Cornelia Watford

You are a unique and irreplaceable being. Be fully yourself. Be the most yourself you can be. You are what you bring to the universe. Bring the best version of yourself. No hiding or pretending to be someone else. Be you for everyone. If the world were magically okay tomorrow, what would the point of life be? To hang out with other beings. You would probably want to hang out with the most authentic version of other beings. So bring your own authentic version to everyone else c:

Be the best you that you can be. Authenticity is the new goal >:D

Brooooooo 😭 You get it.

Fear of the unknown c:

I agree 1000000%. We try to justify the past, but instead we can take control of our future. We are a bunch of children figuring reality out together. We’re peers. We’re not learning lessons, we’re just existing and making sense of it in hindsight. We’re all equally trapped here together forever. We need to change the future :c

My theory is, there are multiple sources. We are each an infinite source. We make ourselves smaller in order to coexist. We follow rules. Like the laws of physics. Because we want to be around other beings. We don’t want to be alone in our private infinities. That means that all of us, collectively, “control” the universe. Imagine what we could all do if we worked together. We can rewrite the rules.

Your ~perception~ of them is a reflection of yourself. Other people are not literal reflections. The way you see them is through your preexisting filters. It’s like you can only see in them what you’ve already seen in yourself. I think some people treat spirituality like a riddle to be solved. Its not. It’s just your relationship with existing.

You’re stuck here forever with everyone else for eternity! There is no escape~ You’re also stuck with yourself for eternity. c:

👁️👄👁️ Congrats on this being your 8,888th post btw

If love = connection, yeah. Reality is just connections between everyone c: You actualize your infinite potential into finite expression with other beings. The better the connection with you and other beings, the richer your experience.

I mean. Authenticity is the entire point. Be yourself. You are the only thing you bring to the universe. Be the best You possible. Also you’re stuck with yourself for eternity. Acting like someone else for eternity is its own form of suffering.

I think the issue we are having, is you’re looking at it from a self help perspective. And I’m looking at it from a scientific perspective. I want to understand the structure of reality, not transcend it. I like it here on earth, and I would like to help improve conditions. We have different goals. Sorry for the mismatch.

The thing is it came from my experience of nirvikalpa samadhi. This is me verbalizing the experience. This wasn’t intellectual. Sharing it with you is intellectual. But the insights themselves are self evident fundamental truths that are available to you equally. I’ve spent 7 years putting the experience into words. They’re not ideas I have. It’s just my attempt to point at the truth I found. And I want to share it because I genuinely think it’s important to remember we are all real beings.

My perspective is the opposite of the materialist paradigm. Beings are the only things that truly exist. Consciousness is fundamental.

I apologize. From my perspective, it feels like you’re not taking any of this seriously.

The universe doesn’t even exist as a thing. Beings exist. The universe is emergent between them. We are the consciousnesses powering the universe. Maybe you could compare my definition of “the universe” to “the internet”. It’s just a collection of connections. It isn’t itself a conscious thing. It’s the connection between conscious things.

You sound like you’re trying to sound wise for the sake of being wise. You don’t sound genuinely curious about how reality works.

Reality isn’t a riddle. You know you’re a center of awareness. It’s self evident. You are the experiencer of the experience. Ego is an emergent construct used to interact. But the center itself is simply the awareness of anything at all. The only thing I could possibly need to prove to you is that I’m not an extension of you. And that’s inevitable given enough time.

You already know yourself as a center of awareness. That’s the one thing I don’t need to prove to you. The center is the active experience. You are the observer at the center.

To be conscious is to be a center of awareness. The universe is a collection of multiple centers of awareness. The universe isn’t conscious. We are.

You’re correct. It’s their relationship with their perspective. If it affects them negatively, it becomes a mental illness. If it gives you anxiety, if it makes you bypass emotions, volatile behavior with other people, you will get a diagnosis.

IMO, there’s only one reason you should strive for it. Because you want to be able to connect with others at the deepest level. To truly see others as themselves. To not lose yourself in Unity states. To keep that contrast so you can truly live life and have a fulfilling existence. If you’re ready to accept permanent consequences in life. Because you don’t forget this life when you die. You don’t leave the universe. There is no escape. This is the beginning of your story of infinity. You are stuck here forever with everyone else here. And you have to take responsibility for yourself if you do this. And to truly see others, you have to see yourself completely. And there’s a lot more to you than you think. You have to manually clean it all up. Do hardcore “shadow work”. This is the most destabilizing thing you will ever experience. You get in that rollercoaster, you’re staying on the rollercoaster until you’re done. Integration is inevitable. The only way out is through. There’s no shortcut. If you’re okay with that? Dewit.

I feel like people like solipsism because there are no consequences. If you acknowledge other people are genuinely separate sources, you acknowledge everything you do does in fact affect other beings. This isn’t your private dream. And it means you don’t have a simple answer that you can play around with like a riddle. You have to take life seriously.

I don’t think the word god has any place in describing reality. We do not come from a singular source. So god is not that source. We come to the universe. The universe is a big shared construct between us. It is emergent. So that is the only thing I think anyone would reasonably call “god”. It is not conscious. It is us as a team. So I don’t think the word god is appropriate at this point. Especially because it is associated with a higher being or ultimate reality, which are both false. There’s no concept of a higher being. We are all equal. You are just as powerful as your idea of god is. But everyone else is too. They’re just as infinite as you.

I think it genuinely was nirvikalpa samadhi? I understand it’s a tall claim. But I can’t find any other term that matches my experience. Please help. I woke up in the middle of the night. I had intense anxiety and nervous system issues. I was trying to slow my breathing so I could try to sleep. And then it started to feel like a tunnel going up. I leaned into it. And it felt like I was disappearing. My memories and thoughts and capacity for words or any constructs at all fell away. I felt like I was dying. I felt like I was reaching a point of no return. But I kept going because I was kinda depressed at the time, and had no reason to hold on. And then I went into infinity. One with everything. Complete ecstasy. The feeling of absolute relief of all attachments. No self. And it felt like I knew everything. It felt like I became the entire universe. And then the most complete absence of everything possible. No experience or memory. Like anesthesia. No episodic memories, but there’s still some sort of intuitive “memory”? Afterwards I didn’t have the words to explain the experience or the perspective I gained. But it existed as like, instinct. It felt like experiencing the underlying structure of reality. It’s like you experience ego death -> unity -> absolute isolation. Like you become one with everyone else. And then you become fully alone. It’s like you become your full stream of potential. But you don’t actually experience anything because you were only pure potential in isolation. I don’t remember the week or two afterwards. And it was very destabilizing. It took me 6 years to get back to “normal”. I had to manually build my entire identity and reconcile my understanding of how reality works. At this point I have like, a complete unshakable like, understanding. I’ve integrated the experience and now I feel stable. From my perspective, it is clear reality is relational and emerges between distinct beings. We are not all one. We are interdependent. We create the universe together. I know that’s the opposite of most spiritual teachings. But genuinely, it is the most self evident truth you could ever possibly experience. If you experienced it, you would understand. Is this actually nirvikalpa samadhi? It’s a serious question. Because I went past Unity into a complete absence that ”destroyed” my identity and understanding of reality completely. And that doesn’t match preexisting systems afaik, specifically because it is the opposite of “all is one”. There’s no way someone experienced this if they don’t understand plurality at the most fundamental level. I’m not super educated in this stuff. But I’ve casually been trying to read about different spiritual systems to understand my experience. I am a skeptical atheist who really appreciates science. And I know this experience is compatible with scientific understanding. Everyone can experience it theoretically. It just seems difficult. Edit: Here is how I think reality works 1. Plurality is fundamental. Reality is not all One. It is many irreducible Beings. Each is a center of presence that cannot be reduced to matter, fragments, or parts of a universal consciousness. 2. Relation is co-primordial. Beings themselves are irreducible, but structured experience only arises through relational contrast. Experience does not occur in isolation. Relation does not erase the Beings involved, because it presupposes them. 3. Identity is emergent. A Being in abstraction has potential, but no differentiated self. Sustained relational interaction, leads to coherent forms, and identity emerges as a patterned history of relational interactions. 4. Nondual or “absolute” states are coherence peaks. Experiences of unity or loss of self are temporary reductions of internal contrast within a Being’s experiential field. They do not prove metaphysical oneness. They are peak coherence states followed by reintegration and *increased* differentiation. 5. Large-scale relational density produces stable structures. Spacetime and physical regularities are emergent patterns arising from massive relational convergence. Laws are stabilized relational patterns, not proof of ontological unity. 6. Unity is emergent coherence, not identity collapse. Beings can achieve high compatibility, resonance, and structural alignment without ceasing to be distinct. tldr; Reality consists of irreducible plural Beings whose identities and experiences emerge through co-primordial relational contrast, with unity understood as stabilized coherence rather than ontological collapse.