its like a phase, weed will trigger this for me almost everytime but can also happen without it
feels like this tension in the room that just keeps building, I cant get myself to open up or speak
cant really interact with anyone at this point, if I speak I stutter alot.
and I will stay almost completely silent and not say anything unless someone asks me a question or whatever
its hard to explain what im thinking about, but im trying to figure something out
it feels as if I figure it out there will be an instant relief of this anxiety which keeps building up
what I keep thinking about is why Im stressed out, not sure maybe social anxiety, ashamed, shy. all of these?
I have lost my mind? in a way Im so busy with these thoughts in my head that I cant really do anything else/ process other information
I just feel this tension in the air and the urge to speak, but I never do. I just keep thinking harder about it
I feel like im stuck in my thoughts, frozen, cant decide what to do next
I keep trying to just drop it, but I cant stop the thoughts
I feel very stuck and as if Im thinking in circles, some kind of a loop
sometimes I will start to find it quite funny.. and almost break out of it
I feel very uncomfortable, I feel embarrased for it
and always keep thinking the way I 'come off' or the way others see me, and deep in my thoughts (cant get into the present moment)
I dont know.. probably drugs really messing with my head.
anyway I have had enough and quit everything now, been a few days so will see if anything triggers this phase for me from now on
sorry I dont know how much sense this makes if any, its the best I can do trying to remember it now. even tho I have been trough this many times
Im not going to read it over now, I would probably change my mind on posting this here
