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Oh god, the Anxiety has doubled by now. I feel such an acute pain in my heart. It's overwhelming to be in a croud or in the mall... The pain is so strong.

I recently found out that it is possible to tune our brains with a specific frequency and that is by listening to binaural beats. Listening to these sounds is supposed to have some consciousness altering effect. Is this technology good for the work we're doing towards spiritual enlightenment? What are the best frequencies to do this work? It seems the frequency of a binaural beat (which is the difference between the frequency of the two input sounds) is between 0-50Hz, but is that so? I see big numbers like 936Hz on YouTube, are they referring to this difference of frequencies or another type of frequency? Thanks

@Wormon Blatburm What are your thoughts on people, in this forum, claiming to have enlightenment experiences using binaural beats while meditating? There's a lot of feedback pointing to the efficacy of b-beats. But then again, there are people who claim it's all nonsense.

It's worth pinpointing some things that I feel days after the experience My vision got better I feel much happier and with a greater mood (despite the feeling of anxiety) Weird, huh? I just feel like smiling and loving!

Thank you so much!

It's a feeling of anxiety. It's mostly located in the heart below the nipple. It's like a buzzing sensation, like a vibration.

Ok, so the feeling is fading away. It's still there, but with less intensity.

So today's morning I tried to give this substance my first shot. I hadn't tried any psychedelics before. After snorting ~20mg of the substance with a cut-up straw, I rested my head upside down for exactly 5 minutes. Then, I laid back on the couch and relaxed (body completely opened as previously suggested). So in the first minutes, my heart rate starts increasing and I start experiencing some weird phenomena. I started saying Oh my god outloud, followed by Oh fuck and Son of a bitch. I think this is what people refer as panic attacks. I vividly remember screaming on the top of my lungs: Oh my gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood, Oh fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck. And then, Oh, oh my god. Oh my god oh my god. Son of a bitch. I was puzzled by this because I don't usually use this vocabulary. I'd put my hands in my face and then say the words Oh my god repeatedly. I also opened my mouth very wide repeatedly and throughout the entire session. It would be so wide that it would actually hurt. I remembered what Leo said and forced my body to be completely opened. Then, some really weird stuff started happening. Between these moments of panic, I would have brief moments of total satisfaction. My faced looked exactly like this emoji - - with the tongue sticking out. I also experienced moments of being the stereotypical homosexual (my voice would also change to match this persona). Notice that I was almost always saying the words Oh my god. So this was like nothing I ever did before. It was actually not what I was expecting at all. I'd appreciate some feedback, thanks NIGHT AFTER THE EXPERIENCE Oh boy, what a weird night. I woke up 5 times during last night's sleep. I would wake up, turn around in the bed and adjust my pillow. Then, I'd fall back asleep like immediately. This happened while I was meta-observing myself. I wouldn't actually feel like I was controlling the body, it would just move by itself but I was conscious of it.

What? I don't know. But it's there in some form of Anxiety.

I actually set a timer of 5 minutes after insufflation. After that, I laid back on the couch and ~10 minutes later it peak. It lasted for around another 10 minutes. The entire experience lasted for ~50 minutes. It burned a lot. A couple minutes after insufflation, I felt a really unpleasant sensation in my nose and back of my throat. I ultimately forgot about it during the experience. . I want to get an enlightenment experience. I knew the panic attacks would pass, so I was kind of calmed and panicking at the same time if that makes any sense. Well, I don't know if I'm ready or not but I'm down for more trips!

In the peak of the experience, my body would move by itself. I could control it but I chose not to. It's a very fine powder already.

I underestimated 5-MeO

So, 60 days ago I watched Leo's video: I already went through Stage 1 and 2, and I'm now entering Stage 3 but I'm still confused to what I'm supposed to do. In stage 2 I would notice thoughts arising and then refocus on the void. Now, in Stage 3 I'm supposed to Put awareness on awareness itself and Open to the question "What is awareness?". I'm still not clear as what this is. I would appreciate some feedback! Thanks

I've been following Actualized.org for a year or two, and after watching Leo's videos on enlightenment and 5-MeO-DMT, I thought to give it a shot. After hours and hours and hours of research, I finally got my hands on 500mg of 5-MeO-DMT, the HCl version. I've re-watched the 5-MeO video and at some point, Leo says only people over 21 should experiment with this substance. I wonder if this is due to health issues or emotional stability issues. I'm 17 by the way. I'm thinking about starting with the really low dosages and working up from there. Any advice before I try this out? Thanks!

This is some heavy shit

I'm not doing psychedelics because they're "fun". I want to get something valuable from this.

I usually underline the key points while reading and, simultaneously, write down a summary of each chapter using my own words. I wonder what methods you guys use

I want to know it just from pure curiosity. I already follow a meditation routine.

Not really. I'm not really into psychedelics, but I'm dying to know the Truth.

I've been meditating for a couple of months now so I decided to make a log sheet, where I put the duration, technique and a summary of my experience everyday. I attached the PDF file to this post. Just print it and start using it Here's how it looks after (kinda) finished: Meditation Habit Sheet.pdf

I've also struggled with this in the past. I still face some issues with it, but it got a lot better. The thing I found most helpful was getting to a powerful realization. For me, this realization was that, ultimately, opinions of others reflect who they are, not who you are. Somehow, something in my mind clicked and now I'm much more grounded.

That's great! (I've also read The Six Pillars of Self-Esteem, amazing book!)

I go to bed @ 21:30 and wake up @ 7:30 (with alarm clock, otherwise 8:00 or 8:30). Before setting this sleeping schedule, I used to go to sleep at mid-night or so, but felt very tired the following day. It's actually annoying because I feel tired too quickly, and if I don't go to bed very early, I won't have any energy left the next day and be too sleepy. I do a lot of exercise, and don't eat fast-food nor high-sugar foods. I want to make more time to meditate, self-actualize, book reading, research, etc. How can I sleep less without diminishing my energy? Thanks!

I've been doing 30-minute meditation sessions cross-legged for a couple of months now. In these cases, I can handle the numbness pretty well. However, I've recently tried to boost to 60-minute sessions, but the numbness and pain are very high during the last 10-15 minutes. It's like hell! I try to observe it and resist the urge to stop it but it's very hard. I could finish the 60-minute session, so I'm wondering if this pain is actually good for me to focus on or it's just bad and I need to take care of it (by switching the position). Any feedback is highly appreciated! Thanks

Yeah