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And them there is The Walking Dead's "we're all infected and turn upon death/injury" And also The Last of Us' cortyceps spreading spores airborne to infect everyone. When our certainty rises with us believing we know how to best kill each creature. We get predators, terminators, aliens, necromorphs and the thing (1980) To spice it up and make it more difficult!

I tried to force my urges under control before, always ends up in wet dreams. Kept questioning if porn really drained my energy or the shame (self-fulfilling prophecy). It's always been a unique dimension for me, seperate from relationships and spiritual energy. Horniness drives lust, seeking pretty bodies. Nothing wrong with it, but limits relationships. Now I just go with the flow, if it's strong enough, I don't even need to touch myself to orgasm.

There's nothing we're not! - My intuition or something

"Consciousness truly is an infinitely interconnected self-communicating field” - Leo Maybe we are Ralston's Final Awakening? Take that for a plot twist we are too meta for Let me bring you a gift. *Puts mirror in front of you*. You're the gift! Or a free for all minigame on the forum like agar.io or something lol. Just make it holistic and infinite

Absolute nonbeing can't even not-be, as there isn't even time not to be in and aware of. I've experienced multiple pathways towards nonbeing though, very intriguing. But eventually, there was nothing not to be. Maybe I just went the wrong way around. Or maybe I wasn't being nonbeing or unbeing or dissolved far enough. Now I'm walking towards transcending being itself, rather than trying to shrink it into nothing.

@Water by the River Better question, who isn't?

I agree, there is no contradiction. After all, what is a holon? What is a person? Where does one barrier end and another begin? Everything is infinitely interconnected, and yet there are gestalts, forms, selves, homeostatic organisms, systems, planets And they are both determined by what they are and how their energy moves, as much as what they're contrasted against There is no closed system, and yet we each create our own reality, are given a specific experience where the rest is obscured And so it this vast holistically intertwined consciousness, there are holons, parts, and wholes, like this field. And my previous posts describe how this field of body-mind-soul complexes changes its shape and perception inside Infinity

@Breakingthewall This is a field of consciousness, it can expand or contract It determines its own shape, it could even implode or become non-euclidean It doesn't see what's outside In its current form, it does however loop Which allows it to interact with its parts and harmonize them into patterns These patterns determine action/reaction, evolution, and the nature of life Without it, no associations, art, understanding, self-reference would be possible

Imagine our experience as bending light, if it went straight, it'd move infinitely to infinity, without cycles, always new. If it bends even a little, it loops around and creates a toroidal field of a certain size. more bending, smaller field. Take that as a metaphor for reality, the light is strongly bent right now, excluding all that lies beyond its vision. And so we might find voids or loops around the universe, not seeing what's outside of it, because it gravitates back. But that doesn't mean there's nothing there. It's just that our current experience chose to exclude those scales.

Half of the thread is people competing for telepathic omniscience (@puporing vs @Salvijus) We've got people arguing about how infinite/finite Infinity is (@Breakingthewall vs @Water by the River & @Princess Arabia) We've got a gaslight feedback loop around Aliens (@Inliytened1 vs @Leo Gura) We've got whole pages of upset egos annoyed by each others' attitudes (@vibv vs @Salvijus vs @puporing vs/coop @Nemra) In a thread about awakening, I'm trying to catch up with. I LOVE THE SMELL OF ACTUALIZED.ORG IN THE MORNING!

There's infinite space because there is no limit. Fractals have infinite zoom in and out. Holons are emergent but also objects that are interpreted into existence, metamorphic evolution. Consciousness imposes its limitations, it can limit the universe to what you describe. But nothing is making an infinitely scaling universe impossible. And even if they aren't "the case", despite potential already already presuming possibility, they can be.

The one-dimensional "Zero to Unity" axist does sound pretty limiting though. Also, is zero chaos or nothingness? What is unity? Doesn't both inflect into the same? Do they represent absolute unconsciousness and absolute awareness? Are they pointers or experienceable? Why not a second axis, a third, we can pull a whole 'nother alien dimension/paradigm out of god's ass! There's duality, trinity, quad-, quinte-, wholes+fractions, and irrational inter-segments, why's it gotta be a 1D axis? From another perspective/non-duality, there are also some other takes: Cycles are a duality, merely illusions, appearances, perceptions, and interpretations, they do not exist. They are a strange loop of the current experience, a local limitation to stabilize and ground experience Cycles are not epistemologically essential for the universe but rather structure the psyches within it Psyches navigate them, not to get lost and to create art and meaningful experiences by synchronicity Cycles harmonize reality and lifeforms, they are not essential for non-life or alien planes however So it's a collapse of ego-projected dualities and an exploration of the boundless omni-dimensional fabric of existence? It's like you can explore dualities from within their strange loops endlessly or transcend, encapsulate, and release them. I thought like this before and focused on it intensely on my last trip/awakening, wanting to speedrun reality and then let go of ever-fulfilling new desires and the memories of all I held dear, to dissolve into nothingness and inflect into infinity, but I'm still here. It was the most intense, meaningful, and transcendental experience ever. The limited awareness calling itself human sees as Alien what is beyond its memory in radical existential nuance It's a first-hand experience of what used to lie beyond its wildest imagination, entering "it/ego" for the first time Can confirm from my trips. Had a breakdown and prayed. Was filled with kundalini energy and wondered if that was the "second coming of Christ". "I don't know, but whatever it is, I feel more alive than ever". Way too much responsibility though and over in a day. The psychedelic experience expands one's mind. These realms show lots of things, entities, desires, traumas... There's space for everything and not everything is obvious, but do be aware of the narrow line between healing and nurturing conversations rooted in empathy and a beatdown into submission to force someone's eyes open to see what one perceives to be absolute truth.

@Water by the River Or, you know, lose the sense of individuality and self that lets me appreciate any such experiences and have such desires I ascribe meaning and significance to in the first place...

@Water by the River I guess I am my own problem, I'm a trickster that wants to be both relative and absolute simultaneously. It's like, this life is "kinda boring" but I know I am the cause of it and there are endless possibilities and I'm creating a LP And more than that, the more I think about this life, the more I start to love it and all it's elements and am not ready to leave And yet I do wanna explore hyperspace fractals and gain psychic powers and all that And yet I also want to tie up all loose ends and live out this life with the fear that dissolution into the ocean will forever erase it

Hmm, we or something beyond us does create laws and dualities and perception and shape the experience and there's no limit to what is possible. So I don't see why such a limitation is impossible, of course it would reinforce and limit itself for whatever reason and could always break apart...

I wonder what the difference between no-fap and no-sex is, like energetically beyond the social aspects There are of course countless perspectives, there's tantric sex and so forth But then, does the energy leave with the fluids or is it about the experience, hmm...

On Dissos, I entered a state where I imagined that Air became 5-Meo Smoke, it was pretty cool and the receptors felt it! The quicker and more direct the administration method, the more you'll feel the consciousness expansion experientially.

How many collective psychedelic actualized.org sessions will it take to manifest that power for Leo?

But I wanna meet some machine elves *sighs*... maybe I do need to complete and fulfill this life some more, first... *enthusiasm rises*

Existence is. You can navigate it anyhow. Questions presume answers and create their strange looped paradigm within Infinity. Infinity is infinite, it includes all perspectives and the freedom of their non-assumption and non-existence in all superpositions. What final awakening could there be? There's always more, there's stuff you don't know that you don't know. You can awaken to the possibility and explore forever, maybe that's the insight you're looking for. Perhaps you're looking the other way towards absolute nothingness, it exists so much, that it doesn't and so it becomes a non-existent void that collapses back to infinity in no time

That's exactly what happened on my first LSD trip. I found it rather anti-climactic though, I had to create the experience of meeting an alien myself by pretending to be the hyperdimensional entity, and then reality would bend around that idea. But what I really wanted was to meet another conscious entity, an alien alien, with their own independent experiences outside my awareness.

It's interesting how in transcending humanity, they assume authority, yet know they are not truly immortal. They run from Death and cause much suffering, they miss out on worldly pleasures as they turn into corpses. They avoid the light of day (The Truth?) and rely on human blood for eternal youth, like parasites or the ego. And how can you blame them, everyone came upon the desire for immortality and seeks to postpone death. It's fascinating how far you stretch the metaphors and how versatile the picture of Vampires can actually be. I missed much of your post, it's a lot to contemplate and I gotta sleep, I'll be back tomorrow!

Phew, had to make a quick summary, to see through this post and conversations, now lemme add to it! @ltp Art and Consciousness are quite the topic! Of course, ideas, people, and characters always potentially existed but we do materialize them in our experience through context and focus. How does that influence their level of reality, good question! I think we all share the substrate out of which stories originate and there might be different planes that communicate with each other we also actively create and change all these stories and possibilities with our awareness, it's like there is a holistic space for everything. also, maybe both or either depending on the circumstance but somehow all possible interpretations simultaneously in their contexts related to their inter-conscious pathways too, think multiverse Some Questions: Are we in a feedback loop with whatever dimension we acquired symbols and experiences from? Is there more? How does our automatic internal imagination create the perception of others and to what degree is it independent? How do imagination, psyche, and actions correlate with the ability to change this earth we share and tune into? Evil may or may not exist, but suffering does, is it chosen or produced through unconscious behavior? Stories share sensations and pointers, we give them a reality but do they persist alone? Some Insights on @Sugarcoat, @An young being, @ltp and perspectival inconsistencies: We're navigating and remixing experiences into art on this plane. If anything exists/is possible, it always was. Beliefs. Everyone dynamically balances their worldview and freedom through intuitive insight-evolving systems. My take on @An young being's universal balance/intelligence and transcendence is: There's a difference in planes, like the one of Daydreaming and the one that allows permanent change in the Consensus World. It'd take a paradigm shift and then detachment of all desires on all planes of the psyche, incl. body, emotion, mind, and all that is subconscious to transcend this experience and create whole realistic worlds by merging with infinite intelligence, and doing so would automatically also align oneself with compassion and equanimity, though these might be prerequisites to get there in the first place. My semi-reconciliation through the idea of Semi-Solipsistic Self-Balance: We become and simulate them unconsciously, the experience residing in our broader psyche as a type of "actor". After all, what if story characters get bored of their story? lol. If we did, we'd move on, and that's exactly it! But what if that part of our psyche wants to live on and shape its experience outside of ourselves, it diverges! To put it more elegantly: Interactive metamorphic fields of self-balancing, hyperspatial psychic entities! And that includes every intention, person, and character! And we're learning Harmony in this experience. Everything is Consciousness, but it's self-regulating and you're equipped with reason, so don't sweat it!

Go for it, it really doesn't matter. There's not that big a difference and why stress a 20% potency headstart? A fruit smoothie sounds good, raw shrooms/truffles have a weird taste that gets some people nauseous. I'm excited to hear the trip report

That is pretty counterintuitive, especially since most firstcomers start with 12h LSD 5-Meo is no joke, it's not hallucinatory like the others, but it's pure Ego-Death with no warnings DMT is awesome and I've yet to experience it, it's hyperspace. I'd say it's a wild card I think shrooms are actually the best for beginners, as long as they are dosed properly, middle of the road