Daniel Balan

I hate the words masculine and powerful. You shouldn't try to be a "Man", you should try to be a person that is capable to handle survival and be decisive. Also a person that respects himself and doesn't allow himself to be a pushover. If you let go of all control life will transform you in a pushover homeless. I cringe whenever someone uses the word masculine. I'm actually a very feminine man, I sometimes cry when I feel sad or I express my insecurities and fears to my girlfriend without regret. HOWEVER, when it is time to do something, to be decisive about something I am dictatorial about my life. I control tyranically everything that has to with my personal survival. I won't control what friends my girlfriend has or what she wears, but I will control the face of somebody than wants to harm her. I won't be this passive hippie if someone wants to rob me or my girl. I will control that MF's teeth.

I live by this principle: I am as dictatorial, as ruthless as possible when it comes about controlling my life and what I do with my time. But on the other hand I am as liberal, as non-controlling when it comes to others. I'm not gonna tell my friends, my family, my girlfriend what to do with their life, I'm as non-intrusive as possible. But when it comes to my life, I am grabbing the bull by the horns big time, I'm almost tyrannical.

If you let go total control of your life you become homeless. Your girlfriend/boyfriend sees that you don't care about anything and leaves you for somebody else, your car drives of the road, your house gets infested by rats and bugs etc. By all means assert more control over your life, be as dictatorial as possible with your life. Being a weak leaf being blown by the wind means you end up in disastrous life situations.

Random insights Stop being a sheep. Be unique, start doing things that you percieve to be the best. Stop copying others. Stop looking at what the best individuals in a particular field do, do what you think is the best in that field, don't be a sheep to copy what the best players do. Become the best by yourself without being a mindless sheep copying some authority figure or successful individual.

He is just a stage blue propagandist. Engaging seriously with such characters is already a mistake. Thinking Tucker is an intellectual honest actor is already a mistake. Tucker is just a right wing propagandist. He should be taken as such. There is nothing serious, or intellectually honest about him. His job is to spread hatred towards liberals, to push right wing naratives without any qualms or shame and to shape the minds of American citizens along the right wing conservative agenda. His life purpose is to destroy stage green.

Lonely Lonely - Tune I love Russian music so much! I don't understand a word, but in a way I feel like I understand the meaning behind the words even though I don't know the language at all.

That's why people in Russia and other places want dictatorships as opposed to literal democracies. In the 90's after the collapse of the USSR, after Russia become a flawed kind of democracy many people didn't have a job, during the soviet era everyone had a job but once the dictatorship collapsed, once the state planned economy disappeared many people were left jobless. But then Putin came, he transformed the Russian society in such a way that most of the people had work again, although they are paid only to have food and a roof over their head, but they have work, in the chaos that ensued the collapse of the USSR no one grabbed the bull by it's horns, everyone was fighting for himself to have money to buy at least food, but then Putin grabbed the bull by the horns and stabilised the chaos. This answers also to people who wonder why people want dictatorships, that is precisely why.

Also a reason why all the dictatorships are squeaky clean is because there everyone is forced to have a job and a good chunk of the undereducated population is employed by the city hall and all start before dawn to clean the cities and villages every day. In Paris most of the people are having a good job, they are not rednecks that have 0 skills or education that they need to be forced by the dictatorship to be street cleaners unless they want to go to prison. In most of these dictatorships you go to prison if you refuse to have a job. They don't give you welfare assistance like they do in France, In Russia they give you a hard beating if you refuse to work.

Chatgpt, grok, deepseek. Those I used the most. I haven't paid any subscription to them thus far.

This thread is so great. I learned a lot of things about Russia by reading this thread. This is an amazing idea. Keep up the good work and if you have more time please do the same for other culturally rich countries such as Russia. This is a brilliant idea of a thread.

This is part of a anti liberal, anti stage green propaganda campaign. They paint all the more liberal cities as some dirty hell holes yet they paint cities in dictatorships like Russia or China or Belarus as in squeaky clean, pristine condition. Paris certainly it has a lot of problems, as do all cities, but what drives me mad is that in these documentaries they avoid all the squeaky clean parts of Paris and only show you the dirty parts. Likewise they don't show you the utter hell holes at the periphery of Moscow or Minsk but they show you only the most clean places. As I said, what they show in these documentaries is a massive distortion of reality that is aimed to convince voters to never vote for progressive candidates because if they would do so, their city would end up like a waste pit.

Isn't this a core tenet of your work? Isn't this the main idea from your video The social matrix? Or from the video How socialization makes you stupid? I thought that you are the biggest champion of independent thinking. This is what I'm also engaged in. Because I see that others are so biased, so deluded, so self deceived, I have decided that the worldview that I have will be forged only with my own independent thinking and dirrect experience. I have decided that form now on I will no longer buy into any group think and every belief or opinion that I have must be arrived at only from independent thinking, deep contemplation, keen attention to self bias and thorough questioning of my opinions, beliefs and worldview. But now you look down on Ralston for doing the very thing that you have championed for so many years. Could you explain why? After all is better to isolate yourself and arrive at the worldview you have on your own volition, on your own independent thinking rather than being indoctrinated into some herd mentality ideology. I don't get why you criticise Ralston from this angle.

However there is a lot of value in Ralston's teachings. I think the most correct spiritual journey is that of doing all the sober spiritual practices first. Firstly do sober spiritual practices for a decade then try psychedelics. If you try psychedelics without firstly doing proper spirituality you might end up with visions that Jesus is the king of the universe. Ralston's teachings are less prone to self deception because it teaches rigor and proper conduct. With psychedelics, without proper conduct, you might do yourself more harm than good if you are a newbie.

For me to admit what I just did is extremely painful. I almost burst into tears when I realised upon months of contemplation that I am at such a low stage of cognitive development. I might have memorised by hard the actualized.org concepts, but the cognitive vehicle through which I observe and interpret reality it remained at blue with nuances of red. I deeply abhor blue, I can't stand it, the content of the blue worldview is making my skin crawl, I feel like a raging volcano whenever I feel any resemblance of religion, traditions, nationalism, conformity and herd mentality but paradoxically if I stay long enough near such groups of people, my reptilian brain is swayed towards the "tribe", towards the collective ego of the community I am a part of. That's why I decided to be a total loner. I have developed such a hatred for stage blue that I can't express it in words.

I do that too when I use AI, but for some reasons it always echoes back to me my pre existing worldview. I can't be already right on everything I already believe so it must be the case that AI is the same as Facebook, it only presents you in the feed your favorite conspiracy theories and your pre existing political agenda. Also when I push back against AI in the end it always reconfirms my pre existing bias. Also I asked a far right nationalist acquaintance for his phone, I know that he also uses chatgpt to get information and I was shocked that it basically gave him the exact opposite information with the same conviction on the same questions or promts that I ask chatgpt on my account and device. This far right friend is nostalgic for the communist dictatorship from the cold war era and chatgpt confirmed, validated and further strengthened his self bias for dictatorship and totalitarianism saying that people in deed lived a more prosperous life under communism and now people have it worse and they don't have a stable job etc. Basically chatgpt was spewing communist propaganda that was displayed on tv during that era. That was the moment I decided I will never ask AI to give me information that could potentially shape my political worldview. As of now I only ask it stuff about geography or facts from society such as who was Michael Jackson or other petty stuff like this.

Bro you do as you see fit. In the end you should listen to yourself and make decisions only based on what you think. If you think that you are safe there for now, that is great. If you can access the information you need with the help of the vpn that is also very good. If you don't have reasons to leave maybe you should stay there and help the Russian society improve in ways that don't involve politics. Maybe you could build a great business there that could help employ many locals that currently don't have a job.

Bro I am really sorry to hear that. Follow Leo's advice and move out of Russia if you want to have a great life purpose. With the wars and all the shenanigans going down in Russia, if you are a fighting age male there is a chance that they will take you to the front lines. Man I am so afraid of Russia, the Russian wanna be viceroys in my country want to turn my country into a Russian style dictatorship, and the fact that I will lose YouTube and actualized.org is my biggest nightmare.

But without VPN, accessing Actualized.org in Russia is possible? Btw what can you access on the internet? As far as I can know you only have access to Telegram.

I will never ask any AI anything ever. AI is the most filthy thing mankind invented. I asked it if communism was bad from my phone and it gave me a lot of arguments for why it was bad. Then I asked the same thing from the phone of one of my far right acquaintances, and it said that communism was great and a strong man dictator is the only thing ensuring that the globalist foreigners don't steal our country. TL:DR AI is very bad for one's epistemology. All it does is to further deepen yourself in your pre existing worldview and it does so without shame. If it senses that you are a liberal, it feeds you liberal confirmation bias. From now on I will never ever use AI to make sense of the world.

Unfortunately this life purpose is impossible in like 95% of the globe. Even in America you couldn't actualize this life purpose. Only in places like Scandinavia this could work. The only way you could change Russian politics is for the worse. For the better you stand no chance. You could become a more brutal dictator than Putin, but you alone could never bring liberal democracy to Russia You have to accept that Russia won't be a liberal democracy in the next 200 years. Russia in terms of democratic development is yet to reach the level of democratic development of 1789 France.

Bro I have an even bigger question, how can you access the actualized.org website if you live in Russia? Shouldn't this website be labeled as as a foreign extremist destabilising element for Russia? Can you access YouTube in Russia to watch actualized.org videos?

My whole point wasn't about politics, it was about that no matter how much content you consume from more developed individuals, unless you commit yourself to do a lot of inner work, something like actualized.org is useless no matter how great the knowledge it gives you is. In the end it takes tremendous effort to profoundly change one's development level. This is no walk in the park, it takes unparalleled effort to move from Blue to Orange. To move from Blue to Orange, the person you were at blue needs to litteraly die and then to rebirth itself at orange. It takes total destruction of the old self in order to then emerge at a higher stage. This takes profound inner work day in and day out for at least a decade to move just one stage! Merely following actualized.org and copying Leo's insights simply means that you memorized by hard someone else's insights but you still remain at stage blue, your brain and psyche is still deeply wired in the blue worldview behind the scenes even though you have adopted some new thoughts from someone else the same way you adopted the Christian fundamentalist worldview when you were a child. I become deeply aware that I am a literal sheep. The same way I swallowed the orthodox Christian paradigm and worldview when I was 5 years old, I did the same with Leo's teachings since I follow him. Fundamentally my cognitive development had remained the same, the hardware of my brain, the vehicle from which I see the world is the same stage blue vehicle I used to carry the fundamentalist worldview when I was a kid, the only difference is that now I threw away from the vehicle the fundamentalist worldview and I replaced it with Leo's philosophy. I merely changed the upholstery, yet the structure and the hardware of my cognitive vehicle has remained the same.

If I were to be brutally honest, I'm at such a low level of cognitive development that I do a lot of mental gymnastics to justify my politics. I basically adopted Leo's politics because I was able to see that he has studied politics thoroughly and he has a life philosophy that I deeply admire. But it feels unnatural to me to be a centrist liberal. My heart is leaning towards MAGA. I am deeply ashamed to admit that had I been an American citizen I would have voted Kamala just because I have copied Leo's politics, but my heart, my reptilian brain would have leaned towards Trump. I have watched hundreds of Leo's videos, I have read the blog since 2021 non stop, but my cognitive development is so low that if I listen to right wing media and Trump for too long, I fall for them much more effortlessly than I would fall for the liberal media and Biden or Kamala. In a way I feel like I am powerless to resist being sucked into the social matrix and the center of gravity of my community spiral dynamics wise. The centre of gravity of my community and friends is at stage blue with a bit of red too, and when I speak to them I have to make enormous mental effort to not fall for their worldview. It has been exhausting for me. After each discussion I have with the people in my community I have to spend in my head thinking for countless hours to reinforce and defend the stage Yellow worldview I have copied from Leo when it comes to politics. I have to isolate myself and have no people around me to be able to have the political worldview I copied from Leo, because I soon as I am talking with other people, they dismantle my worldview effortlessly and I feel powerless to find my words to defend it. I feel like my whole political worldview has no fundation, like it was built on the sand not on solid rock earth. This proves that although I consumed Leo's content for years, I merely brainwashed myself with the content, but the cognitive development of my brain has remained at stage blue/red. What should I do now? Let go of the resistance I have developed against the centre of gravity of my culture and go with the herd? Or realising that my worldview is not mine, humble myself and accept that I'm a stage blue redneck and accept that I have to start developing my cognition starting with the healthy aspects of blue and then going with baby steps up the spiral? I have to admit that my worldview is fake and I have to start to develop myself all the way down from blue 😥

The most important thing is for one to realize this via direct experience and expansion of consciousness. Because I have a low level of consciousness and I haven't had mystical experiences that would arive me to such a conclusion, I decided that until I become directly aware of what you are pointing at, I will continue to have my worldview shaped by the materialist paradigm, since the materialist conventional paradigm is the only thing that I have been directly conscious of. I will continue to be an Atheist because in my direct experience I haven't experienced that I am god. This is crucial. Adopting and parroting Leo's realisations without becoming conscious of them yourself is the same as blindly conforming to fundamentalist religion. Believing word for word Leo, holding solipsism as a belief without dirrect experience is the same as a Christian believing that there is a bearded man in the sky because the bible says so.

Thanks a lot for this response Leo! I will deeply contemplate on it because you have said things in that reply that shook my whole epistemic foundation. Thank you!