Paradoxed

Life is just a cosmic joke that you take seriously. Ironically if you treat life like a joke you're probably in for a bad time. But if you treat life too seriously life is torture. So you have to laugh at it all while pushing forward. Everyone knows a drunk idiot who just listens to comedy podcasts and doesn't take his life seriously, wallowing in self pity and getting nothing done. Those people just love drama and BS. I'm glad they have their coping mechanism but that's not fun or funny to me. Comedy is a form of escape from the meaningful nature of life (there is no meaning to your life whatsoever but it's important to your well being to play this game). Comedy is like a break from all the work you are doing. The joke is your ego playing its game and the paradoxical nature it. Human nature is hilarious. You don't need anything but the present moment and that makes you laugh after years of banging your head against the wall

That sounds amazing! Glad it was a good experience

So I did NN-DMT a couple nights ago, and I experienced something I hadn’t experienced before. After taking my last hit, I felt the “oh fuck” intensity of the DMT come up. I was really going for it, for a big breakthrough, so I had quite a bit of DMT packed in the bong. I heard the typical ringing in my ears, getting louder and louder, as I felt the fabric of the universe starting to rip apart. I prepared myself. Suddenly, my consciousness pushed out of the front of my head. Not kidding. This was unlike anything I have ever experienced. I was looking back on myself, onto the center of my forehead, specifically the ajna chakra (like where someone would wear a bindi). I was only about an inch away from my own head, looking back at this center area of my forehead. This only lasted 5-10 seconds until my consciousness transported again, back into my head. I felt a swirling sensation as my consciousness re-entered my body, entering very intensely. It actually hurt where consciousness entered my head, giving me what felt like a tension headache. After this, I didn’t fully breakthrough. I got to the “waiting room” elevator stage of the DMT experience, where I have been before many times. I observed a female entity swirling and dancing around me that I had seen before. She was scary, and I remembered being scared the last time I encountered her. This time, I believe because I have been meditating, I was able to just observe her and not be frightened, or not react to the fear immediately. She was honestly not scary at all and just dancing around. I was sort of trapped in this dark elevator-like place until the experience was over, wishing I could take another hit. Usually when you are in the elevator stage, you didn’t do enough DMT. I may be locked out of the full DMT experience, at least until I figure out a better way to actually do it. I need an e-mesh vape, or a crack pipe or something. One time I did it out of my dab rig and it gave me lock jaw ruining the experience. I am curious if anyone else has ever experienced an out of body experiences on DMT? I know this is more common with dissociative drugs like ketamine. Overall pretty cool experience!

I would say IR adderall (low milligram, like 5 or 10 mgs) would be good as you will be actively engaged in conversation with others, and it wouldn't last too long. Try not to take it too late at night as it would keep you up. Make sure it is the instant release so you aren't locked into a 10 hour experience. There are downsides though, you would develop a tolerance, or get addicted, you would basically be relying on meth to socialize. I would just learn to be relatively sober and be okay with that, maybe have a few beers like everyone else. I like doing LSD (very low dose) in social situations but I wouldn't recommend it if you aren't experienced.