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I love this perspective

Aw, I just realized I was subtly pushing certain values... Thanks for the shocker, Leo.

If you use a 3D program or Game Engine for long periods of time, you'll start having visual thoughts in the infinite void. And it's not a big surprise. It used to happen when I push myself to imagine levels and certain other aspects, often when I'm feeling half asleep. Much like lucid dreaming but with control over the environment and what you create in that void. P.S - Aren't you able to see it's just a 3D video? The snake gave away the illusion.

I understand now. If there's resistance, fully give in to it. Let it be there. Just look deeper. There's nothing wrong with resistance. Spiritual people will condition you to "let go, surrender.." and all that crap. Just don't listen to them. And remember none of what they say is the absolute truth. What's best for you right now is your own feeling, let that be your guide.

I'm the same age as you. Since the age of 19, I have been free from all sorts of institutions, I dropped them out of my life. Also realized early on, there are things which I can make money with, skills which come to me too easy. But ofc they don't give any satisfaction. So, I'm still a total newbie at what I am pursuing. I wouldn't recommend anyone to do what I did, and there's many more years to come. "Set a goal which will take decades to master, but live in the moment without a care about what happens the next moment." It all depends on what your values are. Find them.

Continue singing. And probably not for an audience. A retreat to heal and strengthen your vocal muscles would be a good opportunity now. From reading your post, you were on the verge of giving up not because you can't sing.. But the fear of outcome.. But yes, the making a living part must be weighing on you to make a wiser choice. That should have to go. Meaning, forget all about making a living if you wanna excel at something you've taken a hit at. It's true for everything creative. Money aspect just gets in the way. Good day.

Don't half ass socializing. If you wanna socialize. Do it directly. There's absolutely no need for college as a medium.

There's 0 need to surrender to anything or anyone 😂. What are you so concerned about? If it's about new learning. You can become nothing.

Right to exist. If you are seeking such a context. That's what you'll get. Because what else are you capable of realising at the moment. It's basically like saying karma doesn't exist for the one who is aware. So, yes. You have to earn the right to live.

Just look how delusional it is to think God wants to acknowledge itself.. so it's fallen low. Because God is lonely 😂.

I don't understand what's the deal with humanizing God

I've been contemplating this... Don't know about addiction. But about procrastination, you're already assuming there's things you gotta do. And those things are often things you'd rather avoid for reasons unknown. You may love it, in some sense. But yet it's hard to bring yourself to do it. Recently I've entered a different territory. And it's been difficult to preserve the meaning in anything I do. I eventually gave up trying to build meaning. What can be easily broken is better off broken. The truth is, vision is a poor substitute for awareness. My only goal these days is to preserve my awareness and pass a certain threshold. No real reason why. It's not even worth calling a goal. Because it's not. It should be natural. But this again, like you said is extremely difficult to do, when the energy is pulled in many different directions. And I have to constantly remind myself. I'm terribly disappointed by human standards of living. It's partially because I want everyone to have a different, more evolved norm. But realising how unrealistic it is. And how much it will hinder their survival and they can't afford it. For me, it was, so far I've built my interests by following my heart and ignoring every little motivation factor from outside. Now, I feel utterly lonely, I realised the place I've reached is so lonely. And this is the place I call home. And been losing friends from my life on a high speed. May be procrastination is a coping mechanism to go back to the world's norms.. And a way to preserve my empathy for the world.. And be a part of it.. like an actual part, of the group. There's only 2 things, which can break this. A strong ego, or a strong nothingness. Both will do. Ego is easier to summon, but hard to maintain. And nothingness takes a bit of work and pain sucking.. but less energy is needed to preserve it. I guess drugs are a failed way of preserving one or the other.. same for any addictions. Life purpose is equivalent of building a strong ego and maintaining it. Higher learning requires you be fluid.. But survival requires you be grounded and be blind in a way. That is if you're going the ego route.

So, basically the higher stuffs mess with your survival...

It's interesting to see how everyone have different meanings to the word free will.. Don't listen to Sadhguru too much. He has no intention of making you free. He have an agenda. He is just fulfilling that. Infact he tramples on others' freedom too much, by means of manipulation, social engineering.

1. It's easy to make choices and plans which seem to have little external influence.. But if you start execution of those plans, you realise how much grip the external factors have on you. 2. You make choices within a predetermined context. You mentioned Financial Status. But don't get to choose whether money should even exist in the world or not. Most of the times, you have very little control over the context. And most people take the context for granted, and give little thought to altering it completely. For example, "A world without money". 3. The illusion of free will. Let's say you decide to make a lot of money, or let's say you decided to live in the woods. Look at the context again. The context is forcing you to make one choice or the other. Of course, there's a myriad of choices. But all of it, is simply some form of slavery. 4. Everything you do is pointless. Meaning is made up. Religion is made up. Wanting to live as "such and such" a human being is utterly pointless. Everyone is EQUAL, ONE.. 5. The illusion of having no control. You are god, you created everything. Everything you can possibly experience and imagine, is all your own creation. Even space time and other human beings. You are lost in your own creation. How does that make you feel?

Some group of apes forgot to evolve..

@BojackHorsemanI just re read.. Thanks for the clarification.

It is so absurd to even actively look for another gender. It should come to you naturally when your nature is stronger than their(society's) masks. Infact women may find you extremely disturbing if you are beyond a level of consciousness. Just try your best to hide what you know.

AI has nothing to do with art tbh. It only changes the commercial, business aspects. It's just an excuse to pay less. Give up art? Are you so dumb? 😂 Art is beyond AI tbh. I'm not talking about commerical art.. infact art done for commerce is better off being replaced.

@Davino Remember, it's a spiral, meaning, yellow have the necessary Orange in it, the necessary Purple in it. This is why you're still not living in the woods. You can totally start at Turquoise if you so want.

I have a feeling that in next 10 years, the world will see a lot of children who are naturally Stage Yellow. But, will have a hard time navigating the world because of the prevailing Stage Orange dynamics in the society. It's not necessary that one should tick all the boxes, of all stages. So, telling such an intelligent population to bend to stage orange and play their dirty games is a sheer insult. The solution to thrive in such a society is too obvious, become creative, and irreplaceable. But also, early stage yellow will have some trouble to make that transition, where the norm was to confirm to the values of stage orange to survive. This would be something like "How to escape Wage Slavery?" Video. But more catered towards stage yellow, and how actually thrive with a stage yellow+ Life Purpose.

ditto

It's fine to reject various aspects of certain stages, totally. But, it'll need some work to make those aspects from others to not affect you later in any way. It's about figuring out how to burn through the karma. Sometimes, it involves indulging in what affects you. But often it's not needed at all. It depends on whether or not you plan to live around the 'center of gravity'. Again, take aghoris as an example. They eat corpses, drink in human skull. There's infinite ways to burn the unrequited karma if you're open to it. I'm moving to Turquoise at the moment. My 'active' yellow was very short, like just a few months. The only thing born out of stage yellow was, being able to decipher complex things in a non linear way, this was vital in gaining clarity on various aspects. And it's here to stay. I merely discovered I always had the ability to do that. At this point, I don't belong to any "stage", actually. The validity of Spiral Dynamics is already crumbling. I used to think, people need to move up the spiral or things like that. But on closer inspection, the spiral doesn't exist. Never existed.

You're not wrong. Being pulled into center of gravity, for the effective development, of the entire hivemind, is simply how the system works. That is if you just sit back and allow it. BTW, what do you mean by Shadows at Yellow?

Why do you think Leo wants to meet your ass