Paradoxed

That's a bit silly.

It's not extreme or radical. It's hard to date someone you disagree with politically. Your job is not to convert your partner. If they cannot meet your level of understanding or if they don't live in the same reality as you then it might not work. It all depends on how much you value being politically aligned with your partner.. some people simply do not have that as part of their relationship criteria.

Looks like some of the DMT entities working behind the scenes

From my understanding, nature is unfolding, things are happening, but the mind copes. Biology is playing itself out. The ego tries to take credit for outcomes through the illusion of decision-making. Their is an illusion of self and illusion of choice. When you live from a delusional place of ego, these choices, opinions, decisions, etc feel so important. It is true that everything that has happened needed to happen to get you to where you are now. But did you will yourself there? These "choices" are really just some expression of consciousness so to speak. There are many things that can wake you up to the lack of control you as a self hold, as life is rather unpredictable. You are the entire experience of what is happening. Are you deciding this? There is also a paradox here.. as you relax and live from a less egoic place and let go of certain desires your outcomes become much "better" so to speak and you actually seem to get more "choices" because you are undoing your conditioning and healing the subconscious mind which affects your outcomes more than your day to day decisions. We feel that we are deciding because we made a decision but we don't consider that it could be already decided from a higher place or a deeper place in you.

100 percent. Genuine neighborliness is truly a virtue. I like the enemy turned to bestie idea, which I've seen played out in my life after resolving conflicts. This could blossom into an authentic relationship for OP

I agree with this advice. Sometimes you don't need to consume anything and just need healthier practices and learning through self-inquiry. My advice would be to relax. Stop trying to become actualized, or enlightened, etc. Love yourself how you are. Sometimes we develop an unhealthy obsession with getting somewhere with self-help and that gets in the way. Have a healthy practice like gettoefl said but don't beat yourself up. I might avoid Leo's content if you aren't in the best headspace. Maybe watch his video on Self-Love. You could also dive deep into Adyashanti's work or Eckharte Tolle.

Fair. There surely is something to learn here. My take is that whether "real or not real" the right thing was done in apologizing. But I have to say that apologizing just for the sake of making things better and potentially get the charges dropped is just self-preservation, and little growth is made unless truly sorry, which let's be honest, remorse should probably be felt and internalized. It's not just about being neighborly. It's an empty gesture if not truly sorry, seeing the wrong in what was done, or if behavior stays the same moving forward and nothing is truly acknowledged. Everybody makes mistakes. I cannot fairly assume their is no true sorrow being felt. I encourage growth from this. I would advise seeking help for this type of outburst. If I go to court for a speeding ticket, and the judge agrees to not add any points to my license and give me a warning, but I speed out of the courthouse parking lot and blow the stop sign, then I simply got lucky. The lesson is deep contemplation, healing and learning not being so reactive. There is also a lesson in the utility of apologizing, and also forgiving despite it being incredibly difficult for them to have done that. Nobody should be applauded for simply apologizing to neighbors unless it's authentic. That's a lesson too. I interpreted much of this as inauthentic, as the original thread is riddled with defensive justifications for the outburst. It was not "woah I did something horrible how could I possibly have done this, I love animals" it was "welp looks like I'm going to jail for something I did that was justified, not like I woke up and chose violence or anything guys so go easy on me!" In this thread I sense gratefulness for them showing mercy and being nice, but less genuine thought being put into how the situation could've been avoided, what will be done moving forward to be better, etc. Obviously I am judging words on a forum post, interpreting them, and giving my two cents.

I don't think this actually happened. This reads like fiction. If it did happen, you are lucky they let it go. It seems like they could tell you don't feel remorseful from your conversation with them.

To judge your decision we would have to know you as a person, what type of person you are, and know what you were studying and determine whether school/your major actually aligns with you. Sometimes the best option is to just pursue your highest value and what you're passionate about while holding down a steady job, saving money. It would also depend where OP lives, because in America, you have to go into incredible debt for a college degree. It's not necessarily best for everyone to have a college degree if they are just going to school for the sake of it, without having a clear vision of their career post education. You can find yourself massively in debt, unable to get a job in your field, or could realize you are not even interested in the day to day of having a career in what you studied. This happens to more people than you'd think. Best to nip that sorta shit in the bud earlier on if that's the case for you.

I've had many experiences where I know I've read a post before word for word in the past, or have been to the place I am despite rationally knowing I have never been there before, or met someone that feels familiar yet I know I've never met them, etc. I have also had experiences when half asleep or meditating when I am sort of transported to another life and am fully there, living that life, and interacting with another person from that perspective... I don't think I'm seeing a vision of the future necessarily, but it feels like a glimpse into another person's perspective. This feels very different than a dream also. I can never remember specific details about these visions afterwards, and when I realize I am doing it and am jolted back to my "normal" state. It's rare but happens when I'm super relaxed and I let my mind wander freely. Not sure if this is quite the same thing but I've never been able to figure this out.

I'm glad you have been feeling better

There is no such thing as a mild psychedelic as they affect everyone differently and there are too many factors to the psychedelic experience to make any generalizations about a certain compound. For example people say 2c-b is mild but I disagree.

I'm confused. Is the dog okay or not? First it seemed like the dog died, then you said it "stopped moving", then you said it just backed away. But it also seems like the dog could be dead. Why would they think you killed their dog if you didn't? If you kicked their dog, and now its dead, you did in fact kill their dog. You are just being defensive of your actions instead of taking responsibility. We are still unsure whether the dog actually bit you, or if it just lunged in your general direction and you got scared and started kicking. This is so odd and confusing, and it's hard to help or parse the situation when you are this unclear. Personally, I would not talk to your neighbors to avoid further incrimination.

I snore sometimes, and my father has sleep apnea, so I think I might have it... I used to smoke too. Do you feel like you are ever not well rested despite getting enough sleep? What determines your sleep score? I'm curious what stimulants you are on besides nicotine as well. When I did adderall, my sleep was heavily disrupted. I'm happy your sleeping is better now.

Peyote is a cactus that contains mescaline!

Mescaline can be intense and is really long.

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This is probably fake anyway. Dude showed zero remorse. Feels like bait

You shouldn't have approached in the first place- you initiated this interaction. You should have picked up your small dog and walked away when you sensed something was off. You should feel horrible about yourself. If it legitimately was attacking you (after you approached it on its property), a couple good kicks and a dog will probably stop (I doubt this dog was willing to fight to the death), but its sounds like you just entered some fugue state and kept kicking the dog until it was dead? I hope you go to jail.. after a few good kicks to defend yourself and separate the dogs, it probably would've got the idea. I don't buy your story. You seem afraid of reality. You clearly know nothing about dogs if you thought a golden retriever was a pitbull. Maybe this dog sensed your nervous energy. if you are so afraid of dogs, why are you approaching them?

Brutal! I used to only get about 4 hours of sleep at night. On days off I would sleep for like 12-15 hours straight. I respect your hard work!