ExploringReality

Why do I get high? To socialize? To party? To talk shit with friends? No!!! When I get high, I see through the social delusions. I look at my phoniness and masks, I see through people's masks and personality. I see people hiding their pain and calling it joy, I see distractions everywhere. I want to be with myself, reality and face hard truths that scare my ego, sometimes a little distraction is okay, but ultimately this is a lifelong journey

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I have conformed to smoking cannabis flowers! I am very very sensitive to psychedelics and cannabis, and I am very happy to have found you because you reflect and call out my conformist delusion. ironically I'm conforming to you, but at the same time I'm self reflecting on my conformity and I really am trying to crawl and climb out of this conformist well.

I've been transitioning to a whole foods nutrition that I tested and experimented with over a period of a few years. I've always been lean, athletic, blessed with good genes, I weigh between 135,140 lbs. I train more than most people, I've been athletic since I was a baby, no medical issues, so this list of things I eat may not be suitable for everyone but I think it's not a bad list. No more caffeine for me at all anymore!!! I would compensate my fatigue and lack of nutrition for energy drinks, coffee, pre-workout ect but now I feel more energetic, more alive, more vital, and super clean compared to before because I would push through and survive through workouts. Also I've reached athletic peak and flow not just because a whole foods nutrition, I've released a lot of negative emotions, judgements and resentment due to trauma bonds and reacting to be gaslit, and emotionally reactive to other people's seemingly personal attacks on me. I've studied narcissism a lot to the point of letting go of my resentment and grievance, having compassion for people that live miserably and have dysfunctional psychological development. I have no need to feed the cycle of defending, explaining and trying to solve other people's problems, and setting firm boundaries out of self love. That freed up a bunch of energy. Also I love to do deep diaphragmatic breathing, breath work, shamanic breathing, that clears your system and oxygenates your brain and body. Here's what's I eat. •Early morning, 7:00am: Ginger shot 2 oz. Organic lemon, tumeric powder, dash of black pepper, an Inch of ginger. Then I take 5 grams of micronized creatine monohydrate. •8:30am: 2000 mg of cordyceps mushroom capsules, 2 squares of 100% pure dark chocolate, brand Alter Eco blended with water, 2 dates, frozen banana, frozen blueberries, 1 tsp beet powder, 1 tsp of maca powder, 1 tablespoon of chia seeds, 1 tablespoon of ground flax seeds and 1 tablespoon of raw almond butter blended all together. Delicious. •9:30am: Train/run/sparring/high intensity workouts. •12:00pm: Main Meal. Baked Japanese sweet potatoes, sauteed zucchini, 3 organic pasture raised eggs, the yolk is beautiful, sliced organic jalapenos, one avocado, broccoli florets and arugula and spinach all tossed together, I don't eat in one sit, I split it throughout the day because it's full filing and satisfying and not like eating just to eat, but for performance. •5pm: 1 organic lady Alice apples sliced with pink Himalayan sea salt and lemon juice, 1 organic green Granny Smith apples sliced as well. •7pm: raw sliced almonds and raw cashews eaten by a handful. •Oh yeah and plenty of water at least 2 liters.

Conformity is your survival at its root. Mechanical survival. It seems to just be how reality is for you. It's difficult to see how your a conformist zombie because your response wether for or against the idea of you being a conformist is picked up, fabricated by your minds bias's. You may think you don't conform, that you have independent thoughts, you don't. Your thoughts, emotions, reactions, choice of words, all conformity. Even when you self reflect on your vocabulary in mundane moments such as talking with someone, when you bring mindfulness into how your speaking as a regurgitating monkey, you'll try to steer of and consciously select words, your still operating in a conformity box with your outside thinking only along the edges of your conformity. Your conforming to the social matrix because the social matrix is what you are, not actually, but conceptually, survivally. Busting through your conformity is like seeing the light of the sun as you raise your head out of a dark cave

Ok I have the freebase, not the salt which is snorted. So in this case, the vape cart works well with 5meo freebase and thca isolate is what your saying? And noted on the blunt tip syringe, where can I get this? All I need is a 510 thread vape cart, 510 threaded vape pen, flavorless vape juice and the syringe to inject to vape juice for the thca isolate. Fun fact, I read Terence McKenna's how to grow psilocybin book with his brother Dennis and other books to cultivate mushrooms. I learned so well that I cultivated over 400 dried ground in a span of 3 months. Talk about pursuing consciousness. I am serious about this. I'm not fucking around.

Love listening to your playlist recommendations. I listen when I'm skateboarding and driving. I detoxed a lot of the garbage music I would listen to, especially rap and hip hop. There are still some great songs but ultimately a lot of that shit is garbage and toxic. Have you played the game Spartan total warrior? There's a great soundtrack on there titled "don't mess with Leo". Check it out

Ok. How would you recommend smoking my freebase? the thca isolate puzzle is solved, now curious as to how you would blast in with 5meo freebase

@LambdaDelta How can I get this??????

Tremendous! Does this work for freebase 5meo as well? Thank you very very much Leo.

@Leo Gura The RDA+Squonk+flavorless vape juice is all I need to make a vape pen? Then I add the isolate and boom I'm good to go?

🫡✈️ I'm heading to mars

How many mgs? That shit is powerful. I cannot stand being stoned around stoned people.

Right! Even your earlier self-help videos would attract what the ego is searching for and your titles have gnarly hooks that are appeasing to sleepwalkers and once they got deep in the video, you basically disarm the ego, like the cleverness of the fox when it pretends to be playful to the cat only to snap its neck metaphorically. You jump up and down and smile to attract ego and once it's in there you spook the shit out of it into seeing it's absurdity and lack of consciousness helping to jolt one out it's dream of hell. What I love the most about you is you give super advanced wisdom and you also remind us to not depend on you and to transcend the training wheels and take risks of self actualizing.

This may be subjective, but all I have is my experience so I understand the paradox of speaking generally. I realized that what Leo is doing within the content of his episodes, even the beginning of actualized.org, all your old videos up till your new videos, you play the role as the shocker. I call you the shocker, like when someone is asleep and you jolt them awake. I'm not saying you're forcing people to wake up, but people are asleep. And the reason why I'm attracted to you is because I have awoken, and naturally I tend to look to see who's awake, even though I'm still fairly asleep even after I woken up. When you're talking to us, you're being filtered through the egoic mind, and I recognize that your wisdom is being distorted by ego, and the point of meditation and mindfulness in this work is to shed light on our asleepness. I got a hit on this last night, because I was listening to your episode on why truth is the highest value, and the first 12 minutes scared my ego and I wanted to fall asleep to avoid hearing it. It's like I'm a spiritual masochist and sometimes truth can be overwhelming to the ego. That's all I wanted to say. That you Leo are a shocker and I'm sure many people have felt hurt not by your words but because they have so many defenses and your wisdom can sometimes leak in or bust through those defense doors and when Consciousness shines through a dark cave, the bats and the ghosts and vampires do not like it.

People are sleep walking through life. thinking they are awake, the eyes are open but the mind is blind. Awakening is realizing that you are dreaming. You awaken from one dream into another, awakening is infinitely self awakening.

@Leo Gura Understanding is the key that unlocks insights. Understanding is the value of consciousness

@Leo Gura Robert Greene really highlights how humans are irrational creatures, especially the so called rational ones. We are irrational in our rationality. We like to think of ourselves as rational and logical, we are not.

Aye! The friends I made along the way are dead sages and fellow Voyagers.

@Leo Gura I've been listening to Vernon Howard's talks and he cuts through spiritual bullshit like a blade. "The world is like a giant hospital or insane asylum, where people walk around thinking they're doctors and free" his talks are very disillusioning.

All right fine, I'm going to put my protest flags back lol

Epistemic Sovereignty! The ability to stand in your own knowing without needing anyone to validate your knowing because your knowing is self-existent, self knowing, self evident. Needing reality to be validated really came when we were kids because we inherently were taught that our own perception cannot be trusted, so we naturally looked to others that took care of us to tell us what reality is. That's what gaslighting is, when you don't trust yourself and other people colonize your mind and define reality to you. Sovereignty of mind is what makes gaslighting impossible from other people. Others can only fool us when we don't trust our selves or we doubt our sense of reality. Imagine being absolutely sovereign, that's God 101. But it doesn't mean your cold or closed off, it just means you don't need other to tell you what you are or what reality is. Any how, hope this helps

I do not know! I am genuinely curious and in awe of the fact that I do not know. I am open to being conscious of the nature of this topic

The deepest conversation of God as man of God as man. Self reflection is infinite. Self is paradox.

What is rationality? Really. Is the universe Rational? Is a human Rational? Or is a human a very complex survival organism that uses a slice of infinite intelligence to serve its survival in irrational and rational ways? Are rational people truly rational. Is rationality dangerous? What are the pros and cons of constructing an identity of being a rational person? Also what is beyond rationality? These are delicious questions and I absolutely love this stuff