Spiritual Warrior

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #136 I just really want to get this meditation habit together, the other affirmations are great and all but let's get this meditation streak up to 100. I have a good grasp on what I want to do with my students today, but I feel like I don't have a good grasp on the habits in my life, in waking up whenever I feel like it, no meal plan, no workout regimen, etc... this isn't how I want to live, I want more structure, but at the same time because I've allowed myself some leeway, I've been getting much better sleep and am therefore MUCH happier so I'm finding that this is highlighting an imbalance in my life. All the structure is causing em to lose sleep, which effects my mood and therefore my relationships and my work. So I've got to find a balance of staying disciplined and also taking care of my body. Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 135 Brush teeth streak: 135 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 109 Meditation streak: 18 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed: 0 "Whole day" goals: Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 138 Total number of women cold approached: 5

Very good point

Lmao thanks man, never been called a "gangsta" before

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Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #135 3.16.26 I LOVE this book that I'm reading called A Million Thoughts by Om Swami. The girl that I'm dating texts me constantly, like bro give me some space. I feel obligated to text back quickly because she texts back in literally mintues every single time. I just don't need that much human interaction. I like my space, my alone time. I am still high right now. I smoked a joint this morning despite having to go into work later. I do love my job so much. So much that I want more than anything to make a career out of it. I feel bad taking my co workers students, building lessons with them, but at the same time "I am ruthless, I do whatever I need to do in order to make it here and get ahead. One of my students wants to go to a dance o rama. But my boss would rather them go to vienna. But I want them to go to dance o rama. It is going to cost her $18,000. Isn't that insane?! I want to talk to the student about it. She must have the money for it, no problem I just can't even imagine. That is literally half my paycheck for the year. Anyways, how did I do yesterday? Morning Routine: Make bed: 5 Journal: 134 Brush teeth streak: 134 Floss streak: 6 Shower streak: 108 Meditation streak: 17 Approaching women visualization: 1 Abundance of sex affirmation: 1 Funniness affirmation: 4 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 4 Free talk exercise: 4 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 9 Wash face streak: 9 No electronics before bed: 2 "Whole day" goals: Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 137 Total number of women cold approached: 5

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #134 3.15.26 So I had a dance event on Friday into Saturday. These events are great, don't get me wrong, I get paid, I enjoy them immensely, and they never fail to grow and inspire me. But they are so tiring. I got back from the event and I was exhausted, of course I had to spend time with my family for my birthday so I couldn't even relax. Sometimes I do things for other people even when I don't feel like it. The next day, I had another family thing in the morning which I didn't want to go to, but it wasn't too bad. My dad gave me $400 for my birthday as he knows I'm going through it financially right now. I got hit with an $800 hospital bill taking care of some tests before my heart surgery. I cannot believe how much they charge at these hospitals, its really ridiculous. I still don't have a good handle on my money situation. Luckily, I will be getting a big paycheck for this event we just did, but at the same time I still have a lot that I need to do. I have to start earning another income, I don't think theres any way around it. Its funny, I was listening to Trump on the radio and I was really trying to give him an open mind as maybe hes not so bad after all, but then he started talking, calling someone "pathetic," "not a smart man," and I was like oh.... Okay yeah this is one underdeveloped motherfucker... and he is leading this country, no wonder I'm struggling so much right now. Anyways my dance partner really wants to practice but I still need to shower and meditate so I won't be able to get anywhere until AT LEAST 11:10. I also feel weird about this DM that I sent to a male dance instructor. So we have this "sam sex" competition at an event in August, all that means is that you partner up with someone that is of the same gender and create a routine to dance to. But now I'm thinking that maybe he thought that I was asking him something weird, of course I don't know how it came off, I'm not him - trying to not let that worry me. I'm also not in a good workout routine and I have another dance practice tomorrow morning, but I can get the routine back on track while also getting my food prepped... see this SHOULD have already been done though.. that is the frustrating thing. ugh.... oh well.. just do what you can. For some reason, when Sunday comes, I don't feel like getting my shit organized even though I know it would benefit me. My mind becomes lazy and doesn't want to deal with it, and I allow it to have its way. Morning Routine: Make bed: 4 Journal: 133 Brush teeth streak: 133 Floss streak: 5 Shower streak: 107 Meditation streak: 16 Approaching women visualization: 0 Abundance of sex affirmation: 0 Funniness affirmation: 3 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 3 Free talk exercise: 3 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 8 Wash face streak: 8 No electronics before bed: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 136 Total number of women cold approached: 5

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #133 I don't need anyone or anything to keep me happy. I am comfortable "just being" being one with the universe. Being one with the moment. Surrendering to the moment. Surrendering to the body. Breathing in. Breathing out. I want to be a yoga instructor. This will help with my dancing and I will be around more women. More women around me, the more experience I get being around them, the more women you meet, the better there is a chance to meet a girl and get intimate with her. I want to have sex. I want to experience what it's like to be inside a woman. I feel I have a weird relationship with women. I feel lots of shame. Lots of shame about my sexuality. I am very possessive. I didn't like myself when I was in a relationship. It gets too heavy. Emotions are flying everywhere. Sometimes you can't handle it. I love her dad for some reason. He takes care of business. I have to win her dad over. That is the secret to this womans heart. This girl acts like she's schizo. She doesn't remember anything. Like how? Is it the alcohol,? Im having a hard time understanding. Are you going to be honest with yourself for once? Then of course, Im not comfortable enough with it. Life is about embracing, surrendering, an ever lasting letting go that has to take you down the hill and into the valley with the sharpness of breath. 3.14.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 3 Journal: 132 Brush teeth streak: 132 Floss streak: 4 Shower streak: 106 Meditation streak: 15 Approaching women visualization: 6 Abundance of sex affirmation: 6 Funniness affirmation: 2 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 2 Free talk exercise: 2 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 7 Wash face streak: 7 No electronics before bed: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 135 Total number of women cold approached: 5

Just move on brother, you don't need her Work on your finances, but not for her, do it for yourself You're a king 🤴

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #132 I want to be the best version of my self that I can be. I want to have emotional mastery, able to overcome any emotionally difficult time that comes my way. I want a girl in my life that I can take care of, that appreciates what I do for her. I want to have an honest relationship with the Truth. 3.13.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 2 Journal: 131 Brush teeth streak: 131 Floss streak: 3 Shower streak: 105 Meditation streak: 14 Approaching women visualization: 5 Abundance of sex affirmation: 5 Funniness affirmation: 1 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 1 Free talk exercise: 1 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 6 Wash face streak: 6 No electronics before bed: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn: 6 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1 No alcohol streak: 134 Total number of women cold approached: 5

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #131 I want to continue to be productive at all times and to embrace the silence and to meditate as much as possible. Congratulations on 13 days straight of meditation, I can't remember the last time that I've hit that streak. Good job. I want to continue to date new women, feeling things out with them, dancing with new dance partners, approaching more women, sticking up for myself more, feeling independent of the opinions of others, doing things that make me uncomfortable, pushing myself to be more successful at the dance studio, continuing to have a mature understanding over my emotions and thoughts. In romantic life, I feel like I'm throwing darts at all of these women in my life and whoever is actually down I am going to become intimate with. To me, this takes the romantic side out of it as I'm essentially going to be hooking up with whoever is down. This rubs me the wrong way as I really enjoy the romantic side of life and it doesn't seem that romantic when I'm shooting my shot with everyone. I don't know... at the same time, I'm really not experience enough in the dating field to have an opinion on this, I have to go down the path in order to understand it, this is just my immediate emotional reaction. What I do know for a fact is that I am living in a situation of scarcity with women, which makes me needy and dependent on the women in my life right now - this has got to change. 3.12.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 1 Journal: 130 Brush teeth streak: 130 Floss streak: 2 Shower streak: 104 Meditation streak: 13 Approaching women visualization: 4 Abundance of sex affirmation: 4 Funniness affirmation: 0 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 0 Free talk exercise: 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 5 Wash face streak: 5 No electronics before bed: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn: 5 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 133 Total number of women cold approached: 5

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #130 One of the things that I've been realizing recently is one of the most important skills in life is learning how to let go. Letting go of thoughts, emotions, attachments to people, attachments to a specific environment, a job, a dog, a cat. Learn to let go and you will live a peaceful life because nothing is permanent, everything is going to end or change in some way so the sooner you can bite that bullet, the sooner you can start living a more care free and impactful life. 3.11.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 129 Brush teeth streak: 129 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 103 Meditation streak: 12 Approaching women visualization: 3 Abundance of sex affirmation: 3 Funniness affirmation: 11 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 11 Free talk exercise: 11 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 4 Wash face streak: 4 No electronics before bed: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn: 4 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 132 Total number of women cold approached: 5

This is it right here in my opinion. You like this girl and you are attached to her, but you experienced one night with this woman, yes you felt comfortable enough to become intimate with her, but the reality is that you barely know her. You have no idea if a serious relationship could flourish without going out with each other but you live half way across the world. You had one of those magical nights with an amazing woman, but now it's over because nothing in life is permanent, everything always comes to an end unfortunately. Let go of your attachment to her and you will feel at peace.

Personal Journal ~ 3.11.26 I REALLY want to take back control of my mind, not allowing it to continuously think about how the human that it is occupying is being perceived. It would also help me out a lot if I 1. Didn't stay out too late on the weekdays, like leave at midnight at the latest 2. Read before you go to bed 3. Be more open and vulnerable with others, if what you are going to share causes you anxiety, it is probably a healthy thing to talk about it. 4. Start thinking and relating to people in a more outward direction, like how are YOU doing, how can I assist YOU, what do YOU need in your development, what can I provide for YOU, this is huge 5. On that token, I want to start going up to women in general and telling them that they look beautiful or gorgeous or just nice, start being friendly towards them, don't even hit on them, just compliment something that you genuinely find appealing. This is a nice baby step to start approaching more and creating a life of abundance of women. I am going to wake up at the same time tomorrow morning and go through everything that I need to figure out, job, meal plans, weight progress, all of it and I am going to get all of the morning stuff done right away. Okay, now you have everything that you need to fill the day out. Let's get a couple more sets in of pull ups and then head back to the studio to grind. Ready, go. This is your path to success.

I relate to this immensely. In the past, I've gone YEARS without any success with women whatsoever, this was EXTREMELY painful and I felt like I was stuck at the bottom of a 30 foot hole, it was dark down there and I had no idea how to get out. I have gotten much better as I have had some success over the past couple of years. I still have much more to learn but God damn that period of my life was one of the most frustrating and unsatisfying times of my life. I feel for you but there is a way out of the hole. Try to find some hope, you have overcome so many challenges in your life, this is just another challenge that you WILL overcome.

This will get you far more growth than the dating apps in my opinion

Habits & Disciplines journey entry #129 I would like to start being VERY open to criticism. My boss has recently been taking a lot of shots at me, calling me out for not listening, for not handling situations well, etc. my M.O. is to get triggered by this and get sad or mad at her for it, but I want to flip that on its head and become a man that is dispassionate and detached from the emotion. This means that he can look her in the eyes and take the criticism on and learn and grow from it. That is what I want. The other thing that I am realizing that is a positive thing albeit highlighting a negative within myself, is I am so sick of having such selfish thoughts, thinking about myself, "ohhh woe is me, poor me, why can't I get this, why does she get that and I don't, what about me, me, me, me. "Seriously, I feel like I'm a spoiled little brat inside of my own head. It's ridiculous. The funny thing is when I'm in this selfish, victim state, I am not happy, when I am thinking of others and providing value to OTHERS, I am happy, I am fulfilled, I know that I am doing Good. Lastly, let's talk about my dance partner real quick. Last night, I had dance practice with her and I had a cool insight. I get there and we're supposed to start practicing, but her and her co workers were all having fun performing their routines so I sat there and watched. I noticed that I was unable to be truly happy and proud for what they came up with. As they are strutting their stuff, all I can do is think "what about me? I want to perform something like that? When am I going to get to do that? And when am I going to get to spend time with my dance partner?" As you can see, these thoughts are all selfish, why can't I sit back and enjoy the show and hard work that these people put in? And why am I so possessive over my dance partners' time? I am constantly thinking about myself, how this or that serves me. This is annoying to me now as I want to transcend this for something higher, much higher. It's just not enjoyable to me anymore, neither is the getting triggered on an emotional level and feeling sorry for myself, neither headspace is enjoyable and I want to be more open towards Truth or Love. Opening up about my romantic feelings towards her was a great step in the right direction. I told her something that was True and of course she took it very well, nothing bad came about and now I feel so free. I still have the feelings for her but I am at peace with it, I understand that I can't have her and that's okay. I was annoyed with her at one point during the practice because I'm watching them do their routines, then she went to the bathroom for what felt like 10 minutes but it was probably 5, then she sat back down at the table and started texting. I let this slide for about 30 seconds, then I was like "can we start?" She said yes but she continues to text. Then I was like "okay, come on, you're pissing me off." Then she became visibly off emotionally, and I tried to get her to open up about it but she refused. We started dancing and things got better but she was acting weirder than usual. I am proud that I am attempting to be True to myself and creating an honest and direct communication channel which started with the opening up about the romantic feelings towards her. Nice job on that, this is a good upgrade to your dance partnership, will she take on the communication channel, we will just have to wait and see. One more thing, I really need to get a second job, I cannot go on like this without another form of income, I just can't. My boss told me that in this career that I'm in, there are 5 years of "eating shit," years 5-7 you're "comfortable,' then 7+ years you should be doing well and it should get better and better from there. Right now, I am at about 2.6 years in of eating shit, so halfway point of the shit eating. 3.10.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 2 Journal: 128 Brush teeth streak: 128 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 102 Meditation streak: 11 Approaching women visualization: 2 Abundance of sex affirmation: 2 Funniness affirmation: 10 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 10 Free talk exercise: 10 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 3 Wash face streak: 3 No electronics before bed: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn: 3 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 131 Total number of women cold approached: 5

Habits & Disciplines journey entry #128 I sell people almost every single time on introductory lessons. I don't miss. This is because I have gotten very good at making the couple or single lady feel like they can dance. I am providing them with the confidence and vision that they can become good, competent dancers. Good job on that. The next level is to get them to "extend" which is to have a plan for them moving forward that touches on their "benefit sheet" which is what they truly want to get out of dance at a more personal, emotional, psychological level. This the next step for me, get them to extend by getting them to see a long term vision for where we can take their dancing. 3.9.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 1 Journal: 127 Brush teeth streak: 127 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 101 Meditation streak: 10 Approaching women visualization: 1 Abundance of sex affirmation: 1 Funniness affirmation: 9 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 9 Free talk exercise: 9 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn: 2 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 130 Total number of women cold approached: 5

Habits & Disciplines journey entry #127 Reached the century mark for showering in the morning, great job! 3.8.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 126 Brush teeth streak: 126 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 100 Meditation streak: 9 Approaching women visualization: 0 Abundance of sex affirmation: 0 Funniness affirmation: 8 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 8 Free talk exercise: 8 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn: 1 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 129 Total number of women cold approached: 5

Habits & Disciplines journey entry #125 Okay, so I technically did not journal yesterday, but I had thought that I at least sent it in as I did attempt to journal while I was at my friends house last night. I must not have hit "submit." Given the circumstances, I am not going to reset that streak as this would be very harsh. 3.6.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 3 Journal: 124 Brush teeth streak: 124 Floss streak: 3 Shower streak: 98 Meditation streak: 7 Approaching women visualization: 4 Abundance of sex affirmation: 0 Funniness affirmation: 6 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 6 Free talk exercise: 6 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 7 Wash face streak: 7 No electronics before bed: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn: 4 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 127 Total number of women cold approached: 5 Habits & Disciplines journey entry #126 3.7.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 125 Brush teeth streak: 125 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 99 Meditation streak: 8 Approaching women visualization: 0 Abundance of sex affirmation: 0 Funniness affirmation: 7 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 7 Free talk exercise: 7 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 128 Total number of women cold approached: 5

@Valach for sure, I appreciate it. I will keep this in the back of my mind as I "go through it."

@Valach mmmm... I understand what you're saying. The traumas are not from the lack of success but from something entirely different and using success with women to deal with the trauma is a dead end and will not not truly heal you. An interesting take, I am open to that being true.

@Valach just finished reading all of your posts on this thread and I want to summarize your view point, please correct me if I missed anything. You're essentially saying that everyone that is currently in the stage of "pick up" have not had the success with women that they would like to have which makes them feel wounded and insecure and undeserving and unloved. Therefore, this activity is not as healthy as it seems because you are healing traumas and not necessarily growing as a person. This is a great point and I agree. However, you have to realize that a man has to cope with these wounds and insecurities and avoiding the area instead of driving straight through it is not a good solution so you HAVE to engage in pick up to some extent in order to deal with the wounds, you can't avoid it. Therefore, the most healthy way to go about this issue for guys is to actively engage in pick up while understanding what you understand, which is that this activity that I'm engaging in is healing the wounded part of me and I will eventually transcend it and move onto something more highly conscious and with a greater impact on the world. What I am describing is ego development at its core. You should not skip over stages of your ego development. Burn through every stage until the flame is completely extinguished.

You're probably right, but the insecurities and emotional wounds still need to be healed. Exhaust your desire for sex by becoming successful in the area and then you will be conscious enough to transcend it.

Probably Mastery by George Leonard, having the insight that true mastery in a field takes over 10,000 hours of work is all you need to understand what it takes to be successful in anything.

I'd bet he is in a situation where he does not have an abundance of options. He is thinking "Ooooh, an attractive woman finally likes me, I need to wife her up."