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I have the theory Sex addiction is compulsively seeking and clinging to intimacy. It is the obsession of unity. Every person has the desire for unity but when people are deprived of intimacy they start seeking it compulsively. I think you read my post about pedophilia, it's the same mechanism (the abyss). Sex addiction happens, when you experienced abandonment in your life. Did your parents separate? Did your parents not give you the love you needed? Did your parents abandon you? Did you have friends in your childhood that you could count on? Where you at some point in a relationship that they suddenly ended? When you experienced abandonment at some point in your life, you will always fear it and cling to intimacy as long as you have not worked through the trauma. The brutal reality of the fear of abandonment is that when you cling to your relationships you tend to lose them bc humans want to feel free in relationships. And when that happens you are abandoned again and your fear becomes stronger which amplifies your clinginess. This negative feedback loop is one of the most tragic things in human experience, and it can drive you and your loved ones into suicide. So try to avoid it.

Phone.April.23 1 2 Idea: Make every consonant double to gain freedom with consonants again 3 Change 27 to alignment and 87 to disalignment. 4 Remember novalis and progresive universalpoesie Phone.April.24 1 Tanslation Absorbing 2 What is the relationship between fear and alienation? 3 Evil comes from victimhood. Virtue necessitates abundance and often that abundance stems from oppression. 4 It seems there are many ways to say good and bad in silex. Maybe make the broadest ones 54 concept 5 Holy shit I saw that universal already means "belonging to all" so "universal populism" seems to be a redundant term actually. 6 What would silexian cybernetics look like? 7 What is proxy in silex? It seems to be connected to the term symbol. I guess rn I have 24 for that. I guess that makes sense. It seems that reflection 22 also points to a part of the meaning of the word relation. Same with passivity 68. So it seems there are also multiple translations of the term relation in silex. 8 Absorbing ~ collapse ~ 63 9 myrmidon ~ point ~ 23 10 I just realized that relations play a huge role in maths and they also play a huge role in silexis 11 Patriarchy ~ collective potence ~ 0448 12 Naziism was a collective meltdown. What is meltdown in Silex? Meltdown ~ Rage ~ violent ~ potence ~ 48 The thing is a meltdown can be fragmenting (92) and devouring (93). Conquering is a kind of devouring so fascism was a devouring meltdown. So there are two translations of meltdown? "Breakdown of self control". The thing is control is also potence. So it's like the actor is switching from consciousness 07/awareness 58 being in charge to _ being in charge. _ = Fear? Or alienation? I think with the Nazis it was many things. I think also constriction 93 because of the control from the other powers after the first world war (?) 13 I like the idea of a potrait of a historical term of figure in contrast to a historical analysis. 14 I might add definitions to words in the silexicon, also ones in silex. I have never done a silexian definition of anything should be interesting. I want this to be potentially extremely formal. 15 Maybe I should start version tracking Silex so I can use words early and just say "this word relates to this concept in this version of Silex". I could do different numbers like 3.35.27 and the third digit for example could be the current iteration of the phoneme matrix. 16 It seems Silexism is pro everything (?) except meritocracy, liberalism and capitalism. These are the only enemies of Silexis. These are demonic one could say. I need to dissect the term meritocracy. It seems that in the eyes of Silexis, the idea that any human, any lifeform or even any entity is more valuable than another is proposterous. In Silexis, every entity has a clearly definable purpose and it is the responsibility of the state representing the collective to enable every entity to engage in that and not the responsibility of the entity. 17 I have a fun idea for the political strategy of the silexian political movement. The Jenga Tower. The Jenga pieces are the ones who uphold the fake political polarization (Jenga tower). The goal is to convert crutial Jenga pieces like Peter Thiel, Curtis Jarvin, JD Vance, Alex Karp, Clavicular, Kanye West, etc. into Silexis to make the political spectrum less stable. There is Also the idea of the last Jenga piece that makes the tower collapse. This metaphor is interesting since it kinda mirrors the dark enlightenment term "cathedral". The difference is that dark enlightenment individuals are also part of the stack. Stack is 13 I think. And piece is 74. I could also do stack and stick. Sounds kinda fun and doesn't involve a trademark name. Twigstack also sounds fun 18 cybernetics system study 34 54 self-adjusting dynamic 26 system dynamics 34 26 19 Most billionaires are billionaires because they are supremely lonely. 20 Potence 48 and passivity 68 both are a part of soul 03.

April.24 1 damn what would be wild if I could derive all knowledge from the wave in a similar way as the principia mathematica 2 Okay let's continue with the ideas of April.23.2. Idea: 21 might have something to do with information. "Information = reduction of uncertainty" yeah that makes a ton of sense holy shit. So repetition is just the minimum action that maximizes certainty. Yeah any wave has a certain amount of certainty makes a ton of sense. So in particle life this would be an entity with predictable behaviour. Hypothesis: Based on particle life, it seems like the goal of nature is flourishing tvia 29 and avoiding stagnation iägna 89. Hypothesis: Point 23 in pl is how strongly the movement of different particles correlates? Hypothesis: Reflection 22 is how many direction changes occurr or how much the particles interact. What this would mean is that every emotion is an interaction. 3 Maybe point is really sameness? Every time there are two structures that are alike, their alikeness comes from 23. 4 I want to improve my scientific rigor. I want to get into the habit of posing falsifiable hypotheses. 5 Who is Nick Land and what is cybernetic culture research unit? 6 The population consists of devine people and regular people. The devine people are closer to both infinite divinity and devine simplicity. The devine people are meant to worship god and the regular people are meant to worship the devine people and support them materially. Most (all?) mentally disabled people are part of the devine group. The two devine groups are the outer ring of intelligence (geniuses) and the centrum of intelligence (low complexity people). Ther regular people are the inner ring. 7 silexis popular teaching universal populism popular society 38 8 Since silexism affirms everyones mode of existence, silexian political theory is the ultimate form of populism. Universal populism since silex ism affirms direction 16 origin 00 54 47 ste ezoe kearh oashva everyone s mode of existence posessive iugx eon eikl eo koumo 9 All complexity yearns for certainty 49 21 yearns for certainty through predictability 22 yearns for certainty through unconditional love and permanent relationships 23 yearns for certainty through faith The entities that have the easiest time in detaching from the need of certainty are pure 87 entities. 10 It seems the enemies of Silexis are property and merit. Are they related? The beautiful thing is that 23 are the ones who uphold 11 Okay let's start thinking about relations in the silexian dict. Two relations come to mind: Relation between one two morpheme word and two one morpheme words. So the relation between a composit and it's parts. But there are also relations between words that have different meanings that sound similar and that should sound similar. Example: iukei ~ permanent relationship and iukai ~ home. Let's call those happy paronyms "A morpheme is a part (more technically: a constituent) of a composite word." 1. morpheme-composit relations 2. happy paronyms 3. opposites

Try to keep in mind that a lot of your information about china is influenced by (sometimes subtle) pro-western propaganda. There exists this meme among Leninists that whenever there is anything bad to report about china, western journalists pounce on the opportunity to talk shit about China in a biased way. This is when you get headlines like "China struggles with ..." And when China succeeded at something they do "China did ... bUt aT wHat coSt?" They also like to pretend good things in China are actually bad and then you get shit like "China ptoduces too many solar pannels" or "Consumer goods in China are too cheap for the coorporations to make a lot of profit" On the long fun China is just gonna mog imo. Theiy're headding straight towards utopia. They will be so powerful that they won't give a shit about liberal insecurity collapsing into fascism. They will just outlast all of western bullshit until the west wakes up to the reality that liberalism doesn't work

It's funny you say that because ADHD actually helps you with all these things. Having ADHD means it's hard to be distracted by shallow life activity like feeding yourself, cleaning your room, making money etc. If you don't have ADHD, you are so good at functioning in society, career shit and family building (responsibilities basically) that you never get to question and work at the deeper questions of life. The trick to harness the power of adhd for life purpose is to minimize responsibility in your life. If you do this you will become a purpose driven maniac

April.22 1 authority potence 49 April.23 1 remember word "progressive universalpoesie" from Schlegel. I think that's kinda what I'm doing 2 How the wave is reflected in intelligence: If the wave stands still (square wave or constant function) it is point, when it is patterned, it is repetition and when it changed directions a lot it is reflection. So rate of change is lower the more point, the more direction changes per second the more reflection (?), the more patterned (less chaotic) these changes, the more repetition (research information theory) This is crazy if it's accurate since it is very quantifiable. The problem seems though that number of direction changes sounds more like adhd then hsp. But high rate of change being adhd totally makes sense though. Wait is kinda makes sense though since sensitive people tend to have more mood swings. 3 integrity 34? 14? 51? all three? 4 name each of the clusters? 5 silex affirmative teaching 47 54 oashva 100 teaching 37 54 iushva god chakra centered soul 6 Silexis is supposed to strike a balance between a characteristica universalis and universalpoesie. Ideally, there is also a balance between glossolalia and glossopoeia. 6.1 add one additional phoneme for each deity (ds)? 6.2 this makes sense and I can also use this to introduce a parallel logographic script with 100 logograms. 7 Translation this is what capital-ism is nu sht uo ksitsh-earha shto 8 remember this website for glossaries https://aligner.tinygods.dev/?data=q1YqU7IyqgUA 9 Translation please be patient politeness-word politeness emotion soul being non-attachment 03 00 55 oekiu sht aesf because I have autism cause individual grasp potence soul graspable repetition 49 03 01 21 oagn iu vlu devlu

April.19 1 Translation Silex enemyless teaching 43 54 rashaera aoshafera For everyone engineering peace golden mirror the anti-cult for for vs to for involves reciever, to involves destination reciever is 68. Giving is 48. 2 research babble hypothesis 3 I guess I will be some kind of preacher for my religion 4 If evil is an illusion, what is the silexian word for it? Illusion? Concept? Maybe there should not be a word for it since it's a shit concept anyways? 4.1 I can choose evil 04 since it is a cultural phenomenon April.20 1 "Propaganda is bad" is a self-contradicting statement since it is itself a kind of propaganda. 2 Translations Silexian historicism The study of the silexian existence space (08?) in history space 00? I think 51 is the best principle for space 3 can I define a silexian formal system? repetition-mind relation repetition-mind leads to consonance relation(entity, entity) is a function with what output? Relational principle? What relational principles are there? Okay wait List of entity attributes 00-09 Flesh, skin 15-19 95-99 20-27, 29 80-87, 89 31 List of relational attributes 28 88 relational and entity 51 56

April.14.1 1 Idea: I only use two hard buffer consonants and two soft ones Hard: sk, p other: cr soft: l, b, h The rule could be: A word starts with l if its fist consonant is soft and it ends with p if it's last consonant is soft etc. 1.1 cl as optional prefix if word starts with double vowel and its first consonant is soft l as optional prefix if word starts with double vowel and its first consonant is hard p as optional suffix if word ends with a double vowel and the last consonant is soft b as optional suffix if word ends with a double vowel and the last consonant is soft cr as an infix if there are two consecutive vowels and the first consonant is soft h as an infix if there are two consecutive vowels and the first consonant is hard or there is no consonant 2 Translation if we know who we are, we may know who we may be April.15 1 Idea: If a word breaks the composition rules, it can still be a valid word with meaning, that meaning is just ambiguous. I could use this for names like Silexis itself. 2 There are 100x100 two morpheme words and each have 16x16 2P variations. That makes 2.5600.000 2P two morpheme words. Seems enough tbh. 3 Idea: I can use four 1P words for each of the 00-09 morphemes. This is great. That's 40 that's not nothing at all. 4 Idea let's try to expand the phoneme matrix to 6 phonemes per digit 4.1 Idea: I need to rank them with how good they sound, with the best sounding ones being the first phonemes because they are more versatile April.16 1 I've experimented with a meditation technique: 1. Instead of trying to stop thought, slow down thought instead. 99 2. Relax and breathe into the relaxation. Breathing in is expanding 1090 3. Master these two and try to find a sweet spot where your state does not become to extreme. 1.1 Try to also use this during the day. 1.2 Translation 2 neologism ontosonance? 3 I want to encode the dictionary in a datastructure so that I can automate sweeping changes. This might take a while. I'm rusty with this 3.1 Okay baseline I could just use and array where the nth spot in the array points to everything regarding the nth morpheme. 3.2 I could do a dict like {"00": 00_tiers, ...} and 00_tiers is a dict like {"00_1P": 00_1P_dict, ...} and 00_1P_dict is 3.3 bro that's like a comically basic programming exercise 3.4 I could do a dict like {"00": 00_tiers, ...} and 00_tiers is a dict like {"00_1P": 00_1P_dict, ...} and 00_1P_dict is 4 maybe use sql instead of json? 5 I feel like I need to design the dict around how I want to be able to interact with it 5.1 "add english word xyz to 50_T3 silexian word abc" "what is the silexian word for the english word xyz" "translate this english sentence" "update words with the new phonemes" 5.2 silexicon['00']['T1'] April.17 1 translation clue length fountain likely 2 Idea: Also unawareness during exhale? 3 Code notation 3.1 Example: "0:14-3:25" ~ "zostuihiu" 3.2 03 p14-25 April.18 1 Maybe switch out 27,87 masculinity with normal, extreme. Then the question becomes: What is 28, 87? 2.1 Todo: Hunt for blindspots with random word generators. 3 add tendency 16 4 What are the 16 truth operations? 5 Todo: Translate and integrate the important Wittgenstein terms into Silexism.

April 11.1 1 Yeah my todos are: Learn about as many unique languages as possible including other conlangs. This will take some time. 2 Translations devine Identity 08 Personal Identity 35 Unchanging identity 72 conceptual identity 54 Empty identity 55 Relational identity 10 Home identity 39 Family identity Tribal identity societal identity April 12.1 1 Slogan: Follow the silex Trust the silex 2 I spotted another silexian contradiction in capitalism: the reason why the the value of independence exists it's because of narcissists and opportunists. But narcissists and opportunists only exists because of capitalism. Aphorism: The value of independence comes from independence from narcissists and opportunists. But that value is what creates narcissist and opportunists. Therefore, both independence create the very problem it is meant to solve. Can I find a new word for "something that creates the very problems it is meant to solve"? 60 self-contradiction 3 concepts and translations false value: A value that only applies to specific modal profiles and is damaging if applied to people with the wrong modal profile. Example: Independence. sovereign warless war winning the war not by fighting but by affirming the existence of the enemy better than their own ideology 40 pacifist fascist "the highest goal of silex" is to get a group of marxist-leninists into power silexian prophecy mutual understanding misunderstaning johari window 58 nation identity blood and soil 38-39 blood 38 soil 39 to be at peace with oneself beauty substance Collective psychosis scapegoating is a kind of collective psychosis behemoth collective self hatred 4 Aphorism An ideology is a being 5 Translations Right here, right now 25-61 15, 25-61 69 ectuvosuo exact 25 tourettes idk, extreme form of adhd? wait maybe adhd + extreme hsp so it's epilepsy plus adhd. Seems like this could be the case. okay I chatted with gpt and it seems it is more connected to adhd and autism rather than hsp. 6 Morphemes: 00 = Absolute 01 = Graspable 02 = Body 03 = Soul 04 = Spirit 05 = Mind 06 = Consciousness 07 = Idea 08 = Meaning 09 = Ungraspable 10 = Duality 90 = Unity 11 = Flesh 91 = Skin 12 = Cohesion 92 = Fragmentation 13 = Stability 93 = Collapse 14 = Softness 94 = Rigidity 15 = position 95 = positionless 16 = direction 96 = directionless 17 = velocity 97 = stillness 18 = acceleration 98 = deceleration 19 = conflagration 99 = ceassation 20 = Complexity 80 = Simplicity 21 = Repetition 81 = non-repetition 22 = Reflection 82 = non-reflection 23 = Point 83 = non-point 24 = Mirror 84 = non-mirror 25 = Sequence 85 = non-sequence 26 = Dynamic 86 = non-dynamic 27 = masculine 87 = non-masculine 28 = Feminine 88 = non-feminine 29 = Intelligence 89 = Purity 30 = Granularity 70 = self-similarity 31 = Entity 71 = Plurality 32 = Identity 72 = Operation 33 = Interaction 73 = Coexistence 34 = System 74 = Part 35 = Individual 75 = Alienation 36 = Family 86 = Stranger 37 = Tribe 87 = Outcast 38 = Society 88 = Alien 39 = Home 79 = Homeless 40 = Resolution 60 = Tension 41 = Thing 61 = Attribute 42 = Complement 62 = Contradiction 43 = Symbiosis 63 = Exploit 44 = Life 64 = Death 45 = Consonance 65 = Dissonance 46 = Harmony 66 = Disharmony 47 = Beauty 67 = Doubt 48 = Projectivity 68 = Receptability 49 = Immortality 69 = the now 50 = Attachment 51 = Substance 52 = Illusion 53 = Unawareness 54 = concept 55 = Non-Attachment 56 = Dissolution 57 = Disillusion 58 = Awareness 59 = Truth Phonemes 0 = z eo ts oe 1 = m uo n ou 2 = d ue t eu 3 = sh ui tr iu 4 = rh oa r ao 5 = f ae sf ea 6 = ch ie s ei 7 = v äe sv eä 8 = x äi k iä 9 = ng ai g ia 7 translations magic 09 8 I need to find things that are potentially not described by the 100 morphemes 9 Does my model allow for utilitarianism? 9.1 Can I quantify suffering Sam Harris style? 10 Silex monumental unity 39-90 eternal teaching 49-07 eternal unity 49-90 enemyless ideology oash scapegoatless ideology the one ideology cohesion ideology cohesion path 12-40 nodaoza aoganodaoza infinite path rialaoza 100-language 01-37-uega shavuega Silexis (Silexian language) eternal language enemyless language 43-29 oashuega 29 language uega heart soul-body 03-02 zihutsue principle of difference 11 wait what if uena repetition people want permanece and eosha (point) just move with the culture and don't care much about whether it is permanent or not. So the people who want to identify with the eternal state are not eosha but uefa (sequence). 12.1 Translations Language intelligence 29 Silesis eternal-language Rialuenge cohesion language noduenge 12.2 Silexicon 29 language luenge

I have started working on this project on a GitHub https://github.com/FredericAbels/Silexis.git if anyone wants to dive deep

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I have posted an essay about mental disorder here:

@Carl-Richard No disagreement here. Yes your critique of my word choice is correct. People with ADHD are less able to find purpose in conformity, but this doesn't mean they don't care necessarily. It means they shouldn't care, but sometimes they actually double down out of insecurity and end up caring more than even neurotypicals to fit in as a form of overcompensation. You see this in people like Clavicular, Andrew Tate and Donald Trump for example who over compensate and therefore embody this caricature version of masculinity and capitalism. As I said I know this too well and I fell into this hole myself with my obsession with David Goggins and James Scholz.

April.9.2 1 Idea: Use music notation and the sectrum-time respresentation of sound for art. Is there a free plugin I can use? 2 remember swadesh list 3 the composites are not roots but rather principles from which the roots originate 4 what is formal semantics? Is Silexis a kind of formal semantics? 5 I think my lamguage is oligosynthetic. It might be a very good oligosynthetic language actually. 6 Translation blending load epistemic closure error correction April.10.1 1 One way to translate the suffix "-less" is by using the prefix "(a)vea(b)" meaning empty in a metaphysical sense. 2 remember ablative 3 Silexis is an a priori language. 4 WHOAH it seems I'm doing something similar to what W. John Weilgart is doing with his conlang aUI. 4.1 "The language of space" is a wild name it would also fot as a name for my language. 4.2 "aUI The Language of Space is a symbolic, universal language designed to "heal the human mind from the slavery of slogans of hate into a peace through understanding, a cosmic consciousness of harmony with the universal Spirit" okay yeah it seems I'm his literal reincarnation. 4.3 "Peace through Understanding" yeah that's silexis 4.4 He is a psychoanalyst that's wild. Yeah I'm exited to learn about aUI 5 Yeah I need to learn everything about oligosynthetic languages. 6 It seems that oligosynthetic is a false dream. I've actually seemed realized this already which is why my language is actually more semi-oligosynthetic. 7 I need tk investigate Ithkuil 8 "In Toki Pona, meanings are built by syntax (phrases), not morphology. Example: • jan = person • pona = good • jan pona = friend But this is just two words in a phrase, not a new word formed from morphemes." 8.1 This actually seems more similar to my language. 9 Maybe "a priori philosophical language" is the best description of silexis. 10 "Quijada's interest in conlanging began when he was introduced to the utopian politics of the Esperanto group as well as some books from a record store near his home" 10.1 woah that's interesting, since my politics are also very utopian. Guess I will have to investigate esperanto more too. 11 It seems I'm mainly doing glossopoia rather than conlanging. I'm doing this for artistic reasons and for study of culture mainly. 11.1 "The word was popularized by J. R. R. Tolkien, who was both a philologist and a novelist. Tolkien described his own language creation (such as Quenya and Sindarin) as glossopoeia. For him, inventing languages was often the primary creative activity, and the stories of Middle-earth were partly written to give those languages a cultural setting." whoa this is wild. I hate that I don't love lord of the rings now. 12 Post draft glossopoeia So maybe some of y'all know me as the dude who metaphorically runs around screaming about the importance of neurodivergency. 12.1 Post draft response to carl richard @Carl-Richard I came to these conclusions through studying my own brain and carefully observing other people with ADHD. So far this model has not failed me once and it makes insane predictions about peoples lives irl that's why I trust it so much. First I will give my abstract view and then I will attempt to give a reductionist explanation. Abstract explanation I call people without ADHD point-people (23-04-35) and people with ADHD non-point-people (83-04-35) or diffusion-people. Evolutionary explanation Reductionist Explanation The way I explain the emergence of point-being is that it has something to do with different modes of computation. The idea is "if one takes in a lot of information at once and is processing them in parallel, it is fast, but the result comes with uncertainty and can't be checked like sequential computation".

If you force yourself to function with ADHD and ignore the fact that you are pursuing something you don't care about, what you get is success, but you pay with something much much much worse than depression: Functional depression. I tend to look at hardships in my life through the lens of asking what I learned from it and because of that I never regret anything I do. However, there is one decision in my life that had a devastating impact on my life and I'm not sure if I can reverse the damage it has left on my body. It was the decision to not give up and push through no matter what. I did have success, I was able to study successfully, but it took an enormous toll on my body. I'm still suffering from chronic pain because of this phase in my life. It has been four years now of pain every day. I don't believe that the lived experience of Dr. Mike is desirable at all. What happens if you push through doing the things that you don't actually want to do is that you become insecure and detached from your body. I believe that this is the case with Dr. Mike. For him, his body is only a tool, tasked to grow like a balloon to soothe his insecurity that he has because he's making his life unnecessarily hard for his neurodivergency. I've once seen a video where he was tasked to do athletic activities like the broad jump and it's clear that he's completely detached from his body. In some way my sensitivity saved me from pursuing this path because the chronic pain became unbearable. I think if I was not sensitive at all, I would still be on this path and suffering like Mike. At the end of the day, what Mike wants to do is pursue his special interest. And that's what he's doing on YouTube. But if you think about it, neither does he need to take steroids or have bad body awareness to pursue it, nor does he need a PhD. He's only pursuing things he doesn't care about to prove to himself that he's good enough. I know this feeling exactly and I am so glad I have grown out of it.

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April 8th 8.1 1 What is OCD? 2 Remember tonation and that meaning can be codified in it 4 Remember morphology 4.1 I'm noticing it's very hard for me to wrap my head around what morphology even is. 4.1.1 Idea: The less morphological a language, the more it depends on particles and/or word order. 5 I feel like my problem is that trying to come up with grammar is like trying to predict. 6 I feel like the obvious problem is is that I'm trying to learn linguistics as I go but it's just too deep of a topic to do that properly. I'm thinking to watch the youtube MIT course on linguistics. 7 Brainstorm of every linguistics word I've learned grammar, phonetics, tonality, polysynthetic, lexical categories, morphology, morphemes 8 Roots: 00 = Absolute 01 = Graspable 02 = Body 03 = Soul 04 = Spirit 05 = Mind 06 = Consciousness 07 = Idea 08 = Meaning 09 = Ungraspable 10 = Duality 90 = Unity 11 = Flesh 91 = Skin 12 = Cohesion 92 = Fragmentation 13 = Stability 93 = Collapse 14 = Softness 94 = Rigidity 15 = position 95 = positionless 16 = direction 96 = directionless 17 = velocity 97 = stillness 18 = acceleration 98 = deceleration 19 = conflagration 99 = ceassation 20 = Complexity 80 = Simplicity 21 = Repetition 81 = non-repetition 22 = Reflection 82 = non-reflection 23 = Point 83 = non-point 24 = Mirror 84 = non-mirror 25 = Sequence 85 = non-sequence 26 = Dynamic 86 = non-dynamic 27 = Masculine 87 = non-masculine 28 = Feminine 88 = non-feminine 29 = Intelligence 89 = Purity 30 = Granularity 70 = self-similarity 31 = Entity 71 = Plurality 32 = Identity 72 = Operation 33 = Interaction 73 = Coexistence 34 = System 74 = Part 35 = Individual 75 = Alienation 36 = Family 86 = Stranger 37 = Tribe 87 = Outcast 38 = Society 88 = Alien 39 = Home 79 = homeless 40 = Resolution 60 = Tension 41 = Thing 61 = Attribute 42 = Complement 62 = Contradiction 43 = Symbiosis 63 = Exploit 44 = Life 64 = Death 45 = Consonance 65 = Dissonance 46 = Harmony 66 = Disharmony 47 = Beauty 67 = Doubt 48 = Projectivity 68 = Receptability 49 = Immortality 69 = the now 50 = Transcendence 51 = substance 52 = Illusion 53 = Unawareness 54 = Falsehood 55 = emptiness 56 = Dissolution 57 = Disillusion 58 = Awareness 59 = Truth Phonemes 0 = ts eo z oe 1 = n uo m ou 2 = t ue d eu 3 = tr ui sh iu 4 = r oa rh ao 5 = f ae v ea 6 = s ie ch ei 7 = sv äe shv eä 8 = k äi x iä 9 = g ai ng ia Free: l, h, p, !, ps, pl, fl, b, br, bl, sk, st, pr, cr, fr, br, dr prh, crh, vr Free: l, h, p, !, ps, b, br, sk, st p c f b d sh ! s cs fs bs l pl cl fl bl shl r pr cr fr br dr shr rh prh crh frh brh drh shrh sh csh fsh bsh dsh best: b, p cr, csh, IPA Vowels ä → /æ/ Consonants sh → /ʃ/ ch → /ç/ g → /ʒ/ ġ,gg → /g/ rh → /ɹ/ ř,rr → /ɣ/ ng → /ŋ/ th → /θ/ 9 Vocab 22 22th principle number 22 reflection color shining 10 how many two dgit words are there? two double vowels times two (n_combinations of first digt) times (n_combinations of second digit) = (n_combinations of a digit)^2 = (two double vowels times two consonants times n_single vowels)^2 = (2*2*8)^2 = 64*64 = 4096. a e i o u ä ö ü Okay that's the same number I got last time, just wanted to check. 10.1 I just had the idea of sliding in an optional h into a double vowel like nuho for example. This is amazing. So the new number for two digit words is: Wait i realized I think i did the math wrong 10.2 Okay this means there are 100x4096=409.600 roots basically 10.1.1 hold up I can just slide in any consonant I have not used yet lol. List of consonants I have not used yet: l, h, x, any click sound 10.3 yeah I can pretty much slide in these unused consonants where I want also after different consonants. I think I will use this to make the language more vibrant. Without these tricks, any word of the same composit would sound very similar and this can be a good thing when I want to highlight the similarity like non-point aichra and adhd iatra but it can lead to problems since rn planet and infinity have the same root composit. 11 Is there a connection between adaptability and iatra (83, non-point, adhd)? 12 translations love letter "admission of love" opening up opening for love 14-47 uorohasva admission something projection projection and letting go no it's not projection at all? 12.1 woah I realized the etymology of admission is closely related to letter April 8.2 1 overview of morphemes with potential grammatical functions derivational suffixes 41 ~ noun ~ thing ~ ruo, oruo 61 ~ adjective ~ -ness ~ attribute ~ suo, osuo 11 ~ verb ~ -ing ~ embodiment ~ nuo, onuo 07 ~ -ity ~ idea Examples: act-ness ~ rrae!i acting ~ rrae!isuo groundedness ~ eon grounding ~ eononuo derivational prefixes 48 ~ subject ~ 68 ~ object 72 ~ predicate tenses 49 ~ the future ~ future 69 ~ the now ~ present 35 ~ one life ~ past 36 ~ one generation ~ distant past 37 ~ multiple generations ~ distant past 38 ~ culture ~ very distant past 39 ~ prehistoric ~ extreme distent past 2 What is derivational vs inflectional? Does Silexis not have inflections and only derivations? 2.1 derivational suffix 3 translation quiet please quiter, please deceleration.polite ngäizui roommate my neighbor plays guitar often 35 37 48 02 21 person tribe potence body repetition uiv eschasva lopago zeo duo 35 37 48 21 02 uiveshasvopagoduo zue I wanted the case because it was so unique 35 iuvu zihu 8.3 when I require each word to have one version starting with a vowel and one starting with a consonant and also the same with ending, the combinatorics change. I think it makes it such that I only have a fourth of the combinations. But I think this is fine actually.

My theory seems ti suggest that a disregulated nervous system has more to do with hsp than with adhd but I'm not sure

I'm saying project based learning is all you should ever do. I'm warning against trying to use project based learning to get a degree (or to get anything that you don't actually want). University is structured in such a way that the student has more than enough on their plate just going to the lectures and reviewing and stuff. If you are dependent on gamification and project based learning and all that stuff in parallel, you are fighting an uphill battle. These coping strategies are not natural and it takes extra time and energy both to execute on them and to uphold them. What you are building then is a house of cards that will collapse in on itself again and again sending you into depression again and again. A counterintuitive implication of this is this: people with ADHD have no choice but to start projects, but they are not meant to finish them ever. This tendency to start projects and abandoning them to start new ones is totally healthy. I'm glad that I was never "stuck" on a lot of these bullshit projects that I started so that I could work on the project that I'm working on right now which is way cooler than everything that I have ever started. And I'm completely fine if I find something even better that I'm abandoning my current project again. My vision is that I will keep starting projects until one of my project is good enough that some Neurotypical sees the potential in it and decides to finish it and popularize/implement it instead of me. I have made peace with the idea that I will never finish anything, and I'm fine with it. For me, this is actually a very calming thought.

I'm sorry to say this, but my honest advice is: don't. If you have ADHD, you only want to learn what is immediately important for you right now. This gets branded as "impulsivity" but in reality it is actually effectiveness. If you can't follow a syllabus very carefully, this doesn't make you less efficient, but more efficient in a certain way, because you immediately recognize and discard the unnecessary information. Think about it. What is the purpose of a syllabus? To prepare the student for as many scenarios as possible in the future. But this leads to a problem. Which is that the ADHD brain reasons: why should I learn this if it only might be useful in the future if I choose this exact specialization which right now doesn't really interest me at all. What you need to understand is that neurotypical people who are good students are good student students because they like the idea of being a good student. They don't really care that much about learning. They just like to fit that role. They do it because they want to fit in and they want prestige. If you have ADHD, it's very important that you don't try to copy this because your brain doesn't work like that. If you do try this anyway with medication, I really don't see how you would ever become independent of medication. I'm seeing this with my roommate. He has ADHD, studies medicine, and he is medicated. He is barely functional enough to study medicine but is still depressed often and is coping with a lot of compulsive behavior. I never told him this directly but the way I see it, he will likely never be independent of medication his entire professional life. The logic with taking medication with ADHD is: I'm miserable now and when I'm taking medication I'm slightly less miserable, but I like myself more like this because other people like me more like this. You need to understand that if you try to function in a system that is inherently anti-ADHD you will never be fulfilled. (the heuristic is, the more rigid the system, the more anti-ADHD it is) I'm still in the process of brainstorming how to have a good career with ADHD, but I did come to some conclusions. First of all I came to the conclusion, the people with ADHD are simply not meant to pursue survival. I believe that back when people live in tribes, they were the ones who inspired people but not the ones who necessarily thought about how to survive. In this current system of course, it is assumed that everybody can work and wants to work which is false. So this logic follows that is completely fine for you to for example keep living with your parents, or just straight up ask neurotypical people for money. The idea of independence is also anti-ADHD in my opinion. (the extreme advice that I give applies to people with extreme ADHD. If you don't have extreme ADHD, the advice still applies to you, but you are more able to make compromises.) If you absolutely have to have a career, or you have wiggle room since you don't have extreme ADHD, follow this heuristic: Try to avoid "implementation jobs", since implementation requires specialization, rigor, responsibility and deadlines. Try to instead aim for consulting jobs for example of jobs where this extreme rigorosity is not necessary. There are different approaches to learning that lead to different blind spots. If you excel in university all the way to the PhD for example, you are highly specialized, but there's a chance that there are other fields that are extremely relevant for your field that you know absolutely nothing about. If you have ADHD and you live in harmony with your ADHD, you will always get bored when it becomes time to learn those extremely technical details and conventions for implementation. When this happens, you tend to move onto the next field, and this leads you to traverse a lot of different fields of knowledge. So the ADHD intellectual has the edge over the non-ADHD intellectual when it comes to breadth of knowledge and a non-ADHD person has the edge of the ADHD person when it comes to specialization and implementation. They are meant to be in a symbiotic relationship. It was never the purpose of the ADHD person to implement anything. They exist to inspire the non-ADHD people and to point out their blind spots. This is why consulting work seems to be most fitting for people with ADHD in my eyes. Damn long post sorry

Oho I've been summoned 💅 I've not been very active lately since I have been doing glossopoeia. I have revoked this statement. When I made it, my definition of "meaning" was poor. The exact opposite is true, actually. People with ADHD are extremely sensitive to meaning because they can't be distracted as easily by conventions, social truths and ideology. Yes, according to this framing, neurotypical people are actually the ones who are distracted by status, and obeying to authority. When somebody says "I have ADHD and I want to be successful" it first has to be unpacked, what is meant by "success". The problem with the term success is that it includes purpose and meaning, but it also includes things like social status and recognition. If you have ADHD you will likely need to completely redefine what success is to you. The reason why it is so hard to get a degree or to make money with ADHD is because "a degree" and "money" are both social constructs. People with ADHD fundamentally don't care about social constructs. The way to be productive with ADHD is to stop chasing degrees and money and try to focus on what is immediately meaningful at any given time. If you have no choice and you for some reason I have to get an education because of parents or something, it would be smart to choose some education that has as many practical elements as possible. The logic of an ADHD brain works like this for example: why would I sacrifice so much for a piece of paper that says "bachelor of science" if I could instead program a video game and instead of receiving some piece of paper, I could have my own video game that I can play. This seems completely reasonable. But the majority of the population wants the piece of paper more because of its social value. The same is true with money. Money, also, just a piece of paper that many people are crazy about not including people with ADHD.

April 7th 1 Translations 91 skin goe enclosure ~ ngoe container ~ gomo foundation ~ iano shell ~ aimu peel ~ aima boundary foil frontier wrap bucket chair plate cup 15 15th principle number 15 position on in under above below outside inside future past 21-15 2115th principle Number 2115 embodied-position pose sitting lying standing squatting asana saiza lotus seat 91 direction upwards downwards out in within container-in 40 resolution dialectics path way dialogue diplomacy socratic 30 Granularity layers levels hierarchy holarchies stages phases stages sequencial-levels resolve resolution-potence 19 conflagration exponential growth power law chain reaction catastrophe revolution non-linearity 18 18th principle number 18 acceleration change non-linearity 17 17th principle velocity constancy consistency linearity 22 sequence analysis theory clock fortune cat rationality cpu evolution ??? 00 00th principle number 0 absolute continuum substance god cosmos 47 47th principle number 47 beauty acceptance heart heart beauty-potence love beauty-symbiosis 07 07th principle Idea form shape principle teaching 49 Eternity Immortality Hero Kleos monarch monumental-individual "l'état c'est moi" state-individual 38-35 "person representing and embodying the state" "the state embodies the monarch and the monarch embodies the state" state-embodiment 38-21 iukuen The undying state "an infinitely powerful state with no political polarization that exists for eternity since it exists in symbiosis and in mutual respect with other states" immortal-state 49-39 The undying people citicens of the undying state immortal-society 49-38 Silex "the undying teaching" silex 49-07 The undying pose 1 the undying pose 2 The path to the undying state 38 society ecosystem 39 39th principle number 39 infinity monumental whole environment home land country foundation continent planet 60 permanent unchanging tense absolute 2 Silexianism is better than silexism because the latter sounds too much like sexism. 3 Omg i just realized that the symbol for the silex is literally called "diamond shape" which is extremely satisfying. 3.1 Diamond immortal-fragment 49-79 4 Translation https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGduch7bj/ "the main character realizes everything they've ever known is a lie" 5 If everything is a number, one can make irrational numbers tell a story. Dayum this means every irrational number tells a unique story of everything in the universe Pi 3.14159265359... 31-41-15-92-65-35... entity-thing-position-stability- 6 I can encode lexical categories or something with prefixes with: "starts/ends with consonant, starts/ends with double vowel, starts/ends with single vowel" 6.1 that makes 3^2=9 combinations. Nine is a good number for this actually okay let's just quickly encode and then see what happens idea 1 noun: consonant, single vowel Verb: consonant, double vowel adjective: double vowel, single vowel Diamond immortal-fragment 49.adj-79.noun oangosvago crystal ideal-fragment Silex "the undying teaching" silex 49.adj-07.noun oangozashvo 6.2 This in kinda cool since 1 it seems that this establishes some konsistent stress pattern with concepts with similar structure 2 it makes it easier to decide on the different phonemes 6.3 the downside is less freedom also potential conflicts like two consonants clashing or something. Let's find out through experimentation. 6.4 monarch state-embodiment 38-21 old: iukuen now: 38.noun-21.noun trokadamo 6.4.1 kinda cool honestly. There is still a lot of freedom. 7 Sounds very japanese not sure if that's a good thing. 8 translations 41 nouns thing ~ řomo device ~ rano verbs using ~ ruo objectifying ~ řuo crafting ~ adjectives 8.1 Okay kinda love this. I'm noticing, that these different codes ce with different amounts of possible combinations. Consonant->double vowel has the least amount for example I def need to use a different one for verbs. 9 remember tenses. Do this with the higher 20s? 10 it seems my language has the potential to be a very good auxlang. 11 Let's encode everything I need Lexical categories: - Noun (N): Words representing people, places, things, or ideas (e.g., dog, city, happiness). - Verb (V): Words representing actions or states of being (e.g., run, analyze, is). - Adjective (Adj): Words modifying nouns (e.g., fast, beautiful, smart). - Adverb (Adv): Words modifying verbs, adjectives, or other adverbs (e.g., quickly, very). - Adposition (P): Includes prepositions and postpositions (e.g., in, on, at, with). - Determiner (D): Words that define nouns, such as articles (e.g., the, a, this). - Conjunction (Conj): Words linking phrases or clauses (e.g., and, but, although). - Pronoun (Pro): Words replacing nouns (e.g., she, they, it). - Particle (Par): Words that do not fit into other categories, often used with verbs (e.g., not, off, up). - Interjection (Int): Words expressing emotion (e.g., wow, ouch). 11.1 Let's write down all codes and figure out combinatorics. n_vowels := number of vowels. Something like 5-10 or something. Let's say 5. consonant, consonant. 2x5x2 = 20 consonant, single vowel. 2x5x2x5 = 100 consonant, double vowel. 2x2 = 4 single vowel, consonant. 5x2x5x2 = 100 single vowel, single vowel.5x2x5x2x5 = 500 single vowel, double vowel.5x2x2 = 20 double vowel, consonant. 2x2 = 4 double vowel, single vowel.2x2x5 = 20 double vowel, double vowel.2x2 = 4 11.2 What I could also do for now is to only assign the open class and leave the rest free. Then just individually assign each one of the closed class Let's do noun: single vowel, Consonant verb: Consonant, single vowel adj: single vowel, double vowel adv: Double vowel, single vowel Diamond immortal-fragment 49.adj-79.noun oangosvag ofaiosvag crystal ideal-fragment Silex "the undying teaching" silex 49.adj-07.noun oangozashvo

April 7th 1 Translations 91 skin goe enclosure ~ ngoe container ~ gomo foundation ~ iano shell ~ aimu peel ~ aima boundary foil frontier wrap bucket chair plate cup 15 15th principle number 15 position on in under above below outside inside future past 21-15 2115th principle Number 2115 embodied-position pose sitting lying standing squatting asana saiza lotus seat 91 direction upwards downwards out in within container-in 40 resolution dialectics path way dialogue diplomacy socratic 30 Granularity layers levels hierarchy holarchies stages phases stages sequencial-levels resolve resolution-potence 19 conflagration exponential growth power law chain reaction catastrophe revolution non-linearity 18 18th principle number 18 acceleration change non-linearity 17 17th principle velocity constancy consistency linearity 22 sequence analysis theory clock fortune cat rationality cpu evolution ??? 00 00th principle number 0 absolute continuum substance god cosmos 47 47th principle number 47 beauty acceptance heart heart beauty-potence love beauty-symbiosis 07 07th principle Idea form shape principle teaching 49 Eternity Immortality Hero Kleos monarch monumental-individual "l'état c'est moi" state-individual 38-35 "person representing and embodying the state" "the state embodies the monarch and the monarch embodies the state" state-embodiment 38-21 iukuen The undying state "an infinitely powerful state with no political polarization that exists for eternity since it exists in symbiosis and in mutual respect with other states" immortal-state 49-39 The undying people citicens of the undying state immortal-society 49-38 Silex "the undying teaching" silex 49-07 The undying pose 1 the undying pose 2 The path to the undying state 38 society ecosystem 39 39th principle number 39 infinity monumental whole environment home land country foundation continent planet 60 permanent unchanging tense absolute 2 Silexianism is better than silexism because the latter sounds too much like sexism. 3 Omg i just realized that the symbol for the silex is literally called "diamond shape" which is extremely satisfying. 3.1 Diamond immortal-fragment 49-79 4 Translation https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGduch7bj/ "the main character realizes everything they've ever known is a lie" 5 If everything is a number, one can make irrational numbers tell a story. Dayum this means every irrational number tells a unique story of everything in the universe Pi 3.14159265359... 31-41-15-92-65-35... entity-thing-position-stability- 6 I can encode lexical categories or something with prefixes with: "starts/ends with consonant, starts/ends with double vowel, starts/ends with single vowel" 6.1 that makes 3^2=9 combinations. Nine is a good number for this actually okay let's just quickly encode and then see what happens idea 1 noun: consonant, single vowel Verb: consonant, double vowel adjective: double vowel, single vowel Diamond immortal-fragment 49.adj-79.noun oangosvago crystal ideal-fragment Silex "the undying teaching" silex 49.adj-07.noun oangozashvo 6.2 This in kinda cool since 1 it seems that this establishes some konsistent stress pattern with concepts with similar structure 2 it makes it easier to decide on the different phonemes 6.3 the downside is less freedom also potential conflicts like two consonants clashing or something. Let's find out through experimentation. 6.4 monarch state-embodiment 38-21 old: iukuen now: 38.noun-21.noun trokadamo 6.4.1 kinda cool honestly. There is still a lot of freedom. 7 Sounds very japanese not sure if that's a good thing. 8 translations 41 nouns thing ~ řomo device ~ rano verbs using ~ ruo objectifying ~ řuo crafting ~ adjectives 8.1 Okay kinda love this. I'm noticing, that these different codes ce with different amounts of possible combinations. Consonant->double vowel has the least amount for example I def need to use a different one for verbs. 9 remember tenses. Do this with the higher 20s? 10 it seems my language has the potential to be a very good auxlang. 11 Let's encode everything I need Lexical categories: - Noun (N): Words representing people, places, things, or ideas (e.g., dog, city, happiness). - Verb (V): Words representing actions or states of being (e.g., run, analyze, is). - Adjective (Adj): Words modifying nouns (e.g., fast, beautiful, smart). - Adverb (Adv): Words modifying verbs, adjectives, or other adverbs (e.g., quickly, very). - Adposition (P): Includes prepositions and postpositions (e.g., in, on, at, with). - Determiner (D): Words that define nouns, such as articles (e.g., the, a, this). - Conjunction (Conj): Words linking phrases or clauses (e.g., and, but, although). - Pronoun (Pro): Words replacing nouns (e.g., she, they, it). - Particle (Par): Words that do not fit into other categories, often used with verbs (e.g., not, off, up). - Interjection (Int): Words expressing emotion (e.g., wow, ouch). 11.1 Let's write down all codes and figure out combinatorics. n_vowels := number of vowels. Something like 5-10 or something. Let's say 5. consonant, consonant. 2x5x2 = 20 consonant, single vowel. 2x5x2x5 = 100 consonant, double vowel. 2x2 = 4 single vowel, consonant. 5x2x5x2 = 100 single vowel, single vowel.5x2x5x2x5 = 500 single vowel, double vowel.5x2x2 = 20 double vowel, consonant. 2x2 = 4 double vowel, single vowel.2x2x5 = 20 double vowel, double vowel.2x2 = 4 11.2 What I could also do for now is to only assign the open class and leave the rest free. Then just individually assign each one of the closed class Let's do noun: single vowel, Consonant verb: Consonant, single vowel adj: single vowel, double vowel adv: Double vowel, single vowel Diamond immortal-fragment 49.adj-79.noun oangosvag ofaiosvag crystal ideal-fragment Silex "the undying teaching" silex 49.adj-07.noun oangozashvo

April 6th 6.1 1 "all "polysynthetic" means is that a language has a large number of morphemes per word." 2 remember "agreement" 3 polypersonal agreement 4 agglutinative 5 vocab going ~ velocity-repetition velocity-projection embodiment-projection flesh-projection 12-48 uotořeğo velocity-embodiment walking ~ body-velocity roundness ~ cyclical dynamic 36 iush round ~ round-essence iush-61 iushien pull ~ fragmentation-potence 93-48 psychopathy ~ { non-reflectivity, 72, äeto, } delusional ~ { self-illusion individual-illusion 35 } 6 Phonemes 0 = ts eo z oe 1 = n uo m ou 2 = t ue d eu 3 = tr ui th iu 4 = ř,rr oa r ao 5 = f ae v ea 6 = s ie sh ei 7 = sv äe,aee shv eä,eae 8 = k äi,aei ğ,gsh iä,iae 9 = g ai ng ea IPA Vowels ä → /æ/ Consonants sh → /ʃ/ ğ,gsh → /ʒ/ r → /ɹ/ ř,rr → /ɣ/ ng → /ŋ/ th → /θ/ 7 remember text-replacement 8 remember first,second,third-person 8.1 35~first-person 36~second-person 37~third-person-singular 38~thrid-person-plural that's pretty elegant ngl. 9 vocab Freedom projectivity non-constriction projection-ability non-constricted-projectivity flourishing-projectivity beauty-projectivity America Freedom-land power-projection-land projection-land 48-39 řäithia exploitative-projection-land hope-land Liberation beauty-projectivity Enlightenment hope anticipation passivity liberation-anticipation yearning dissonance-hope Russia yearning-land Impulse Accelerated-potence snapping conflagrate-potence land 39 thia City 39 tria 39 "that which is housing large ecosystems" Universe galaxy solar system Planet continent country city Gang potence-tribe Gangster gang-individual 10 remember typology 11 translations https://web.archive.org/web/20130603121930/http://fiziwig.com/conlang/syntax_tests.html A cheerful fire is blazing on the hearth A Entity 31 iun 11.1 iun Sounds a bit like the german translation of a ~ "ein"/"eine". Even more like the french un and une the point-entity entity 31 thou 11.1.1 I like that the translation of "the" starts with "th" 11.2 cheering empathy-projecting-konsonance empathy-projection reflection-potence 22-49 11.1 What is the difference between "a" and "the"? "a" is more arbitrary? the ~ "that instance of" a ~ "an instance of" 6.2 1 Roots: 00 = Absolute 01 = Graspable 02 = Body 03 = Soul 04 = Mind 05 = Spirit 06 = Consciousness 07 = Idea 08 = Meaning 09 = Ungraspable 10 = Duality 90 = Unity 11 = Flesh 91 = Skin 12 = Stability 92 = Collapse 13 = Cohesion 93 = fragmentation 14 = Softness 94 = Rigidity 15 = position 95 = positionless 16 = direction 96 = directionless 17 = velocity 97 = stillness 18 = acceleration 98 = deceleration 19 = conflagration 99 = ceassation 20 = Simplicity 80 = complexity 21 = Repetition 81 = non-repetition 22 = Reflection 82 = non-reflection 23 = Point 83 = non-point 24 = Mirror 84 = non-mirror 25 = Sequence 85 = non-sequence 26 = Dynamic 86 = non-dynamic 37 = masculine 77 = non-masculine 38 = Feminine 78 = non-feminine 39 = Intelligence 79 = non-intelligence 30 = Granularity 70 = self-similarity 31 = Entity 71 = Multiplicity 22 = Interaction 32 = Coexistence 23 = Order 33 = Chaos 24 = system 34 = Part 35 = Individual 75 = alienation 36 = Family 86 = stranger 37 = Tribe 87 = Outcast 38 = Society 88 = Foreign 39 = Whole 79 = Fragment 40 = Resolution 60 = Tension 41 = Thing 61 = Attribute 42 = Complement 62 = Contradiction 43 = Symbiosis 63 = Exploit 44 = Life 64 = Death 45 = Consonance 65 = Dissonance 46 = Harmony 66 = Disharmony 47 = Beauty 67 = Doubt 48 = Projectivity 68 = Receptability 49 = Immortality 69 = the now 50 = Transcendence 51 = unawareness 52 = concept 53 = substance 54 = illusion 55 = emptiness 56 = awareness 57 = non-concept 58 = dissolution 59 = Truth 2 Translations 26 Dynamics ~ dys roundness ~ dei Spiral ~ tie loop ~ euei cycle ~ die twist circle roundness-idea 26-07 deizäe samsara death-cycle 64-26 soadie logarithmic spiral (fibbonacchi spiral) self-similar-spiral 60-26 seotie fibonachi sequence self-similar-sequence 60-25 seotae 6025:1212 Spiral dynamics dynamic-dialectics 26-40 Soul-dialectics Dynamic-soul-path thermodynamics energy-dynamics 20-26 uezodysa 20 complexity - euza quantity - deo mass - doe energy - uezo information - dozo 3.1 omg that's so crazy that the logarithmic spiral and the fibonacci sequence are one apart. Projecting (psychology) mirror-projection 4 phonemes 0 = ts eo z oe 1 = n uo m ou 2 = t ue d eu 3 = tr ui th iu 4 = ř,rr oa r ao 5 = f ae v ea 6 = s ie sh ei 7 = sv äe,aee shv eä,eae 8 = k äi,aei ğ,gsh iä,iae 9 = g ai ng ia