Spiritual Warrior

This was supposed to post this morning. I had a fucking trip dude. I will try to post about it tomorrow morning.

I was bored on a Sunday and was snowed in. My best friend gave me a shrooms chocolate bar a couple months back and I've been saving it for the right time. Now's the time. I eat half of the chocolate bar, there's probably like an eighth in the whole bar. I make sure to shovel before trying to really enjoy myself. I've learned in my life it's always best to get your work done first, then you'll enjoy yourself much more after. I start to shovel my driveway and the shrooms kick in, I feel like a beast throwing the snow around with my shovel. Shrooms always gets me more in touch with my animalistic side. When I finish the driveway, I get back in the house, put my headphones on and play my favorite song on repeat, Jeruselema. I dance around my house, surrendering myself to the music, allowing my body to express itself fully. After several minutes of this, I take a look down the hallway and I see a picture frame that my sister made for us. It has a few pictures of us from her wedding scattered around the frame, and in the middle of it, I see the word "Love." I immediately start to sob, something about the word has triggered my emotions. I intuit that all of my life is about opening myself to love, to love as much as a human being possibly can stomach, that is my true purpose here on this earth. I sit down in the middle of the hallway and continue sobbing like Prince Canute does in this scene, starting at 1:45: If you've never cried like this, you should try it. The emotional release that you get is really amazing. I call it a cry-gasm. Now here's where things get radical. I look up at the wall in front of me and I ask God "Why are you putting me through this?" God smiles and says, "I want you to know that I love you." Me: "But I'm so selfish, and I've hurt so many people." God: "it doesn't matter what you do, I will always love you." I continue crying for a few more minutes until I run out of tears. After the dust has settled, I feel refreshed, as if I have filtered out all of the sewage inside of my body.

I am heading to my friend's house right now to do some shrooms with my girlfriend, my buddy and his girlfriend. We are going to the beach, we packed a bunch of snacks. My intention going into this trip is to talk to God. That is all. Let's see how it goes... Id also like to become aware of my own selfishness and biases Self love and talking to God. That's the goal.

Yes exactly, trust in the principle that the hard work will pay off. The plateaus will happen frequently and they don't mean you're not making progress.

A highly developed person sees the limitations of thought and transcends it

I like to listen to my body. I'll only put the earplugs in when my mind is asking for it. I never put them in out of boredom and this makes for a good balance of receiving content vs experiencing my own thoughts.

For me, mastery was a book that opened my eyes to how much effort and hard work it takes to master something. As a matter of fact, the mastery process is infinite, it is never done. It also introduced me to the concept of "plateauing." This is when you are training a skill and it feels like you're not getting any better. But in reality, in the midst of a "plateau" there will soon be a breakthrough. These breakthrough moments are incredibly fulfilling.

Tier two sex: A multi orgasmic man has complete control over his arousal and whether or not he ejaculates. He ejaculates if and when he wants to. He can go as long as he wants to during sex. He is in control of his sexuality. He loves deeply but is keenly aware of the edge. He teeter totters around the edge, playing with its delicious sensitivity. Adrenaline is rushing now. The young man breathes the energy up his spine inch by inch. Eventually the energy reaches his head and bursts open like a balloon It feels to him like fireworks shooting out of his head.

Tier two sex: A multi orgasmic man has complete control over his arousal and whether or not he ejaculates. He ejaculates if and when he wants to. He can go as long as he wants to during sex. He is in control of his sexuality. He loves deeply but is keenly aware of the edge. He teeter totters around the edge, playing with its delicious sensitivity. Adrenaline is rushing now. The young man breathes the energy up his spine inch by inch. Eventually the energy reaches his head and bursts open like a balloon It feels to him like fireworks shooting out of his head.

What do you want to get out of the YouTube channel?

"Is it wrong to get into relationship simply for survival reasons?" No, men and women get into relationships in order to survive. None of us are above this.

I've cried three times in front my girl. She loves the openness and vulnerability.

https://youtu.be/AksH-JEgpeM?feature=shared

There's an evolution to the work. Finding out that you're wrong is a key part of the evolutionary process.

How many books in a year is a good amount for me? I have 60 5-star books left on Leo's book list. My goal is to finish 60 within 5 years. That means by August 9th, 2029, this is exactly 1 book per month. That's totally doable for me. Find a realistic goal and start working towards it. If you want to go for one a week, hell yeah do it!

For a man, sex at tier two is not about busting a nut, it is about circulating the sexual energy throughout your body for optimal health. This requires training and an awareness of the circulation of energy within your own body. If you're interested, read the Multi Orgasmic Man by Mantak Chia.

Consistently hitting on random women is extremely challenging. This habit will not stick without serious persistence.

You are experiencing a relapse into more comfortable states of not pushing yourself out of your comfort zone ( for you it is hitting on girls). This will happen again and again for any serious change that you are trying to integrate into your life. Put awareness on it and keep trying to integrate change into your life. Be hopeful that no matter how many times you fail, you will figure it out. Good luck.

My boy Don Juan was absolutely in stage turquoise, called a "sorcerer," he was able to "see" energy flowing throughout the universe. Here are some quotes from the Carlos Castaneda books about him.

For me, I used to smoke too much weed because I didn't have anything big that I was working on. My job was training based at the time and I felt that I could smoke in the mornings and still be good for the trainings. Now that I am actually teaching lessons, (I'm a dance instructor) I know that if I smoke in the morning then I will be way too groggy to teach a good lesson. Once I realized this, weed became easy to give up. Morale of this story, I wouldn't focus your attention on not smoking weed, I would focus your attention on the rest of your life; you should have a life that is engaging enough so that you don't need a high from a drug, you should be getting this high from life itself. Ask yourself, why isn't your life structured for this sort of engagement.

At the end of the day, you are going to have to pave your own path, we can't tell you what to do here. I'll share with you what happened to me though, maybe it'll help. At the beginning of this year, I started to go out to salsa dancing clubs every week, started hitting on random girls at bars, and went to speed dating events. I started to get dates and eventually, I was dating two girls at once and continuing to go out and meet new girls. I had thought that this is exactly what I wanted, I had two girls fighting over me and I was being completely honest about what I was doing. Eventually, I grew so attached to one of the girls that it made me not want to pursue anyone else, and that is where I'm at right now, I'm very happy being committed to one girl. I think you'll know in your heart when you find the right person and want to commit all of your time and attention to her. And until then, just have fun, there are no rules that you have to follow, you are constructed them in your own head.

Hi, I lost my virginity at 29 years old, you are not alone brother. The thing that helped me the most was taking dance classes, you will gain hands on experience talking and leading women around a dance floor. This does wonders for your confidence, don't give up. Ask for what you want and keep fighting for it. Suicide is a coward's path.

Use the Sedona method: Feel into the raw sensation of the emotion Release your grasp on the emotion as if you are unclenching your fist Allow the emotion to float away. Your emotions do not control you.