ExploringReality

@Leo Gura I just want to get on my knees, cry and just pray. This is strong stuff that gives me flashbacks to an LSD trip I had. I had a strong God realization before that terrified me because I know my life is purely imaginary. But I couldn't tell anyone this without sounding crazy Leo. I can't unsee what I saw. I had a hallucination in which I awoken as a dead man without a body in a coffin, alone and I am dead for a eternity, but I try to forget that I am alone and immortal by dreaming my current life. When I awoken, I couldn't see myself and I was scared because the whole point was to forget myself. When I realized I am alone, I freaked out.

I can know God because I am God? This present consciousness right now is God? Is that why it's called Awakening, because God is asleep or dreaming Im not God? Why do I as God do this? Why the forgetfulness and remembering? Why hide and seek? Why do I sneak up behind myself and say boo!? Existence is the ultimate proof? The light of my own consciousness is God? Why do I look for God everywhere besides this present consciousness? Sorry for the long rant. Is God realization some big bang of an experience or is it a simple ta, dah!!! Moment like remember my glasses are on my face? Why is God unrecognizable to myself as God? What am I missing? I had Awakenings of God realization but they scared the shit out of me, probably because my dose was to high. My journey from that point was to just get back to a sane sense of reality and to live in the dream of survival. Eternity, Infinity and deathlessness scared the Jesus out of me so I am here, playing survival but I want another awakening because my last peak was about 7 years ago

Leo!!! Cough up the good stuff. Like Terrence mckenna said " take a good look at the people around on this forum, somebody here has what your looking for" 😅

Ram dass, Terrence mckenna. These guys kept the light and went deep within. Still had delusions but consciousness was the main focus. I use to read be here now while tripping on LSD, incredible but that was only the start to my journey

Pure foolishness. Psychedelics are direct consciousness. Peter ralston is a genius but we can't just give our authority and sovereignty of mind to other people no matter how conscious they are, they are inherently putting a cap on areas to which they are ignorant. It's the old "don't do drugs, there ain't nothing in it but change of state" nonsense. My attitude is that psychedelics are to be respected more than I respect Peter or Leo. Some people just have shitty maps of certain territories, the very first actualized.org video I ever came across was while tripping on psilocybin and I found Leo's episode on his experience with magic mushrooms!!!!. I was astonished how swiftly and elegant you described your experience of transcending your life story and your experience with deep spiritual Love. But the only reason why I was able to appreciate your experiences is because I was coming directly from my own! I can tell you from first-hand experience, all of my psychedelic trips, have literally raised my consciousness. You don't understand what consciousness is until you have a psychedelic experience, not just taking a psychedelic. Imagine how you would feel if you were to take four shots of coffee but you're not jittery and just pure clean consciousness. Just imagine that times 10 and also try to understand it's not exactly that because if you haven't tripped then you wouldn't know what I mean. Consciousness expands to the point where it swallows yourself image and your identity.

Great post. Im still looking to find a vape pen

Speaking is an incredibly profound and weird thing. This ability to create mental replications in the mind, internalize meaning and symbols, move our mouths and understand each other is miraculous. How is this possible? I'm not asking for an answer which would use language, I'm asking as in when one looks up at the sky and wonders about the stars through time. Reality is incredibly rich and deep. Human language is fascinating in that we can use it as an intellectual flashlight and describe phenomenons. It has its limits, but it's totally worth pushing those limits and examining the edges of reality and our entire frame of cognition. Is language the fruit of the tree of knowledge metaphorically? Also there seems to be a war of words and narrative when it comes to relationships, politics ect... Language shapes reality like a container shapes the water it holds. We take for granted that language is just concept and treat it as a finger pointing to the moon, but I feel that language is something so profound, at least I'm open to seeing language from a higher elevation. Language is the colors that highlight reality. There are a lot of stupid people that hijack language and twist and flip reality, this could be known in the form of gas lighting or narcissism, but also think of people that are really good with language, Terrence mckenna, Leo guru, Alan Watts, etc. Somebody once said that language was invented so that people could lie, how true is that? Language is like a chameleon, it's not what it appears to be, or it is exactly what it appears to be. This requires epistemic humility and mastery. Because growing up we had to accept would serve our survival, and our minds get filled with all sorts of language viruses. Part of having sovereignty of mind is to be able to think for yourself, turn skepticism inward, self-reflect, contemplate, and being very open-minded. Think of a good salesperson and a bad salesperson and the results they get. Think of lawyers and defense attorneys, think of the make or break of a relationship. Think of getting a job promotion, etc all of these are choices and results that are influenced by language, and if you can learn to say it right it makes all the difference. It's possible to understand all of reality with language, but not the limited version of language that you probably are thinking of right now, a trans linguistic language a meta language, a construct aware language.

The 48 laws of Power by Robert Greene is the antidote to being fucked over by power and control. It's like having kids, you are the parent you set the stage, don't let other people come in there and raise your kid. They will infest their minds and influence them with all sorts of toxic shit that they sucked up from culture and society. When you have children you better not give up control, and make sure that your power as a parent is being guided by higher consciousness, good nutrition, lifelong learning and being a conscious powerful parent

Thank you. I love his book, but ultimately it is only scaffolding for me. You cannot scale God because God is unscalable. What is the difference between the supreme self and God, and how would you differentiate God consciousness from Ramana maharshi's teaching and maharaji's teaching?

Is that 5meo on the right? My 5meo is that same of yellow color in a petri dish inside an airtight container

A seeker of Truth walks into a bar… The bartender says, What’ll it be? The seeker replies, “I’ll have… reality.” The bartender shrugs and says, Sorry, we’re out of reality. Only nothingness on tap. The seeker nods, smiles, and says, “Perfect… I’ve been searching for that all my life." the seeker happily sipping nothingness, realizing the whole bar, the bartender, even themselves, was just a concept the whole time. 🫠😏

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Lovely post

In a nutshell, some people go through these states and stages suddenly but for him he did not, it unfolded through a period of time and effort. What motivated him to keep going was his dissatisfaction. Even though he was definitely established and living in a state of non doership or spontaneous action, he was not happy with his State at all and it did not feel complete. He claimed that a lot was missing. One thing about no self, is that it lacks stable deep peace. It lacks happiness. Eventually that state expanded to an impressive cosmic state where you experience being one with the universe and feeling the universe is inside you. But that didn't satisfy him either. But something deep inside him knew that this could not be the final destination, no self and cosmic consciousness. The next step on his journey after that was the state of not knowing, or a darkness that is impenetrable. Also known as the darkness of the great void, then loving devotion of God, and finally 1000, Supreme Self Also he talks about how he dealt with the I thought. But you can read about his journey from the seeker stage to supreme self. Describes a series of spiritual shocks or enlightenment experiences. And he talks about during these events the ego or separate entity disappeared and was gone for minutes, hours or days but it would always come back. And the whole book is to understand where you are on your enlightenment journey and to not get stuck. Because the goal is ultimate, permanent non-dual abiding consciousness or what he refers to as 1000.

@Inliytened1 You should check out ramaji. He draws a model of enlightenment and Awakening from 4 basic levels, the starting point of awakening is no self, and the highest being the Absolute. Seriously check it out, there is a great book he wrote that spells all the confusion and he writes from his own enlightenment journey and I think it will value for you because your someone that has had enlightenment experiences. It's basically a roadmap and eagle view of awakening. It's normal to reach a certain point and slow down or stop. Notice how different teachers and gurus teach from different levels of consciousness. You have no self teachers, cosmic consciousness teachers, devotion to God teachers, solipsism teachers, God as self teachers, and so on. Many facets to Awakening

Basically in a nutshell. The question of who will go insane batshit crazy first isn't entirely dependent on sex, it's influenced by a variety of psychological and physiological factors. It depends on the person. Like smoking cannabis, you can't just say cannabis makes you lazy and unproductive. It depends on the person and each individual will react differently. It's dangerous to lump a gernarlization claim like this one because it dismisses and overlooks many other relational factors. Problem solved, no more bickering

Spot on. There's an interesting book I forgot the title of it, but it explains how the fetus in the mother's womb, starts off as female and as chemicals get released during the development depending on the hormones and stuff it will transition into a male or remain a female. It's quite fascinating, I think the best approach is to integrate the male and female aspects of a human being rather than our attitudes now of the opposite sex

Everyone calm down. Can we take a moment to let our defensiveness go. People are dying right now all over the world, and we are arguing over perspectives. I love you, let's take a moment to ease the tension and to not act so cool even if you don't agree with someone.

What is the most absurd, humorous and outright cringe things of Trumpisims? Guys were sitting front row of Americas freak show, have a laugh at this tragic comedy.

How deluded is Donald Trump? He ain't do shit to bring peace or deserves the peace prize.

Good step. There is a glimmer of hope.

I love that lol

You haven't had video game character consciousness though 😏 My first shroom trip, it was 1 gram, an hour and a half passed, thinking it doesn't work. And low and behold, while sitting on my couch, watching the TV as my brother is playing skate 3 online, my consciousness jump out of my body, into the television and I was looking around as the skate character. Im literally inside the fucking video game world as a character. I jumped back into my body and looked at my brother, he looks at me, at he said in a very slow motion, visceral way " you took them didn't you?" To which I replied "Yes!! I did". With the biggest grin on my face because I realized consciousness is absolute and is not bound. Upon this realization, not giving a fuck that my body is moving funny and I'm loaded to the gills, I grab my skateboard and run out the house because I was so excited to discover consciousness is disembodied and not bound by the body.

Reeling in Infinity. That could be a title to a book 😁

Can you clarify what you mean please. It could be possible that trump is bitter and what's to seem relevant somehow by taking some credit