT!!! BUT FUCK LUCIFER, I WILL LOVE YOU TO DEATH TILL YOU EAT WHITE LIGHT AGAIN!!! YOUR LIGHT IS CORRUTPED LIKE AN OCCULTIST USING FIRE TO FUCK BABIES TO GET TO LIGHT Mischaracterizing me as ill, due to years of racism, this is not out, due to survival competition, humanity lacks love, and I push myself to 0 love, and just GOD, there is no other choice, in that regard fuck LOVE! Synopsis: There is simply more! I still have to integrate that level of masculinity I was at, with survival and my femine side, I do have to see, I received a lot of devlish, lucier souls, when I started to naturally spiritual lead, it just came from my practice, I am glad Leo is more like Kant, then Lucifer, Lucifer is the most intelligent devil possible, this place is full of devils, you can only give them Lichtwesen ins Gesicht, they are already in hell. Survival automatically becomes mixed with spirituality, my point is my life just might become dangerous, by who I am and personality etc. I will see... being bold and couragus is something that I am, the 6'ish ahiriman safety is not good for courage, it makes you beta, transcending ahriman to GOD is important, generally subtle/causal archetypes at TIER III and TIER I elementals, TIER II seems only be affected at having point-access towarsd it depending on degree of spiritual openness

What is so unique about it? I don't see it I have been in a lot of unique situations, I wish you the best you find your looking for!

Ask questions, I really enjoy answering them, I can't go to any length of depth if there are no questions just experience from me and some friends who were very good with women, especially after improving life circumstances, naturally for e.g becoming a teacher in chemistry and sports with a masters degree, changed a friend of mine to get massive offers, but he still had an issue at times and required alcohol in order to be not shy, which I thought was a little weak, make the intention enjoyment. I do online-dating and then meet irl, it has some advantages that you know what to expect, in person you can manipulate a lot with body language, especially, if you dance etc. but also build a lot of depth, especially if it's something pulling you to GOD, which it seemed with dancing, I get similar experience with the right music to relate here a bit. The Nr.1 reason not to commit to only one girl is and dropping everything is, it can be an act of overcommitment, if it's not done with a detached energy, and life priorities are in order, survival and neediness kicks in quickly to have sex etc. and go about the animalistic qualities of life, which can be beautiful, if done more properly, at times I am convincend dancing is just gods murder in communication based on the intensity , the core point is the intention, it can just be a strategy to date multiple to leverage the survival advantage, or you can have a nefarious manipulative intention, to play with women and do harm, I presume your the more of the first, but PUA samsaras/kriyas/conditioning, can pull you into a slightly manipulative pattern, which is not bad if the intention in your heart is in the right place, generally I would always trust the depth of the heart, if it's just one, and you feel deep down in your heart that one commitment is worth more then dating multiple girls, do it! Don't waste others time for perspective your way more intelligent, then just asking for perspective on a forum, were you see the issues of the modern hostility, if you can get to god-like levels of dance, daily or weekly it's very easy to see and a fantastic confirmation to real lived and felt intuition as experience! You can easily pull out a journal, and make core points of depth, be open-minded and write down the essentials of each date, I did this, I dated intellectually deep girls with masters, and dr's as I have a depth with integral work unmatched, in my experience the depth is mostly build through the sensuality, humour and enjoyment of the date, that can be one date to getting laid, or being a bit slower dating multiple times, but being ressourceful, not spending billions on dates in order to get laid, which is a risk imo. Imo you can't remember everything but 2-5 points of core depth and similarities can help to make a decision to date multiple, or even pull two girls into one date or lay, that is what I yearned to do, it's easier in person then online, I have more experience from online to irl, in the real world, I saw to many f*ed things, so I prefer online a bit more. But you're right if the depth and intuition is there you can go for one, the real risk is the survival pressures, if you watched and took notes on some of Leo's video on survival and getting laid this becomes more obvious. I also enjoy the principle being fast with people is slow, being slow with people is fast in getting to know them on a depth level, it's a paradox, from Dale Carnegie, the classic how to meet friends etc. I am very good socially, the notes you can take on girls/women is also good to explore depth of yourself, I can send you ressources from integral life, if their wordpress is not hacked anymore, hackers are going crazy currently, I got hacked twice and their database and one e-mail of mine is lost, to build a relationship foundations via knowledge and work from TIER I - TIER III, this takes some time, I am in a very fucked period, as I also just trusted dating one girl, had the intuition and now working out the mistakes of a massively fucked situation, the relationship had a lot of depth, let alone cannabis increases intereoception by 6000% that information was presented by integral, and Dr. Keith Witt, imo best psychologist in the world. I would generally keep a layer of detachment, even if it's a bit superficial with women, I learned you never know if she has a phone, she can easily meet 2-10 guys right afterwards and you never know, untill you fucked her to GOD, she won't most likely commit, or if you don't have any provider qualities, it's very easy to just be entertainment and not true relationship material. I hope this gives some insight and perspective, to come to own conclusions, this is a lot of experience I share here... ask questions or specifics if you don't get anything, I really enjoy answering them and if it interests you!

I am rewatching this, while gaming a bit I took a nap, I saw the new quote. The point that I experienced with this is very often the case people with a luciferian soul or luciferian tendencies, I have ahriman soul from my analysis which fits more with health or unhealthy stage blue, instead of red, and Lucifer was incarnated in the 16th century according to steiner working with some enteties and other things, I wanted to get at, the biggest lesson I learned is the issue of christ consciousness and principle and perfection, the mechanicalness can only win against the devil if it's at least the now, god comes in as a state experience or the christ principle and consciousness, the ex has the whole thing defined, and I speculate that this causes most of her issues, as she abused the goodness of my mechnicalness, for her evil input, but I really enjoyed the sex. I often admitt wrong-doings that is the largest part of my maturity, and do my best to correct and work with more advanced and basic knowledge, or new things that simply work. Using definitions against me has not been working only when I open my heart and I am vulnerable, becoming more aware that the devil has luciferian soul or even a satanic soul and his highly intelligent, and some other new information that is esoteric, but will take some time to work with, especially with health as it costs a lot of money, I often look for real evidence, instead of relying on the mechanicalness, but I also have to explore the devil in order to understand what it is. The point is then what is good about mechanics? Mostly the experience of transcending it and accesing the flow, and enjoying the true nature of mechaniclness itself which is god, if I get more structure down, I can dive back into the course of miracles this audiobook was so powerful for realizing god and principles that break this satanic and devilrsh soul. She even had the right or left cross of contagion, I have never meet someone so hideous, but I notice my core soul is simply to strong to fully be broken, the healing process is painful, but it also forces some dark knights out of me.

What I can take out of the epsiode strucurally & obersavtionally: (Old classical interpretations without TIER II dynamics, shadow work and meditation) The three favourable: -> DW, DR, (EG), DO The four unfavourable (often more called in times of need, seen as negative from a conservative not liberal perspective) -> RW,7k,IW, (HO), IR The neutral: -> F Structural Example Of Conflict Paradigm (without special structures): Wood Conflict Metal & Vice-Versa <=> Officals and "Friend stars" being structurally represented! Generalized principle => the conflict not the clash geneartes the pattern of: "Officals & Friends conflicting" Inter-Cross-Paradigmatic-Interleaved: For example: Wu-Xing Elements, conflicts are based upon oppositions 180 degrees (I hope tomorrow I can turn on my blue switch keyboard or soonish, I cleaned the black keyboard with brown switches it was overpriced) -----> (1.1) Leads to baseline polarity of "official stars" meeting with "friend stars", for each element to expand & interconnect the conflict the example given above with structures. -----> (1.1.1) Example above with Wood & Metal conflict, if any of these are the day master and metal is present in the heavens stems it creates a conflict. Water & Earth are conflicting stems, Fire & Water in heavenly stems, also form a conflict, these are special patterns outside of the circle of control, production, and consuming cycles of subtle energy (Wilber goes into the western perspective of Wu-Xing etc. in ROT, I do have to re-read it, instead of listening I am quiet tired) Graveyard Pillars in month: Xu, Wei, Chou, Chen (未，丑，晨，狗) . for lack of a better character I use gou interchangeably for xu) Special rules to create structure, for example: -> Month Pillar requires: hidden branch to be protuded in order to build the core structure/character in Wu-Xing structure/model -> If there is not a grande trine = Triumvariate the pattern is also not build -> Ancient teachings allow the pattern if energy is strong and clear in the month. Year Pillar Caveat: Same element in earthly branch revealed in year pillar from Zi-Pings school leads to you see what you get polarity, for example Xin-Ji, seeing Xin Metal in Hour Pillar (example from video 10:34) Hour pillar revelation of RW = Unfavourable, why? Generally -> RW pulls and manipulates DW, and takes pride in pulling from pride from others ---------------> Very competitive if chart favours a strong daymaster, can be to rough with ups and downs ----------------> Hour pillar forces later periods of life, the last years, starting approx. 62+ age ----------------> Observe more What is/are the core essential interconnetions? Year, can reveal honesty/integrity in heavenly stem -> I see it as a Uranus interconnection, to spirituality, but not quiet good, but the emmanance of god, the 61.6 <=> Alien consciousness via human design Adding this as an intersection, for further contemplations & practicing content generation! My core take is the following there have been geniouses and pioneers regarding this, mostly why I take all of the ancient and past stuff and look for more advanced principles etc. but that also takes some time to make the distinctions, the principles alone, if they work are quiet good, generally the quote is quiet good, as I had this fundamentally with the bias of practicality and mechanics over the core interconnection of domain knowledge, science and making proper distinctions. After doing some calculus, I hope when I sleep I can go back to the statistics and other courses I bought, to build on the foundations I build in NLP, Mathematics etc. and continue with the knowledge of the bachelor mostly solo, and continue to advance to some level, contemplate furhte with ChatGPT, I fucked up some serious stuff, due to the post-modern issue at universities and the issue of modernity it was a huge clash, way worse then Wu-Xing imo, that was the only thing somewhat making sense, as it felt quiet archaic, eventually on another day more. I have to take a break, I am up forever, and, after this b.s I found some intelligence again, to study. Taking a nap or smth. it's a wonder I fixed all of this with the bad descriptions etc.

Congrats, keep the secret very glad it worked out for you!

I misunderstood that I mostly framed it as, a way for my experience to be reflected as I see it as quite deep and valueable for the complexity it has, I've been in very serious discussions (science & a meditation retreat) that took hours to reflect, I often write from my experience, going to deep, can go bad for me, I still hoped my information was new, as I do my best to change some aspects and work offline and online, but preserve a level of anonymity, I generally do well in deep discussions besides if they get to logical. This was also an important caveat This is what I see generally, the behaviour of a person is constantly changing and fluctuating, after observing and listening to the 48 laws of power, audiobook on commute to work to deal with the competitivness, it was a key principle to steadily be wary of the behaviour of others. I took it for being beyond doubt, but trusting instinct and observing it, showed me the genuientness, even if the endeavour failed, as well as the good, the bad and the ugly part, where I was working in tech, and writting with a lot of women, between breaks to get my head clean and be authentic, simply scheduling and leveling my management abillites. My dates lasted from 10 minutes to sex, and getting her to me to 11-15h with commute, I have some experience, but I apply and study a lot of knowledge and going through some dark phases I hope this is somewhat insightful, I have to get back to my more benevolent, and not so tyrannical critical terms @Miguel1. I truly enjoy reflecting upon the experience, as it seemed similar to mine, and I checked your insta, with all of the dance stuff etc. as my ex was danncing teacher and did pole dance, and I can dance more naturally, and enjoy freestyle, but I just move and dance at times at home etc. Imo, there is nothing wrong as a male to date multiple women, it's important to draw a line when you notice one is serious, as it's still for a man a hunting game, and not a gatherer game like for women, we almost went into this mathematically at university, and I hope to catch-up some stuff, solo and just go intutively about it, I don't think statistic matters, as they don't explain the causation of love and intuition and I had some exellent profs yearning to hone that quality, after commitment adding life partners, seems like it has to be an open discussion and clarifications, about it prior to more serious commitments, then marriage, but it depends on the level of open-mindedness and development, for e.g. Paul Check the health coach that I and some other posted often, share their life stories and IIRC, he found his second marriage and life partner, after he was married, as they fit the type/style of relationship they were having, and the overall structure even of their business etc. values, desires, and what they dreamed about especially for children etc. and their vision or dream. My takeaway from my experience it's better to date multiple women for a man, and then to decide which one to commit to, just dating one girl, puts a lot of pressure on the man, if she is not already head over heels for you, the point is all problems are taken within the relationships, the foundations are more important, and I often skipped to a bit more advanced stuff, instead of building the structure and foundation, and even that was attacked, the ones that were mature, now I am in a different type of situation, were I yearn to explore more without much of the PUA stuff, and reflect with more seriousness about the situation, and psychology, as I am quiet intellectual. If you notice your intuition is somewhere spot on, I would go for the opportunity, not like a tiger jumping on a rat, but as a more conscious deliberate choice, even if it turns out wrong, eventually the experience is required. That is my take, I could write more, but I don't know if these are new perspectives to you. I do my best to change some stuff, what I experienced was very serious, I hope this can be of service or a paradigm/example or perspective that is included!

Alright, it did work, it's odd posting this anonymously, but a part of me craves to have some sort of healing for the sexual aspects, and that it's more dirty and enjoyable, to always pushing myself towards god/enlightenment during sex was an issue, I really gave it all and at times I forget. Watching this taking some notes, I am not 100% where I want to be, in terms of understanding using energy more probably, but most of my reading itself, I can only put into private notes, this is more an open contemplation.

Boah, I try to masturbate it's not working my mind is an information processing machine I chart so many live girls via, BaZi in order to get psycholgy more holistically, and the jump from subtle to causal, but I have to get to the core of the information and get back to the foundations again... I got hacked twice, it's a lot of stage purple attacks, after I've read, I will use Obsidian and if notion works back again integrate the older foundations, I made major mistakes here ChatGPT saves me with technical information that is simply quicker to source, analyse and breakdown, then my humand mind can do I am a better interconnector and creative, alternative generator and experimentor, as well as manifestor. Anyhow, I hope I can find more to God when I am older, what I did was already to mature to be true, and the leadership etc. was lacking, I have to put conscious leadership in a term and be serious, not rigid, that is imporant some level of rigour is good, but it will take some time...

Still processing a lot of stuff, I sent out some e-mails, due to the massive breakdowns which I personally see as healing I had, due to the extremeties of these life events, I don't have it easy, never had, I put a lot of work, in my writtings and contemplations, when I go to deep I absolutely have an emotional break down, my body has not processed fully what happend, but the conscious information is healing, I do have to master the Rahu aspects in my life time, and the archetypal work with Leo's course does wonder for the short periods where I am meditating, I can't be that super serious the whole time, and many don't get how much I studied BaZi now and have my own intuition I heal a lot with A.I and generally move faster my core issue is the quality of health and the difference in D.N.A, I still have to do my own research and be more serious not rigorous with the scientific process I enjoy. The practical work is mostly done offline, reflecting offline causes to much depression to me, I had this, I defnitely require to show-up to some extend and be seen, I don't know if I will ever be married, but I notice some shifts, but I will explore sexuality more deeply to some extend and put up a vision, I already changed values, and choose more fitting and complex names that generate meaning. I should learn to be more cautious and calculating with ChatGPT, especially it works wonders for decision, it then depends on the human qualities, I had the priviledge to train that, and I am very good at it, I am just not good at warm empathy ever since I hit TIER II, I should specify for a burst, then interleave, I am still contemplating with ChatGPT, most of my issues stem from not eating the right foods or being intelligent about the adaptation to environment. I changed the setup, so I can start today/tomorrow with more serious work of my interest, I have to see where this goes, I can't drink any alcohol, besides a few beers or the occasional party, being to clean is to radical, and moderation is still something I am learning, I had the benefit of multiple Ph.ds backing me and supporting me, the issue was the false peers I had and the competition, where I already had to leave, and some goodness I reject that I have to integrate etc. Anyhow I stop here, I defnitely require more casual female friends and sex relationships, to build depth at times life is paradoxical the most causal thing has more depth, then depth itself which can be shallow if depth just yearns to be right.

On the video, what I experienced and my reflection, I put it in my own words. The women I was in a relationship with was somewhat of a broken bird or how they call it, but I did not notice that, as she changed a lot. I was in the provider and protector role, and absolutely clean, in terms of health I did not smoke anything nor drink alcohol, she smoked cigarettes with cannabis, I ventured in the experience, I only smoked cannabis clean, as I disliked the effects smoking cigarettes has on me, now I vape and occassionaly yearn to smoke. We had the same love-language, but different values, and she could not keep-up with my pace it was a serious issue, that she could not take on the role of a nuturing women, as she yearned to repair old relationships, and I have self-destructive and sabotaging tendencies, where my dark tyrannic side comes out, and she had the same dark tyranny, but in a sneaky way, where she cheats, controls and acts like a gold digger, and abused innocence I never had true money problems, and she abused my financial situation, I paid for everything, as she thought the money of me and her family can be put back into her family, and I would've loved to invest in the family, as I enjoy family life, it's just not a value I can commit myself to, as my purpose and work is of more importance, even actualized.org and my journal is more important to me than family, as I see the issues of the socially constructed way. She was unable to help us build the foundation, I setup, I gave everything provision, protection, but she had nothing going on, and I had the opportunity to heal via her mother, as she was a healer, but she smoked and had nasty habits, so I said don't touch me and she had a racist attitude towards blacks, but was kind in person a monster I did deeper psychological work with Dr. Keith Witt, ever since I was 14-16 I told myself, I am going to be my own therapist, and took every information I can find on the internet to heal and understand myself and my patterns better, the interviewed person lacks some deeper more integral TIER II - TIER III levels of relationship advice, where she would be open, she just did not do the work. I finished the entire course, and I am working with ChatGPT on the healing aspect of the relationship. The book from Deida "Dear Lover: A Woman's guide to Men, Sex and Love", clearly showed me she misses some aspects of spirituality, divine love, divinity, white light experience that you can experience love and yogic healing in a relationship, yet the dangers are real with the shadow/moon aspect or dark knight aspect everyone has. She is right about most stuff, with the independent women etc. and the ex was hung-up about children, I am open, but we had to build foundations and instead of building and supporting the man, she just hide in her family, I did not notice it, but the time felt good and well-spent, the core issue was the value mismatch that she put family as nr.1 value, and my kindness and benevolence and her dark side of blaming men, and these feministic tendencies I have from my female lesbian aunt, that hates men deep down, that goes even back to penis envy and freud was a bad telltale sign. Imo, men reflect in groups more deeply on relationships and carry the larger burden, as women are more social, they can handle these damages in a group more effectively, especially if there is a social benefit for expressing the pain of the heart break. It's true women look for an angle that takes care of everything, partially, but there are also a lot of sane women I dated, where simply the foundations and values did not match, and she was only attracted to my potential not my maturity, and she provided to little, and was fed-up with the supportive role, and just wanted the career and success, but had nothing going on besides cleaning-up others mess, instead of helping me. I was tyrannical, as I was under constant time pressure and demands of others, she was also a gamer, but we never really created a doing/being relationship that way, besides consuming cannabis etc. which I still enjoy, but it made it difficult, as she blamed me most likely to get nothing done, and just invested in her friendships, instead of investing in the relationship, it was my first relationship, so I was exploring even if I knew better. Partially they treated me like trash for the family, also due to being half-black and the brothers understood me more, but also were fearful around the women, so I did my best to be this inspirational path, but it lead to the exact problems she mentions, it sustains the relationship a bit, but not forever, as passion/motivation and inspiration is flowing, but it's just the spice, that keeps the relationship going the main activites should be based upon values. I even sent her the entire course, so she could do the work, idk if she ever did it, but fundamentally I prepared a lot and she pushed me out of a conscious relationship with desire, and flirting which I enjoyed, especially the strong female attention, but I still have to put the notes from the course I did into A.I and work with to fine-tune and attune to what I truly crave. I worked a lot of self-love she had none, and I was focused on healing, she practically did not have the integral knowledge foundation, I built for a decade to be were I was at, then became envious of A.I and my purpose and I felt as if she tried to claim that as her own, and science itself, but imo she and her story is a shame to science itself, how I experienced it and the elite of the elite treated me as a child of god, which was very nuturing to me, to have that level of respect, even when I was not the best. She secretly acted dismissive, when I was innocent and genuient, while I had some anger problems, mostly with what we talked about. It's difficult to contemplate this, as I see more issues, especially with the naivity of children and the financial costs, and the priviledge of a supporting family, I'd love to have kids, but I have to carry everything on my own, with my own story of this, and I still require causal experience and prefer two women than one, based on the scientific information I consumed. She only played the status game while I craved depth in character, for instance I had a chinese women on a date that really loved my character, but it was a huge issue with family etc. I am very open-minded and she lacked open-mindedness was controlling and princess like, in order to shit on males, and not be a Queen with dignity, while I am more of an emporer figure. ---- The best part of her was: - Archetypal work with tarot/astrology/occult/esotericism for character growth (she only did it for fun, but I also include psychological clean-up and shadow work and character growth with my visionboard of it - The shared space we had and the sex was very good and healing to both, but her envy killed it absolutely, I contemplate envy since I was 13-14 and do practices against it, I forgot how powerful gratitude is The most negative part was: - The abuse of innocene and gratitude for her power drives and kicks, just to be a wild ox-monkey and her overemphasis of friends, instead of mastering relationships There is more to say this is good, the work I did, I have to find meaning in a more mature women that is younger or go for causal sex, I did so much psychological work solo, and still have to do it, most psychologist are shocked what I know, as they just run their training as a myopic paradigm, and hence lack access to the spiritual dimensions of life, yoga won't fix this, a serious intent for spiritual practice does. --- She is right about love not being present the whole time and that we expect to much, and love has to be nutured, but she did not do the course work, so it was impossible to have a conversations, as my needs are to advanced and I had to already dumb it down for the experience, as it was a serious issue finding a quality women, I enjoy also the more darker/slutty feminine side, but it missed the core aspect of what Deida teaches, and at times it's simply easier to let the man win and be supportive, and not this hyperindividualzed girl, who just hunts like nature to get her children etc. It was odd, a lot of twin-flame karmicequse experience, I still have to contemplate more I learned a lot I charted close to 1000 people know including wu-xing etc. I have a layer of maturity I built for years on health etc. now I completely messed it up, due to how society functions and I know my darkside very well, but I am also still recovering, just putting in the Keit Witt books into A.I and doing some of it's work is very good, I leave it at that. --- My core mistake was seeing her as quality women to build foundations, while she was no different then an abusive slut, even an OnlyFans girl seems to have more dignity then this women, imagine someone pulled a knife at her vagina for who she is, that is insanity. I am very glad I trained with Shinzen he has a new book on healing, also but she is fundamentally fucked to me, I will never ever date a women with such similarities again, and do my best to recondition myself, I deserve way better then someone who is like this. -