Willy Phallicus

God told me I was the perfect vessel and he needed to lovingly torture the shit out of me for decades so I could carry the weight of the Truth. Okay God, now what?

Yes, its the mechanism God employs to remind God that ultimately everything is fine and going to be just fine. Then there's Gods creation, the not material - material universe which is locked in a crud master/slave, predator/prey dichotomy in which positive brings the negative along with it and Gods infinite light casts an infinite shadow. I am aware that neither master or slave is sentient and this is the dialectic process consciousness employs to expand and become but if I was going to play the blame game and try stuffing ten pounds of shit into a five pound bag then I would have to engage in some real good blasphemy against God.

I think what Dodo is trying to say is that while God is perfect, beautiful love the world that God has made manifest is kind of shitty for most of Gods creatures in Gods mind. Its a contradiction and that fact is no longer denied by the sentient. So while its great to wake people up at some point consciousness needs God to learn how to be God.

If it could be better than I guess it would be.

Not everyone needs to wake up. Just one of us does. Figure it the fuck out already.

I hear ya bro, its a big fucking job that's why nobody wants it and the whole show gets run by the more corrupt elements of our nature. But the gurus of the last 2600 years aren't kidding - you're God. If God is good things will be good. They tell you the truth right to your face and you simply don't accept it because deep down you really dont want too for whatever reason and thus things aren't good. Make no mistake though this whole thing is your idea and this is how you really want to live. The evidence is, you are God crafting this experience and it can't be anything other than what God wants because God is the supreme power in the universe which is real easy to achieve when you just so happen to be the only one and youre pure infinite miracle. As a dream character of yours you fabricated for this expressed purpose, I am praying to you, my God, to improve the quality of life on this planet for all, not just me. Cuz Im getting tired of this shit.

I didn't come to my understanding through a guru. That came on by its own, out of nowhere (no drugs) on a couple of occasions and I sought the guru to tell me I wasn't actually fucking crazy. The guru and the drugs confirmed what I already knew because I knew I had forgotten it. Its sublime metaphysical poetry on an infinite scale. When you hear "You are God" that's not a joke. Its just you motherfucker, having a whacked out fever dream on planet durp. The joke is you're telling yourself you're God and you're simply not accepting the truth of what is right in front of your fucking face. You actually managed to convince yourself this shit was real - that's how fuckin good you are. You cant help but love it. We could get along but you make that impossible. This is just your reminder that you're responsible for the dream so if you're dream sucks you can have a better dream. Win the lottery or something, I dunno. Get rid of your alcohol addiction and drive right and shit. Up to you.

Are you totally 100% conscious of the literal fact that you are literally talking to yourself right in this very moment? Yes or No? That answer will settle whether you know or understand anything at all. Why did you create me, the universe and the Actualized community, which has a solipsistic leaning, to have this conversation? Could it be because you wouldn't be able to have this very discussion you wanted to have otherwise? When you ask the guru for the truth and the guru says "this" is the truth you're looking for he's not being mystical, cute or coy in any way. He's telling it like it is. Its up to you whether you want to accept the truth or not. 100% for the record I don't blame or judge you one fucking bit because who the fuck wants to take responsibility for this shit show, Im not but hey, it fuckin woke you up didnt it? It fucking worked and having the realization that you're God like its the first time every time is just about the best damn fucking outcome you can have. Holy shit, I really am the Savior so then you save yourself (since its its just you and can only be you) through the knowledge that its just you so everything is actually hunky dory. You're certainly not bored.

Meaninglessness goes way beyond human comprehension and the human imagination is a shit show of epic proportions. "People" really struggle with the Oneness thing. There's only one mind in the Universe. In the complete absence of other minds "Alone" is a perfectly good metaphor.

Ill say God is lonely, bored and his existence is ultimately meaningless and naturally people interpret that as being wrong and tell me it's negative outlook - I'm assuming that's because of what loneliness, boredom and meaninglessness means to most human beings - even if I clarify that I don't mean it in a negative sense. Ultimately yes, there are no real downsides to being God but nothing is impossible, ontologically or otherwise to the supreme deity.

It means turning the feminist movement into a war and push the agenda of liberation towards one of conquest and subjugation.

Good/Evil, Right/Wrong, Light/Dark. You can't have one without the other. Either way you are bound to Natural Consequence. If you want to play the duality game and learn everything you need too there's no way around it.

You and every aspect of your experience. I Am = Oneness. The lone, infinite dreamer dreaming infinite dreams. Pure fucking magic. The Kingdom is inside you and outside you. It is You - always has been and always will be.

Its okay to want money and a companion. There's no hypocrisy in it. So long as you're primary drives aren't prestige, luxury, fame or power/influence over others you'll be fine. You dont need to deny those things either should they come to you so long as they are balanced out with higher faculties and finer sentiments.

Godzilla is real. May God have mercy.

Be wary of anyone the mainstream promotes as being smarter and better than you.

As someone who has been involved in a number of smaller ceremonies I have a ton of opinions I would love to give but I will respect everyone's right to do what thou wilt. While I think the journey should be trodden by the individual and the individual alone I must confess that there are huge....ummm..benefits(?) to interacting with to at least one other person when one or both are in a state of ego submission. After which any and all doubts will be swiftly swept away. I see that Leo will be partnering people up and screening applicants so I will hope for the best but if I had one caveat to add to this it would be make sure you have had some kind of trauma dump prior to attempting this.

Welcome to the Kingdom.

I dont know what they put in the public education history books these days but when I was a kid they taught us a completely fabricated myth about George Washington chopping down a cherry tree and being too honest to lie about it. Why (rhetorical)? They taught that we fought a war of liberation over a tea tax (which the majority was completely against but the freakmasons were hot to get revolutionizing) yet somehow omitted that GW's first act as president was to march his army off to kill a bunch of civilians who had a problem with a whiskey makers tax. They taught the founding fathers weren't actually genocidal elitist slave masters but men of great integrity and good will towards their fellow man. Somehow Thomas Jefferson's posse of black sex slaves and Ben Franklins orgy cave didn't make it into mainstream history books. Anyhoo, for anyone interested go read the works of John Taylor Gatto (an honest historian, not a conspiracy guy) about the history of the american public education system which was intentionally designed to create, as George Carlin put it, 'obedient workers' aka unquestioning wage slaves. So yeah, its all bad, religion included. Id posit that perhaps homeschooling your children on spiritual and worldly matters might be the way to go but Im sure someone would find a problem with that too.

All religion is retarded and yet there are deep truths in all the holy books. But the bullshit and manipulative history they teach in schools is somehow tolerable.

Frankly I would be concerned if you weren't anxious or sad at times. I think we're all looking down the double barrel of techno fascism and mob mayhem and it's very sobering. I just try to remain aware of the fact that this reality is insane all around and that it's nothing personal. It helps me to realize that this shit world really is just that fucking stupid and futile and disillusionment is only natural. The goal is not to spare yourself the horror or save yourself from the suffering, nor is it to be redeemed so as to return to perfect bliss. The goal is to make the suffering of existence productive. To use it to give substance to the fluff that is you in order to forge your soul and liberate your spirit. So while those feelings are uncomfortable and unwanted they are not without value. Resistance just stokes their flames anyway. Your soul is pointing you to something and you would do well to examine those feelings honestly with both your heart and mind. This reality is given substance by something greater than it, but that Grace which transcends all understanding allows for us to overcome that which has been manifest in haste and limitation. That's why the David Icke's "it's all an illusion hologram" is fucking stupid. The hologram is a property of reality, not the other way around. Reality is not a hologram, the body is not a computer, infinite love is not the only truth - these concepts are only embraced by fools and cowards who seek to diminish the nature of the challenge of existence because they are wounded and terrified that that which is in them is not greater than that which is in the world. So yes, you can control them, to a degree - but you don't want to end up in a place where you are deluding yourself by avoiding the harshness of reality or the feelings that it gives rise too. Seek to understand them instead.

The case could be made that some members have a cult like devotion to Leo and/or Leo's teachings. There are plenty of sound bites from Leo that can be taken out of context to frame him as a cult leader. There is no real evidence of a cult, just some data being interpreted to fit a theory.

On the contrary its the complete and polar opposite. Its sublimely perfect and chock full of unconditional love. I said words do not do it any justice because I don't mean for it to be taken to its literal extreme. I know its just me and I know why Im having a human dream. That doesn't imply meaning it just means that meaninglessness goes way beyond human comprehension. Well that cant be right because I had three full on awakenings a full five years before I ever tried a psychedelic and even then I wasn't taking the drugs for the purposes of illumination. Spirituality, especially the New Age variety, was something I knew nothing about and considered it something wierdos were into as far as I was concerned. I came to my understanding of reality completely backwards to how most spiritual yuppies "find themselves". There is no correct, one path to gnosis. To each his own. All I needed was for my ego to get out of the damn way and not mistake it for a mental breakdown or straight up madness like I had done previously. Mission accomplished. I want for nothing. Except perhaps off this ride as quickly and painlessly as possible. Otherwise, I already have everything I want and its the process I call "me". Absolutely free to choose.

Words can never really do it justice but my awakening all those after it basically amount to the same thing - Im a bored and lonely god and this is what a bored and lonely and infinite god does - escape loneliness and boredom and infinity by forgetting who I truly am so I can bask in the glory of limitation, finiteness and other. The only thing that makes being limitless interesting is pretending not to be limitless. The only thing that can titillate the immortal is the threat of non existence - even if there's no real threat to be realized. As far as how its altered my experience, well, it hasn't really done much in that department at the surface level. Im still carrying water and chopping wood. It is my understanding that I am here to carry water and chop wood because for all intents and purposes, I really have nothing better to do.

Life is hard on everyone - we all have our crosses to bear. When waist deep in christ consciousness I would ponder this. Why would I, as God, choose an existence of suffering when I could choose otherwise? The answer would be, this is what you want to experience as unbelievable as that is to the ego. My myriad of health and worldly problems weren't actually problems - it was to play the game of seeing if human me could overcome them or find some way to live/love them - this was the experience I am here to have. Im not really doing the insight any justice with this post but that's basically it.