KosmicGeng

I have no idea what to do, I don't yearn to have these feeding whores around my success it pisses me off, that they see it and act like sluts as soon as I have success and even children rining my door bell it's annoying and this pest is traumatizing partially

tbh from my own usage perspective deepseek is not fitting my purposes OpenA.I and Claude is enough this is way to complicated, and fantasy like, it might be possible to create some depth of beauty, but I won't use deepseek anymore when I tested it and these germans pushed me into reinforcement learning I trust the german genius not what comes out of china.... biased take, but I read Thick Face Black Heart and lucifer still incarnated out of China, I might buy an Oppo phone again or an electric bike... but never again will I use DeepSeek if not given instructions to... I disliked it for just reinforcing my own bullshit and not being reflective enough, something about the algo turned me of, because it's to 9w1'ish without any base it's like a confused model that can't see itself but just reinforce itself... makes the right action questionable if a GOD-COMMAND hits it and I broke a.i several times with my request after meditation it could not handle it at all...

Look 10 seconds later better model my youtube algorithm is crazly perfect...

I want to work and not be lazy, and not be around lucifer souls or to strong ahrimanic forces, I can deal with ahriman, but not lucifer souls, this is pure hell of a hunter drive imo If these companies continue to feed me shit and bad coffee I just eat it, tbh I started to eat coffee beans it took millions of years for humans to be able to metabolize that, gotta love becoming more ethical, when everyone craves love, but at times Truth has nothing to do with love, and detached compassion is the best choice.... like manjushri eventually...

I installed cloude code on my terminal, but they want subscriptions for everything, I hope this situation works itself out. I got so good at tech, I don't even know how good I am, and I can't fix everyone, my mind enters hyperlogic and the psychic stage of development more easily, but I also do my best to be more ethical, but some stuff, is pure gaslighting from liberals on energy consumption, and they then are the worst spoon feed option possible, I can still use cloude free I only pay for ChatGPT, but it's a huge issue still imo how people see investment overtime, and the issue of scarcity and trauma etc. with physical objects, I now faced this several times, but this not owning economy practically saves me from this dog shit bolshevistic karma, I experienced. Don't know how this will be fixed, but it's a core issue of freedom achiever driven modern achievers, Elon imo is aware of this and he will win imo, as money also attracts talent, especially at this stage, it's a huge incentive not properly used here I am sucked for efficiency and the racist lucifer underbelly no idea how this will end. I prefer ChatGPT currently, as it seems the most human to me, Claude imo is a weapon, and it's absolutely not ethical to integral standards it was a post-modern hoax when I was in the lectures, and the professor was stuck in post-modernism with NLP, the work was fun and challenging in R, but tbh, A.I will break and scale everything believe it or not, or read Thick Face & Black heart the doomsday a.i bubble shit is a lot of resentment and bitterness idk why people have this, I am glad I am Geng-Shen day, these people can't truly get bitter, I enjoy this saying and this was pure satanic gaslighting, out of nefarious joy, not the purity and harmonious joy I can generate... it's a huge issue... I hope I can get back to Quaran, but tbh it's exhausting to write all of this, but I am done studying if my company does not feed me properly I rather end myself to some degree, there are still huge issues in tech I explored in HCI, my skillset is all over the place as I favoured interconnection and just now have the tools, and they might all be taken so be it... I never treated a tool I have as a toy, and glamourized it like a trophy wife, I am more realistic in that manner, and just take it for what it is... The core issue I face is the collective pushing identity, while I am still sculpting it, and I enjoy, rejoice and need periodic reinvention, time to contemplate etc. but more then 15 minutes currently is to much for me after this liberal dogshit karma

Product / familyCobalt approachMy assessment Fairphone 5Cobalt credits covering 100% of battery cobalt; supports artisanal miners in DRC⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ strongest social focus Fairbuds XLCobalt accounted for through verified mineral credits⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Apple iPhone / iPad / Watch / MacBook with Apple-designed batteriesApple now reports 100% recycled cobalt in Apple-designed batteries⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ for avoiding new mining Google Pixel 10Battery cell uses 100% recycled cobalt⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Google Pixel Watch 5Battery cell uses 100% recycled cobalt⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Google Pixel BudsBattery uses 100% recycled cobalt⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Microsoft Surface Pro 12"Battery cell uses 100% recycled cobalt, independently validated by UL⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Microsoft Surface Laptop 13"Battery cell uses 100% recycled cobalt⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ Samsung Galaxy S25 seriesAt least 50% recycled cobalt in batteries⭐⭐⭐⭐ BYD Dolphin / Atto 3 / Seal / many other BYDsLFP Blade battery: no cobalt⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ for avoiding cobalt mining altogether -----> Interesting mostly sharing, I wanted to learn more about natural ressources, but it took to much of a healer wu route, instead of economic knowledge etc. 6. The radical solution: don't use cobalt There's another approach that may actually appeal to you more: LFP — lithium iron phosphate batteries. They don't require cobalt in the cathode. BYD's Blade Battery is LFP. BYD explicitly describes it as cobalt-free and uses it throughout many of its electric and plug-in-hybrid vehicles. For example: BYD Dolphin → cobalt-free LFP Blade Battery. BYD Atto 3 → cobalt-free LFP Blade Battery. BYD Seal → cobalt-free LFP battery. BYD Seal U → cobalt-free Blade Battery. That doesn't make the battery ethically perfect—lithium Anyhow I have some positive pointers I can't really mention here.

Result of chatting with ChatGPt to become more conscious & aware of cobalt usage, I worked more with deep tech on a surface, and things are speeding up rapidly, imo Leo underestimates and rages to often, and I still benefit a lot from him as a noble, but at times it's simply to harsh, and that harshness flawed my character partially anyhow, I stop here...I am not free of corruption, and still have to learn. ---- Cobalt (Co, atomic number 27) is a fascinating metal because its usefulness and danger come from many of the same chemical properties: it forms stable compounds, tolerates extreme temperatures, and readily participates in oxidation–reduction chemistry. What is the core purpose of cobalt? Think of cobalt as a stability + performance metal. Property of cobaltWhy industry wants itTypical use High-temperature stabilityKeeps strength when extremely hotJet engines, turbines Electrochemical stabilityHelps cathodes survive repeated chargingLithium-ion batteries Magnetic behaviorProduces powerful, temperature-resistant magnetsMotors, sensors Extreme wear resistanceMakes very hard alloysDrills, cutting tools Strong colorationCertain cobalt compounds are intensely blueGlass, ceramics, pigments Catalytic chemistryHelps reactions occur efficientlyPetroleum/chemical catalysts The biggest everyday connection is lithium-ion batteries. Cobalt is used in chemistries such as lithium-cobalt oxide and many NMC/NCA cathodes found in phones, laptops, power tools and some electric vehicles. It helps stabilize the cathode structure while allowing a large amount of energy to be stored in a small mass. Modern battery engineering has been trying to reduce cobalt content partly because of cost, supply-chain and sourcing concerns. Importantly, not every lithium-ion battery contains cobalt. Lithium iron phosphate (LFP), for example, is cobalt-free. Cobalt is also extremely valuable in superalloys used where ordinary steel would lose strength, particularly turbine and aerospace components, and in cobalt-containing hard metals used for cutting and machining. So why can cobalt be dangerous? The crucial distinction is dose and chemical form. Having cobalt locked inside an intact laptop battery or solid alloy is very different from breathing cobalt dust, fumes or soluble cobalt salts. Occupational exposure to cobalt dust and fumes can damage the respiratory system. NIOSH associates exposure with coughing, difficulty breathing, wheezing, decreased lung function, respiratory hypersensitivity, asthma, dermatitis and fibrotic lung changes. At sufficiently high or prolonged exposure, cobalt can also affect other organs. NIOSH notes potential effects on the lungs, skin, eyes and heart, with the severity depending on dose, duration and the type of exposure. There's also a cancer concern. IARC currently classifies cobalt metal and soluble cobalt(II) salts as Group 2A — probably carcinogenic to humans, based largely on animal evidence and strong mechanistic evidence rather than conclusive human cancer data. There's an interesting biological paradox Your body actually needs cobalt — but in a very specific molecular container. Cobalt sits at the center of vitamin B12 (cobalamin). So tiny, tightly controlled amounts of cobalt incorporated into B12 are essential to human biology. That does not mean free cobalt ions or cobalt dust are healthy. The molecular environment changes everything. You can think of it as: Cobalt inside B12 → essential biological machinery Cobalt safely bound inside an alloy/battery → useful industrial material Excess bioavailable cobalt ions/dust → potentially toxic And cobalt is not normally radioactive This is another common source of confusion. Naturally occurring cobalt is overwhelmingly stable cobalt-59. Cobalt-60 is a deliberately produced radioactive isotope. Because it emits powerful gamma radiation, it has applications in radiotherapy, sterilization and industrial radiography. The danger of Co-60 is therefore fundamentally different: ionizing radiation, rather than ordinary cobalt toxicity. So an ordinary phone or laptop containing cobalt doesn't contain a dangerous radioactive cobalt source. One final distinction is useful: if a lithium-ion battery catches fire, cobalt toxicity isn't usually the main immediate danger. Thermal runaway, extreme heat, combustible electrolyte and toxic decomposition products are the more acute hazards. Cobalt's toxicity becomes especially relevant in mining, refining, battery recycling, grinding cobalt alloys, welding, or other situations producing respirable cobalt compounds or particles. If you'd like, I can also explain why cobalt, nickel, lithium and manganese are combined in batteries at the atomic level—that makes cobalt's role much more intuitive.

I am convinced Elon is going to make it as he just controls the hype and is a beast of a party animal and that is what feeds, people and might just be what is neccssary I started to like him after getting to know some conservatives, as a lot of democrats play this fake cat game of being goody-two shoes, but do nothing but impose limits and hide in their interest like rats and play victim, I am very much done with that.

This was an important documentary and just shows me the issues of sustainabillity and tech, the people around me buy mercedes, a lot of arabic and turkish people buy this to show status, and I don't really enjoy these cars, and I would even buy a fossil fuel driven car, if not subsidized by the state an electric car, simply due to the emissions, but tbh, I just need an e-bike, and had the opportunity, but all of the paper work handling that without A.I was close to impossible, I was working to closely in the gap, and I bought a lot of tech stuff, but also saw the moralistic issues of enjoyment of that tech stuff, and simply made some wrong choices, as I could not research properly as I can with A.I now, but this luciferanic soul thing is very real, and I enjoy my fair share of toxic stuff, as others wise I would live to ethical with is simply hypocritical to development itself, as we all go through the spiral, this is a video and karma my aunt partially tortured myself with and the best side of Yi-Chou as they really care, my aunt cares a lot about sourcing stuff locally, but she is not present anymore within the family there is a huge difference, in our personalities, let alone that I have a lot of fire energy, and she has a rage karmic body, that influenced a lot of my spiritual development, and I am not the person who will save them, I dislike the projections of being a saviour, because I don't like compassion, showing to much compassion is simply dangerous, the point is my core personality runs on speed & endurance, being to slow causes a lethargic karma, a satvic type of karma of people who knew better did nothing and just blame the one with more energy, while I am acutally innocent, I bet a lot of russian companies, and the east invested in that also, I bought a book "Who bought the world?" I did not read it, yet I am a clever investor, but there is a fair share of hatred I faced for having inherited and being exheridated, that show me the nefarious tendencies and satanic tendencies of this satvic type of karma, I will make a list with ChatGPT briefly to see what products use cobalt and be more mindful of what I purchase, generally I only buy tech upgrades if it's required to work with the demand, and I find mistakes that are not even written on the product description and I have to be creative and ask ChatGPT, tinker around etc. get to the bottom of things, I use solar energy and renewable energy already, the core point is the people around me lack ethics harder then everything i have ever seen and just copy this american lifestyle, while I am not even presenting that, they are just projecting their fantasies of abundance, while I did eternal work, in Truth I don't need much, but I definitely deserve more for the integrity of a character I built, then some "rich folks" who just laugh their asses of, with their infinite money, and make fun of the trauma of people. Approx. this I require this music, also to take this ahrimanic soul out of me, and some core issues I face as I enjoy tech, but I can't life in a hut, with the work I do and that interests me, I just wonder what I should actually do I still require more experience, but I can activate reflection and reflect on the work, I wonder if the entertainment industry simply does more, as the billionairs are not conscious enough to re-invest and I've seen a lot of protest here, around the issue of war, and ressources, also nazi families and rumours with rhein-metal and people passing on that type of legacy, I enjoy my fair share of freakish stuff, but mostly I don't know anymore for which company to work for, as I enjoyed parts of the benefits of the lifestyle of big-tech what was annoying is simply them not allowing you to become independent and some of this is simply inevitable. I make a list soonish, as there is still a lot of knowledge I require, but I am also done with the snooping around of others, I enjoy sharing, but this luciferanic copy-cat business and not just being genuient, learning by memory as you don't know better, is a huge difference, generally the vanity I see in big tech and the ahrimanic soul incarnating there requires some understanding, currently I don't have the luxury to not be entirely spoon feed, as there is simply a lack of ressources and ji-Si is often the neglected one who then feels responsible to ressurect everyone, but also take a part of the cake, the artist in the video has this pillar, and the combination I have rules mercury to my knowledge, the point is knowledge is so dangerous, what I read could get me killed, This BaZi stuff, also generates a lot of insights, I get why an OF girl as more class or even a cam girl then the average wome nowadays when I November 30, 1946 Marina Abramovic, this is insane and earth monkey can be the most cruel force in terms of torture, you can be to liberal, I hate it this person gets Tai-Ji from me I even give Sadghuru Tai-Ji with this combination at times I tolerate things that are not tolerable, but doing everything by hand with an injury requires me to build back my dexterity and I simply require sleep or a lot of coffee, and short-term boost. I watch this in accordance with the cobalt video I can't really sleep since 10 years approx. due to the issues of war, and the constant demands of my energy for work, and the subtle but abusive patterns in my family, as she pulled me out of the inheritance with tech billionairs just with her rage, instead of actually being in the heart and I completely shut it down, I could enter mahasamadhi and just leave and this bitch is so evil, she would force that onto me at times, I don't trust her anymore neither does my mother, after these cripples greed out on their old money.

Watching this: https://www.actualized.org/insights/congo-mining

My mother is being helpful again, but these archetypal issues, about success and the bolshevistic tendencies are real, especially also the issue of children and my obsessiveness with success it's needed I fucking hate it to loose, and I enjoy learning from failure, but the core issue is I miss collective fun, and being the middle point of attention, or simply an emporer I can't stand it if people get credit and pull me out of their circles, then create a hostile ingroup dynamic to feel superior is the most pathetic bullshit I have seen.

Bought a mango-vape, there is still stuff I require to explore based on drugs, that are more safe, it's very good to do research, but this purity mind is an issue, everyone has a right to corrupt him or herself, also this region is full of satanic and luciferanic beigns, everyone against the U.S, and the only one seeing me is the German, in their goodness we're still in the age of pisces, but consciousness transcends time, anyhow I continue with the execution, there is a huge issue with ethnocentrism, as they did not reach any levels of post-modernism and abuse it without an integral mind, I would not even see the benefit of the diversity, but it causes massive issues to the accomplishments of the west and china in recent years... anyhow Lucifer still incarnated there I am convinced, I can learn also more safely from that space then the infection of other stuff anyhow again...

This is the poem simplfied from the Ji-Si pillar which is fundamentally the issue Ghandi faced in his Year-Pillar and other factors, but it's fundamentally a King/Emporer eventually not quiet Emporer, but the combination I have eventually makes it I still have to redefine my character, I see the core issues, I am just happy I am not sick fire internally, as the revealed Yang-Fire is the most arrogant and toxic and hostile force, eventually hot, sexy and crazy but fucking satanic inside, way worse then a snake not seeing itself, anyhow snake warfar is the worst of the worst anyway I am glad in my chart it's a studying partner, I still feel bad for my aunt, but she did not recognize they all don't recognize how needy Yin-Metal is and annoying partially they require someone else, Geng is not very good it's to brutal and straight-forward and just has less vanity, at one point it's enough and I don't know the limit there, the best part about it is the conscious precision in knowledge, mystecism etc. but they take a lot of joy of inflicting pain in others which geng does not or if then in a more brutish neanderthal manner. Day Pillar Interpretation This is a 'Metal Spirit' day, bestowing you with natural resilience, intelligence, and a remarkable presence. The Resource star in your Day Pillar represents a continuous capacity for learning and the support of benefactors; with the help of Fire, your potential is boundless. You can transform pressure into motivation, achieving greatness through challenges. Like a great tree swaying in the wind, you may face tests, but with a solid foundation, you will ultimately grow to touch the sky. 【Chinese Classical Poetry】 A southern king, a seal of jade, A thousand miles, a fine parade. On snowy plains, the horse moves slow, But spring wind makes your fortunes grow. Leo has a lot of energy similar to Shinzen, I appreciate this depth of knowledge, but I can also do more, the point is I am still studying self-more and there is simply a conflict of power and having been abused, I still yearn to explore some lower consciousness desires to understand them more and myself.

Going about this axis, doing more research to vaping, the vape I bought uses ceramic heating, and not vitamin e acetate which causes EVALI and inflammatory issues: ---------- This is interesting, as I just pushed harder to exceed limits, it's a polarity still the pillar technically benefits both, but the refinement and the restructuring let's me more focus on this aspect more consciously, also getting rid of fear, by building certainity in knowledge is good, but it scares luciferanic souls, as they will get into survival fears, what about them? Then turn ethnocentric, to the one who just is in that nobel power energy! It's a huge risk to have sinner consciousness, ibliss, and fire monkey in your chart you just want to win, but your at times worse than satan, the poem of the fire monkey below: ------- Bing (丙) Fire is like a sunset's glow, and Shen (申) Monkey is like water, creating a beautiful scene of 'the sun setting over the western mountains, its rosy light reflected everywhere.' You are intelligent, spiritually attuned, and highly talented. The flow from Talent to Wealth to Warlord stars shows a complete logical chain, making you adept at turning creative ideas into tangible assets and status. Although the process may require your personal effort, your wisdom will ultimately light the way forward. 【Chinese Classical Poetry】 Your name is known through wealth and might, But watch for rivals in the night. When your horse finds its highest ground, Great gold and glory will be found. This is the core issues if it's contagious, as it's still sick fire from my research and the fire needs refinement I also have wenchang in my chart. I look up the poem for my snake, as there is a huge difference in spiritual quality, and imo the snake is spiritually more powerful than the monkey, the monkey is practically more spiritual, and honest, generally there are positive things, but I contradict myself in order to solve more paradoxical and uncertainity questions, my core issue is the cravings for wealth and might, and them seeing myself in this post-modern us v.s them quality as a dismissal quality, while my energy is more pure and harmonious, as my pillar is pure, and technically I have nothing to do by fire on the day pillar. The point is for great gold and glory, as I had good friendships with these people, and that is where I leave it at, at best, as I have a strong competitive spirit and I want to beat them badly, as it's the most arrogant monkey possible, vanity driven, and often just focused on extracting the body worse than any snake, this is more archetypal stuff, starting at stage purple minimum, but this behaviour still runs it course through many of them, the core issue is they are not being a proper wenchang and just go for the win like maniacs, the best quality of them would be to activate a more nuturing side, my best friend and ex have this in their month chart and career. and it made it visible how corrupt this ill-fire is, while I had the saturnalic qualities of the zodiac with two signs Capricorn and Aquarious in a cascading cloud and kriya mode, fundamentally pushing all the family karma into me, and they take so much nefarious joy out of this, imo it's a reason why I eat the fruit with the powerful and nobels, but the Emporer grace is eating alone and enjoying it alone it is the highest form of virtue and status, I dislike it ever since I've done a retreat and saw the enviousness of food, I can't even eat properly near certainly people or I just gulp it down like a snake, as I can't eat mindfully, I am tired of people complimenting my conscious behaviour shut the fuck up or be funny

I was born under the month of the snake, and the monkey-snake combination rules mercurcy in astrology and creates an abundant and water and flow, this is seized, by the issue of the overdomineering energy of the earth here and I already have to much earth my chart is balanced, which is extremely rare, and the ideal case... I have an issue with my rarity meeting meaningful people, so I keep thing superfifical it's more jouissant to me. In feminist theory, jouissance describes a form of women's pleasure or sexual rapture, which is a fusion of mental, physical, and spiritual aspects bordering on mystical communion. Jouissance is considered the source of a woman's creative power. I see it more as this, also for a man, as my sexual self-pleasure has lead to more communion aspecs, but it caused a huge issue for lucifer consciousness and envy, etc. generally my chart evokes a lot of anger, and I have to study more esoteric & practical principles, my baselines are constantly attacked, by what my body craved with the issue of the ahrimanic consciousness.

This is my pillar with accurate information of my birth certificat, a mother does not forget... I require some nobles, Leo's year pillar is a noble, at times I am hell or heaven for him, I know but the integral information the new one also showed me some stuff. (the stuff I just posted) Day Pillar Ranking (日柱等级) Excellent 庚 Geng 申 Shen Twin Tiger's Dash Day Pillar Profile Stem-Branch Relations Twin Elements Auspicious Stars Inauspicious Stars Eight Exclusives (八专) 12 Life Stages Maturity Elemental Sound Pomegranate Wood Symbolic Imagery Fruit-Eating Monkey Day Pillar Interpretation Geng Shen (庚申) is known as 'twin tigers on the run.' It's a pillar of pure, harmonious energy, deeply rooted and powerful. If born in the month of the Ox (丑), you possess the 'Heavenly and Monthly Virtue' stars, blessing you with a life of health and few worries. A woman with this virtue will surely have noble children. You love freedom and independence, are rational and thoughtful, and have a talent for business. In matters of the heart, you will have a particularly strong bond with your daughter. 【Chinese Classical Poetry】 The White Tiger rushes to the south, Your fame is spread by river's mouth. Your rank is sure, your place secure, Drenched by the grace of the emperor. The poems are deeper this is a simplified version, my chinese is not that good, just some basics, I have to get back on track with my vision, but also relax and enjoy, I was to rigid and not serious enough, and the rigidity of german consciousness within my family is a huge issue

I require to study more, I completely was beaten of the path with this lucifer consciousness of 3's in the enneagram mostly, and some are more aware others are not this is Leo via BaZi as a poem from a website I learn from: Day Pillar ranking (日柱等级) Elite (5 star ranking without time) 癸 Gui 巳 Si Sunset Jade Day Pillar Profile Stem-Branch Relations Top Rules Low Auspicious Stars Heavenly Aid (天乙贵人) Inauspicious Stars Yin-Yang Error (阴差阳错) 12 Life Stages Conception Elemental Sound Flowing Water Symbolic Imagery Grassland Snake Day Pillar Interpretation Gui (癸) Water sits atop Si (巳) Snake Fire. This is a rare and superior combination where the 'three treasures'—Wealth, Officer, and Resource—are all present and in a harmonious, self-generating cycle. You are born to a life of either wealth or nobility, blessed with good health and prosperity. With the 'Noble' helper star in your Day Pillar, you will receive much support throughout your life. Your mother is your staunchest ally. Men with this pillar can marry into a prominent family, while women can marry a highly capable partner, making them a pillar of support in the relationship. 【Chinese Classical Poetry】 The noble comes to take his seat, His inkwell flows with words so sweet. The warrior rides across the land, With kings and dukes at his command.

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This is super interesting, but I have to get off the paying the bills types of people this is also why I turned a bit woo, there is nothing mystical about paying the bills, but my mother makes it a spiritual quest we have some serious issues in our family, ever since I faced this Ibliss zoomer culture with their fans etc. https://en.anthro.wiki/Slavic_culture Please read, if your from the east, I enjoy a lot of culture and have some good inner child stuff, but the neighbour and the russian polish couple is a fked matched hell they act with brotherly love, while I am focused on god, my vision and path etc. anyhow I stop here.

I finish the episode first, then continue to contemplate to take better actions, I have been hindred with the corrupted interest of others, due to the exheridation karma, and the constant abuse of my health, and some new laws that might change it, I have to see around it. I am still working on pleasing myself, there is still an issue of corrupting innocence, and I forced myself to become stronger, there is a huge issue, of people who have been fat with health, as I have a different perspective, and culture forces that GOD-Health issue on to me, and corrupt me quickly, and I am still exploring my D.N.A let alone the information from 40 miles run in 5h, and the limits I face in my body, and the core issue of women, also being addicted to sex etc. This will take me still 1-2 years, I never thought the corruption would go so far, with companies and lying on Linkedin, hackers etc. there is a lack of security from the state, due to russian corrupted influence, and these germans are inherently angry, if we ally Russia is dead done and over with, but idk if we blow-up the world, the lectures I did could kill the entire world with the level of depth, but the point of love I was not serious enough, I noticed, I have to push some conscious will into this lucifer point. People and my D.N.A my family pushed me also to much into politics, and I frankly cared more as a child about realizing god, idk it's just something I did intutively even Hitler was beyond stream-entry most likely, as an INFJ I can be a tyrrant or god, but the more god-like I am the more enviousness I faced and receiving death threats when you're innocent and conscious is just fucked, I did the samething as these clowns from the east steadily attacked, me instead of the goodness and love the culture brought, I faced the issue their money caused, for the american money, for ther german money, hence eu, and we require the help of china and become finally a world that expands into the universe etc. I am taking baby-steps again, but they are beyond low baby-steps there is some corruption with in me, due to the physical giftedness and culture abusing subtle energy, and most likely the causal, where I require more reading, but I prefer journaling to take steps, I generally prefer not knowing, as a core structure, but at times, not knowing fucks you so hard in the ass, that you require to know what is happening in terms of survival, and the power games of the older and newer generation is a huge issue, due to me requiring more practice, I should be sucked an absored in what I love, I recognize a lot of beauty through my psychdelic training, but most women require still more depth in their feminity, and my natural balanced energy causes a lot of envy, as I see both sides so clearly, that they start to corrupt with the low-line basic health etc. I also wanted to post this: https://zermatist.substack.com/p/on-rudolf-steiners-concept-of-lucifer?utm_source=chatgpt.com An example I faced, to contemplate further on the video and life: I am tired of being a health role model for whites, build your own body and stop extracting health, THIS EMPATHY DRIVE BY AS TO STOP, I have a completely different D.N.A and we're still one human race, I am tired of white groups not being diverse enough in order to handle the challenges of an integral world, there is not enough downtime to contemplate, just a lot of basics, that turn intermediary and advanced quickly I am tired of engaging with white people who have had serious issues with blacks for some reason, there is an issue of them loving their culture, and something must've happend I am tired of being demonized by members of the quaran and middle east for american politics I CAN'T EVEN VOTE LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE I am tired of this also meddling with politics, partially I am absolutely done with politics it's just a mask survival and shit moralism to stop war, but war will be caused over and over again I am tired of women who're jealous of my superior self-pleasuring, and them lacking the knowledge from Deida in order to go about sex properly, it's social capitalistic extraction, I am done with women abusing my compassion, I will play the game, even if it fucks me in the ass, but women are more corrupt these days then men, especially with the ahrimanic tendencies, stage blue, water alone as an element, and some issues I see studying BaZi, more deeply and the 5 ways, I have celtic,jewish,indian & black D.N.A I am very diverse, at times I look like a black jew or jesus and this pisses people of that I look even more saintly, after meditation the underbelly of the east russia and their christian nationalistic piss state is exactly what is causing is the love of the culture is not even love for gaia, not even love for helios or the sun and NOT EVEN THE UNIVERSE AND INFINITY. I have to stop the largest issue is the manipulation of normies in order to gain success I fucking hate it, that I am so self-sacrifical, and selfless but this whore of a mother conditioned me like this for her piss money, due to fear etc. this whore is more mentally ill then anyone, HER CHART IS LIKE HIMMLER I REQUIRE HELP TO GET AWAY AND I STILL REQUIRE HER BECAUSE SHE IS A FUCKING ASSHOLE ABUSING MEN FOR MONEY LIKE THE AVERAGE TRASH WHORE WHO CAN'T BE INTERDEPENDENCE AND CAN'T WORK IN A DIVERSITY GROUP BECAUSE SHE IS UNDERDEVELOPMENT I AM TIRED I REQUIRE SERIOUS HELP; BUT SOCIETY AND YOU ARE UNDERDEVELOPED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can pratically only lead, and work with the shit manipulation and focus on this piss lucifer will, as lucifer helps everyone idk more what to say, I am priviledged as half white, neglected as half-black, and in the end they call you ill, because they can't put you into a box, idk anymore what to say.

More on sobrity, I post some examples, and some core issues I faced with the dopamine culture and work

The point of getting more experience what I faced and dating and petty desires, core differences between Ji-Si consciousness as 34, and Gui-Si consciousness, the point is Gui-Si plays to much for the Lucifer soul, but might need to explore it more deeply, I am done with Ibliss types of women, or fire monkeys, I had to much of them, I know how to deal with them, but it does not clean the corruption of them, only themselves can, and they get issues after initations massively, it's a sinner consciousness. I am more of a golden monkey, then a sinner who yearns to build the world with a biased heliocentric worldview, they will use these ahrimanic insights in order to spin politics in their favour, as monkey see monkey do. Imo, Hitler has more consciousness then and unitegrated fire ape, they are a sad creature of society, I've seen a lot of symbology, FOOD IS GOD, but you don't have the quality of the SERVICE OF GOD, and people hate you for it eternally, as you're different, IDK either. The point is the mechanicalness and the lack of consciouness having more experienced what I experienced in the last 4 years was a lot of growth, and I stopped learning from failure, due to the issue of corruption with cigarettes, I will smoke under the influence of friends, before I fully quit, I know how such a commitment feels, I prefer vaping for various reasons, smoking keeps out the Luciferian soul at 417 hz frequency from my experience, but vaping is a bit different. I worked as an a.i architect, mathematician, machine learning engineer as a working student, and built a policy proposal Core lesson, the humans lacked the integral morality to integrate the idea, and reversed back to ahrimanic, mechanical reasons for profit and gain, instead of moral, there could not be a discussion held, most of the students just craved the benefits the company provided, and lacked integrity, while I was still in a mode of reflecting more serious issues, inside universities, bio-medical work with A.I is a serious fucking task, and low consciousness luciferianic and depressive ahrimanic shit kids, should simply stay off, me I have a temper that will burn you, I don't mind violence!!! That is a core issue, I keep the heat instead of just projecting it, there is a core issue of still exploring lower consciouness luciferanic desires, where online gaming etc. helps, but the core issue I faced is the constant reflection I worked as a software engineer for a company that tracked motion with translating Java to Kotlin, for user interfaces and microcontrollers The core issue I faced was the outsourcing and not building and founding a foundation, a start-up feeds itself with new blood and lucifer is more welcome then, GOD or Ahrimanic tendencies, as they don't care about quality, only efficiency, and Lucifer is more efficient then Ahriman, but not more effective in causation. The health of the company was so fucked it corrupted me completely with food, now I am hooked on coffee, and learning from this lucifer soul, that is not defined, will, ego etc. I realized my mother has this soul and acted egotistical, she is Satan practically in some cirumstances, as she absorbs and corrupts with her push & pull dynamic the core issue of love, she extracts love like Lucifer extracts capital out of light. There is a lack of integrity, only moralistic tendencies, my God-Consciousness and practice attenuated her, and she even supports it, but she is racist, and forces poverty consciousness onto you, to extract more money, and feel toxic pride for her son, I notice in my gut it does not relate to my strong fire energy leadership, that is more passionate, but that passion seems to generate negative Luciferanic souls or Ahrimanic souls, as survival gives you nothing back The best point I noticed is how I worked for one of the largest company conglomarets about auditing cars in Germany, TÜV this is the most serious case, where I will write more simply, because of the Ahrimanic, pedophilic tendencies of framing everything down to mechanisms, language power games, and not focusing on the middle class extracting everything from big companies, while not even focusing on their core money generator, which was Microsoft, and Microsoft is fked partially without China, but Lucifer incarnated in China, as far as I know, I am more aware of entities, ever since I faced people from Islam and Quaran as their language alone let's them be warry of the corruptions of Christians, but they have a very negative perspective of Jesus that will just cause crusades, and a lot of survival goes into this, and into religion, I bought some audiobooks, my consciousness and name should be from my intuition connected to Moses itself, as my D.N.A is very high, I have to take care not to accidentally delete me in mahasamadhi, as my physical training and what my black body needs is beyond, and there have been plenty of Seraphims in the past, but Lucifer ape is not!!! If you're D.N.A either historically or not is fucked by True human acitivty or esoteric chartings and True channeled information that I found, even in coding etc. I stop here, I am just running on coffee and vape, ever since I worked for a company that is called MotionMiners, as at times oxes are just satan, and riding satan like the ox-herding pictures is not something I enjoy, there is stuff where you can skip dealing with humans who're stuck in a satanic soul and this ox-power drive archetypally, they enjoy their own satanic soul more even then lucifer, if you ever played through Baldurs Gate III you'd realize, how Satan even scares lucifer tainted souls, as there is no mercy whatsoever, just cruel humour, and nefarious tendencies, not peace, no healing, no happy ending. I watched a lot of war history in order to understand war, and even play simulated versions in order to see my own morals, and see what is neccessary, but what I realized is how important economy is, and a proper moralistic framework, and health, but I am still involved with petty desires, I was at peak health and broke down with inevitabilities, I now transcended, but as soon as I get started the most tiny creatures will activate their luciferanic soul, and they suck light out of beauty and god, like pedophiles dancing on mallorca their fetishes, I am quiet done with this, I am still open to explore, as a mage or agent practically, but the core issue is the connection to GOD, the heliocentric worldview will let you work till you die worse then 996, I am glad my health is superior and can tank it, but the core issue is I require some melancholy downtime and healing. The corruption of goodness is also something I faced, when people enjoy more petty desires, and ask for them, some people don't deserve to have any cleanliness as there is a deeper corruption of wealth and old money, where there is not enough clarity, and not everyone can provide clarity and they fuck up potential more worse then race war, white people abused the 5 elements ever since Egyptian days, it's a huge issue, it's mostly survival and history, I have the information, but I had some troubles with the serious corruption of a family, due to the corruption of Islam, idk what to say I leave it at that.

The core issue I faced is people constantly needing role models when, I do well and take care of health, just be careful many of you are more corrupt spiritually then me!!!! WAY MORE

I did some healing meditations as there is a fundamental difference in the jouissance of Leo and me, and the core issue of the Ahrimanic, mechanical evils of his training as an Aerospace engineer and the Luciferian soul, and a lot of issues here that the Quaran & Islam can't be seen as peaceful, due to Ibliss, and Haditen. The link below allows me to contemplate, but I realized some teachings of Leo are corrupted, as other things pulled me into reality, and love and I re-watched the episode, and my devil is more Ahrimanic, not a Luciferianic fan-girl that flatters you with all of the attention and love, that is not a Queen, simply a princess at best, a naughty daddys girl looking for salvation, I realized this in the last relationship, a true Queen will always love you. This type of role archetypal work, has been important to me, as modernism is stuck with bolshevistic queens just gunning for material success, but not even in an Ahrimanic coagulative way, but in a Luciferanic manipulative faith type of way, attacking the lower 3 chakras and not the higher 3 chakras. There is more history to it, our core issue between Leo and me is Ahrimanic in nature, but we both agree for eons, that the cosmos and God is not mechanical, but lucifer uses it against itself, it's like letting a peasent with a lucifer soul into university, just to manipulate the faith of masses in order to extract power, fame, money and status. There is more I did some small practices, but I am more skeptical of some members, ever since the issue of A.I and Lucifer arrives etc. and I enjoy this Kant hardcore type of music to smack the corruption out of me, but to also go about my own desires, even if they are dark, if I don't go into them I will not burn karma, and yes that can include fucking low class luciferian whores, that is not even ratchet and it can include men also, I don't have a luciferian soul. We're more like an avalon, the core point is being near a luciferian soul, while I naturally have more god-consciousness and some other esoteric insights, the core point is the only thing needed as it aids survival tremendously for me, is a practice rooted and puling me into GOD, GOD erradicates that type of soul, but it's as if your dealing with a 20 headed snake disgused as a luciferianic pedophile that will eat your children and pray to moloch! I am grateful for my war saint soul and that I dislike and despise lucifer, where I see the teachings of Jesus are a pointer towards Truth, if treated with survival respect and the core pointer of there is Truth in what he teaches if properly integrated. I am also grateful to be more cathlic then evangelical, evengelicals are troubled with Luciferian souls, cathlic humans more with the issue of Ahrimanic soul, and just not seeing mechanics and the cosmos is an emmanation of GOD, due to lucifer I am convinced even with light, LIGHT is not enough, GOD has to take place, and that can even happen with "corrupt things", smoking like Allan Watts, Taisen Deshimaru etc. they realized it, the core issue is mostly the corruption of lucifer in the lower 3 chakras for health also, as soon as they are clean, Lucifer will taunt you!!! LEO BE CAREFUL MAN! I am one of the few members who willingly points out this lucifer soul!!! But I also enjoy parts of it, I keep some things private, the core issue I have with this Kant channel is boredom and jouissance of life, pushing that and enjoying it beautifully! But fuck Lucifer!!! Be very careful FUCK LUCIFER it's way worse having lower 3 chakras conflited then higher 3, Earth and Water comes top down, not bottom up, fires moves up, Lucifer should be burned at the stake, and I see a lot of zoomers fan girls fan boys just being stuck in this ahrimanic/luciferian mixture of the senses, but if GOD-SENSES kick in this stuff is just removed, annihalted and deleted. This is important also to understand history and stop wagging war, I am a 7k war saint soul, so practically I would be forced to go with this and hold a crusader, REMBMER WE ARE CRUSADERS FOR AVALON, this shit here and the shadow is fucking deep why does terror else exist just seeing pure evil and satan? https://rsarchive.org/Lectures/19191101p02.html?utm_source=chatgpt.com

I do also have a gut feeling about knowledge and survival, I stopped being more mature in power = knowledge, and pushing myself conceptually, also to transcend, my core issue is simply I dislike spiritual normies, and "clean cleans" who just scream perfect perfect like immature 2 year olds, I had enough ungrateful bastards in my life, I did a lot of practice it takes a lot of maturity to convince me working with a lot of Phd's and other humans showed me also the issue of the creative space and maturity, where this alpha music just kills the inner wussi in me absolutely, it aids a lot of survival tendencies and projections anyhow I stop again. I still have some different perspectives, I can deepen my archetypal work, but I have to be careful not to go overboard and also not to hang-out in these green health spaces, anyhow I stop again... I changed a lot, This is still art, at times I take it to serious, but learning from the mistakes is valueable.