Keryo Koffa

@theleelajoker My current understanding is that we are individualized expressions of infinity, autonomous entities within it, higher holarchies include the lower, yet retain their own character but they are dynamic and always changing, the infinite sea of possibilities, the infinity of experience is there irregardless of whether we are aware of it or not and we can expand to perceive it, within it, we are constructed as much as we construct ourselves and we are infinitely interconnected with all other entities, we navigate this substrate of which we are a part, tune our sense perception, on another layer are the intelligence that consciously forms our body and reality, manufactures our sense organs and places ourselves into this reality, to navigate it, to experience it, for it not to dissolve back into infinity but expand our experience, we cut ourselves off from our omnipotence to immerse ourselves, to create individuality, to navigate the world through an externally directed ego, but reality flows from within, corresponds to deeper aspects of ourselves, we are in an experience in which others exist, if we imposed our will, that would limit it so to interact with it in a physical domain, we are limited, but we can also create our own reality independently, though becoming a tyrant there means that we are essentially terrorizing ourselves since we have to become, embody and experience those we terrorize as well, since everything is as, our identity scales within and outside, there is a vast cooperation of consciousness going on within all planes of reality, our world as we know it has chosen to disconnected itself from this awareness, each individual constructs the world inside it and navigates its possibilities, diverging timelines and navigating the infinite bed of possibilities, its a vast process but that's what you get when you inquire into how consciousness would act without limits, if you were the creator and created, how you would structure reality if everything was you and nonetheless you desired to explore this creativity through individuality.

@Leo Gura @Quader @Ishanga Let me break it down: I see duality as distinction. The intellect creates dualities based on perception, meaning perception itself is inherently dual, as it informs and emerges the dualities of the intellect. Love is being channeled between forms or dualities like self and other. But if those dualities dissolved, there would be no room for love, nothing to channel it and nothing to channel it towards and between. But the dissolution of all form would lead to a Unity. But I don't see how Love would have any space in that Unity, since I see love as the attraction between forms. So I don't see how God is Love. In relation to existence yes, but on its own I see no space for love. Love would be a pointer towards God, but when all form and duality collapses into the formless, I don't see space for God to have any properties at all, only in relation to existence would God have traits like intelligence or love but I don't see how it would be an inherent trait on its own when we collapse all else into an absolute formless Unity. Unless Unity is not the merging into formless but a recognition of interconnectedness. So in order for love to exist, there needs to be polarity, but that seems like a reinforcement of separation and that seems like the opposite of the merging that love points towards. Maybe the reconciliation is that I have a faulty understanding of God, Love and (Non-)Duality. I wonder if there can even be such a thing as a Non-Dual experience without the contrasting duality that lets one perceive it as a distinct form to be aware of. There might be the reality that gives rise to dualistic concepts and understanding, but isn't that still a perceptual duality if it is at all distinguishable as a unique thing? Maybe non-duality is simply seeing what is without lenses or being aware of the lenses being constructed. Maybe God isn't formless, but transcend form and formless where all exists simultaneously. Maybe love is not channeled between portions of the self but an inherent property of their existence. I'm getting kinda confused, but its important for me to inquire into this and reconcile that confusion. TLDR; Doesn't love require separation which feels contradictory as it polarizes unity in duality and unity is symbolized as the most loving state, and how can one be aware of non-duality when non-duality is formless, doesn't existence and awareness require duality?

When I finally learn how to enter astral realms or gain psychic powers, I will throw a huge party and teleport all of you there

I know that feeling, it is the fear of dissolving into nothing, the fear of the unknown that dissipates as you face it until it becomes a part of you and now you start missing it, that expanded self that is innately tuned to being direct, authentic and limitless. It's kinda insane, I tuned into what I associated with Christ and Buddha Consciousness too, when I didn't even intend to. Buddha consciousness to me felt like seeing through the source of all fear and distraction to enter a state of tranquility and nothingness. Christ consciousness felt like confessing my authentic feelings, transcending all desires and stories and wanting to save the world, tough I didn't know how exactly lol Makes me feel like a fool every time, it's hard to bear when you realize how stupid and obvious your own distractions are. That every excuse you make, any knowledge you want to gain, is to create an artificial separation and collapse it while being aware of the vanity of the endeavor, since all was available before even doing so. I feel like this world is a training ground and we won't be content until we integrate those experiences into our base state. Beyond that, there are endless experiences that we lose ourselves in, many from the lower chakras and I think we intuitively know that there is at least a part of us that wants to remain, to continue the experience, to get the most out of it, that we are too young for Mahasamadhi and we'd miss experiences if we just transcended to a higher realm, that this type of existence does have its own perks, that there's something that made us come here, that our current resistance is missing parts of the picture, that perhaps the resistance to being here itself might be a problem we want to resolve, or that this type of existence teaches us lessons by us not being able to manipulate the experience directly but only from within the limitation, humbling us in the process. And that on the grand scale of time, we'll leave this place eventually and want to make the most out of it while we still have an ego that benefits from the experience due to its unresolved sense of separation and the return from psychedelic shortcuts. 1. It's a good reflection, sometimes your identity changes, sometimes you revert back, sometimes you progress and find your writing too cringe, or try to modify it to serve the ego. It's nice to have a closer look from during the trip or shortly after before "conscience" kicks in and we face feelings akin to shame from having been as unhampered as we were. 2. Sometimes two steps forward mean one step back, for me personally I often feel that way, but when I look at recordings of the trip and how I used to be before it, I realize massive changes that have simply become the new present, but there's massive difference in the release of trauma and gaining new context and experience that manifests itself less to in the what but in the how 4. You can and should combine both, psychedelics expand your mind but you need to choose the direction and actively take steps to integrate, it also helps to realize what prevents you from doing that in the base state, and the base state itself can be massively leveraged, psychedelics are but a shortcut after all, still a massive one that might mean lifetimes without 5. There is truth for its own sake but there is also love, your own form of love, the self you are, the way you express yourself, that which you feel attracted to, experiences you appreciate, and you can add truth to that to find the authenticity within your experience and expand in the process 7. He commented on mine, I was ecstatic, but that made me aware of how much value I put outside of myself and made me question why I needed external reasons to allow myself the joy, whether I could be like that all the time like Sadhguru or whether it is a state with its own upsides and downsides 8. That's fine, strive to understand more while being attached to less, to contextualize reality in a way that makes sense while being less reliant on any one perspective but instead more in tune, a more expansive ego is better than a narrow one, more awareness is good, as long as it isn't limiting you but any experience itself is growth I believe to have gotten glimpses of that multiple times, I am progressing towards it. It's like detaching yourself from knowledge and identity and letting cosmic intelligence flow through with new life energy changing the perception of reality and life in the process, to modify or rewire oneself top-down, its like externalizing the self to work on it, its like separating everything one believed oneself to be and seeing that one isn't, that one is always morphing, changing. But that's my experience and I cannot be certain if it is what your pointing towards, I am interested in hearing from you.

@Princess Arabia How is any form of this transient energy any less real or more illusory than another? I see how all is made of the same energy, but can this not be reversed so that the formless is illusory and always returns to form? There may yet be a context that encompasses both and describes their flow and relation, I don't think its as passive a process as you describe it.

@Javfly33 This is tough, anything one could desire is already past, any understanding in experience only fading further into it. Does awareness of the past limit freedom? How absolute is this disidentification, how can there be an experience without retaining understanding to contextualize it? Unless I'm taking it too far into the mindless territory, maybe that itself is another identification and the point is simply not to be tied down, but how does one act, make decision and exist in this state? I can see that every moment, one can use this cosmic intelligence to reinform the current position, maybe making plans is possible but always subject to change, yet any future becomes past, maybe its not not to hold any ideas, but to do so lightly, always willing to change them with new insight, to be dynamic, malleable, unattached to any one view or thing.

Do you think that because you are aware of how you render and project others out of raw sensations, you know them inside out? That's no different from Science dissecting a frog looking for what makes it alive. Consciousness can expand to encompass others and can dissolve dualities that create distinctions, it doesn't mean there aren't other selves, in fact infinity contains infinite gradations and permutations of consciousness even if you're unaware of them. There is no reason why Infinity would limit itself to a single experience, even if you can become conscious of your own self-construction and create a fully malleable self-aware bubble of autonomy. You create your own reality but in another way, you tune yourself into a pre-existent field of actuality that exists inside infinite consciousness. There's no reason to assume you're the only consciousness in existence and using psychedelics to transcend all dualities and become nothing/infinite does not negate the existence of the relative world, nor the existence of other simultaneous bubbles of awareness equal to your own. There are many holarchies of consciousness, they're both independent and interconnected, each navigating the infinite field of possibilities. As is our experience, we are made of cells, each part expressing impulses, sensations, desires and yet we are ourselves as well, both the emergent whole and the parts exist independently as themselves but are connected in the motion of consciousness. As is the world, cosmos, others, all made of consciousness and in the process of creation and existence experienced by the consciousness that constructs them and the consciousness that tunes its perception to perceive them and the consciousness that uses the interconnected fabric of reality to pick up their energy and create a vivid impression inside itself. Much exists of which we are unaware, to the complexity we experience ourselves and infinitely beyond, the universe is boundless, no borders to limit it even if it is unexperienced by the conscious self unaware of it, the part that limits its perception and believes to be all there is. Even the highest consciousness is in flux, always changing. You tune your awareness to perceive others out of this infinite field of potentiality, you also create them in your experience in the process, but the substrate exists independently in infinity.

@Princess Arabia If there is no illusion, then what is the comment pointing towards? What is the nature of this "energy" that does everything by itself? If it falls away, where did it fall away from? I get the "burn the bridges" is necessary to tune into higher awareness, but it also seems to create a blindspot.

To expand upon it. How do you see reality constructed? Is it a dynamic illusory assembly of surroundings in periphery, similar to how video games recalculate and render on the go? Or does it have a coherent existence that the current awareness processes and tunes in and out of that exists independently with other awareness bubbles equal in substance to the current that are simply unobserved from the current vantage point but rendered and experienced simultaneously outside of the current experience by other portions of a greater self/god that can be united on a deeper more inclusive layer of consciousness and have detail and experience similar to your own? It's the difference between reality only existing as it is continuously experienced versus tuning into a greater substrate and limiting ones experience forming a bubble of awareness on a relative level that dissolves in the absolute?

@Princess Arabia True, one could say we start enlightened but unaware, because it is a constant, we do not pick up a difference and differences are how learn about reality, we enter dualities in ignorance and dissolve them in awareness, this is due to conditioning, we separate ourselves from enlightenment through a lack of awareness and assumption of dualities, to return to enlightenment, we simply need to realize and dissolve the illusion that makes us chase it.

@Ramu making sense of the feedback loops and removing conditioning is a process, give them time...

if it's infinite, isn't there infinite room for it alongside everything else? or is it the illusory notion of there being some realm outside consciousness you're tackling? since it can be fully encompassed inside consciousness instead of believing it exists outside...

@A Fellow Lighter I will be talking about the immediately unfolding universe as well as the mental construction that maps that higher layer of actuality in the following: I agree there is no need for any reality beyond the POV construction. However, I also think that the indiscriminate construction inside infinite consciousness does yield awareness outside our own, though it is an assumption and I have to be precise with my wording here. The absolute scale is all encompassing, but within it are holarchies that exist both in relation to each other and independently as well. My POV and your POV are such holarchies inside the infinite that on a higher level are unseparated, but I think on a lower simultaneously conscious layer, those do actually coexist, even though the only way to prove that would be for them to merge. And I think the consistency of our world is a lower holarchy substrate that our POVs construct around, that is to say, the infinite constructs worlds and selves through POVs. But immense intelligence is required to create a self, a world and such a realistic and consistent POV and I think the cosmic intelligence that creates it becomes each and every part of the infinite fractal creation in the process, experiencing multiple POVs simultaneously. The idea of other places is a potential that fades in and out of our POV awareness, but it nonetheless exists as that actualizable potential and what I'm hinting at is the idea that our current POV may not be the only thing occupying all of consciousness, as much as it is an absolute self-contained holon in itself that becomes the things it explores and can only ever access them within itself by tuning into other frequencies that exist on other currently unaware holarchies within the greater substrate of consciousness, really any imaginable experience. Solipsism is the idea that the current experience as it is, is the only one in existence, and while I agree that on the highest layer everything is one, I also think that our awareness as we experience it occurs simultaneously in others irregardless of us witnessing it, on a higher layer in infinite self-contained POVs that can merge with others and expand in the process. You can also use imagination and ultimately everything is imagination, but I think there is more to the process than random daydreaming to create our highly complex reality and the minds of self and others, though all we know of them and the way we construct them is contained within us and on a higher level they are literally interconnected into one. Now you might be asking why all the theorizing, it's because I'm interested in the nature of consciousness and think that Solipsism is true but incomplete, like any stage of spiral dynamics being a natural evolution of the last. Not to say that reality isn't purely arbitrary construction, which it may very well be, but it may also be more, which in truth is ultimately building on the same groundlessness but in multiple layers and holarchies, which I am interested in exploring, to see how reality is constructed, mental concepts are easy to see through, but I want to become aware of the process the constructs the senses and perception of physicality and grounds me in this dimension.

@LSD-Rumi If I look back at recordings from past trips, I seemed to be far more in identity, and the experiences were profound due to the releases of limited beliefs they provided. I am much calmer now, more aware of all these aspects of myself. It's quite strange to think about the fact that an important awakening involved the realization of how important "conscious awareness" is, makes me wonder how I was before...

I had two profound hyper-heroic dose trips in the past year. In the second half of them, I was stuck in a time loop. I could move objects, look at the clock, would get fatigued, return to one spot, realize time had reversed, everything was back to the original configuration and then gradually forget and repeat. I'd get deja vu throughout, only had enough awareness that I was in a loop, but not how to change or end it and would eventually realize that I keep repeating it at the very end becoming restless and then forgetting and starting anew. It made me really paranoid, that I need to change something, or it will keep repeating forever but maybe I thought of that before and it is part of the loop, maybe any action I take is already part of it. My final decision was to accept it and make myself comfortable with waiting it out, and eventually I returned to normal. But the idea still rings, what do you think, what would you do?

@integral Back then, I was holding onto existence, it felt like if I blanked out, I may not return or be the same, I also wanted to remember the experience and was highly identified with cognitive understanding. I tried to keep at least rudimentary concepts in tact, like that of passing time or the notion that I'm having an unusual experience but am fine irregardless. Because when all sense of context and identity leaves, I wasn't sure how I would react, if I would get myself into trouble or hurt myself. It is exactly those experiences that led me to learn that I can integrate understanding from the cognitive layer into a more existential ever present awareness, so that my base state irregardless of experience reacts in a calm, explorative manner. That even if I were to lose all sense of context and identity, I would nonetheless feel in tune with a deeper awareness, a being independent of context. I learn to shift my ideas and identity to a vaster substrate, a more intuitive way of knowing. And now I wonder if I wound up back in that experience, would my developments skip it entirely, was it a symbolization of that which I am to let go of, would I be able to figure out what that is, would I stand the trial, could I from this vastly disconnected state of being explore reality in a profound fashion, there is a little fear of entering that state again, though I am more prepared now, but I still somewhat fear to lose my sense of self, the profound shift of context, I can deal with gradual change, with voluntary realization and letting go of limitations, but the levels of immediate change were so great, that it felt like I may as well dissipate into thin air, put another person in that place and pretend that's me, it's quite something.

@A Fellow Lighter If I interpret correctly, the discovery was the deconstruction of the belief in an objective observer, the illusion of identification with a continuously arising and changing phenomenon akin to everything else, a form within the infinite substrate of formlessness. I wonder, what is your view on the nature of the self, others, the world and solipsism? Is the substrate of consciousness forming bubbles of individual awareness? If so, how are they related? Did you get insights about the nature and structure of reality and that which we perceive as forces of nature?

It's an Aha! moment, where you realize something that seems obvious in hindsight but nonetheless profound. It's like grasping a new concept, that which is pointed to, counting to infinity vs realizing where that leads. It's making sense of yourself, others and the world through a new substrate that connects them all.

@Rafael Thundercat On the second trip I later experienced an interplay of duality and unity, I guess it makes sense, we explore reality in all its dualities and then dissolve them into non-duality in endless permutations. Although, we do end up bored and then strive for new types of experiences, but I guess the experience was kind of hinting to that, or the stick ego, or the fear of going outside of oneself and making new experiences, or getting lost, or something like that

@What Am I That sounds funny and scary, like being unable to stop laughing even when it starts hurting. That must have been quite the experience, especially since it was a group experience, that must have doubled the impact. Just woah. Mega doses seem to not only deconstruct reality but also the memory necessary to make sense of a moment to moment experience. The tendency is to deconstruct everything and tune out of sensory awareness. It might lack bandwidth to make sense of the context, leading to singular specific actions, a loop might be the simplest form of understanding unable to go beyond itself.

Since this post is so long, you can just read the summery in parentheses after each paragraph. We have experiences, build correlations, identify patters, materialize desires, externalize needs and project them onto objects, destinations, lifestyles. We wire our mind, connect one sensation onto another, intertwine it with emotions, project and create experiences, entangle ourselves in reality, connect dots, try to make sense, find out what stays consistent, pursue what we correlate with meaning, react based on our understanding, preference, model of reality. We go meta, analyze from a higher vantage point, take on new axioms, untangle one experience from the other, build new context, strive to be more objective, less biased, less self-indulgent, more understanding, more aware of the big picture, a holistic view of where we are, what we are, how we are, why we are, that we are, to see our assumptions as assumptions, identify our intent and its source, arising experience for what it is, figure out how to do that, continue to intuit, explore, experience, be. (Sensations form constellations) Reality has many dimensions, its a sphere we can subdivide, cut into pieces, we can use the pieces to create things, shapes, forms, objects, subjects, selves. The way we connect these things, the way we cognize and make sense, the way we wire sensations with desires, impulses, drives, the way those emerge higher understanding, models, realities. We construct reality, aware or unaware of how we do it. We move our body, choose our activities, consciously or unconsciously, there are many layers of understanding and interpretation, mechanics, explanations, sciences, consistencies, nature, invisible forces, perceived changes, cycles, repetitions, patterns. The conscious and unconscious inflect upon each other to polarize into individual experiences. (Their arrangement is arbitrary) Do we have control? What is control? Is there such a thing as control? Reality flows, we make decisions, we think we make decisions, something makes decisions, we feel the drives within us, the impulses that adjust behavior, manipulate reality. Are we the ones doing it? The self, a constellation, accumulation of patters, ideas, behaviors, acquired tendencies, a reflection of the world it is apart of and yet distinctly itself, creating reality inside out and entangling itself with it, holistically interacting across multiple domains? Do I make decisions or am I simply a conglomerate of the cells that make me deciding as a hive, gut, heart, brain, the personalities within me, the arising desires. Even so, the problem doesn't dissipate, if my cells make the decisions, even then, that which I believe myself to be would simply adjust to be their emergent property, in a way it doesn't matter, since I'd still be every single one of these cells and the emergent, us making decisions or me really becomes the same thing, if will is made on a lower substrate, then the higher is not without will but a more complex expression. But that's just a theory, idea, will is an axiom, ascribed, the self is an axiom, and science is figuring it out under the assumption that it exists, there is something of a gestalt. (The ego is a gestalt) Maybe the perceiver is an illusion, all these unique forces of nature align to create the gestalt I perceive, I believe myself to be. But the duality of a perceiver separates it from the perceived. Yet all it ever sees and knows and can experience is so by virtue of being an experience perceived, by definition not the perceiver. And yet, all of that appears to come out of the perceiver, or flow through it, it is entangled by virtue of being perceived. Let's collapse the duality of perceiver and perceived. In that case everything is perceived or perceiver, let's call it capital P Perception. Perception is being, experiencing, though what about the unperceived, unexperienced, the thoughts that pass through perception and disappear back into the subconscious/unconscious aether. (The duality of perceiver and perceived collapses) There is a duality of the present experience as Perception and on the other hand the known to exist potential unactualized, dematerialized, hidden away. Of all the possible experience, one possibility is currently the case in Perception. Imagine blue, imagine red, now blue is gone but its still in the local subconscious, we can bring it back out, shuffle those two, combine them, but there is much more in the yet unconscious, random ideas we can remember, associate, spawn, an elephant, where did it come from? It wasn't there, now it is. (There is a vast hidden reality beyond the current Experience) Nothingness is the guitar string at rest, in tension, in its original formlessness, without sound, without experience, no action, pure being, all contained, itself empty, Shiva. Objects, ideas, the omni-dimensional fabric of reality, unentangled, pure, detached, without form, without purpose, without assumption, axioms, impulses, unease, tension, drives creating conflict and pursuit, the feeling of separation, the duality of selfishness and selflessness, of love and hate and apathy, and the entropy towards Unity. The ultimate nothing, the nothing that excludes itself, the idea that goes meta, cuts its tail and self-annihilates. The kundalini that burns all karma, the freedom of being content, fulfilled, untangled, of being where one wants to be, more even, the collapse of all dualities create a no-space, no-distance, everything already is, nowhere to go, nowhere to be, a singularity that merges all and annihilates all distance. Now there is no story, no protagonist, no world, no being nor non-being, neither isness nor non-isness, when all dualities, all pointers collapse themselves. (Nothingness collapses all forms into the base state) Nothingness is the realization that any constellation of experience is possible, that any arrangement of forms is arbitrary. That any desire connects itself to other sensations creating a gestalt. Forms keep themselves afloat, they link and associate themselves to other forms, creating pathways, roads, directions, cycles, stories, experiences, dependent arising/origination whose contrast creates an actual Duality that correspondingly spawns the idea of itself, through identification of the inherent difference of perception, which is created inside out through sensory perception, but on a larger scale the universe really takes that form in order for it to become the experience of an individual to be processed and interpreted further. But that actuality is a higher form of the same phenomenon, invisible forces, laws of physics, dependent origination, complexifying and turning itself into self-perceiving observers made conscious through the perception of those more universal forms. There is consciousness and within it infinite forms. (The universe splits itself into dualities and experiences itself through entities) This isn't a reason to despair into nihilism, nihilism ultimately inflects upon itself and dissolves as well. Purpose is self-determined, socially expanded/contextualized/harmonized, God a dreamer across infinite dimensions, lifeforms arrange themselves creating tendencies and desires, exploring the universe. We use senses to create ourselves, cognition to understand ourselves explicitly, through intuition implicitly, our brain is both dual and non-dual, left and right hemisphere, order and chaos, form and creativity that arises from the formless. We are created and on a higher level create ourselves, our awareness of the process is variable, dualities form different interpretations and collapse into higher self-understanding. (We create and experience ourselves through dualities and exist independently in the formless) We build systems, sciences, mathematics, physics, biology, they are self-contained systems, maps, a conceptual reflection of reality, a variable progressing technical mechanistic understanding, we try to unite them through formulas, strive to achieve complete consistency. Reality is outside of that, it is Meta. We use these rules to understand correlations, to manipulate reality, but reality can always go meta, can always be more. In a new realization, it itself becomes the past, a lens of perception, interpretation, correlation, constellation. But it is cut off from the ever rejuvenating present that transcends it and expands itself non-linearly by creating new patterns that are retroactively integrated, universal intelligence, Chitta. (Systems are self-contained mechanically consistent models that correspond or correlate with specific aspects of reality, but reality is infinitely more meta) Pragmatically, we keep ideas, models, relations in our mind, but there is a force capable of instant understanding, the source of creation, a cosmic intelligence that leads one to understand what a thing is in itself, unmeasured by contrast, untainted by preference, bias, desire. I am attached to models, understanding, but there is a force that transcends and skips all that by going beyond and becoming the thing it seeks to understand, foregoing all the complicated dualistic calculations that try to understand a thing through its correlation with other things. An awareness, that sees and knows, an intuition that feels, a top-down understanding and the more I break away from creating systems, that more I access it, but its always beyond. If I want to create something in this dualistic world, then I conceptualize, associate and relate what I know, then use this knowledge to create. But to use this transcendent intelligence is go straight to the source of one's desire and work top down, breaking the top holon into the simplest pieces necessary to replicate it and discovering new patterns in the process. (There is a cosmic top-down intelligence that arises spontaneously to those with an empty mind) One has goals, dualities created for the pursuit of happiness, but the pursuit itself creates separation, and yet that pursuit itself is the result of a previous state of unhappiness, it is an attempt to solve it, but it is a separate overlay, a distinction created to externally resolve a corresponding projected image of an internal state. That internal state however is a result of one's own self-understanding and psyche, self-image, the belief that the external shall inform the internal, that internal feelings ought to correspond to external achievements or environments. This dichotomy itself is the problem, internal states are self-regulated, self-imposed, self-determined, it is simply the lack of consciousness that prevented one from seeing that all internal feelings are a self-determined correspondence to external reality. Wants and desires are subconsciously wired to the allowance of the experience of happiness, initially they are wired for survival, after this when a model of reality is constructed in childhood, reality is far more variable and flexible, but with oughts/shoulds and expectations a pattern of gratification, of conditioned happiness is developed, assumed objective, assumed real, believed into existence, a self-fulfilling prophecy, a blindspot, a mechanic system of beliefs but greater reality transcends the limitations that the ego loses itself in. (Happiness is natural state that the ego separates itself from through conditions) Unity -> Duality -> Arrangement -> Interpretation -> Systems -> Consistency -> Mechanics -> Knowledge -> "Facts" -> Ego Ego -> Adaptation -> Exploration -> Change -> Transience -> Dynamicism -> Awareness -> Ego-Death -> Non-Duality -> Unity The world we see is an arrangement of many patterns, physically seeming properties, idea constructs, but they're dynamic, they reference an ever morphing system. Any idea, word, sentence is an attempt, a pointer towards an aspect of reality, ideas are absolute by themselves as definitions but are really just a map, not the territory. There is a process that creates the very ideas separate from territory. There is a process that creates the very territory itself. And there is a process that correlates the territory with maps and brings those maps into awareness as a bridge, (The map is not the territory but the process that allows for the creation of maps is quite fascinating) Everything is actual but some things are more directly actual than others. Actual Nothing -> Actual Something -> (Actual) Idea of Something -> (Actual) Idea of Nothing Though this is still a duality, if the territory is the truth, then the map is part of the territory, The map is a subset of the territory that creates a systemized reflection through available mechanisms. And then there is the territory itself, an uninterpreted, unsystemized non-dual experience of something that can be described through a thousand lenses and gives rise to any and all interpretations and creates a dozen dualities. The experience itself: "Actuality", of course actuality is a duality, or it can be used as such, clearly by the very fact of the existence of a word, it points to something and by pointing to something it points away from somewhere else. Actuality as a duality points to that territory from which all maps arise, it points away from the maps and onto the thing itself left uninterpreted. The greater capital Actuality however encompasses the map and dissolves the duality, the focus dissipates, everything becomes experience, including the process of creating maps and the maps themselves, the duality and objectification of the separation disappears. Everything becomes the territory, but that fact can only be understood by transcending the journey from where one stands, which is often from inside the duality that is to dissolve. (The map is actually a subset of the territory and merges with it in Non-Duality) In summery, Non-Dual Nothingness is the fabric of all being, it takes forms creating dualities and distinctions, creating objects and subjects and maps that are a subset of reality, any one thing can be interpreted in a million ways by a million lenses through association, distinction, pattern recognition. When Non-Dual Nothingness is paired as a duality with Non-Dual Infinity, that duality itself can be dissolved into a larger Non-Duality. Where everything is only and ever itself, all contexts can arise and are themselves as well. A superposition of any thing, a superposition of any combination, a superposition of any interpretation. A superposition of every pattern, the combination of any pattern with any other pattern in any constellation in relation to any other constellation, in any form or time, or relation, or entropy, contextualized and actualized in the infinite dream. (Nothingness and Infinity are two sides of the same coin and that coin itself is a superposition of anything and everything in any context and every context infinitely interconnected and intermerged in relation and contrasted to any and all other possibilities. To go meta is to transcend and include and the ultimate meta is that which transcends and includes everything including nothing and itself)

Our vision, attention, environment flows through ideas, sensations, desires. The things we are interested in, past, present, future, available for study in so many ways. The self bouncing around searching for purpose can expand or contract, polarize or dissolve. The structure of reality is questioned time and time again and never seems to be so easy to explain. But reality is an intelligent conscious field of wants materializing themselves as subjects and objects. If consistency matters, it is accommodated, if the future is to change, the past has to go, ripples across time. Each part a whole, continuously evolves and ripples outwards in fractals, sending waves across the fabric. An idea spawns the reality that brings itself into question, time is non-linear. To become Zen is to blend with the wave since each belief is a ripple in the lake.

There's a bunch of wires in your mind, you can link emotions to senses to actions to patterns any way you want, its a playground that's become subconscious. You might have wired the idea of others into your happiness center, but that's nothing detachment can't fix if you access a higher state of awareness that resets all your desires and lets you rewire your happiness. On the other hand, it's as arbitrary as any other desire and self-compassion turns into compassion for others which are externalized aspects of the self, when all need dissipates, everything is love.

@theleelajoker My own experience was insanely profound, I've been burning lifetimes of limiting ideas. Imagine throwing a ball and running to catch it before it falls to the ground, then you keep running and throw it again, having to accelerate even faster to catch it and that continues each time. @enchanted "You will continue to grow and develop, and you will become aware of other environments, even as you left your childhood home. But environments are not objective things, conglomerations of objects that exist independently of you. Instead you form them and they are quite literally extensions of yourself; materialized mental acts that extend outward from your consciousness." - Seth @r0ckyreed You pass it to your subconscious, experiences and consistency are preserved. It exists as potential and on a structural layer below your current ability to manipulate, it's there and you can tune into it, though from another perspective it is unreal but so is all of reality if you dissociate from your senses. @OBEler You could flip your ideas around and say that reality is as real as you are willing to explore it and as consistent as you care it to be, so technically there's no problem. Additionally if you are god, you can determine the nature of reality and the existence of coherent others just as real as you believe yourself to be. You consciously or unconsciously tune yourself to a reality that is a part of you in its unlimited complexity and can explore it omni-directionally. You can make it magical or material or both, transcending and uniting all paradigms but the emotions that emerge within you are just as real and meaningful as they've always been even if their context is far more variable now, the raw sensations and connections still exists as their distinct realities.

@r0ckyreed We pick up patterns and relate them, entangling them in the process. How do we know they're "really" entangled? We don't, it's all interpretation of experience. Our perception is absolute, unlike our interpretation and understanding thereof Sometimes we figure out formulas that let us predict the future, but those are just correlations. Unless we became God and created reality from scratch, we're working on our best guesses... We can start by honesty, exploring our emotions and the source of our desires and intentions though