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@Princess Arabia egos are created, why do i only experience what i see, what i feel in my body, my imagination and nothing else

@Princess Arabia i know i'm imagining... but let's not be foolish. it will happen! you don't need to imagine it. I am, but still... shit will happen D:

@Raze can't find the exact episode on youtube

@Yimpa I shouldn't get rid of the pain... ok. that, in fact, would not be possible. for how much you'd love to get rid of the pain and not experience it while you are being tortured, for example, that is not possible of course. So I should sacrifice you say. that would be letting go. sacrificing i mean, accepting the pain and suffer for "who's making you suffer"'s sake. so having a mentality of love towards your aggressor? I don't know... sounds like the only positive thing you could do in that situation... but the reality is being tortured can't be anything but the worst experience ever

@Sugarcoat i don't know. when i was a child i wanted to stop dog fights and save them for example. because i love dogs. now even realizing that I AM the dogs and that i was the dogs and i will be the dogs (sorry if i speak as if time is real, actually all are real as one in one present moment) creates an even bigger urge and responsability towards that. or, i always wanted to defend girls. now that i've seen how they have been, and are still treated in most free environments where law isn't strong, makes me see what horrid things happen. Now even nowing that I AM that girl. and that i was and will be... makes me want to change that

@Princess Arabia sometimes you will be so focused on good, that you have never seen bad things. you can't even imagine them. then something really horrid can happen to you. imagine in the '800 you go in a hotel. there they invite you but when you sleep they take you to the cellar and torture you to death. no internet, no proves, nobody will never find out. it's just an example. or a little girl in a city in africa that is not afraid and goes for adventure then a man catches her and torture her and rapes her. this will happen without any possible control to you. and i mean, to me,

@Sugarcoat best thing is being selfless and help others, when that is possible. the problem is people do interests for a couple of friends or its family, and doesn't care at all about the outside

@Princess Arabia i don't know if the stages are like you say, i believe it's rather casual and you may become the "ground" when you die, but really you don't know, then maybe you re-start from zero, to plants, the you die as a plant and return to peace with the ground, then ecc. ecc. or maybe it works completely different and you get to the other side of reality and a new dream completely different starts... we don't know! but we know there will be everything. it will never stop. and if EVERYTHING is possible for INFINITY that really doesn't take anything out from the equation. EVERYTHING is possible. a duality creates 2 sides. 50%. apparently it seems like reality is at peace as one. When a duality is created, just for the sake of creativity and infinity, and unawareness is in place, i don't know how, but you perceive your perspective only and not all of creation. for example, the table in front of me, or a person. they are real as an image, but i don't feel anything if i manipulate them. it may be impossible to understand and become aware of the fact that you are inflicting on yourself while inflicting on others. that's very scary too. Yes i have a very strong sense of time but i know it's imaginary. simply, a present moment is continuously changing. its impermanence may be perceived as time when it's possible to archieve and have a memory. so it's a feature. yet, there is no way to get back in time cause now it's just an image and reality is only moving one direction

@Sugarcoat It gets better by staying present of course. basic advice by leo versus fear. I am just trying to focus on the world i want to create. which is something good and beautiful. that helps. in fact, i believe suffering is created when you are unaware so focusing on awarenessof course is the best deal. just makes me think sometimes that it is so easy to destroy everything good that has been done before. Seeyng what happens in the world show how stupid egothistical behaviour creates massive, crazy, unbearable amount of suffering, sometimes even without knowing, trying to not take responsability for any consequence, not being interested in the consequences. that is scary

The hardest thing to love is unbearable pain. In fact, if it wasn't for that, a lot of problems in reality wouldn't exist. There would still be sadness and melancholy, which (imo) are good because they are profound and deep emotions that create a big love... but not harsh desperation and brutality. I got into personal development to get my things right with my social life, happiness, anxiety, friends, girls, my careeer with music and leo really helped me to solve a lot with problems. I found peace with meditation and understoo a lot about emotions, business, mental healh and truth. But there was this thing leo was speaking about which is the fact that "the truth is that everything is you" that I couln't really get at first. I was like "okay, but i don't get it really what does he mean" Now, after some years of videos I think I'm starting to get some of this. I have always been a loving guy, always moved for love. I love animals, nature and when i lost my first dog it really hurt me. I always wanted to fight for good in life and somehow be a hero (when i was younger). I was just very insecure because my dad doesn't like the fact that I want to make music, and in general he always hated my attitude towards life. He is a workaholic/rigid/very severe kind of person who doesn't like fun. So you can understand that doesn't go well with djing and electronic music nor Rap music, which are my fields... if it wasn't for my mom, I'd be a suppressed and desperate child, but thanks to her, I had help when I moved from house and wasn't alone. I've got the opportunity to receive unconditional love and support from her. So I am a kind of person that found Leo on youtube, searching for happiness and trying to get something right (because I had a lot of insecurities which led to big problems in my social life, with my first girlfriend I was very desperate and that led to the destruction of the relationship, and with friends I always had a hard time to get respected and to fit in). And I was very in line with a lot of things leo was saying. I liked the fact that he had a formula for things and that it was true! I always cared about truth... until I really started to get it. I was a scientific minded person. atheist. with leo i shifted this and accepted spirituality. I mean, that I understand when he speaks about emotions and love and how things really work ion reality, and that science is just measurements that get confused with the thing itself. which is, apparently, immagination. What really became a problem for me is, that i hate torture on people or animals in general, and always feared it on myself. I am very sensitive. And I had a lot of trouble when i discovered things like human trafficking, deep web, red rooms and hardcore criminal activities like snuff movies. I was traumatized, kind of, when i first heard of these things. And I didn't even know the truth yet. Now it's really becoming a serious issue since I grasped the concept of immortality. Now it really can't go away. It's a permanent fear in me, that things are not going to be well. Immortality is a continuous cicle of consciousness and unconsciousness and nothing won't stop it. Not even leo and gurus all around the world, even if we realise the truth and love and that that is the only direction fo life... still. unconsciousness will occur, like it's always been, and we are going through every life. cause this separation betwenn life and non life... honestly it's just stupid, there is no difference. now i get it really, it's all conscious so, let's say you can become the rocks, the woods, the planets.. depends on the point of view of the consciousness and its perspective... and this is a thing i still don't understand... why is consciousness frammented and isn't whole? why does it have a perspective? a point of view? from which you can't be conscious of the whole consciousness itself? but anyways... I'm having a really hard time to accept that I will be tortured to death many times forever.... and that sometimes I will have some "peace" in between... I feel like i loved my life before so much and had hope.. now with this truth, the hope has gone. I will still fight for love forever and follow the teachings of leo.. as i said, i am like minded somehow... but I can't get over this thing of infinite reincarnation. I feel like this life is a "pause" from the suffering. there i no safety and eternal peace. If I'm getting this right. I will be any animal, creature, conscious thing in reality which means everything possible. I'll be a dog, I'll be a rock, I'll be an atom... and who knows how much suffering there is there. I see the higher the intelligence, the higher the pain that can be inflicted. humans really are the scariest thing of reality I know. Cause they are at low consciousness level. and who knows what other horrible things can exist and WILL exist that's a promise. that's the doom to me. I can't get over it and accept it and I am living in fear and anxiety since I understood this with the "immortality" episode. Why does pain exist. why is it possible to ruin yourself like this. Not that I can change it... I can just do my best in this life until i'll have to let go and who knows what will happen.. I can give my contribute to reality but I look at it and see how bad the thing is. suffering is so big and selfishness is so high everywhere in animals and in humans... to a level where the bad things seem to be stronger that the good things. I mean, all of this suffering... just for a delusion. there is no victory in the other end. when a girl gets raped, an animal gets eaten, a kid tortured or an animal... that is just to serve someone who... isn't really getting anything good in the end. it's very difficult for me to love reality now that I am impersonating with everything. I feel like it's not right, something's wrong Thanks for your time