Beans

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Either we upgrade and expand or continue disconnecting. Or well maybe we just accept that perhaps we are incompatible.

Duality.

You are a pair I am a singular unit. vice versa I was born into a pair and you were born as a single unit. im not interested in controlling you. I might be possessives, demanding and quite bossy. Though my end goal is not control. Though it to me is becoming clearer that I cannot convince you of my intentions. Even if I’m honest with my intentions. When I say it’s been awhile since we’ve seen each other. It’s not me going out my way to demand you share my perspective, but something I’ve noticed. It is a sleeping bear. That you are afraid of. While I on the other hand. For some reason was born without fear of disturbing a sleeping bear. I cannot help. That I want to poke at it. To be with me is consideration. I wouldn’t force you to burn your hand for something I might enjoy. I don’t expect for you to ask something like that from me. I think individuality is important and something I cherish myself. Sure. I can be away from you, but I also have the desire to be around you. I can’t help, but to crave your energy. im force fed negative energy. Sue me.

A month has been quiet some time… (I don’t think that would make my sense of time out of wack. 😒 )

joy and I spoke on the phone yesterday and when I showed them a old photo of my grandparents the phone was suddenly losing connection. Joy had an interesting insight to this. When I thought nothing of. Joy’s perspective was my disconnect with family. And it immediately hit me and made me tear up, because it’s interesting how the universe sends you little messages. She shows up in small ways. I think for me I tend to not be comfortable with disconnection, because it scares me. one of my favorite things about joy is that when I feel scared, or uncomfortable, or angry they don’t disconnect. Mind you we have before, but it’s nice relearning with joy. im looking forward to seeing Joy. its been since joy feels worried about all the intense emotions this is me except when I think of intense emotions I often think of distressing intense emotions. And with Joy it’s like my stress isn’t stress. It just feels like “ahhh” and then we both nod our head lol. people put a lot of expectation on both of us. I just want to live life. Peacefully. And joy wants that too. which is all I need. i don’t feel stressed when I’m around joy, because I don’t feel as if their energy is intentionally trying to drain me or hurt me. id rather see joy than be stuck with others who do the opposite of what joy and I do together.

I can’t help it… hehe I am selfish. I am spoiled. hehehe

Joy can be very sweet and sometimes has their moments ^^ though so do I. lolololol though joy is very good to me. So I try my best to be good to joy regardless of how insane they might drive me sometimes. We try to find balance. It’s difficult, but worthwhile. I love joy. Very much. shhh shh I didn’t say that. This is a simulation. We’re all dreaming hehe jk jk :3 plz be nice to my pookie and treat them right. Thank u for ur cooperation.

I believe. In my own experiences. That whoever you may believe in. Regardless of it being a “God” or Religion. That our spirits are a collective thing that forms this “God” I personally do not believe into a “God” or Religion. I believe in spirituality. And collectivism. I listen to my body, heart and soul. And In that I walk into the directions it takes me. And I have found that as I continue to do so. I’m always where I should be at the “perfect” timing. Even if I am late. (which rarely happens, but everything happens for a reason) I have found. That tuning into who I was, and who I am, today. Are two completely different aspects of my soul. I am anger, and love. I am divine, and scary. And a lot of people don’t like that. Neither do they understand the shape shifting forms, that divine transformation can give you. In my lifetime I will be a chameleon, because my soul is infinite. I believe even in Death. Our spirits and souls connect to us. Just in different ways. for an example. When I experienced the loss of a loved one. They came to me in butterflies. What a beautiful offering. It is now my duty, to offer safety, comfort, and love to butterflies. Not because God told me so, but because of how powerful love. And spirituality is.

@Leo Gura I don’t appreciate this kind of. Unfruitful and Toxic Behavior. I assumed this form was about spirituality? And didn’t honor low iq standards.