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Didn't Berkely believe in an external God, Infinite Consciousness, looking everywhere in the universe at all times? This is very distinct from your one-jiva/solipsism consciousness that you propose, where what is behind my dissapears the moment i stop looking at it (what you've literally stated)

Like you know exactly how God works and are able to discern which philosophers are accurate about him. lol.

just saying it's on a down period that might be short-term, however short-term might still be a lot longer than we expect.

Liberalism is on the downfall in the west, so I doubt that will happen in Russia. Funny how in the earlier days of mass internet adoption, it had an effect of democratizing and illuminating people, like the Arab spring, but as the years went on the internet turned into the worst reactionary, epistemologically rotten propaganda machine that we have ever seen. Hate to say it but WW3 is probably the only thing that will put the devils back in their holes again for a little while.

Because you've yet again perfectly articulated the harsh reality of the world that the rest of the world hides from you and themselves. I've been coping by saying to myself that it'll all be good in the end and I will find someone, but through your words I now realize I will most likely never. Even if I get through the bottleneck of healing my brain fog, libido-surpressing panic and anxiety, dysarhtria/apraxia of speech, inflammation and extreme stiffness of neck and mouth, which is a far fucking stretch to begin with, I will still be in a situation where dating is hell simply because I'm not chad, although I'm not ugly either. Since even those starting conditions will probably never be met it's time I face reality like you do, cutting all the fantasies and seeing my situation as it is: I'll be forever alone. Hell, even maintaining a job and communication on the job will be of the utmost difficulty. Even though I have a relatively high IQ and am learning CS and other subjects while at home, and becoming quite advanced at it, in my mind preparing for a life in the future, I've come to the realization that none of those skills matter if you can't communicate and socialize with actual people to work on a job, let alone find a girlfriend or wife. The loneliness, sexlessness, and the physical and mental disability are just becoming too much to bear after 25 years. I've always had hope but now I realize it's just a fantasy I've been holding on to to cope. I'm getting tears in my eyes writing this, since women are truly the most beautiful thing in the world, not only physically but also mentally, and the one time I kissed a girl in high school was literally the best moment of my life. After hs it all fell apart. The only hope I have left is that my symptoms are psychosomatic or somehow caused by spirits or something. Over the last two years, when my symptoms have worsened to the degree I couldn't keep my job and studies, I have had like 10 days where somehow all my energy returned and I could talk normally again, and somehow all my symptoms dissipated, felt great in my body and mind, and I called my friends and had a great time. But the next day that would be all over again, to my disappointment and despair. Since doctors have not been able to find anything it's my only hope to go to some Teal Swan method or some cooky spirit healers. I have suffered sexual abuse in my youth, but it wasn't that bad (not rape) , and in the years after it I didn't have the symptoms I have now that have developed over the last years, so I doubt my symptoms are psychosomatic because of the abuse trauma. Although I don't have much faith in it, I'm still going to try my best. But if everything fails I don't see what I should do in my life. A part of me just wants to murder me for having dissapointed the young buck in me, never having had sex except with a prostitute and now not even be able to do so, and not have related to women and falling behind in life, not having had relationships and real conversations with women. I'm horny all the time which makes it absolutely unbearable to an almost spiritual degree, like rattling a cage from the inside. I've turned to religious ideas to try to find a raison d'etre in some ascetic manner but I don't really see it happening if all that buddhism and sufism stuff is fake anyway and i'm just imagining reality and thats it. Thinking about starving kids etc makes it easier to still feel thankful for my life. But it's just the lovelessness and sexlessness, and absolute lack of female company that just strains me so much, to the point I often don't feel human anymore. Maybe what I will do in the end, is just living ascetically, wandering the world for Truth and taking in the beauty of Gods creation. But I'm afraid I will always feel unworthy in the darwinistic sense, unworthy of human love and far removed from it. and that fear and hate makes me want to kill myself. I no longer really fear hell, although that fear kept me from pursuing suicide in the last few years, I realize it's all based on imagined dogma and dharma by prophets and yogis, who built a moral system for society, but I have absolutely no reason to believe them about the afterlife whatsoever. Although I have an intuition suicide will lead to hell, it's probably just human survival bullshit concocted by the mind. All I really know is that consciousness is immortal, for that is something I have witnessed myself. I'm just going to go on and try everything till I absolutely can't bear it anymore, but I won't delude myself with fantasies anymore, even when those fantasies kept me from ending it all. Thanks for everything Leo.

That's it, I'm killing myself.

I hope this account is a troll

@Leo Gura, I would really appreciate if you went into discussion with me about these points. The fact that a 300+ tripper has not reached the conclusion about this demoralizes me a bit to go on my own tripping journey. Why is it hard to find out when other, equally radical aspects of consciousness have been realized by you? Why are you unsure about whether God can lose itself without return? And do you agree that theologically, since God is all that exists, the possibility of God losing itself would negate all the attributes/facets of God since they have become lost and were thus always impermanent? If so, then what facets of God are permanent and therefore real? is it only Existence?

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You can realize that none of those things ever existed, that your conscious experience never happened to you.

Sufism, although being less dogmatic on theology, has an extreme hierarchical system of master-students just like Hindu guru systems. Because of their lenient theology they also are filled with conspiracy bullshit and the like. They are more moral and spiritual than Wahhabis but still incredibly deluded. In an ironic sense Wahhabis actually have a strict aversion to any superstition aside from the Quran and Hadith, and revert to strict materialism, scientism and naive realism outside of them. It's like they pick one fairytale and moral system and that's it. They also don't really have the hierarchical Guru system. However Sufis are of course very different from each other unlike Wahhabis. There are many different Sufi strands, some with less bs than others. But the majority of Sufi followers are like the new-age of Islam with their fantasies.

@Yimpa Now that I look at that thread Leo does seem pretty anal about it, although what I mean has nothing to do with "associating" newly generated AI content with Actualized.org, but only querying and contemplating on existing content, including other non-Actualized org content from other traditions, and helping users with sage-becoming, like an NPC fairy helping a young sage on its way to sagehood. It's sole purpose would be to help a person who is a member of the Actualized community and/or on a road to self-actualization. The only alignment with Actualized.org would be its vision of conscious self improvement (so not self-improvement in only a Tony Robbins-esque stage orange, but sage-becoming) , spiritual development, objective sense making, contemplation and all that good stuff. And again just provided as-is, open source, just a simple AI assistant project for the community

@Yimpa I agree LeoAI is not good, it's pretty cult like and not in the spirit of the work. My proposition is ChatGPT backend, finetuned to know it's purpose is to help the user become more sage-like, and provide easy querying of actualized.org content. So more of an assistant to help you on the road of self actualizing, but also having knowledge of actualized teachings. It's more a fun and helpful project for the actualized community. All would be open source and fully public. It doesn't have a "Leo persona" but is just a robot assistance to encourage your journey of actualizing and sage becoming.

Tulsi is so evil but she turns me on because of it. It feels so wrong, I think I have some shadow issues to face

Whats corrupt and devilish about it? I'm literally talking about a chatbot that has access to the catalogue of actualized content and Leo forum posts so you can ask the chatbot questions and have it find and catalog actualized.org content for you. I just mean a database with public Actualized.org content and feeding that to chatbot and have a cool frontend. If it's not appreciated then I won't, I just thought it might be a cool contribution.

Horrible song to wake up to.

No, you said you can code, you should be spending all your free time fulfilling our requests for all the weeks you haven't uploaded any videos. The app should have an AI agent who can go through all your content, and also have AI witch girlfriends that want to spill pussy juice on our jeans. Aside from the jokes, such an AI would actually be quite a cool idea. Am I allowed to make a scraper to scrape all your forum posts and blog content, so I can make an Actualized AI chatbot? It'd be open source and posted on GitHub.

I love how he is a true skeptic, and not a fake one like the New Atheists, who are dogmatic materialistic dogmatics. Great to see that wave is dying out, although it's also a sign of a decrease in rationality which is not a good thing. The Joe Rogan wave made people open their minds to interesting perspectives, but also to devilish horsehit like maga and conspiracies which Rogan eventually officially sold out to.

Interesting. I was always under the impression that Shiva was destruction and that means destruction of worldliness, Maya, separation and therefore is the same as awakening. I'm a huge fan of the dualistic theology of Shiva/Shakti with Shiva as the primordial absolute formless godhead and Shakti being the infinite dreamfield, consciousness manifested as the universe. Father Time and Mother Earth in an eternal marriage, forever one. I'm not sure what branch of Hinduism thats from though.

No, remembering is by definition not a dualistic state, because unity of being is the thing you are remembering. And you are remembering that you are God and not a creation apart from him.

Dark vendors can fake reviews a lot easier though.

So according to you, God can only be in forgetfulness when it is imagining itself to be a limited being, and since all limited beings must die, remembrance will always resurface at the moment of death of the limited Jiva. But how do you know that God can only be in a state of forgetfulness as a limited Jiva? Consider this possibility: Sadhguru claims that the death of the body turns the mind from a discriminatory mind to an undiscriminatory one that can be of any quality. Interesting to contemplate.

I agree, but my question is whether that blocking can be permanent since God has infinite possibilities. Have you ever done Salvia? It can block truth and clarity to an absolutely insane degree.

And why is that so hard to know, while other aspects of Consciousness such as Love and Invincibility are easier to verify? If it can happen, shouldn't it have happened by now, considering consciousness has existed for an infinite amount of time already? Doesn't the possibility of infinite forgetfulness throw out all of your conceptions of Goodness and Consciousness, since it means God can permanently lose aspects of itself? That means those aspects are impermanent, and isn't an impermanent attribute of God not an attribute at all? How can you claim that God holds/is attributes like Goodness, Love, Omniscience etc. but also simultaneously claim the possibility of God losing these attributes forever?

Then what function of consciousness cause God to always remember itself eventually, and not spiral into infinite forgetfulness forever?