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Yes, suicide statistics show it's a widespread issue, but the real challenge here goes beyond numbers. If people start leaving suicide notes on a public forum regularly, it would quickly harm the forum’s reputation, regardless of intent. This isn’t just about how common suicide is, but about the responsibility and perception that comes with running such a space. While the work done here can lead to deep self-reflection, which sometimes triggers suicidal thoughts, simply filtering out certain words won’t solve the issue as i previously though. I guess we need to recognize that this forum can become a place where people in distress seek help, and that makes it even more crucial to handle these situations with care, offering resources and ensuring there's real support for those in crisis. This way, the forum's purpose remains intact without unintentionally contributing to a negative reputation.

Thanks for the insight! Anxiety and dysthymia definitely seem to be playing a role in my brain fog. I’m aware that I deal with both, but I’ve learned to manage them quite well and function at a high level despite the challenges. That said, I know they can still amplify things like brain fog and low energy, especially during stressful times. As for the food triggers, I’ll try cutting out dairy and legumes for a week and see if it makes a difference. I already eat plenty and take supplements, so I don’t think it’s a calorie or nutrient issue, but I’ll keep an eye on everything. Appreciate your input!

@Princess Arabia is famous for collecting rare bird's milk, which you can only find at the top of Nepal’s mountains after defeating the powerful dragon god. That’s how she really gets her super white teeth. If you think eggshell powder will give you the same result, you’re very wrong!

That's crazy! J Just cut your emesh as you normally would, and once it's in position, hold it stable with one hand while pressing in the middle with a finger to create a small bump. After that, go to a dark room, increase the voltage to max, and press a few times briefly to check for any hot spots on the emesh. It should work perfectly. I’d advise against making a fenced mesh, as it won't dissipate heat evenly. You need precision and efficiency to get consistent results when vaping this chem.

My approach would be to identify exactly where those insecurities come from. Often, people with insecurities didn’t grow up in a truly healthy household, even if, on the surface, their family seemed fine to an outside observer. Is it possible that your needs weren’t fully met as a child or that you didn’t receive enough affirmation? If you had, you’d naturally have an internal sense of self-worth. I was very insecure for most of my life and had to learn the hard way. Once I identified my specific issues, I educated myself on each of them, reading books and researching. I also did every single practice the books recommended. Today, I barely recognize the person I was a few years ago, and certainly not from 10 years ago.

The last two times I took 4-AcO-DMT, I experienced relatively controllable bad trips. Since I wasn't prepared, I panicked, walked in circles, and comforted myself until it passed. This leads me to believe there's something to uncover behind these kinds of trips. In one or two weeks, I'll have some free time and want to attempt inducing several controllable bad trips, just breathing through them and observing my emotions and thoughts. Since I don't have the time to waste on pointless trips, I'm asking if anyone has done this? Is there a possibility to learn about oneself and grow through such an experience?

Thanks, @Davino Glad you liked it!

Guess the final form isn’t complete until the weave from China arrives! Transformation 2.0 incoming! 😂

Your English is confusing again, my man, no wonder people struggle to understand you. Still sticking to that habit of subtly putting others down, huh? 😊 Plus taxes, office fees, and other stuff... it’s 25k euros. You know it’s true! I mean, its Germany.

I’m just naturally this efficient.

Yes, 250k penalty is absolutely outrageous. All the surgeries and effort to change your sex, but forgot to get a hair transplant. Cute nonetheless.

@What Am I Thanks, mate. Yup, it's very easy. It's just important not to get distracted while counting the number of micro-scoops you throw into the portal to hell.

@Asia P Can you get the seeds and grow them yourself? Have you tried microdosing psychedelics? It works incredibly well for me when it comes to meditation and shadow work, although it sometimes has some unwanted effects.

Left: E-mesh head. Right: E-liquid head. Fast reloading, so easy you can do it even while mildly high. A portal to hell opens. Vaporizer ready chems. Travel pack And here’s a short demo. E-mesh in action. First two clicks—crystallizing. Once this is done, you can leave it for months without losing potency. It won't leak or degrade. A long press sends you into the stratosphere.

Redosing is super easy with e-mesh. I have a small trick. It's very convenient for that. You put some of the chemical on it, set the vaporizer to 10W in Power mode, and click once. It will crystallize the powder, and you'll have a loaded setup. When you're ready to use it, set it to 20W and enjoy. Wait, I will upload a few pictures.

Just search for the city that smells like weed.

Check this out: Since plugging works well for you, I don't see a reason to change, unless you enjoy the intense effects of fast-acting vaping on e-mesh.

Thanks, I’ll try this ratio and report back.

Okay, then I’ll assume that my MALT (NL) is indeed a bad batch. I also have a CA version that I haven’t tested yet. I’ll give it a try this week and update here. Needles scare the shit out of me, unfortunately. Last time, when a hot nurse wanted to draw a few drops of my blood, I almost fainted. Thought I was going to die. 🥵

Guys any updates on this? Did you have a successful experience with 5-MeO-MALT using PG/VG? Anything significant to report? I have a small pile of MALT-HCl just sitting around since plugging hasn’t been effective for me, vaping on e-mesh is toxic, and PG/VG hasn’t yielded meaningful results for me, and the one i converted to Freebase also didn't have any expected effects.

Life Purpose: My Next Big Project My next major project will be converting a box truck into a tiny home on wheels. While vans are more common for this type of build, I'm particularly interested in a box truck because it offers much more space for creativity. I imagine creating a luxurious, high-tech tiny house on wheels. This project will be expensive, time-consuming, and entirely new to me, but I feel confident in my ability to take it on. However, there are several challenges I need to consider before I can get started: 1. Cost: Box trucks are expensive, so I'll need to budget carefully and explore financing options. 2. Workspace: I'll need to rent a garage or, at the very least, find a large parking space where I can work on this project. 3. Licensing: I’ll need to get a truck driving license, which is essential before I can even consider buying the vehicle. 4. Mechanical Help: My mechanical knowledge is limited, so I'll need to find a skilled mechanic to help with the technical parts of the build. 5. Legal Requirements: I need to ensure that the final build meets all legal requirements for road use and habitation. 6. Sourcing Materials: Finding the right materials at the right price could be a challenge, so I'll need to plan carefully. 7. Time Management: Balancing this project with my other commitments will require careful time management to avoid burnout. This project is a big step, but with careful planning and determination, I believe I can eventually make it a reality.

Emotional Honesty and Boundaries Connecting with my emotions has led me to embrace truthfulness with myself. Over the past year, I've been more mindful of how I spend my emotional energy, focusing on relationships that align with my core values and contribute meaningfully to my life. Though this has led to more solitude, the progress I've made in the last 12 months has been remarkable. Unexpected Interaction at Work Yesterday at work, I received a strong hug from a female colleague out of the blue. I didn’t respond with the same intensity, and it made me wonder if something was going on in her life. Unfortunately, I was too tired to get into any meaningful conversation. Working shifts has been wearing me down, affecting my sleep and fitness, trapping me in a cycle of chronic fatigue. Breaking the Cycle: Fitness and Energy Boost To combat this fatigue, I’ve started taking a pre-workout supplement combined with iron, Q10, and a B vitamin complex. While I know powdered pre-workouts might not be ideal, I need this boost to pull myself out of this rut. Implementing this strategy, I’ve successfully maintained a full-body weight training routine every third day for the last two months. Consistency has been key, and I'm already feeling the difference in my energy levels. Additionally, my meditation practice has become supercharged, leaving me feeling great. Reflection on Progress and Self-Care Despite the challenges, I can see that consistency in my fitness routine and self-care practices is paying off. I’m finding the energy to push through, even if it means relying on supplements for now. As I continue to honor my boundaries and focus on what truly matters, I’m reminded that I’ve made amazing progress.

Yes, I also had those things on my mind. Too bad I was not prepared for it the last time I had a bad trip. I wanted to give my best to stay mindful during it, but since nothing was prepared for such a trip, it was impossible to be constructive.

I am not talking here about ego death experience.