What Am I

I'd definitely consider starting lower than 20mg for a first time to see how you're affected. I used 10mg of 4-HO-MET along with a low dose of ketamine, and that was quite intense. 20mg would have perhaps been too much to handle. Here's the mega-thread if you weren't already aware. Many good descriptions and trip reports. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/71978-5-meo-malt-mega-thread/

Looks pretty comprehensive. I'm sure there's small details that could fit in between, but the major points seem to be covered. Perhaps a bit more would be warranted in the way of sober practice and integration, which offers a kind of adhesive that holds the psychedelic peak experiences together and helps push them to greater heights.

Sure, as it should be. In my opinion, when it comes to such an experiential thing like spirituality, you should always end up with the final say as to what's true based on where your path has taken you. Allowing someone else the power to dictate it can really lead you in a dangerous direction. I'm confident that if you keep responsibly using LSD (and especially if you use 5meo), you'll eventually come across human potentials which are legendary. Here's a few of the popular books about kundalini. I've read them all and found value, but when it comes to this kind of thing, it's far more of a learned skill than an intellectual pursuit. Taking an activity like basketball for example, you could read up endlessly about the appropriate angles and mathematical forces necessary to optimally shoot the ball, but it'll never come close to the raw kinesthetic skill gained by actually practicing shooting the ball. Kundalini, and meditation in general, is that kind of thing. https://www.amazon.com/Kundalini-Exposed-Disclosing-Kundalini-Awakening/dp/B0B6KRCPJB/ https://www.amazon.com/Kundalini-Tantra-Re-print-Golden-Jubilee/dp/8185787158/ https://www.amazon.com/Serpent-Rising-Kundalini-Compendium-Comprehensive/dp/1777060850/ There's also some forum members who have expressed an interest. I see @Buck Edwards calls out kundalini in their signature. I'm sure there's others with direct experience, or at least knowledge. They may just be less inclined than I am to dump out info like diarrhea lol.

This one would definitely be on the right.

I appreciated these two. Not specifically on the right, but also kind of a view occurring outside of the strict left as well, with opinions seemingly drawn from both.

lol this could absolutely be true if the guy doesn't go on to favorably describe his experience, which I can't say for sure since it's in German. Come to think of it though, I often see new German 5meo videos appearing on YouTube. Has it been steadily growing in popularity there, I wonder?

I have, it's been an essential highlight of my journey. The first time was almost 20 years ago when smoking weed in my backyard. I had recently become aware of spirituality being real, and I was trying to see if a weed high could assist in reaching altered states. With a strong effort in concentration, and the freedom of mind afforded by being high, I was able to get to a point where colored lights filled my vision. And then a sensation appeared at the base of my spine and shot upwards, with various vertebrae cracking on the way up. I experienced a subtle shift in consciousness, but this was nothing like a full kundalini activation. There was no nondual realization or extreme expansion of consciousness, and the sensation of energy was much weaker. At the time it occurred, I was completely ignorant of kundalini or any other spiritual mechanisms. After some research, I realized I'm not the only person to whom this has happened, and history is littered with references to kundalini, with the information in both literal and symbolic forms. I've since come to understand that first experience was probably a separate-but-related phenomenon called pranotthana, which is like an energetic clearing and preparation for the real thing. There was a bit of a lull for many years where I kept note of the experience but wasn't able to reproduce it, even though I had many other spiritual experiences of different types during that period. But then I got my hands on 5-MeO-DMT. This stuff is a ticket to kundalini like no other. Even in my first few times using it, I had major energetic sensations the likes of which I'd never seen before. A type of bioelectromagnetic sensation that rushes through the system and makes drastic changes along the way. I'd be affected for up to a week after trips, being forcefully pulled into the eternal present. These after effects may sound awesome, but it was actually quite uncomfortable due to their forceful and erratic nature. The 5meo community refers to them as "reactivations", but from my own experience as well as others in the know, I believe I was experiencing what's called "kundalini syndrome", which is basically the results of a flooding of energy on an energetic system which has atrophied from a lifetime of nonuse. Interestingly, I'm pretty confident this same phenomenon is related to "LSD flashbacks", since 5meo and LSD are the two psychedelics most likely to lead to white light kundalini activation experiences. 5-MeO-MALT probably falls into this category as well, but I don't have enough experience with it to know for sure. Thankfully, my system slowly started adapting, and the undesirable after effects tapered off after around 6 months of weekly use. As they did, a new type of desirable after effect began where consciousness of my body and energetic system rose to prominence in my awareness, and my sense of self became a more fuzzy prospect to where I'd have flashes of unification with whatever was being observed in consciousness. We usually live trapped in our heads, so to speak, with our minds and imagination taking up all of our awareness. It leaves us closed off to a living vitality that's always with us, but usually just beyond the scope of our attention. In spiritual jargon, this raw sensation would be a doorway to presence and being. It sticks with me now even when I haven't used 5meo for months. As far as the full kundalini experience is involved with all its fireworks, I still have just a little ways to go to be able to say I've seen it to the end. In conjunction with intensifying energy and heightened consciousness, my experience has transformed into white light, with an ecstatic bliss and excitation that goes beyond words, as well as profound revelations of a cosmic order. But a line has not yet been crossed where my identity has truly shifted into its rightful place. I've come up to the door many times, but I've reached "ego almost dead" more so than "ego death". I admit, it's a scary proposition when the illusions of reality begin breaking down, and spiritual wisdom floods your awareness making it beyond question that you're the only thing in existence. I'm sorry, that was so incredibly long lol. I just wanted to give you a good accounting. You do seem to have a propensity. Those with potential can usually be identified from random spiritual experiences in their youth. Depending on what you'd like to do with your life, you may have opportunities you never could have imagined. So here's the thing. You're not wrong about the illusory nature of chakras and kundalini, along with literally all other manifest things in reality. But the trick is, they're still the engine that makes the spiritual machinery function in the human body, even if that truth is only relatively real. I remember a quote from Leo pointing out the absurdity of needing to ingest 5meo to produce the awakening experience. Leo is God, the room he was in is God, the 5meo itself is God, and all things are God. That's the literal truth. And yet, ingest it he must if the experience was to happen at that moment. Things like 5meo, chakras, and kundalini are important and real because God deems it so. And I guess if you're a little suspect that they even exist in relative reality, all I can do is testify that they are indeed real. I'd bet my life on it many times over, because it's been experienced so many times that I'd have to lie to myself to possibly believe otherwise. It'll be up to you, or perhaps the word of a very trusted third party, to convince yourself of it. Although, all it would take is one serious experience to make it undeniably apparent. I would have killed for a documentary like that when I was just getting started in spirituality lol. Sure, always remember to proceed with due caution, but be ready when your time comes to leap forward. Try to make those trips count, because it's probably accurate to say there's at least some deleterious effect to the excessive use of a chemical catalyst. When you're in an expanded state, try to grasp the mechanisms involved so you can release into it even while sober.

That's wild. It's difficult to guess what the world would look like if there was wide understanding of what 5meo does.

Very cool, that feeling of contented indifference is likely a taste of the profound meditative equanimity described in Eastern religions. Like I mentioned once before, it appears you have a natural inclination towards the required skills of meditation. Funnily enough, what you're describing relates very much back to your previous thread regarding states of consciousness where white light is perceived. So here's the esoteric theory: As you approach the superconscious state, it's as if a valve is progressively opened that allows more and more spiritual energy to flood your system. Since this energy could be considered the essence of vitality itself, there's less need for the usual physiological functions that maintain your life, so breathing and heart rate can slow to a crawl. In all likelihood, this is the true reason that sleep is a requirement for restoration, as sleep can be considered unconscious meditation, and meditation can be considered conscious sleep. When a certain threshold of depth is reached, a very special event called kundalini is triggered. An explosion of energy occurs at the base of your spine and shoots upward to your brain. Kundalini could be thought of as a type of built-in spiritual purification and transformation mechanism, similar to the alchemists' notion of changing lead into gold. Your energetic physiology is saturated and cleansed of its residue, of which would have a close relationship to the accumulated traumas and the false sense of self that are created over a lifetime. Like echoes of the "past" that lessen your awareness of consciousness in the eternal present. All of this is extremely palpable in the moments it's occurring, but what really stands out is the state of consciousness produced as kundalini reaches your brain. The bridge is greatly widened between our existence as seemingly independent beings and the infinite energetic source of all things. This is where the discussion involving white light comes in, and the divine reality it represents. A full blooming of this state involves a radical shift in identity to an unfathomable degree, and all sense of individuality fades into a nondual realization. I posted a few reports in the other thread that offer more poetic and detailed descriptions. The transformation in consciousness that can be initiated from repeated full experiences of this type, if integrated, understood, and utilized properly, is on the level of actual enlightenment. A true revelation of reality. Well, that was quite a bit, sorry lol. But since you recently started two threads that drew in my attention with recognizable signs of this type of progress, I figured I'd fill in a few gaps. Hopefully it's more helpful than confusing. Here's another cool description. This whole documentary is amazing, but the relevant section is about 2 minutes long from where the video starts. I think there is some slight variation in the 5meo experience as compared to a natural inducing of nirvikalpa samadhi via meditation and kundalini activation. For one, 5meo seems to be able to stop your breathing while simultaneously increasing your heart rate. I can imagine a scenario where this would burn through your stored oxygen supply and cause suffocation, despite the fact that this should usually be protected against in samadhi. I guess if you ever get into 5meo, start the dose low and slowly increase as you feel comfortable. I've personally used it at least a hundred times without major issue.

For certain higher states, yes 100%. As you approach the unconscious/superconscious level, your autonomic nervous system will naturally react to the lesser need for oxygen. It's similar to the decreased need for respiration that occurs throughout the process of sleep, only it can be much more pronounced and abrupt when you quickly go deep in meditation, or when you take a powerful psychedelic that forces you in that direction. For example, many of us have felt the breathing reflex stop on high doses of 5-MeO-DMT. Did you experience it? What's the context?

Lex has recently publicly invited Kamala Harris, Tim Walz, Barrack Obama, Hillary Clinton, Bernie Sanders, and AOC. Do you imagine he'll now show his true colors and perform the pushback you desired on them?

This may be a good point. I can imagine a scenario where we're quibbling over minor details as the barbarians at the gate are about to break through. As you said, it'd all be meaningless at that point anyway. It's possible that additional laws against foreign influence would make sense, but it's hard to imagine those laws not being eventually abused. Very unfortunate state of things. Yeah, I agree. The absolutist view is probably a bit naive. It's true that things always seem to turn out the same way when a certain amount of decorum isn't enforced.

It's a gray area, because that could absolutely be the opinions they previously held, and Russia was just propping up those opinions with money. That's my interpretation from the info available to us in the indictment. So in a sense, they'd be unwitting victims in directly benefiting from a foreign power with malicious intentions. It's a strange kind of victimhood though, all things considered lol.

From paying attention to those who are able to dissect the indictment, it doesn't seem likely the commentators will face consequences. At least not from the info that's available. Lauren Chen and her husband certainly may pay the price though.

Wouldn't that fall under the "accepted risks" of free speech that I mentioned before? It's an ideal we strive for as a free society, at least in the US. I think everyone knows we'll never quite reach it, and exceptions will have to be made, but to water it down such a significant amount out of concerns for safety may be a monumental risk in itself. Compromising too much in that area seems like it could eventually bite the person pushing for it, and they will predictably end up on the receiving end of what they consider an unjust silencing. Unless the assumption is that their preferences will always be the prevailing way of thought, and leadership will never switch hands again. I admit though, I could just be naive.

what a surprise to see myself mentioned in a thread like this one. Somehow you were able to smell my desperation through cyberspace.

I'm certainly not very knowledgeable about the law, but didn't an indictment get released? Wouldn't that indicate that there are protections in place for such an event?

I've heard it's common to have little to no memories of early breakthroughs of that type. I had my first like 15 years ago on mushrooms, and it was a total blank space in my memory. I basically only remember fading away and coming back, but not what happened in between.

The bolded sentence is the reason why restrictions on free speech have previously been handled with such a light touch, though that attitude does seem to be unfortunately slipping away on a daily basis. The ability to silence ideas is deceptively powerful. Since no individual or group could be trusted with such a decision, it was considered better to live with the inherent consequences of free speech than risk the potential devastating alternative.

Thank you so much for pointing this out, Leo. I've noticed this exact attitude of entitlement where pushback is considered a strict expectation of style. It strikes me as bizarre every time I see it to imagine an interviewer must be this way.

Did he have a breakthrough? Did he describe what it was like?

It may not be as necessary as we once thought to use freebase when vaping using a device meant for e-juice specifically. The worry was always that salted forms require a much higher temperature to vaporize and aren't ideal for vaping, but that doesn't take into account the different method by which these e-juice devices function (lower temperature aerosolization into liquid droplets absorbed by the lungs). With that in mind, salted forms actually have a number of advantages, such as a likely higher bioavailbility and a PH closer to the human body, making for a better and more comfortable vaping experience. The conversation and experimentation has been going on for a few years over at DMT-Nexus. Skimming through these threads will explain it better than I could. https://forum.dmt-nexus.me/threads/dmt-fumarate-vape.360812/#post-3856001 https://forum.dmt-nexus.me/threads/dmt-salts-for-e-juice.367729/ https://forum.dmt-nexus.me/threads/5-meo-dmt-salts-for-e-juice.369640/ I actually have a lot of experience vaping 5-MeO-DMT fumarate, 5-MeO-MALT HCL, and DMT fumarate using this method, and I can vouch for the sentiment expressed in these threads. It does indeed appear to be the superior method. I realize this is going against the grain of the typical vaping advice, but I think we as people often get locked in a way of thinking and just kind of give knee-jerk responses that we've heard from others without really evaluating. In my opinion, the notion of "freebase only for vaping" is worth reconsidering in the context of an e-juice mix. As a side note, I actually don't love the ROA of vaping in general, and I'd tend to recommend something like oral or rectal administration depending on the substance. Vaping an e-juice mix definitely has an unhealthy feel. In my experience, its largest advantage is that you can continuously control the intensity of the trip in a granular way. It's great for mapping out the territory of what's possible with a substance. My body and lungs have always felt like they've paid for it afterward though.

It's my suspicion that the white light in these experiences is the "visual" representation of the infinite source of energy that powers all things in manifest reality. A phenomenon tied very closely to kundalini and its functioning in the human body. As Leo is stating, and as I believe/know as well, God is truly formless. And that includes not taking on the color white, but rather having no form and instead encompassing infinite potential. Put into words, God would be the raw and pure subjectivity observing the infinite white cascade of energy in this state. Of course, words can't do justice to the reality of it.

Here's a few relevant reports. The first one is quite excellent. I'm aware the Adeptus Psychonautica guy is somewhat of an enemy to the forum, and not everyone is a fan of Joe Rogan. Despite the fact that neither of them grasped the full immensity of what they experienced, they were nonetheless lucky enough to have a propensity towards it.