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LSD bonded with tartaric acid, that's typically what's in those aqueous solutions in dropper bottles. I think I might have an idea where yours came from, if that's so then it's definitely legit.

You issue is likely you're trying to reconcile paradox through logic and reason alone, that is doomed to fail. The interface you're using is too limited, it's like trying to divide by zero on a calculator. Any number times zero yields zero, so the result is undefined, it is infinity that can't be displayed on a finite instrument. Fundamentally paradox is rooted in duality – "this thing contradicts that thing". There's different kinds of paradoxes (more simplistic/linguistic ones like Theseus's ship or the heap, through even those have a deep meaning), and the existential ones that you solve by becoming directly conscious of God. How can God be everything and nothing at the same time? How come an omnipotent God can't stop being itself? How are stupidity and laziness actually manifestations of an infinite intelligence? When it all collapses into One, there's no more conflict, nothing to resolve, though not in a simplistic nondual way where it's just an infinite indistinct field, you can hold both in your consciousness and see how they're two sides of the same coin, which is oh so very beautiful. Paradox must exist because reality is Infinite, as per Russell's paradox it's a set of all sets that contains itself. I feel you on the need to understand reality. Sometimes you get lost and frustrated and self-deceived, but the call is still there. If the current approaches aren't working, try changing them. Hope that helped a bit and good luck.

It's called PsychedeliCare More info here: https://eci.ec.europa.eu/050/public/#/screen/home I'm cautiously optimistic about this one, collecting a million signatures in the remaining 8 months or so, plus actually changing legislation is a thorny path, but the effort still counts and people should express their opinion.

Deliriants are far more physically dangerous, they mess with the cholinergic system, the most fundamental in the body. Hence if you're going to try them, don't ever do that more than once or twice. The future health consequences can be very serious. Salvia is physically safe, but mind-wise it's the exact opposite. Deliriants are still within the realm of human insanity, you talk to people who aren't there, maybe your food turns to rotten human flesh, voices telling you to kill yourself... Salvia can get inconceivably more insane, with you turning into inanimate objects, living whole lifetimes, getting stretched and torn apart like a rubber sheet, etc. It acts on the kappa-opioid receptors, which are very understudied currently.

Thanks man. It's a work in progress, ain't always easy, but there's certain benefits and principles you can derive from mystical experiences for such situations. 1. Everyone is free to have their own perspective and opinion on God, and none of them diminish or contradict God in the slightest, it's all TRUE, no matter what it is, how relatively wrong it is, absolute wrong is just not a thing. 2. Those in possession of truth do not need to debate or prove it, you may engage in some good faith discussions to a certain point, but if the signal isn't getting through save your energy and leave it be. Conceding defeat is liberating. 3. Due to the infinite capacity of Consciousness for denial and obfuscation, if someone's unwilling to accept what you're communicating, there's nothing to be done about it, it's a hermetic seal on the mind. 4. Your automatic egoic reaction to disagreement and conflict is still present, but over time it grows weaker and weaker till you're completely detached and are just having fun. And look, there's no such thing as bad publicity. Usually my threads get like 2-3 replies tops, most often none, but look how this here has sprawled That reminded me of multiple perspectives on the same mundane event. People often kill insects like woodlouses in their homes as they find them repulsive. But there's many ways to recontextualize this. a) Realizing yourself in that insect, through the lived experience of being stepped on as bug crawling on the ground, remembered via 'database' in God Consciousness. Then you start to tread much more carefully in the world, although you still move forward, because you're also conscious of the cycle of life. b) Noticing the divine intelligence in that tiny thing, how the neurons synchronize the movements of its many legs perfectly, how its caloric intake is so miniscule it could probably live a year off a single breadcrumb, and so on. This is the miracle of existence in action. Just the fact that you find some things repulsive and others beautiful is a deliberate creation within consciousness, an intangible distinction is being made in real time. c) Even if we forgo all the above, assume it's a discrete being, and that it is ugly, simply find it in yourself to have mercy and Goodness, and spare it all the same, no matter your feelings about it. I noticed that the last lens is the most emotionally moving for me. The existential identity perspective is, in a certain sense, fear based. In truth, so what if you're stepped on and die, is that so bad? Who said so? The reason you can empathize is because there's a pre-existing bias of wanting to live and not wanting to suffer. Although you could take this one deeper and connect to ultimate love all the same. The beauty lens is gorgeous, but it's more about aesthetics, of marveling, at something other than yourself, though again, you could deepen it by realizing you're marveling at yourself. But the Love just penetrates right through, it needs no lofty elaboration or poetic descriptions. That's why I love to yap about Multiplicity so much these days, it enriches life and generates insights like tree branches.

@UnbornTao nah, I think we're done here. Metaphors and general stylistic choice don't resonate with you, that's fine. Simple armchair speculation doesn't leave one unable to move or eat for a day though. But sure, all this is fanfiction that I wrote because I was bored, let's leave it at that. That's also a truth of sorts.

I do, relatively speaking they've done a great job at parenting. I see how insanely difficult it is to be a good parent, it's one of the 'storylines' one can pick in this love simulator of a life, a route underappreciated in many spiritual circles. But precisely I set the standards for myself so high, I won't ever be a parent. Even slight missteps can traumatize the child in very subtle ways, I've accidentally done trauma release work on trauma I never thought I had as I'm very psychologically stable. What worries me though is their growing dependence on me. Sometimes it's an annoyance but it's a burden I'm comfortable bearing. But if something were to happen to me they'd be basically helpless. Mom wouldn't know any of her login credentials or IDs for govt. administrations, dad wouldn't get any help with documents, my brother wouldn't have anyone to borrow money from... So I always try to promote independent thinking and action, teaching to fish basically, but most times it falls on deaf ears. Quite the dillema to navigate.

That assumes Absolute Truth can be communicated in such a direct way using the conceptual overlay of language, like capturing infinity in a bottle. The most this writeup can do is inspire someone to explore consciousness themselves. Taking my stories at face values would be a mistake. I did my best to provide fresh perspectives and some advice, most people don't even bother doing that, they spend half the piece describing set & setting and what they were doing throughout, with a few vague "OMG I'm God!", "It's all perfect, it's all Love" sprinkled in. By your definition of direct encounter there'd be no communication at all, instead a vow of silence or a mahasamadhi, which was a real possibility. If you want some dry lab notes on God, like a transcript of what it told me or how it looked like, this discussion serves no purpose. You are always in that "place", all that shifts is the state of consciousness.

God has many names, I think I'm allowed some creative freedom. Even the title is a wordplay, 'peaking' relative to my prior experiences, yet only 'peeking' in the big picture. If you think that style is confusing, wait till you see how Sufi mystics write, or Zen Koans.

You wouldn't have known it was "drug induced" if I hadn't mentioned that in another reply. Stories are direct consciousness. Everything that's happening is a story within I AM. And of course it's coming from intellect, God is Intelligence. Insight isn't some instantaneous event of a light bulb illuminating in your head, I have in-sight (seeing) how the letters I'm typing this response with and the phone this page is rendered on are God. As a start. Deeper than ever before. But that's not some ultimate awakening, I never claimed it was, quite the contrary perhaps, it has humbled me and so it should all of you. Develop your consciousness however you like, I don't want to debate, truth isn't found that way. Go become Truth, and then all I said along with the entire universe will actually be a story.

Depends on the depth of their research, that may have been an exaggeration but the vast majority surely don't, I only recently discovered some goldmines. People researching in clinical settings probably know most of it; still, some tips only come with in-vivo experience.

End of 2022, a friend from an unrelated forum convinced me to try mushrooms, I got some truffles, saw God, and the rest is history. It hasn't been long, but seems like centuries, my experience is very densely packed, I tried 60+ psychoactives, some very obscure, and even got to know a guy that manufactures a lot of the chems sold by the EU vendors, 5-MeO-DMT included. These days my "research" (consumption) is largely over, I'm working with maybe 5-6 substances that get me the best results, and the rest I experiment with, running novel extraction, purification, and conversion techniques. An interesting one in the works is Salvia blotters. Though the guide may not come to pass, as I wish to write it exactly as designed, omission and censoring aren't my cup of tea. It's for Leo to decide what to allow on his platform.

That's a part of it. It's structured such that before mastering the prior parts one shouldn't even thinking about moving onto the next ones. I'll link to tons of resources nobody has ever heard of, teach some basic chemistry, differences between substance classes and their effects, proper storage techniques, testing, equipment, and also how to purify and extract the chemicals, which's necessary even when you're buying from a legit RC shop. Even though IM is my ROA of choice, I understand it's not for everyone, but with good precautions it's no different in sterility from a hospital. I've also designed an entirely novel IV procedure, but that's like alien level advanced and I wouldn't recommend it to anyone. Still, I want to lay out everything and let people decide. It is my opinion that such info should be available as those who're going to do it will do it anyway, but likely learn from poor quality sources.

Though I'm guessing this particular definition is more about pseudo-rationalists and propagandists, few better examples than Roy Cohn come to mind when it came to twisting truth. (Awesome movie by the way)

Thanks! Working on it everyday. By the way, somewhat off-topic, I plan to write an exhaustive guide to psychedelics since most people here are very ignorant, but it will inevitably contain some dangerous parts. Would that be fine to post with proper disclaimers and such? I'd like to know before spending hours on it. That's up to your interpretation, it may all be nonsense or contain great wisdom, both are valid. More than an experience report this was written as a description of what's possible in Consciousness.

Doesn't have to be. There's boofing, which I don't like put people here do. Or better yet, IM. There's a study showing the many advantages of IM over vaporizing. https://akjournals.com/view/journals/2054/4/2/article-p104.xml The only trouble is the lack of salts on the market currently, but they'll be restocked very soon. Have you tried DPT or the 4-subs? If you want long lasting, go for lysergamides or psychedelic amphetamines.

Read some trip reports and find out, deliriants are completely different, they act on the cholinergic system, the most fundamental in the body. Similar mechanism of action is used in chemical weapons like Sarin.

I don't think there's a concrete answer to this, as usually is with God it's both simultaneously, a paradox. All of reality rests on God's Being, which maintains everything, from coherent to chaotic. It's not that God protects one from horrors like some guardian angel, more like for God to effectively manifest as a human, a lot of obfuscation in consciousness has to happen - hide the knowledge that you're God, not perceive paranormal phenomena, certain light frequencies, be sensitive to a limited range of temperatures... That you could say is all actively maintained. But it could be un-imagined. Buyer beware, you may think you do, but it's actually quite terrifying. Conceptual and intellectual understanding won't cut it. Try taking a deliriant like diphenhydramine, scopolamine, or benzydamine, that'll give a taste of insanity on par or worse than schizophrenia. Don't recommend it, dangerous psychologically and bad for the body. I plan to at some point, but I'm reckless. That would still be scratching the surface though, enormous doses of Salvia will do the job much better, and yet there's really no limit. Past the point where you permanently stop realizing yourself as anything (not death), there's no way to quantify it.

Sanity is a much broader concept than just coherence of perception. There is insanity far beyond your run of the mill schizophrenia and such that cannot ever be put into words, it's too undefined and chaotic, virtually zero order to its workings. It also doesn't have to refer to just psychology. Sane means healthy. Sanidad is health in Spanish. A well-functioning body where all organs work together and there's no cancer is sane. A solar system where planets orbit the star properly without colliding into each other is sane. This kind of order applies to all of God, except the Insane parts, but even those follow the law of Being.

❤️ This in particular was 27mg 4-HO-MET + 110mg S-isomer Ketamine intramuscularly. But I specifically didn't post it as a trip report as I no longer want to give limiting ideas how certain states can or can't be reached, especially this sort of state I believe is more common through very intense meditation, prayer or whatever, many accounts of mystics having similar experiences. I'd noticed unitive states come much easier with meditation, while the crazy alien ones are hardly accessible w/o psychedelics. Depends on what one wants and needs. To me the whole thing is about exploring the whole diversity of Consciousness. Ah, a fellow language connoisseur. I love them too. Language is a complex, subtle, and beautiful thing. I try to learn as many as I can, plus the etymology behind words. Beyond that, all symbolic representations of things are sublime, the conceptual overlays (maps, fantasy, etc.) are divinity and partly what make Infinity truly infinite through this endless generative process. Even though me and God no longer need any words to communicate at all, we still use them because it adds richness. Quite the takeaway, haha. The Balance of God is indeed so, an eternal engine of division and reunification, a self-adjusting system, an infinite Indra's Net.

All the better, probably tartrate then

N-bombs aren't that common anymore. The effects described could be indicative of many substances, LSD-25 included, nobody could say for sure. NBMOes are essentially the same but with more body load, especially vasoconstriction. "If it's bitter it's a spitter" is a stupid indicator, legit LSD tabs could be bitter due to being laid poorly. Most likely you had real LSD, if you want to be sure use a reagent test as per this or better yet get analogues like 1P-LSD, these will metabolize into 25 anyway and the dose is far more precise, LSD tabs are typically underdosed.

Careful with assuming that. An extreme state can blindside you in a dangerous way irrespective of precautions taken.

Most of this entity stuff is New Age nonsense, go deep enough and you'll see how they're projections of your mind. Doesn't mean they're unreal, quite the opposite, nor does it mean they can't provide you with valuable insights or hurt you in some way, that's all still on the table. How about creating your own entity to help run your life in the background? Possible, I've done it, pretty sure others have as well.

Classic variants of meditation become weak sauce after a certain point. Never really worked for me to begin with due to an overly inquisitive mind, but that can be turned into a strength. You could start doing God Mind meditation. As I'm riding on a train, I close my eyes, and through deconstructing the concept of motion in my mind I reach consciousness of Absolute Stillness, similarly you could do No Self and such classic awakening experiences. And this is richer because it's like having both eyes open, with No Self you have just the one. It can be done anywhere, at any time, the concept of distractions no longer applies, all of it is direct experience. Do this for a while and boredom will cease to exist. It's no longer about silencing the monkey mind, or something like a Meister Eckhart style, the emptying will happen naturally as you go beyond the imagined limits of your human mind. The reason you no longer need to quiet the monkey mind is your baseline has evolved to a relatively purified human mind, which has the capacity to earnestly and patiently deconstruct itself until reaching God consciousness, whereas the monkey mind had to be silenced, splashed awake with water, or dissolved. There's still value for those occasionally, but they're no longer mandatory. One could argue technicalities how this is not really meditation, that's up to individual interpretation.