Ellonek

Am I getting into another indie phase?

Life would be too dull without music... Music is magic.

I live like a hermit and I have no intention to change that in near future. I like it.

https://www.youtube.com/@Wakeupcrashingontheshoresof8

Nothing rides humanity like capitalism does. I am not into it but that is what works for the general populace.

I have heard regression therapies work wonders but I haven't experienced first hand to really know. Maybe try that out?

I feel the same way. I think It comes as such because masculine was polluted and went to extremes(to toxicity) throughout the ages. When the examples of masculine is toxic feminine which was spared (as it lacked power in the world stage) looks as more evolved compared to examples of toxic masculinity in the world stage we see throughout the history. When balanced though masculine is also a creative aspect of the divine dance so inherently I believe neither is the more evolved just seems like so in the context of the world/humanity and its history.

That is my mantra for smoking...

Peace of mind, for forever.

I totally agree with this and Ted Kacsinzkys. If you are interested in this topic further make sure to check out "Remaking Society" by Murray Bookchin.

I feel like this a lot but I just keep going because "it is not my time yet"... I know it sounds deterministic but I genuinely believe death will come naturally when the time is right according to my higher self. So I just hang in there until my time comes. I hope you hold on too until natural exit.

I think being content is more vital than happiness. I hope at least you are content so you could embrace happiness better when it comes your way.

The pain I would leave behind for my family. That is the only reason I can find to be alive. Not that I am depressed I just feel no other tethers keeping me on this Earth when something much better(At least I think) awaits on the other side of the veil...

I don't know how heartfelt it was but I was impressed with her when she said she forgives the attacker. That might be to garner political sympathies but still it was the right message.

Understanding is secondary to experience, sometimes we get it twisted... We should value understanding as far as it refines our experience, understanding for the sake of understanding is a dead end imo.