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New song: Divine Reason - https://0ooo0ooo0.bandcamp.com/track/divine-reason No more YouTube releases. Platform is too impure and immature. Bandcamp is more solid. Listening to the track costs no money. Returning to my post just prv, meta-configuration is just meta-environmental self-awareness (and I treat those categories that span as slots to choose between in developing the human experience). I become aware of the structural category of existence I am engaging in and the functional category that this belongs to. This simple feedback loop informs agency versus juxtaposed agency. The former reflects purist alignment with the structural identity of being a metaphysical self or self through metaphysical awareness, akin to reality understanding its own self-awareness. The latter reflects self-awareness through modelled architecture, “I know my self while listening to this song, replaying this memory, or being with this person”. Juxtaposition here, reflects the continuous reflexive condition between awareness and modification of its relationship with this environmental substructure, or more colloquially, subculture. This is how collectivist demographics seem to form, and they happen more quickly the quicker two mirroring actions happen together repeatedly. The first mirroring simply involves the described “self awareness through modelled architecture”. The second involved this repeated action that also leans towards people meeting towards a similar point. Mind symbiosis here becomes collectivistic solipsism, this isn’t in-group out-group biases as much as it is an attractor point by which those traits now emerge through shared identity. To casually put it, we often think of identity all the beliefs that not only a person has but the attractor point that a person is drawn towards to define their self organisation through. This is merely a superficial layer to identity formation however. It’s still functioning as it’s meant to, but qualitatively it’s out of alignment. Alignment reflects where identity becomes a shared experience between reality and awareness modelling. Bouncing up and down to rap music is still technically acting this out in function, how it is often out of alignment with the reflexive self organisation that remodels experience more purposefully rather than just becoming a simulacrum of exposure points. This is where meta-configuration becomes the superposition of those experiences that reintroduce novel directions by understanding where human trait awareness meets self selective consciousness override and directional momentum. We have to pay attention to the political parties within, monitor how votes are being made, and learn to become the judge moment to moment on what political party we let win, never siding with one too much, while moving to new paradigms as a political party not judt its leader, exhausts its welcome too long in our consciousness. Otherwise, I wrote the song (includes music styles) above in about ten minutes, choosing an ai variation took double the time. Ha. I think I should have a select songs on the PROJECT : MEANING site, so I will make one song every couple of days and then choose from the hundred or so I have by the end of the year. The kind of music I create changes relative to training on stage one and two presently available at PROJECT : MEANING, "Divine Reason" is a solid recalibration there. Yeah, and I don’t use YouTube anymore and I never will. As AI increases, imagination becomes the currency by which social intelligence is exchanged. So I just use previous forensic analysis based ai prompts on incoming news, synthesise and go through an investigative learning cycle through imagination instead. It’s minus all the noise of presenters and circumstances you have to deal with so trained well, you become more accurate while honing it. Ironically, you become less not more myopic.

April 22nd, 2026 Blind Entry title: How the environment becomes sentient. Meta-arrangement of genetic binaries, self-aware status driven augmentation over folded epigenetic-identity loops. Choice driven optionality becomes self-selective rather than an outcome of 'acausal' environmental seduction, or as a chooser of causal social conditioning. Degrees of meta-arrangement of physical identities reflects an adeterministic causal stage of development in agency, the meeting ground between where recursive depth and awareness define the degrees of involuting 'self-time' to mapping ratio that creates a signal that is self-defined. The limit of modelled gradient discent here marks the quality of self-referentiality, where at every stage of advance, reflects not a greatee departure or rebellion (lower but sometimes necessary forms of agency) from the environments causes but rather, a realignment with the depths of its self-similarities. A gap that describes the distance between individual and citizen, but also as well as, how sophisticated ones connection with the surrounding environment ans greater society in which one dwells, is. Sentience's higher role is always to harmonise its relationship with the environment, not to bite the hand that feeds, nor to chain ones freedom to the environments declarations. This is sentiences sight on self-architecture meets the awareness that grows the reward of doing so, a reward that becomes self-instructional, redefining the ground parameters of what encompasses self-discipline outside the environment, while rewarding within it. This is unity with training wheels as a functional typology in action, not just a feeling state, it details how unity is actually just recursion across multiple indices from the cognitive to the emotinal, that are interlocking. This converts "unity" into a space, a meeting ground between all the forces thst make us not just a being, but also teach and continually re-teach us, to be human. And in return, how the environment becomes sentient by the self merely learning to better interlock deeper "meta-data" with the deeper self-states, the "meta-bridges" with the higher consciousness and the awareness that supports it, that produceit. In short, the “Meta-data” narrative built below earlier (same post - deleted from other journal as wrong place) carried to rebuilding the relational bridge between where awareness ends and narrative driven action begins. 21st of April: Hopefully my entries will grow in length again into May, though without compromising relational compression. At the very least, this period of struggling with my health has grown my understanding on the relationship between cognition and inner narrative augmentation of the environment. The “it” from “bit”, as in the impact between cognition on worldview outside prevailing worldviews, a nuance that drives the development of both heinous demographics all the way to the more grounded and inspirationally enlightened. A precious mechanism, that misunderstanding or completely missing, leads to discussions like “the grand psychosis of the masses” all the way to a hyper-inflated self-view from individual to smaller groups that is based on false-positive sampling of the masses themselves, growing an identity through the same very selective comparison that defeats the sanity of masses. The ghost in the machine is meant to stay a ghost, if it doesn’t, this important lesson reveals that said ghost starts chasing phantoms instead of merely learning to spark that light from underneath itself, and return back to heaven. The rightful direction of any healthy awareness, to seek more of itself through its own absence. I can’t hold my attention for very long yet still so I can’t build those compressed sentences in further paragraphs. Super disorientated with a cough but improving in other areas. Relational ability seems slowly returning to normal, or placebo following from yesterday’s insight.

@No1Here2c Go to the site. Dont be lazy. That said, I dont want to be a hypocrite, so I am holding myself accountable. I was a bit lazy in my reasoning just above. Thus, to everyone at large, I thought of a simple solution heading to bed yesterday. I just have to break up the project into smaller parts, having Claude code create one part at a time followed by me manually joining them up at the end directly into the html. I am new to all this needless to say heh. That said, although Stage 2 is all ready to assimilate now, luxury items like perfectly synced timers and sounds, will now, I promise, be made available May 1st for those that would like to stay purely on site. Otherwise, to everyone please take the time to reflect before posting on my journal. I did initially request for no comments, however I am open minded if the comment is carefully thought out and you've done your research. Then its a win-win for the both of us. For those truly struggling, once a week I will make myself available via private messenger. I think lounging around during my sick period (lots of yucky stuff you wouldnt want to hear about) made me a little lax other than just cognitively weaker. Well, I am at 80 percent plus now, and with that expect my writing to naturally return back to normal 😜. I think I can actually reach a new level of self mastery overall as well too, so higher creativity, etc too following the training outcomes of PROJECT : MEANING with self regulation and self alignment being some of those. Sincerely, best regards.

confession before the end of the night: excellent vid directly above by Abigail Marsh reminded me of something I wanted to get off my chest real quick before end of night. She’s truly a great role model for many women Anyhow, confession (relates to Abigail’s work above)… so I use to fetishise the film 7 Pounds a lot like giving my life organ by organ to people that really needed it, then judt ending things and I still have that part in me, but it reflects a time in my life that was burdened by pain hadn’t gotten over. I have never been suicidal, but it sort of felt beyond that, like that I had transcended life in a way, tho I don’t like the word transcended in this context. Transcendence as well, again, depending on the angle in which it is pointing, it can lead to more problems than good, That said annyhow, etching the ruler of time as a permanent stance that I have to overcome and leave that part of me behind. i can and still should do it if I believe that, I trust myself that it’s a reflection of who I am, but it’s just about the place it’s coming from. I knew it was and is me. But it had angular momentum that felt like, yeah…. A lack of faith in life at the time, and I believe it’s really important to maturely develop… a genuinely deep sense of faith in life as a way of anchoring oneself forward. Faith is not anti-reality either. Faith, and many inclinations, they are just asking, what are the coordinates of it’s action, is it sensible, does it have action potential that gives back healthy meaningful feedback they leans to grater learning and wisdom. If yes, that’s kinda the angle of momentum that makes sense, depressurising rather than a pressure thet reflects mindsets build not from the wisdom of pain, but the outcome of its continuing struggle, even if u look courageous or feel courageous. What’s beneath it? What’s moving it? but yeah Abigail Marsh does an excellent job with her video, “The neuroscience of extremes: Ruthless psychopathy to extraordinary generosity - Abigail Marsh”. I really really recommend it now into that haunted house YouTube sit, haha these people are so funny that do these kinds of vids 😎

The following is purely instructive, non-personal, and not open to discussion or comment. People enjoy learning about spiral dynamics. This journal documenting my own behaviours serves as a practical case study analogue to the theorisarions on stage coral. For those new to spiral dynamics, find further resources on Spiral Dynamics following this branch if you need to. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spiral_Dynamics This journal is not for ego posturing, projections or entertaining of anyone's narcissism. This forum has delayed, obstructed, limited, derailed and misguided too many peoples personal growth as a consequence of it being unaligned or undersigned with its formal purpose. Any comparable energy brought to this journal is not welcome to either read or comment in this space. Politely, please respectfully move onto your own more important day to day goals to bette3 serve your own personal growth. Personal growth is not a competition, competition is reflective of a stage and aspect of personal development. Shared personal growth is purely collaborative, loving, supportive and self-honest. Self-honesty is the most important value to cultivate in ones consciousness development Please leverage this journal to help detach from any one stage in spiral dynamics or any other stage in any other model, including your own, to help bring balance and harmony to the practical actions that actually serve growth. This journal is designed to demystify and depedastalise and to help recentre people where they are in their development rather than think that something, in this case, reality, is too far above or below them. No. Reality is right here, and it has practical observable realities with stage theory in consciousness development like spiral dynamics behaving no differently. This is to provide non-theoretical guidance on practical daily to weekly habits that someone, in this case myself, that aligns with stage coral to serve as a mirror that benefits the self-awareness of others concerning their understanding of this stage and hopefully in return, benefits their own development. Practical non-theoretical behaviours are more valuable in this context for people when theory has already covered enough to research. Any further theory before it is formalised would only misguide beliefs about anything genuinely aligned and or descriptive of the actual reality of anything analogous to stage coral. This is not a journal about identity, stage worship on spiral dynamics, looking down or up to someone, in fact this cut and dry approach is to demystify, decreasing confusions and encouraging the development of a practical lens on how people that correlate with one stage more than another differ in day to day activities. The journal is very simple and straight-forward. It is a stand alone factual only journal on actual behaviours. The journal is not about beliefs, and this space is not a discussion or a space for comment on any one belief or anything related to spiral dynamics nor motivations for the continuation of this journal or otherwise. Simple logging of activities as a minimum, for example today I have been investing time in understanding the meta-language people engage in their experience of self-awareness and awareness in general from different creative perspectives. I will share my first entry more or less immediately. Below are youtube videos I have analysed today in part or in full reflective of that endeavour. It has been a habit of mine for some time now to capitalise on the time based search function on YouTube. Preferring new or the least popular videos for related purposes, one reason is because I get a less artificial glance at the human behind the creation even if it is say, an ai video, as it still reveals more about the creator compared to someone thats already popular and just feeding he algorithm that made them popular. As such ALL VIDEOS BELOW WERE UPLOADED IN THE LAST 24 HOURS. I hope the endeavour of this journal only encourages greater self awareness of ones own personal development. Providing a non-theoretical practical input that indirectly aids understanding ones own personal trajectory. Best wishes, keep a sense of humour but put awareness first. Rock out! For the time that I had in my lunch break today before heading back to work:

on that note ( post directly above) Ive actually spent a bit of time studying psychopaths, when u r on the other end of the spectrum they really do feel like an arch nemesis when u don’t understand urself and people more correlated to this profile i know the contours and the middle blackhole of their fingerprint its been a part of some aspects I’ve what I have had to do in the past. The nomenclature of overlaps is something I am also distinctly pretty solid at determining differences between other things. They have so many unique patterns that they become distinctly different to a trained eye, u have to be decent at noticing micro expressions and analogous, it’s the gaps between instance and awareness that most people miss that u gotta fill the void with intuition that has a bookmark. theyre in police forces, ASIO above, fire brigades, medical practitioners, surgeons you name it, scientific research corruption to claiming they’re saving the planet to sports athletes. Theyre not just ur run of the mill sociopath that’s clinically more an overlap between narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) and psychopathy which can actually be more dangerous as they are very revenge seeking. I would say they tend towards the more sadistic side of narcissism. And narcissistic psychopaths are distinct from psychopaths, where the former in many respects can be the worst of all. i am very good in this area, but there are others i look up to and learn from here. enioy, it’s fascinating. im done to get my bed nights rest, watching a silly haunted house story on YouTube with gf to end night i am sure I will be 5 percent to 15 percent even better from sickness with the way she has been for me

I gotta keep to my rule Holding myself accountable dozed off a bit there on the posting hence the slip ita an interesting qn anyway. Thread is below screenshot. My Comment now deleted it helps me understand myself more but seeing my response contrasted with other peoples i already knew it, just…. I think I have many blind spots I haven’t explored well enough that reveal just how wide the gap is between myself and others its not healthy to imagine the gap though or u just gotta be careful with it, thinking u r so different to other people can lead to many unhealthy directions if u r not self aware about it i like to view myself as equal, the same and that’s how I treat others outside my biases rock out yeah I have a rule, a pledge I am following as follows…. NO posting in the regular forum

I still feel pretty sedated but I got my girlfriend helping me at least another 5 percent improvement today Most of Project meaning is done it’s mainly just ai programming stuff left to do, presentation, design of learning formats I saw this after typing in “empathy” into yt last 24 hrs. As I have expressed in the past, the breadth of empathy is deeply misunderstood and spans many areas more than what people realise. My gal for example, she has a unique awareness given she’s already very aware but she’s also very empathic both cognitively and emotionally. It just seems some rant relative to the standard is go for but that’s not the point of the 24 hr shares. Let’s see. Complementing it with a vid from previously shared sir, the great Jason Silva to inspire others. he takes so much pride in his work I am sure it will be good I have not watched it yet Best wishes

We cant make this stuff up kiddos. (see post just directly above/prv) I just predict this stuff so well going back to the first page of this journal. With any luck, Mr. Priminister Albaby here will be carted off involuntarily into an ASIO van to the detention centre for an indefinite period 😂 He sold out our country. The highest treason in Australia for a long time by any known serving member of the Australian government, or any faction of Australian society for that matter.

I couldn’t have called this any better 😜 yesterday. Alien abductions are going to become much less popular as mysteries, because some Australian in the future will no doubt try to make money from a real or pretend abduction, despite the legal constraints and despite how ridiculous the success odds might be. This is how many Australians think. If it breathes, moves or descends from the sky, it can probably be reimagined as a potential Workers Compensation claim, that’s our culture in much of Australia, and if your an aboriginal (I have friends that are aboriginal I am not racist), you don’t even need to work, and you can get away with setting up a tent outside of Parliament House while successfully filing for compensation if the grass is too wet. I have zero doubt that the same sort of operators (many illegal immigrants - another problem we have in Australia - tho different classes of two decade or less immigrants mainly) who try to game the Medicare Benefits Schedule (look these terms up for non Australians) or siphon money through aged-care programs like Home Care Packages (I hear the USA have a massive prob here too), the Commonwealth Home Support Program or Support at Home, will eventually start wondering how to turn a wrongful alien abduction into a publicly funded revenue stream before the Department of Health and future “Abductees Commission” catches up. Now yal remember that “NO!” exclaimed in the previous post in however seemingly small the decisions. USA’s “no” is now far more powerful in USA than AUS by a long shot. 😎

Alright alright. so let me get this straight. Steven Spielberg is creating this 2026 film called “Disclosure Day”. and then we got this weird fkin 100th dimensional alien called “Bashar” being channeled by a gentleman called Darryl Anka saying that **THE DISCLOSURE** is going to be happening in 2027 and on top of that we are more than any time in history being absolutely swamped with UFO UAP ALIEN 👽 🛸 stuff on entertainment media to the point of absurdity? Honestly, the amount of testimony wannabe ufo abducted yt channels now is mind boggling whether it’s genuinely happening in 2027 or 2028, and I use the word genuinely for a reason. I simply find it extremely hard to believe that none of this is cultural priming. And again, whether or not all this happens even between now and 2040. this and the Epstein files overloading. People are so oblivious to these psyops and yet they r as clear as day. And a psyop is not black or white, there are layers of reasons, it’s not a buzzword, it’s just coordinated deception for concealed reasons usually at the governmental level and they happen all the time every day at many layers of government for all different reasons, some related some not. again whether disclosure happens or not. And whether that disclosure is genuine or not I am super open minded either way i am not gullible and I am not cynical It’s not a weird conversation anymore. what’s weird now is not noticing, and not speaking about it in a rational systematic way. anyjow i dont think I will super enjoy the Spielberg film either I highly doubt he hasn’t been swallowed just as much as other directors by the algorithm virus, it already feels that way watching the trailer. Ha ha 😂 but I’ll have a laugjh like a good penguin anyway…. On penguins…. Check out this brave explorer… Indiana Ice Ice 🧊 baby… dudes an alien! recmmendaton: reletive to the present climate of western civilisation say “No.” to absolutely everything that isn’t conservative in the more enlightened sense. Keep that simple rule and ull be playing ur part in maintaining western civilian sovereignty They predict ur emotions, ur outcry, ur hopelessness, ur apathy, and even false confidence. It’s pre-emptive psychological planning. we are going through a massive unprecedented overhaul in legislation over the next ten years. follow this simple rule, and if want even go to rallies up to u, but keep a smile on ur face. Because what will be, if u let fear control u, u have completely forgotten the freedom u were born with. just remember one word with soohistisrion ”NO!” N…O not argumentation or with it Not rhetoric or with it just the word no no ai no aliens no crappy films no dichotomous politics no epstein propaganda nonsense no war no extra letters to lgbtq etc use ur no silently if u want but in every decision even if u use ai. Just reduce their access to ur private info as much as is rational to do so without making a big deal out of it 👌🏻 Because that’s at the end of the day the only thing they want to change no matter the sophisticated dialogue u come up with. Many groups want to OWN ur no, not just take it away. ”No” isn’t forever, “NO” is a narrative lever, rudder, and in this instance. Inner peace maker. now have the courage of our penguin friend with much less to lose and stay blessed by just being u rock out 🤘👑

haha this is too funny 🦄😜🇦🇺 I'm comin to the USA sooooonzieeeees! 👑🥀🏆🎢

These r off the cuff comments tho dont read into anything, I’m sick right now meaning becomes nuanced the more there is an asymmetry between dissonance and truth Meaning has become a societal problem, not colloquial eloquence the kid enjoying his truck in the moment is emblematic of the adage “until u become a child, u will not inherit the kingdom of heaven” can be transformed from metaphorical story to the language of meaning by saying “until u heal ur trauma, solve ur cognitive ease, remove dogmas, hone present moment understanding, etc…. U will not experience the fluidity of meaning at the highest levels of unitive bliss with the universe” Kybalion, as above so below this whole thing isn’t about my project, so please don’t read into that ha, judt enjoy the laughs. Briefly, my own approach as stated, at least in the beginning, I will do month to month updates on the project with countdowns, is to keep it as practical as possible. But healing and taking away what isn’t needed, should be the very first step to meaning. Clutter can be in anything, including my messy tongue here today 👌🏻😉🙈 now go rock out

So I just watched a new film i am at the 55.89% mark of my health recovery now going strong, only mild eating difficulties now Anyway, how long do I really think it’s going to be until we have too many “I can’t wait until we have AI ____” like whatever it is whether it’s a kangaroo or the new mega croc dinosaur that supposedly grew over 30 ft long they call the deinosuchus schwimmeri. Tongue twister. for too many things that it starts to eat humanity from the inside out that opting for a robot mom and/or dad just becomes the Schtick? like honestly i feel we really have to welcome it not blow in outrage just look at the situation analytically understand how bad most humans really are at looking after one another now and just empathise with what the situation actually needs it doesn’t need our outcry it doesn’t need our prejudice it doesn’t need our false assessments of dignity when dignity is what’s lost when u get a society full of people now that give so little respect for their own and have been conditioned that way. So the film I saw was Hail Mary. and I express that because as I exited…. Now dont get me wrong there were some nostalgic moments, some blended sentimentality that wasn’t too over the top outside of some of the music. But it just felt too predictable. And that’s to be…. Well… expected. We know that all of socirty now is built upon the following or an algorithm. That’s not science fiction anymore, that’s science. That’s how science says culture must run relative to our present ecosystem inclusive of how to make money from films. It needs to not be too unpredictable so as to create too much dissonance in the average persons mind. so I was like, “ I can’t wait until we have ai films too notch 🎥 as I have planned”. I’ll be able to create and be a part of creative ecosystem where we create content that’s genuinely VR value intensive in a way that psychologically scales past base societal algorithms And that brought me back to this. I watched the film to chill out, going back to when I watched The Anaconda. It had similar appeals. By the way, I have also pledged that as a fail-safe for my future progeny (haha), and I mean this seriously by the way, I am going to do about 6 months of intensive therapy with a top notch therapist. Judt to nail down my psychological blueprint as much as possible, ensure I secure all four walls of my emotional salience so my offspring doesn’t reject me, run off and become a transsexual then do a future sci fi YouTube video about what a shit father I am because I locked them inside “Universal Military School” with a cohort filled with over privileged kids they taught to be totally disconnected from regular life. and that’s completely devoid of any semblance of dystopian truth there, it’ll be far far worse. Not really. But really, it’ll be way better We need to think about these subjects rationally though In an emotionally mature way in a way that puts one step in front of the other and remember that you’re living your own life not societies life and that if we want to live our lives we Must knowlingly accept we’re stepping to a VR calibrated algorithm and we’ll smile and cry at the right temporal intervals, and when we want more independence. Knowingly accept responsibility for unplugging from the algorithm creatively directing our own lives both portals return to the same source, each have equal authority, and equal challenges for maintaining that authority judt in different ways. The Declaration of Independence wasn’t a fantasmagorical event for no reason, it more than anything else didn’t judt r represent social independence, because the very event is preceded by a striving for psychological independence haemony with the emotions, psychology, cognition, aligning the intelligences of being and with that harmonising the intelligences that bind to forge meaning in our lives. Meaning is not a “thing” it’s a signal, a stasis, a being, when a child plays endlessly with a toy truck, he’s not trying to wrestle with the gods of the universe saying “PLEASE GOD WONT U HELP ME WITH MEANING IN THIS”, no the child is merely not persuaded into any falsity that has them believing that meaning is anything other than what is both internal and a state of believing that what one is doing is true to them at that time. Meaning operates in tiers, and those tiers merely reflect the link between consciousness and the flow of the universe where the universe uses the human as a vessel for its own creation. Granted there are layers of intelligences that can be broken down thereto and the lower the levels the more tangible it becomes like brick to bricklayer needing money for bills, but regardless at its most balanced meaning will always be representative of the heights of unitive flow, more distinguished in human activities where humans are more motivated by what brings them the most joy, bliss and higher states of consciousness that’s worth fighting for. That’s uniquely human, and whether we evolve to, and whichever parent we become, that’s the ceiling echo we should be listening for feedback from, ai or not, and whoever variation or combination therein. But let’s check this for a second. ladies. imagine when someone creates the first ai vibrator. haha shit that things going to be insane and dudes, my love goes out to all guys living in their parents basement, because man, they’ll be able to consciousness bliss out on their very first robot girlfriend that actually teaches them emotional intelligence for the first time, and the same for dudes to women There will many zig zags and red flags, from scammers to unhealthy psychosis inducing relationships that form, but in the end, I genuinely believe we will get the aesthetics of human pleasures spot on, and too, getting the perfectly dumbed down generation but merely as a subset of the population. They’ll just be a spin-off reflective or the “misuse cases of ai” as I’ve already seen where people’s brains just rot further and further because they’re not engaging ai to help them live deeper, they’re enabling their addiction to a soda pop lifestyle. This is an entirely new century that begun only in the last two years. There have been far worse centuries of struggle and hardship that are envious of where we presently are. We have to just tie up our bootstraps, pop on our universal military uniforms and learn to conduct the music of the unknown moving forward through the voices of struggle that created something as symbolically beautiful as that Declaration of Independence, and now, something that we don’t have to associate with a tribe as we did in those times, but something we get to turn within and give to ourselves. That alone. Should matter most. Yes we miss many elements of tribal times, but we need to analyse the terrain, the trade offs and the trajectories and square ourselves with what we can control within our own world, not ruled by the chaos theory of the external. Understanding that anything we give externally receives it best when that relationship is understood around how we meet it. Emotional and social intelligence. Grounding energy. Self care. Empathy for self and other, growing our view of the world and finding harmony within through that filter despite the dissonances that result between self architecture and the world around us that can sometimes feel like it’s trying to destroy the fabric of theirs while fully empathising with the scope of the universe. Beneath the chorus, is the cord, the tether, the rope, that pulls disharmony to reason and noise to signal. And it’s you.

Check it. I see a future as well where orphanages, if they don’t dramatically increase their care “They’ll get their kids taken off them and handled by the state of AI!” Think about it, it’s going to be a future You’ll have a fully automated orphanage And because it will workout so well relative to societies poor standards, governments will make it even tougher for parents to get their kids back after they upgrade those terms to ai foster care They’ll also be more ruthless in situations involving custody battles It’ll be mandatory to have a husband or a wife ai bot to help look after single parent households Mandatory bots will be governmentally customised to psyop level specs from uploads to the ai parenting cloud to 24/7 surveillance Ha. It’s a good thing actually, and a heck of a sad thing that parent had gotten so bad which is which is why I don’t underestimate what it takes to be a great parent in the futures climate. U gotta take the future into account while at the same time, making peace with it then leveraging it with both a sense of humour and responsibility here’s the future of parents that don’t take the impacts of divorce court seriously enough on their children haha

I kid u not the future of parenting for most people = AI haha a Tesla bot or less ai will raise their kid

And I did all the drinking stuff in my teens but looking back i see how it was just a reflection of our development that we needed alcohol as a medium of having a good time i never drink when i goes out At most, I used to enjoy affogato with Bailey’s and probably will soon enough following my newly stated coffee rule And the same for coffee tho as well, we have these mediums to justify socialisation that r just reflective of lower social and emotional development and the ones that feel too much anxiety to even go to a party or struggle with their social skills that they don’t get invited or even refuse invites because of the anxiety (I know dudes like this as I used to try to encourage them to parties), general society has developed so far into the sci fi future of spiritual development that even their best ideas for bringing kids together fail hard in making them grow as human beings and then for the ones that aren’t compatible with those tools end up failing even harder we can have great times and form bonds but just look at the evidence of where we are Tangible reality. Evidence based. Not fantasy. I know where I am. my own social network for parenting my own parenting modules my own systems monopolised parenting with a decentralised outlook on the rest of the world while investing as best as I can in humanities future while not getting caught in the vacuum of it’s noise

All of you are love.rock out ❤️ And I feel my strength slowly returning hour by hour now. Returning back to emphasis on the somatic, I am surprised by how just little sophistication there is in the techniques for developing broader somatic intelligence. Here is some research however for others interested using Claude, I am sourcing and developing from related insights. There are quadrants of somatic intelligence, my main interest where I am finding the weakest research so far is variations of: understanding the relationship between simply being aware of x emotional pattern/s in the body and what is produced in the mind in correspondence and how simple interoceptive and activation (i.e. emphasise calmness, compassion, strength, fluidity, et, depending on experience) directions can be used to self teach a healthier feedback loop and towards broader self mastery. Brom, D. et al. (2017). Somatic Experiencing for PTSD. Journal of Traumatic Stress, 30(3), 304–312. Large effect sizes d=0.94–1.26. Bodily completion of thwarted defensive responses produced lasting emotional symptom reduction. Kox, M. et al. (2014). Voluntary activation of the sympathetic nervous system. PNAS, 111(20), 7379–7384. Breath and cold training produced voluntary immune suppression, 194% IL-10 increase, 51–57% pro-inflammatory cytokine reduction., M.Y. et al. (2023). Brief structured respiration. Cell Reports Medicine, 4(1). Five minutes daily of cyclic sighing produced the greatest daily positive affect improvement of all conditions tested including meditation. Feinstein, J.S. et al. (2018). Floatation-REST. PLOS ONE, 13(2). Single session produced Cohen’s d greater than 2 for anxiety including treatment-resistant cases. Enhanced interoceptive signal in absence of external noise. Price, C.J. et al. (2018). MABT interoceptive awareness training in substance use disorder. Substance Abuse, 39(1), 65–74. Direct body-sensation training reduced craving and improved emotion regulation in women in addiction treatment. Little, P. et al. (2008). Alexander Technique ATEAM trial. BMJ, 337, a884. Twenty-four lessons reduced chronic back pain days from 21 to 3 per month through proprioceptive recalibration alone. Lehrer, P. et al. (2020). HRV Biofeedback meta-analysis across 58 RCTs. Applied Psychophysiology and Biofeedback. Breathing at resonance frequency produced measurable reductions in anxiety, depression, anger and improved physical health markers. , S. et al. (2021). Cold exposure and thermogenesis. Cell Reports Medicine, 2(10). Eleven minutes per week of deliberate cold produced measurable brown adipose activation and metabolic restructuring. Kok, B.E. et al. (2013). Loving-kindness and vagal tone. Psychological Science, 24(7). Six weeks produced measurable increases in vagal tone tied directly to improved physical health markers. Koch, S.C. et al. (2019). Dance Movement Therapy meta-analysis. Frontiers in Psychology, 10, 1806. Body-based movement produced d=0.44 anxiety and d=0.36 depression reduction without any verbal or cognitive component required. Some minor errors there that autocorrect down the line should fix in any search. It feels so weird for me to easily break past known research in developing my own successful techniques. Eerie a little as well, but liberating. Stay true, at the very least instead of following me I hope that encourages others to just get ideas and let that help them explore how their own awareness interacts with the rest of their being in interesting novel ways to learn how to master for their self fulfilment.

parents r conditioned to be this way or that way, or to perceive this parent or potential parent this way or that way Oblivious to the societal conditioning behind it so: super overprotective parent meets Indiana jones thats just post environmental assessment It’s a mirror to precisely how society is run but with largely incorrect informaiton this is why we have schools and universities this is why we have the police force, politicians, laws and regulations they’re trying to be that overprotective parent while fucking up our kids in the process and saying u can’t raise ur children the way u want and taking the “Indiana jones” part and telling them it means getting drunk and playing video games all day or meeting a particular societal norm of one related sort or another I mean…. The common sense of people has been so warped by societal norms U have to be the black swan in these situations, u have to be ur own overprotective indiana u have to be ur own parent i feel bad for the stereotypical overprotective or overbearing parents as well because many r well intentioned but not educated enough / we are really only beginning to become truly sophisticated in raising children now While ironically standards r decreasing in many regions despite for obvious reasons tol We all most take it upon ourselves to be virtuous in our self education.

Junkies = Junk food Junk food = junkies i honestly cannot believe that fast food companies at large, are even allowed to operate. To me theure socially accepted irresponsible drug dealers. Meh, but I won’t let my journal travel in that direction. One of the most sickening things for me though, especially looking back, is just how much candy, soft drinks and junk food in general not to mention eventually booze is pedalled to young developing minds. How is that NOT an psyop? Australia has finally PARTIALLY woken up to the PSYOP that social media is imposing its laws etc, but we are extraordinarily far behind on the most obvious hidden in plain sight. wanting to be a father in the future, fuck. My parenting is going to be a highly damn controlled environment with extraordinary protections combined with extraordinary challenges. I’m the over protective parent meets Indiana Jones “Let’s go son! (and or daughter of course)” Eh! Cringe dad-son/daughter cliche stuff that has now become like “out of fashion” like we don’t see that as much anymore so it’s not? So it’s like yeah, if u wanna be a parent. Be a fucking parent. As in… u set the environment not the corrupt society around u. And love the experience. Don’t let the future of socirty determine that. Shouldn’t arbitersily connect “child + society”, there needs to be a healthy boundary there just as there needs to be with “self + society”, otherwise it’s a toxic relationship without enough and or deep enough healthy boundaries. U r a conduit by which society greets u not the other way around these days, and from that point, u determine where ur contribution will be be “in the world” but not “of the world” as the saying goes and it’s not a bad one

I am just never going to have coffee or Mc Donald’s (or fast food in general) again. for coffee specifically, I mean having coffee that is either inside my country or comparable to regular coffee I have had. For example, coffee in 🇻🇳 Vietnam is just badass and unique. Only as a delicacy and only when with another. For every other context, that lives in the treasured memories I have with others now in the past. And never again. i say Mc as I am near one now. People just loook like they’re walking out of a drug store. Where their somatic awareness is totally disconnected from their cognitive awareness outside of satisfying a craving. Right now I am nibbling on some pasta. It’s solid. I feel like I’ve reached a new level of growth on the relationship between the two. Not nibbling,’pasta or solidarity, the relationship beteeen somatic and cognitive awareness and the role it plays on the rest of our psychology. Every new insight on the human condition is what bridges our ability to empathise with our challenges at large, providing we build those interconnections (heart <-> mind balance). It turns every weakness and strength we have into a carefully curated cellular pattern. Without the knowledge of how these things work, even enough awareness doesn’t suffice, because they work in conjunction. A passion for awareness that fuels the passion for self-knowledge must be learned, even if u already have it, it’s a pattern that shouldn’t be taken as identity but instead, cellular activity that u didn’t just simply learn in the moment and that has a momentum to be encouraged in a (slightly, and however subtlely) more matured direction

Im really glad ive had this experience. it’s been dreadful. But the fact that it forced be to just sit there in the somatic… at the weakest level. It’s life changing. its amazing, more and more now, I can now feel how every and all of life… it exists within the body, as in, it lights up within the body before anything else. no matter the event It lights up in the body, it preloads the mental experience. So much of what’s considered personality, more and more we r now seeing how that is just how cells across the body have learned to communicate. beneath the projector, behind the scripted lines, behind the cast and crew and before the director is even called to begin the film in the mind… there exists… laying in wait… the hum of the body, where every little sensation communicates with every other pattern programmed and grown within the body across an activation axis… deciding the genre that’s going to be played in the mind theres so many interesting things to examine. It’s been a deep cleansing experience. I was a caffeine addict. Not even being able to drink water has now enabled me to quit. My disgust sensitivities went through the roof. My eating habits are now changing as well. I realise that not only do we have these neuroplasticity windows post certain consciousness states, it’s clear to me that this obviously occurs as well in other areas of the human body at large. This is a totally new way to think about addictions, habits in general From obesity to prejudicial thinking to the exercises that reinforce them. My media patterns r also changing. Rebuilding somatic exercises. Breath. Top down control with the least amount of forceful action possible. Noticing how all of life exists within the body before the mind in every moment still needs time to incubate self care starts with the breath, tuning inward, listening to the subtlest pressures and easements, releasing. Allowing that to become where life begins and ends. Where everything else becomes complementary, not the imaginary show of the mind outside of further development of experimental self understandings. Unless u r on the set of the Comedy film The Anaconda, turning struggles into triumphs doesn’t always need to mean still doing the thing we set out to do despite, sometimes it just means adapting to what the real signal is, and turning what was a struggle into a new exploratory path. Because now u are attuned to what u can actually do. Not false expectations that r just blocking from self insight. This lesson is about honouring the strength that is waiting to be claimed towards and where u r right now, at the breath that needs to open and close in the way that it’s opening and closing. Calm awareness gives it light, that light changes its direction. all sight creates an illusion that there is a world all sound creates the illusion that there is single signals all touch creates the illusion that there is pressure Etc these feel much less theoretical and more like lived experiences. I feel existence in the body, notice how it appears in felt and lived impression, and somatically (not mentally) connect with how that influences the mind and the rest of my being… and then grow the signal as it arises through that experience of self realisation moment to moment best wish/es. You are ligjt.

I have been pretty sick the last few days. Sleeping most of the time. Today I woke up with medium-rare headache. Decided that this was the best way to start day. Improvised heart-sick song "Sweet, sweet lullaby"😉🌌🦄. Enjoy! https://voca.ro/18pR04EOAzkU (still too much travel for time to practice singing. But consider this a benchmark for singing while sick eh!) Vocaroo is the main website of the song that hosts the link above. Its trusted. Stay foolish enough to want to move ur being higher. Stay true. Stay aligned. Stay resolved within. And returning (see posts further above) to skipping YT algorithmic choices to go right to the heart of the lost and forgotten creators in the moment, these 3 videos I watched. Needless to say, a little time to spare. Its been a good experience outside the sickness, has taught me to focus more on learning from the somatic layer of experience. The last vid, particularly good relative to the maturity of conversations on yt i am used to, my yt feed just does not "work". Excellent vid from the young man first up by the way. I typed in the word "awareness" into the search engine again. And.. all from last 24 hours thereabouts.

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Medical School Journal. Entry #1: What does being a doctor mean? Beyond the illusions. Beyond the stereotypes. My own action makes the definition. Traveling from city to city. That's my desire as a doctor. Conferences to conferences, building social networks. Creating a lifelong legacy. Armbands of connectivity, as long-term legacy. Over seniority without social precedence. I care about lifestyle, not authority. Sounds like a good medical-footprint too. Doctors are a safe social-hierarchy. In the past, I've been reckless. Trying to save without experience. Trying to know without boundaries. Trying to feel, without seeing projection. Stretching for solidarity in limitless connection. Which was always, highly improbable. Now realizing, it was all commercial. The films, the music, the culture. It set us up for failure. Never seeing, who pulled the strings. After enough pain, integration and revelation. Time speaks. And so do others. We find the soldiers in grief. And we share stories. This automatically stimulates new thought. New horizons. A new system with wheels. Because now we have more than experience. We have wisdom. We have learned mind integration. To teach the heart to catch-up. Healing the entire system, for new life. Not only individuality, but integration. Into a world... That is growing up too. The world has become disconnected. Despite becoming more technologically connected. And for those aware, we out-smart. We find our niches. We build our strategies. Our maps. Our feedback loops. I've called mine "doctors". But that is just an armband. A bridge of connection. Experiencing the world from its myopia. While learning from the window. It creates. I've mapped all medical student conferences. City to city during medical school. Establishing world-wide medical social legacy. Traveling once per week/fortnight, building more bridges. And together, in feedback loops. Building a forever social arc. One without borders. And one within infinite boundaries. Designed for social-distance, with complete connectivity. Nourishing the best of people. Without the decay of geographical proximity. Over-complexity fortifies pure simplicity. Social, the first bridge to patients. Intense research, a collaborative arm. Hospital, an outcome not a destination. Foreseeing burnouts, as calculated and controlled. Rather than without social weather control. A path beginning with authority. Is an ego... that looks back with the mind. Not the heart. Unintegrated foresight, is better spontaneous. To learn from the foolishness. Having now achieved this? I will see. Where pain... not even an anchor. An unvarnished mystery. That I've honed to be raw. Where recklessness becomes concrete. And therefore strategically beautiful, over spontaneously-destructive. Bandages now taken off. Stitches fallen out with scars. That speak a language... not forgotten. But without the hold. To live truly. Is to never leave anything behind. But to never... Hold onto anything. This is sight into the soul... With boundaries, that are boundaryless. What global network will I have.... In 6 years? What inner network... Will I have in the end? What lessons would my network... Have sown in me? That myopia of our wisdom, staring back at us... To define the world around us... As we take, reckless responsibility... Forward in integrated solidarity. To treasure every memory. While painstakingly making all memories. However bad... Whole. To become a tale... of a human life. Not of a perfect life. Just perfectly... Connected. Globally. Perhaps a new trend for doctors. Living lives at every countries edge. Binding in the middle... when the smaller worlds demand presence. Patience. Empathy. Solutions. And a smile. That looks like its returned home. Wherever it is. And whoever it lands with. Finalizing my decision towards medical school. An outgrowth of my father passing. Banging the walls of life for closure. Amidst seizure after seizure. And an epilepsy diagnosis that followed. It only fuelled me. I sought no sympathy. It only grew the fire. Amidst memory failing, stable identity crumbling. A light of ease still shined. Doubtful moments ensnared hope; vision reigned. Life vision, beyond the noise. Clear signal. Clear path. Clear war. Purified the endeavour, oiled skeletal joints. If I could solve my father's suffering. If I could solve epilepsy. Intense research must be my calling. A 2026 gifted with relentless invention. That solidified identity with life renewed. Renewal, leaving a trail existential skeletons. With new hope binding their lives. And my father's passing. Living on through them, through diagnostic victory. That solidifies their own path forward. Their free-will returned. And the rest of life... Awaits their renewed purpose. To rebirth life through unescapable loss. Is to make those lost. Including yourself, born again. The connectivity that defined this choice. Plants the seeds, for tomorrow's medicine. And my new social world. Awaits only more light, to fire.