Spiritual Warrior

🌍☠️ Spiritual Autolysis - Journal Entry #54 - Thu May 23rd '24 - 4:41 PM I'm reading SE: The Damnedest Thing by Jed McKenna again and it's got me wanting to start my spiritual autolysis journal back up. This is by far my favorite spiritual exercise that I've stumbled upon. I'm basically just questioning and contemplating reality and existence by journaling. That's all this is. Over the past year, I've started to make bold life goals for myself, such as I will have a girlfriend by this date, I will have an apartment by this date, etc... they don't always come true exactly as manifested, but they always push me towards the direction that I want to go. Last year, i made a goal for myself to have an enlightenment experience on September 29th, 2024, maybe this journal can help me get there. Higher self: Okay young Padawan, what is true? Lower self: The body that I inhabit will die. Higher self: What does it mean when something dies? Lower self: When something dies, it loses it's consciousness. For example, if I were to die then I would no longer be conscious, I would no longer be able to breathe, to walk, to talk, to smell, to taste, to exist really. The body of this person that I am will no longer exist. Higher self: What does that mean for you, the real you? Lower self: Well I guess I would die, I am the body aren't I? Higher self: I don't know, you tell me. Lower self: I feel like I am the body because I experience everything that this body experiences. Higher self: Where is this "I" that you speak of, is it in the brain, in the heart, in your fingertip... where is it? Lower self: I don't know .. it's just there. Does it need a location? Higher self: Okay, excellent question, does something need a location in order for it to exist? Lower self: What even is a location? Higher self: Sure, let's start with that .. go on.. Lower self: The location of an item, let's use this bag of beef jerky right next to me.. it is sitting on a windowsill. It is two feet away from me. It is laying down nutrition fact side up, that is it's location. Higher self: But what is a location? Youre not answering that question. Lower self: Okay fine. A location is the measurement of one item relative to another. If I were to say that lamp is 3 feet away from this bag of jerky, then I am describing the location of the lamp relative to the location of the beef jerky. Higher self: It sounds to me like location is very much a relative thing. If it needs something else, then it is relative and cannot possibly be an ultimate truth and therefore can't be used in truth talks. Lower self: What do you mean? We can't talk about anything that's relative? What the hell are we doing here? Higher self: Calm down. We are stripping away everything that is relative. At the end of the journey, we will have one thing that is true without any doubt. If it's not truth, then it needs to go, that is the nature of this work. Lower self: Okay fine then. So that means that location is relative and we should no longer talk about it. Why did we have to cover that anyways? Higher self: I asked you where the "I" that you identify with has a location and you said that you didn't know and then started to ask yourself what a location is, now that we see that location is relative, it doesn't need to be talked about anymore, do you see how that works? Lower self: *Pauses for a minute* Yes I do. Now where do we go from here? Higher self: We go back to the original question: what is true? Lower self: The body that I inhabit will die. Higher self: Who is "I"? Lower self: I is me, it's what I experience. I experience things. I see things. I get sad. I get angry. It's all on me. Me. Me. Me. I. I. I. Higher self: Okay, then where is it? Lower self: I thought we weren't talking about location...? Higher self: If you exist, shouldn't you at least be able to explain where you are in a relative sense? Lower self: Okay fine. I am sitting in this chair at my father's house, in my bedroom, on planet earth. Higher self: These are all labels. Where are you? Lower self: I can't use labels...? Higher self: No. Lower self: I don't have a location because location is relative. I do not have a location. Higher self: Okay, now we're getting somewhere. Lower self: As a matter of fact, nothing has an actual location. Location is relative. Location is an illusion. There's no truth to it. If I don't have a location but I still feel things, then I am experiencing something aren't I? Higher self: I don't know, you tell me. Lower self: I don't have a location but I do experience things, emotions, thoughts, actions, pain, death. Higher self: Have you experienced death? Lower self: No. Higher self: Then how do you know that death is a real thing? Lower self: I don't. But I do know that the body dies. Higher self: Where does the "I" go when the body dies? Lower self: The "I" might die with the body, I don't know, how would I know? Or maybe the "I" is eternal and it never dies.. but I have no way of knowing...

How far into the relationship has it usually taken for you to say "I love you" to the person that you are dating?

Lol that's a very cool experience that you're having! I've never heard of anything like it. I hope you find find the meaning behind it.

You may be more developed than I am which is causing what you're saying to go over my head. However, what I feel for my partner, for my job, for my family and friends is none other than love. Sharing love with a person or for a career or even for a hobby is one of the most fulfilling things that a human being can experience. It sounds like you're in another realm in terms of your spiritual journey. For me personally, I'm very much in the human / ego realm right now and enjoying myself down here. Maybe I'll come back to this thread in 20 years and realize that you were right all along.

Yes, you're right, at the human level everything is impermanent, but I find this to be a nihilistic viewpoint and it doesn't have to be. It is completely possible to continue loving another being while also understanding that you are not right for each other at this time. In this situation, yes the relationship dies, but the love that the two of you share remains.

Experience is king. Go hit on these older women and let us know how it goes.

Yes! I've gained so much growth from rejection and heartbreak. It was extremely painful, but I've been learning to become more comfortable with the pain, I almost enjoy it now, its like working out, I know that my psyche is growing.

Pretend that your best friend is having these worries. What would you tell them? I would tell her that she is worrying about something that is completely out of her control, and its useless to worry about things out of your control. I'd also be careful always bringing up this insecurity to your boyfriend. If my girlfriend kept saying this to me, of course I would console her at first, but I'd eventually grow annoyed and I would wish that she could be more secure in her own self worth. Things change as you grow older, priorities change, and looks are not as important. Understand that you will be a valuable person no matter how beautiful you look on the outside. Also, if you really want some encouragement, there are thousands of women celebrities in their 40s and even 50s that are still drop dead gorgeous. Look them up for reassurance. Good luck.

Leo describes why healthy intimate relationships are so difficult: "You are entering this relationship in a selfish manner to use the other as a vehicle to satisfy your own needs. You are doing this rather than meeting them as they are." - From "How to Practice Love" Leo has been talking about posting a video about high conscious relationships for a while now, so I decided to make my own list. A lot of the items on this list stem from Leo's video "How to Practice Love" so check that video out if you haven't already. Being non- manipulative, never manipulating your partners emotions in order to get something out of them or to rile up a reaction out of them. Respecting the fact that she or he is an emotional creature and her emotions should not be played around with. Also, take your partners emotions seriously when she or he is triggered by something, don't shoo them away as if it's not important. Respecting your significant other as its own person that has its own wants and needs, that has its own personality type, traumas, history, childhood, emotions, and thoughts. Respecting that what she wants for herself may be vastly different than what you want for yourself or what you want from her. Honesty - Honest communication. Answering personal questions with honesty, being honest about how you feel with yourself and also with your partner. I'd even go so far as to let your significant other look through your phone if she asks to. The girl I am currently dating has serious trust issues from being cheated on by multiple partners. I am willing to allow her to look through my phone if she wants to, this is a sacrifice that I am willing to make in order for her to gain her trust back into men. Willingness to compromise - willingness to hold your significant others wants and needs in as high of a regard as your own. This does not mean that you whore yourself over to her and give her every little thing that she wants from you. I recently made this mistake, she wanted me to go to New York with her to support her in a modeling shoot that she is doing, I said yes but I had forgotten that I had already had plans to go with my friends to an NBA game, we had planned this months in advance, but it slipped my mind. I decided to bail on my friends to support my girl in her career dreams. I deeply regretted this once I got to New York. I sacrificed hanging out with my two best friends, watching my favorite NBA team to support a girl that I've only been dating for a few months. This sacrifice was a massive over investment in her and I've been looking forward to this game for months. I didn't put my needs into the equation at all. Your needs and her needs should be neck and neck, and you should be able to balance your wants and needs with hers and find a balance that works for the both of you. A person with a people pleasing history will tend to steer towards giving her everything she wants, this will lead to resentment towards her. A historically selfish person will lead more towards not taking her needs seriously at all, this will lead to her resenting you. Willingness to sacrifice for her. If she or he needs something from you then you should be willing to honor that and support that if you can. You don't want to throw your entire life away to support her dreams, this will only lead to resentment, but if you can you should be able to make sacrifices for her. For example, if it is important to her for you to text her every day and check in, then you should be able to make the effort and honor that. You are fulfilling her needs, as long as they are not completely unreasonable. Giving him or her attention- giving her your full awareness and attention during sexual intimacy and when she is talking, you want her to feel your complete and undivided attention and awareness. You want her to feel seen and heard. A meditation habit will help strengthen this skill. Being in close proximity when you can- showing him or her that you care about her, sometimes you may need space and time away from her, be honest about that, give her a kiss on the cheek and take your space, but when you are willing and able, cuddle her, kiss her, tell her everything will be alright and that you care about her. Recognizing your significant others love language and trying to tailor your actions to fulfill her love needs. Being open and honest about your love language and your love needs. Independence - Both parties should be able to be totally content when they are apart from one another. Counter intuitively, when you take breaks from seeing each other and work on your personal life or your other relationships, when you come back to each other, the connection will be that much stronger. It takes separation to truly appreciate what you have. Recognizing your intimate partners uniqueness, recognizing what makes them special, come up with a nickname for him or her that exemplifies an outstanding quality about him or her. Compliment her on something that you don't say to every other guy or girl. These next few are lofty and spiritual, I'm still playing around with their validity: Non attachment - This is a deep one and very counter intuitive. Ideally, you would like to be able to be non attached to your significant other. To be able to say I want you to grow and develop so much that you won't need me for anything anymore. This is the ultimate sign of love, to be able to support and help her fulfill her dreams to the magnitude of her leaving you in the end. This is beautiful. The ultimate sacrifice. Its a full devotion to love. True selflessness. To be able to recognize your own selfish intentions. This is not to say that you should suppress your selfish desires with her, on the contrary. You should be honest and open about your selfish desires and ask her to fulfill these needs. But recognize that they are selfish and if you are serious about your spiritual path, all selfishness must go in the end.

Stage orange people created an efficient system to eat meat that takes little regard for the wellbeing of the animal. The narrator is at stage green, he recognizes that these are sentient beings and cares for them.

https://www.cornucopia.org/

Spiritual Autolysis - Journal Entry #53 - Mon April 15th '24 - 11:51 PM In this entry, I am going to attempt to talk to Jed McKenna, author of the Damnedest trilogy. Me: Hey Jed, do you mind if I ask you a question? Jed: Sure, go right ahead. Me: You talk a lot about giving up your attachments in order to attain spiritual enlightenment. What does this mean? Jed: Human beings are wired to want to survive. Developing attachments to things that will help it survive is the name of the game here on Earth. To attain enlightenment, a human has to recognize what attachments are at their core, what is the unfounded truth about attachments? What are they? Why are they here? Do they really exist? These are the questions.

Sedona Method Exercise #1 Write down what you want for your life: I want to have complete control / detachment to my emotions I want to kill off my ego, so much so that I am not caught up in the pain that he endures I want to rid myself of all selfish desires, so much so that all I do is think about the influence / impact that I can have on others I want to be an emotionally stable man, someone that women can lean on I want to have a relationship with God, in which we talk to one another, and share insights

The Sedona Method by Hale Dwoskin Choosing to Let Go Make yourself comfortable and focus inwardly Step 1: Focus on an issue that you would like to feel better about, and then allow yourself to feel whatever you are feeling in this moment. Welcome the feeling with open arms. Step 2: Ask yourself one of the following three questions: Could I let this feeling go? Could I allow this feeling to be here? Could I welcome this feeling? Answer these questions with honesty and don't think too hard about them. Move onto step 3 no matter how you answered the questions. Step 3: Ask yourself, Am I willing to let go? If the answer is no, then ask yourself would I rather have this feeling, or would I rather be free. Even if the answer is still no, go on to step 4. Step 4: ask yourself this simple questions: When? This is an invitation to just let it go NOW. Letting go is a decision you can make any time you choose, it takes this exercise to make this real for you. Step 5: Repeat the preceding four steps as often as needed until you feel free of that particular feeling. You may find that you have layers of feelings about a particular topic. However, what you let go of is gone for good.

Make your mistakes and failures consciously, with full awareness

Having a really solid but lofty vision for yourself and reminding yourself of that vision everyday, as frequently as possible.

"I cant even roll in peace, everybody notice me" "Maybe I'm not your speed, maybe I'm out your league" The bravado, the arrogance, the "Its all about me" attitude

I would love to visit your Qigong channel if you have one. If you feel comfortable, can you post the link to it? Thanks

It does not come naturally to most men, you have to work at it, push yourself out of your comfort zone as much as humanly possible. Keep you head up, stay hopeful. You can get there. Use the affirmations to spur you into taking baby steps towards your goals with women. Those baby steps will compound and compound and compound until you are taking massive action and attracting beautiful women. The massive action doesn't have to be putting yourself out there and getting rejected over and over again. Start off by working on developing yourself into an attractive, caring, considerate, confident man.. one that you would want your daughter to date.

It wouldn't be possible to create content like what you see on actualized.org without being a stage two thinker. The depth that the videos go into, the interconnectedness between video to video, the impact that it has on a large group of people, the willingness to go into the spiritual and mystical domain. I look forward to making an impact like this on humanity one day.

Yes. My dating life has significantly improved after dropping it.

Thank you for sharing!

Principle 3: Decide What you Want Exercise: Write down 30 things that you want to have, want to do, and want to be. Here goes: 30 things I want to have: A big house with a big lawn, long driveway, fireplace, lots of room for entertainment An inground pool with a diving board, outdoor bar, and hot tub $2,000,000 in my bank account A beautiful, smart, funny, highly concscious girlfriend 6 pack abs, a chiseled chest, defined back, large thighs and calves A job that gives me the freedom to do whatever I want A wine cellar filled with natural, organic wines from Europe My own wine farm in the backyard A king sized bed A Shiba Inu puppy A library full of lots of books and tables and comfortable seats A housecleaner and maintenance guy to take care of my yard Reverse Osmosis Water Filtration System A cool, colorful gaming computer with a comfortable chair and sick gaming room 8 really nice expensive tailored suits A Tesla A ski house in Vermont or New Hampshire A rolex watch A full head of hair until I'm 60 A long, full beard like Rhett from Good Mythical Morning An emotionally mature, highly conscious, fulfilling intimate relationship An organized and clutter free home / living space 20 / 20 vision An unwavering drive to help humanity evolve A complete understanding of spiral dynamics and how to raise other people to the next stage A physical copy of every book on Leo's book list A highly conscious, highly ethical, high impact job A consistent sleep schedule A fulfilling sexual life and high sex drive A highly attractive face and body 30 things that I want to do: Make love in Mexico Salsa dance in Spain Make pasta in Italy Drink wine in Austria Win an award at a dance competition Own a highly ethical, high conscious, stage yellow or stage turquoise business Make an impact on people's lives Skydive Read all of the 5 star books on Leo's book list Fly in a helicopter Meditate on a mountain top for 10 days Do a Vipassana retreat Understand what death is Ride a horse Hunt - shoot an animal Eat street food in Japan See the needle in Seattle, Washington Fly first class Fly to Hawaii Do karaoke 10 times Have a one night stand Have sex 10,000 times Go to Antarctica Go into outer space Access infinity Take 5 Meo DMT Write a book Speak in front of thousands of people Have a three way Race in a tough mudder Do a shirtless photoshoot and post it on my Instagram Have a samadhi experience Donate $100,000 to charity Make an impact on the world before I die See the northern lights Throw lots of parties at my impressive houe 30 things that I want to be: Mature Intelligent Wise Funny Witty Clever Strong A body-numbing lover A caring, loving, emotionally strong boyfriend A caring, loving, emotionally strong friend Loving Compassionate Confident Free flowing Emotionally mature Emotionally available An attentive listener A professional dancer Charming Spritually Enlightened A stage turquoise thinker Playful Happy Content Stable Stoic God-realized Focused Organized International Dance / Dating Coach An attentive, caring, fun host Fun-loving

Getting Ready for the Leap Perfect that the last post is the first one on the second page. Okay, where do I go from here? That is the question of the day. Am I really ready to make the quantum leap or am I fooling myself? Also, does it have to be this transcendent experience? Maybe it just happens gradually... Thats no fun though, I want to make this symbolic and memorable. This to me is what makes life juicy, when you have milestones and pivotal moments that change the trajectory of your life forever. I'd like to share with you what I mean by being ready for the quantum leap, what changes have I seen in my own psyche that tells me that I'm ready for this? Ive been looking at my intimate relationships in terms of how can I assist you in your development as a woman. What role can I play that will help you. The selfishness in these relationships is still there, I have intimacy wants and needs, but they are not running the show anymore. I want to have a positive influence on you. I am not attached to you, you are free to leave if you'd like. Theres the door. I have seen the limitations of thinking selfishly about things, such as getting a lot of followers, being popular, showing off the beautiful women that I'm dating, these desires are all so shallow, I've tried them and they did not satisfy me. I want something bigger, something more. Much more interest in meditation. I am finally seeing the benefits that come with just sitting there and being. This is what it takes to make the quantum leap, to be able to let go and observe reality for what it is. Getting better at letting go of things, such as negative emotions or negative thought patterns. Starting to look at my life more strategically, how can I set my life up so that I can make the greatest impact on the world Starting to look at where I would like my life to be in 5, 10, 20 years. Long time horizons It is still rare for me, but I am sometimes able to sit into the flow of the universe, so that I do not overthink my actions, I allow the universe to carry me towards where I am meant to go. This is really a stage turquoise quality of being an effortless human, it requires you to be able to let go of the thinking mind.