Beans

Meow

Adolescence ”don’t you cry or I’ll give you something to cry about” silent tears, don’t let them hear, show no fear. it’s time to put on your best poker face.

Infancy By Beans Yimpa Please hold me In your warm embrace I feel at home Locked outside of heaven’s gates Is this my infancy once more? Please hold me. I need your embrace. I’m embarrassed to say I don’t want you to let me go. Please hold me Down until I feel safe again. The weight keeps me grounded. Your warmth is all the nutrients I need. I’m looking for my mother in your warmth. As if this cuddle can shield me from all the cruelty of the world. Because my heart slows down, and my mind begins to calm. The storm is beginning to clear. I don’t need much. Sometimes, a lot of the times I just want; need you to hold me. And tell me everything is going to be okay. (shout out to our weighted friends pabi and axi)

It’s not that I’ve been avoiding or anything. I think there’s just been a lot here the entire time. There was so much just from the beginning, and on top of everything there were health problems, issues within my own personal life, not knowing how to communicate with each other, etc. Then therapy began and one by one those problems began to be dealt with. you cannot get to the core of issues or pain without doing the work to get to the center of it all.

Not even I know what choices are the correct ones and which ones aren’t. life is a game of minesweepers. I just do my best. And leave the rest up to God’s hands. I trust the guidance given to me, and walk.

Babe why is my butt so big?

Having a body land on you randomly without your knowledge can be very annoying. ^-^ when it happened I immediately said “what the fuck man?” And shoved the person’s body off me. Definitely should be a better way of communicating that someone is crowd surfing. I personally thought it was only the singers that did that. Not the crowd? I 100% heard all the bones in my neck pop. At first I thought I died or something lmfao, but a couple of seconds later I realized “oh something/someone landed on me” The music going on in front of you you don’t really pay attention to what’s going on behind you. even some people shoved pretty aggressively to get to the front which annoyed me pretty badly. Immediately I said “hey hey man you can say excuse me be careful you’re going to knock someone down” this dude was huge, and if you fall in a crowd like this you can be trampled on. I was relived to see others making sure no one was on the ground for too long if they had fallen.

It’s suddenly got cold in Texas after being warm for the pass couple of days my feet is cold. I like to put my cold hands on joy. :3

ROCKET MANNN Listening to this song was very nice ^-^ I loved that you found inspo from it

Sorry that you’re not feeling too good tonight I hope you feel better soon

:3 that sounds so cool let’s do it one day

He needs to stop speeding

It’s just a lot different than what I expected and usually my brain needs a lot more time to process things. It’s not bad. It has some pretty interesting sounds in it.

LMFAOO I haven’t heard this term in forever

“I don’t know what to think anymore get out of my head”

I don’t want one stupid bug ruining tonight.

I’m sorry I startled you. it wasn’t my intention. I just didn’t want you driving off in such a panic state. I should’ve listened to you and respected your boundaries.

I didn’t even do anything. I just wanted to help. I was scared you might get hurt driving in a panic like that

I’m working my butt off too im not doing this just to get high and fuck around. this is serious work for me.

*laying in joys arms, glances at their phone for a moment. Sees them slowly searching up Dairy Queen* beans: girrrl…. joy: whaaat…? I’m just looking at the pictures I can’t with you and your ice cream addiction hahaha

we will be right back after a quick commercial break

Last year was my first Christmas with the family. I was so surprised to see that they had gotten me gifts. I’m happy that this year I’ll be able to return the favor ^-^ and I even got something for a close friend of mine! I hope everyone loves their gift!

Thank you for your support 🫂 I love you stinkabutt