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I know. My answer stays the same.

My problem is not to reach ego-death/breakthrough. My problem is when it happenes unexpectedly, when I am not prepared for it at all. But yes. Ego death is okay and a good choice in some cases. Being stuck in that place between ego-death and dream is scary.

What are you referring to? Yes, that crossed my mind. I guess those meds also do some damage to the brain when taken during the trip?

I didn't want a breakthrough, so distraction or surrender was needed, depending on how much control I had. Since I wasn't prepared for a breakthrough and had my trip in the middle of the day with people around, distraction was my first choice. But when I realized I was losing control, I laid blankets on the floor, locked the doors, and hid the keys from myself.

Anxiety, insanity. Not much to say. I did not plan anything close to a big trip. That was my biggest problem. I did not prepare for it at all.

Some important notes: 1. I know I said this before, but I've developed zero tolerance to this chem. 2. 4-ACO-DMT + Niacin will potentially mind-rape you. It felt like an existential gang-bang. 3. A bad or very deep trip can happen for no apparent reason, even on a casual small dose. WTF?! 4. My already-high sensitivity to psychedelics has grown even higher. 5. There's a razor-thin line between God realization and a very bad trip/severe panic attack. ***** If someone told me I could contemplate deeply for two hours while dancing, I'd call him crazy. @Leo Gura I got a glimpse of absolute madness at the peak. Boy, that was intense... a. For fuck's sake... How many times have you exposed yourself to this to claim you understand the insanity? b. I took your advice seriously about not expressing emotional baggage by screaming/acting on it (Martin Ball style) but by observing it. (If I understood correctly) I attempted to observe and let go of the need to express, but observing my emotions led me to insanity that nearly took over. Luckily, my dose was small enough to keep somewhat under control. This isn't the first time this has happened. Sorry , I know it's not a practical question., but some kind of guidance would be tremendously helpful.

It's all fun and games until you have a totally unexpected breakthrough on this chem. Peek-a-boo It's you again. ....

Thank you for showing your concern. It warmed my heart.

a. I spent 25 years living in the Balkans, surrounded by various forms of Catholicism. b. Their ultimate goal is to build a monopoly over people's beliefs.They are all businessmen. Their currency, in this case, is not money but the kingdom of God.

I am in my most relaxed state when I talk negative about church. This is like a form of meditation for me.

They don't teach love. They teach toxic shame, guilt and fear of hell. Remove those three and the church will fall.

Before a child even starts developing a hunger for questions about God and similar topics, they push a tube in their mouth and feed them their own beliefs. This is child abuse.

Does that include Christians who tortured and burned people alive? I don't even need to mention the pedophiles in the church hierarchy. Why would an intelligent being want to be a part of such a community?

@Butters Why can't Gurus have sex with their followers? Osho: Hold my beer....

Are you trolling us? Christians are the biggest hypocrites.

Leo: There is no difference between you and this Pepsi bottle. JP: But Leo.....

"Does my cat look fat?"

Experiencing infinity for just a several times has eliminated my need for any spiritual content. The experience itself makes all human-made information seem insignificant. I can't imagine where you are now after so many awakenings.

Do you set particular intentions to achieve that? How does your set and setting look like?

Only you can know how much you can handle. How grounded are you in material world? How much free time do you have for this work? I had headaches and heavy brain fog because of 5-MeO-MALT. This chem doesn't seem healthy to me personally. With other chems I never had those problems.

Even though I experienced this myself as a fact, your statement that I am not more than a profile picture still hurts my feelings. I hate you for that. Nice suit tho.

I guess it's a typo. "...believes he is a God."

Of course you can. You just need to go through layers until you get there on other psychedelics. Edit: forget I said anything. I am not more than a profile pic

JP talked about it oftentimes on YT.

In the beginning, weed gave me great vibes, but over time it started causing strong anxiety. I stopped smoking for two years. When I tried a tiny joint in a crowded club, I had a near-death experience. Weed is no longer enjoyable for me.