Spiritual Warrior

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #52 Okay, I am going to attempt to redo my post from yesterday as I think it will be constructive to recap it. The first thing I did was overhaul the habit tracker. So heres the thing, I started this journal with a lot of grinding and brute forcing my way into completing tasks. Now, this worked for a while and it was a great way to start things off, however, I've been reading lots of books about "letting go" such as Ask and It Is Given, The Sedona Method, and The Field of Love and I am starting to realize that life is only a grind if you make it a grind. You can in fact work hard in a totally peaceful state without any clenching and grinding involved whatsoever. And this is the much more spiritual way to live and it leads to a happier life. So let go, you are not in control anyways, the Universe has a plan for you that is unfolding. Next, I'd like to write down my top 3 goals in life, these should be ones that I simply cannot live without, do this quickly as these should be intuitive answers: Reach LOC 1,000 Write books about Truth and Enlightenment Win dance competitions Here are some extra goals, but they are less important than the ones listed above: Have a highly conscious girlfriend / wife Express my attraction towards women in an authentic and direct way Have a cute house with a man cave in the basement, a pool, outdoor bar Create a self - help YouTube channel talking about masculinity and following my career as a dancer and how to hit on girls (I really want to inspire young men to express their attraction towards women in a confident and direct way) Have an absolutely shredded physique (chiseled chest, 6 pack abs, broad shoulders, massive back, trunks for thighs, bulging forearms and biceps, defined calves, and a muscular butt) Access a no - thought state, in which I am flowing without using my mind Read every book on Leo's book list Help grow my students in LOC Make 6 figures off of just dancing Interlude: Contemplating how to make a positive impact on other men Next, I want to explain a story that happened a couple of weeks ago that I would like to contemplate: I walk into a salsa club and there is a girl that I know there and she is with a man. I walk up to them and the girl's attention immediately reverts to me. She is attentive and laughing at me without giving him the light of day. We flirt with each other for the rest of the night as the other guy has to sit back and watch. Now, it is my true desire to yes get good at attracting women, which I am practicing in this situation, but I would also like to have a positive impact on this young man that was talking to her. Lets take a look at what happened from his perspective so that I can better understand his situation. This will be in 1st perspective from his perspective. Ready, go: I think to myself "wow, this cute girl is giving me attention, this is awesome! Maybe I'll even get laid tonight." But then, a charismatic guy walks up to her and starts talking. He's barely even paying attention to her, yet her eyes are all over him, and she is laughing at everything he says. Whats so special about this guy anyways! And why doesn't anybody love me for me! Maybe when we start dancing, I can win her back. The night goes on and she continues to be all over this man, what a dick! Fuck that guy! He's not even that good looking! He tells me he doesn't drink, what pompous prick! He says that its because "He values being clear headed and alcohol doesn't help with that." Ughhhhhh this guy sucks, how about you live a little! I watch them leave together and I get in my car. Now I am thinking thoughts like "Why doesn't anyone love me, why doesn't anyone desire me, what's wrong with me? I'll never be loved again." Now, the reason I can explain this man's mindset with such conviction is because I USED TO BE HIM. I was frustrated with my lack of success with women for YEARS and YEARS and YEARS. It was EXTREMELY painful. And this allows me to have GENUINE and DEEP empathy for these men. And I want to help you because you deserve to be LOVED. You deserve to have all of the sex that you desire, and for that matter, all of the money and happiness and wellbeing that you desire. The problem with this guy is he was sooooooo low energy, there wasn't an ounce of fun and expressiveness to him. The reality is that if he is going to attract a girl of this quality, he has to work on his social skills and expressing himself in an authentic manner. So get out of your head and do some things that are going to challenge you, you don't even have to hit on women at first, just do difficult shit, do shit that scares you, and I promise you will get used to curving into the scary situations and you'll realize that they're really not that bad. So take every opportunity to push yourself out of your comfort zone and I assure you that this will lead you to all of your desires being met. Good luck to you. I love you. Now, I would like to explain my thought process when it comes to changing the habit track, lets take a look, shall we.... 12.21.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am I decided that I am going to take out "wake up at 7:30 am" because I started it to develop discipline within myself, which definitely had a positive impact on me. Heres the thing though, waking up at a certain time doesn't have a positive impact on my life in it of itself, and it was causing me a great deal of stress waking up every day at that time. The more efficent and wise thing to do is to wake up at whatever time that allows me to fit in the habits that I REALLY prioritize. Brush teeth streak: 54 KEEP Floss streak: 3 KEEP Shower streak: 25 KEEP Meditation streak: 0 KEEP - this is probably the most important one when you look at the goals that you have for your life and should be done as soon as possible Funniness free talk exercise: 3 I have decided to take out "I see funniness everywhere" as I believe I've exhausted this one, meaning this thought pattern has been instilled within me, I don't need to beat myself over the head with it anymore. I am definitely going to keep the free talk exercise, in which I talk with absolutely no filter for 10 minutes. The other affirmation was "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" - I am leaning towards getting rid of this one too, but I will keep it around for a little while longer Sexual abundance affirmation: 3 This one is EXTREMELY important to me as it is probably one of my authentic desires, to have an abundance of sex in this lifetime, its just something that I NEED to experience and I just haven't yet, and after about a month of using this one, I have felt the shift in my psyche and outside reality and I am very excited as to where this will lead Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 5 KEEP Wash face streak: 5 KEEP No electronics before bed streak: 1 KEEP "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 3 KEEP - theres no need for porn, especially since this was an addiction, let this go No ejaculation streak: 3 KEEP for now, I may transcend this but there is noticeably more energy within my body when I go long periods of semen retention, which helps with my goals Eat 150 g of protein streak: 3 KEEP - you have to do this No alcohol streak: 52 KEEP No smoking weed streak: 8 KEEP Weekly Goals: Weight lift 5 days a week streak: 0 This whole thing is new, so I have done a great job of doing push ups and pull ups every day, probably doing between 80-90% of days since I started. However, I want to get BIG and I feel like just doing push ups and pull ups is not going to help with that, also I have twigs for legs and I really want trunks so I decided that I am going to go to the gym every morning before I go into work and get these exercises done. If I miss it in the morning, which hopefully I wont, then I will go in at night Monday: chest Tuesday: legs Wednesday: push ups and pull ups Thursday: legs Friday: back

Habits and Disciplines Journal Entry #1 Okay, it is 10.29.25 and I have realized that I have no discipline in my life which is setting me back from accomplishing my goals. Listed below are the habits that I would like to integrate as well as the reason for doing so: 1.Read when I get home (no electronics) this is for the purpose of having better sleep. I also have a larger vision of being very well educated, which starts with reading lots of books. Just a little bit every night will go a long ways 2.No sexual stimulation from internet No sexual stimulation from the internet. I see no benefit in watching porn, I have a history of being addicted to it and have therefore had struggles having an erection with a real woman, this is a no brainer. Stop with this nonsense. 3.Workout at gym 3 days a week Workout at the gym 3 days a week. I want to get really fuckin hot, like really fuckin hot. And the best way to do this as a man is to hit the gym and do it in a strategic and intelligent way. I am going to go 3 days a week, I am going to work out my chest on Monday at 11am - 12pm, this will be barbell bench press, dumbbell incline press, and that one with the cable that stretches your chest, it is going to be 4 sets and the first set is a warm up, so 3 real sets. Next is legs, I would like to use the angled leg Press, 4 sets, then the leg extensions, 4 sets, then use a calf machine, 4 sets again, next is back and arms. I want to start doing deadlifts again, I love deadlifts, then a barbell row and then a dumbell row, I really want to get my back jacked for dance. 4 sets of each again and this will be the workout routine for 3 months. Then I will have a de load week, in which I take the whole week off from weight training and I reevaluate how far I've come. I will also need to measure how much protein and carbs and calories that I am in taking and also weight myself on a daily basis so that I can track my progress 4.No ejaculating for 3 years No ejaculating for 3 years. This has to do with my goal of having sexual abundance in my life. I want to have sex with real woman, not with my own hand. Not ejaculating also gives me more energy to shift my focus into other things in life, such as having a bigger impact on people, reading books, meditating and overall being a healthier human that people look up to. I lead with integrity. 5. Approach and hit on 10 women every week for 1 year Approach and hit on 10 women every week, which would equate to 500 women on the year. This would be a great milestone for me and it would make me very proud. This coincides with the goal of wanting to have sexual abundance in my life. I want lots of sex with lots of women. That is what I genuinely want. I don't want to fake that anymore, I want this and therefore I will have it. Thank you God for allowing me to have an abundance of sex with an abundance of women. - Half time: as you can see, we already have an interrelated system at work, the no ejaculation goal supports the hitting on 10 women every week because not ejaculating will give me more motivation and energy and time to hit on several women a week, on the flip side if I hit on 10 women every week, watching porn and ejaculating becomes a lot less appealing, both cogs in the system are supporting each other. Nice job there. - 6. Eat 150 g of protein every single day I have learned that eating a lot of protein is imperative to building lots of muscle. I want to build lots of muscle in order to become the sexiest man I can be. This is required, therefore I have to eat enough protein. 7. Meditate every morning for 30 minutes moving past physical attractiveness, I want to be attractive in a sense that I am magnetic as a human being, people want to be around me, and I also want to be able to stay present and within the moment both for dance and also for the people around me, such as students and friends and family and co workers. The more I meditate, the higher my consciousness grows, and the more I understand the truth of reality, the more I am able to make an impact on the world. Overall, this is mainly for better mood and mental clarity, the motivation is NOT towards enlightenment, although I predict that is what it will turn into 8. Wake up at 7:30 am every day this challenge has two benefits: 1. It is going to build self discipline and character, and 2. I have to wake up that early in order to get everything done that I want to ( I've already mapped out my schedule accordingly) 9. Brush teeth morning and night this is also building self discipline and it is also for the betterment of my hygienic and overall health and well being. I am also a dance instructor, I work very close to people, therefore it is imperative that I have fresh breath. I may even want to pick up a toothbrush and toothpaste and keep it at the dance studio. 10. Floss teeth every morning another habit for self discipline and overall wellbeing 11. Shower and groom hair every morning this is similar to the last two, it is building character to stick to a habit. The main thing that I'm trying to do with this morning routine is that there are no grey areas here - no - I wake up at 7:30 am, I brush my teeth and floss, then I take a shower, then I groom my hair and beard, then I go downstairs and meditate for 30 minutes on the floor, then I do my push ups and pull ups, which is the next thing on this list and there is no wiggle room, there is no being wishy washy, no I am doing this every fucking day, I don't care if I get kidnapped and wake up in Antarctica, no - I am going to follow the same routine no matter what. Fuck variety - life is chock full of surprises, a routine keeps you grounded and focused and stable - this is the true masculine power - to have the self discipline to stick to this routine 12. Do 3 sets of push ups and 3 sets of pull ups every morning again, this is self discipline and it will also have a cumulative effect in turning me into a sexy, attractive man. I am going to make these things happen every single day like clock work. There are no excuses. It is time to start living with integrity and purpose and direction. This is the desire that I have been suppressing and distracting my self from with spiritual pursuits. I don’t really want to be enlightened, at least not yet. I have been using enlightenment as a distraction for many years because hitting on women and developing discipline in life is scarier and more uncomfortable to me than reading spiritual books and meditating. If I do these things, I will become the quintessential model of healthy masculinity. And this is what I truly want. I want to maximize my masculine energy to its absolute full potential. Then once I hit that peak, I will move into something more selfless, such as spiritual enlightenment, or whatever else I want to pursue. I am going to need a checklist that I have to check off every single day. This needs to be made public so that I can feel the embarrassment of missing a day. I want to do this on actualized.org, my favorite forum. Thank you God for allowing me to become aware of my authentic desire of being a vessel of healthy masculinity in this world. Thank you God for allowing me to create sexual abundance in my life. Thank you God for allowing me to create a life filled with love, laughter, joy, purpose, and gratitude. Listed below is my checklist for the first two days of my challenge. 10.31.25 Morning routine goals: Brush teeth Floss Shower Groom hair Eat breakfast Meditate Work out Night time routine goals: Brush teeth Wash face No electronics before bed "Whole day" goals: No porn No ejaculation Eat 150 g of protein Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week Approach 10 women I did a good job on everything except for no electronics before bed and eating 150 g of protein. I was on my phone before going to sleep and I am going to have to figure out how to incorporate 150 g of protein into my diet. The weekly goals are going to be assessed at the end of the week on Sunday. I am going to actually keep a counter of how many girls I have approached. I would also like to create a counter so that I can keep track of how many days I consecutively stuck to my habit. The higher the number, the more fulfilled I will feel.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #51 As I just said, my entire post from this morning got wiped clean but I made a lot of changes to the tracker because I have realized that the habits could be set up better for more efficiency and more alignment towards my goals. Although the fact that I lost the post has me frustrated, I'm not going to lie to you... The reason for doing this is to grow and writing things down is what helps me grow. Whether or not it's published is irrelevant. I don't feel like explaining all of my changes to the goals on here because I already did, so just trust me this is good for me. 12.21.25 Morning routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 53 Floss streak: 2 Shower streak: 24 Meditation streak: 0 Funniness free talk exercise: 2 Sexual abundance affirmation: 2 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 4 Wash face streak: 4 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 2 No ejaculation streak: 2 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 2 No alcohol streak: 51 No smoking weed streak: 7 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 5 days a week streak: 0 Monday: chest Tuesday: legs Wednesday: push ups and pull ups Thursday: legs Friday: back

Interlude: What the fuck just happened? Jesus christ, I just hit "submit" after writing the LONGEST journal entry I have ever written with a complete overhaul of the habit tracker and several written stories about my life and the whole thing didn't post, it just disappeared entirely AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.... I need to decompress, I will come back to this later....

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #50 I showed my face for the first time in my last post, I wonder how I will feel about that moving forward. For that reason, I hid a few of the posts that I wasn't comfortable sharing with the world. Showing my face to everyone aligns myself with the authentic desire to create a YouTube channel that inspires young men to express their attraction towards women in a healthy way. I am also going to be taking a look at this habits tracker as I think it needs some tweaks. For example, I think I need some more weekly goals on here, such as "give myself a haircut" or "do laundry" or "grocery shop." I would also really like to start going to the gym first thing in the morning and getting my workout in and then hitting the sauna and showering there. But then, I still need to meditate, should I meditate at the studio and then plan my day... Ohhhh.. I actually kike that a lot. So I would wake up, brush my teeth, put a hat on because I will have bed head and head straight to the gym.. then I get my workout in, which I would also like to tweak, then sauna and shower, then head to the dance studio where I will meditate and plan for my day, then I do whatever I want from there. The only thing that I could possibly do differently is shower when I wake up as well... It seems pointless to shower twice within a two hour span, but at the same time, I'm not sure how I'm going to feel with a hat on working out and then heading into the sauna with messy hair... Not sure... The habit tracker that I've been using for the past month and a half has been EXTREMELY beneficial to me. However, it does need an overhaul, let's take a look at each one, I will be writing down my 12.20.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 Brush teeth streak: 52 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 23 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 1 Funniness affirmations streak: 1 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 1 Brush teeth streak: 3 Wash face streak: 3 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 1 No ejaculation streak: 1 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1 No alcohol streak: 50 No smoking weed streak: 6 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 For week of 12/8-12/14 Legs: done Chest: Back: There are a few things that I really need to do this weekend, preferably tomorrow to actualize a good week for myself and a good life moving forward, these things are: Do your laundry Clean your room Do the dishes Make food for the week

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #49 I seem to have lost my mojo. I have lost motivation to keep my streaks going. My room is a mess, the bedsheet isn't even attached to the mattress anymore. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... I don't know what to do!!! Everything feels pointless.... I want a life with discipline and passion and courage... I want that SOOOOOOO BAD. Why can't I stick to habits, why does my lazy mind always win out? And why do I let it? You just have to do it and ask questions later.. you should also remember that you have come a long way in lots of areas. Lets make a list, shall we.... 1. Building muscle Lets take a look at how my physique has changed over the past 5 years: 2021: 2026: As you can see, my muscle definition has significantly improved, chest is more chiseled, you can see the abs, shoulders are broad, and the posture is also much better, which I probably got from dancing. I actually look like a grown man, instead of a boy. 2. An abundance of women Next thing, lets talk about the abundance of women in my life. In 2021, the only women that I would talk to were my friend's girlfriends, my mother, my sisters, and occasionally and I mean VERY occasionally there would be a single mutual friend and I would usually fall head over heels for her because this was such a rare opportunity. I would never even think of approaching a random girl and chatting them up. I was WAY too insecure and unconfident. In 2026, I have approached about a dozen strangers and chatted them up, I work with several beautiful women at my job as a dance instructor, I dance with beautiful women all day, I could go out to salsa clubs every weekend and confidently ask every women in there to dance with me. HUGE SHIFT. This is an important aspect to my life purpose because one of my goals in life is to master the feminine creatures of this Earth. This will help me with my teachings as a dance instructor as well as my intimacy goals 3. Shift in confidence Next, lets take a look at a couple of videos of myself The first video is of me venting about something from 5 years ago. I was staying in an Airbnb in West Virginia. Whats funny is that I actually talk about taking a ballroom dancing class, I manifested my current job into reality 5 years ago. That is so fuckin' cool! Notice that my voice sounds unsure of itself, as if I am scared that someone is going to hear me. There is also an underlying sadness and disappointment in my overall being. Even though I say in the video "I feel so much better," my emotional state is that of hopelessness and lack of direction and uncertainty and fear. All of these things are going to look VERY different in the next video, 5 years later. The video listed below is from 6 months ago. As you can see, my demeanor is completely different. I take my time answering questions, I speak in a confident and secure and deep voice. I am sharing my thoughts, and I am speaking my mind in an authentic and honest way. Also, right on par with the "abundance of women" progress, there is a cute girl behind the camera. This is a COMPLETELY different person below as compared to above. Now imagine where you are going to be 5 years from now... let that sink in.... There is also something interesting in the dynamic between the two of us. I am saying that the masculine way of being is to stick to habits and not be swayed by emotional states. She is questioning my claims by proposing that if I follow my emotions and take better care of myself, this will lead me to better opportunities in life. She does have a point. The conclusion that I've come up with is yes its important to stick to habits, but brute forcing your way into accomplishing things is not a healthy way to live. Our desire for progress should be coming from our Heats, from a place of love and kindness towards ourselves. She is in touch with this. She also catches me off guard and asks me what I want out of life.. I say that "I want to make an impact on the world and I want to attain a high level of consciousness, one that most humans haven't accessed." It is very cool that I felt comfortable enough to speak this into a camera. And this is a very authentic desire of mine, I want a high level of consciousness more than anything. Five years ago, I wasn't even comfortable telling people that I meditate because I thought they would think that I'm weird. Thats great progress. She then says something interesting, she claims that if I continue to grow in my consciousness work and truly reach high levels, anyone that I come in contact with will be influenced by my heightened levels of consciousness, so why even bother dissecting this masculine vs feminine paradigm? Sure, again another great point, but the masculine and feminine paradigm is a part of consciousness and therefore needs to be understood as a human being. The final point in the video, which we realize together, is that the masculine is about "holding space," which I would compare to feeling like theres a steel orb around you, in which you are comfortable sitting and just "being." It is imperative for the masculine to "hold space in order for the feminine to feel comfortable enough to fully express her authentic femininity, which is all women's true desire. This is very true. Dissecting this really puts into perspective firstly, how awesome this girl was at interviewing and listening and also I would just like to say that this video shows that I am a grown fuckin' man. I answer things with integrity and honesty and I am not afraid to share my thoughts. That is true progress, I am very proud of myself. Okay, I honestly feel much better about myself. Now, above all else, I really need to start cleaning my room. Okay, ready go.... 12.18.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 Brush teeth streak: 51 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 22 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 Funniness affirmations streak: 0 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 0 Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 0 No ejaculation streak: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 49 No smoking weed streak: 5 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 For week of 12/8-12/14 Legs: done Chest: Back:

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #48 On an emotional level, this has been a very interesting couple of weeks. I went to a dance competition and had a blast with my dance partner, had a blast with her again the following weekend, intuited that I would end up hurting her one day and cried, went out on a coffee date with another girl, started making friends with the guys at my gym, and did a photo shoot at work in an elf costume. And probably most importantly, I've discovered that I am currently stuck in a sad and pessimistic mindset, which is not optimal for the life that I am trying to create for myself. This is all good stuff, very eventful, but I am not sure where to go from here. I have stopped making my routines a priority as I am hitting a reset button in order to reassess. Is this just me being lazy or do I really need this break... I don't know... But I really don't know what to do. My rooms a mess, that is the first issue. I'm still in debt. I'm not living a life with an abundance of sex. I have feelings for a girl and its making my head spin as I want to pursue her but at the same time I don't. I am confused. What is it that you want in this life? Lets just focus on that. I want to be a successful dance instructor. Okay, and what does that mean to you? I want to win dance competitions at a high level. I want to be able to walk into any studio in the world and provide value to every single instructor and student there. I want to make 6 figures through just dancing. I want to make a YouTube channel in which I hit on women in cities and post about it. I want to inspire men to do this in a respectful yet flirtatious way that actually works. I want to be able to approach women and tell them that they are beautiful. I want to express my authentic attraction towards them. I want to be able to have sex with women for 30 straight minutes, circulating the delicious sexual energy throughout my body while she climaxes again and again and again. I want to be clear headed and loving in all situations. I want to have a shredded and muscular physique, one that is truly sexy, one that inspires others to work on their bodies. I want to be able to express myself authentically, not worrying about what others think about me in every situation that I go into. I want to have a cute house with a big backyard and a porch and a pool and an outdoor bar and a basement with a pool table and darts. I want to have a highly- conscious relationship that is grounded in Truth and Love and helps each other grow to our full potential. I want all of my friends and family to know that I love and care about them very much. I want to reach LOC 1,000 and help other people reach higher levels of consciousness. I want to write books about enlightenment and Truth. I want to open up a meditation center. I want to go on a 10 day meditation retreat. I want to meet and be taught by someone that is truly enlightened. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This is taken from the description from a YouTube video, it is a beautiful description of what hopefulness and optimism looks like: There is a place beyond the mountains where the rivers turn to gold beneath the morning light , Eldoria, the city that never truly sleeps, but quietly breathes with the dawn. They say the air itself hums with memory there, and the wind carries the scent of roads long traveled. A lone wanderer walks toward it now, guided not by maps, but by faith — the soft kind that grows in silence. His path is rough, yet every step gleams with the promise of something waiting just beyond the horizon. This piece was born from that feeling the ache of distance and the calm that follows when you finally stop running. It is music for those who travel in spirit as much as in body, who see the world not as it is, but as it could be. Let it draw you toward quiet fields, crumbling bridges, and a sky that forgives all things. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is my routine listed below going to create the things in life that I have listed above? I would say yes, you've also got to understand that following this routine is more than just building habits, I am building self esteem. Doing this shit over and over and over and over again without wavering is building me into a strong and competent human being and man. Into a man that is able to summon the courage to talk to anybody that he wants to, to summon the courage to tackle life's greatest challenges, to tackle his insecurities, to master and regulate his emotions, to inspire others, to be a loving person, to teach all day and all night. The one thing that I would like to add and that I'm excited to add to this routine is I want to go to the gym first thing in the morning. What would that look like? 12.18.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 Brush teeth streak: 50 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 21 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 Funniness affirmations streak: 12 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 0 Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 21 No ejaculation streak: 21 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 48 No smoking weed streak: 4 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 For week of 12/8-12/14 Legs: done Chest: Back:

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #47 I love journaling! I really do love it. Now, I had a rough day yesterday, it was filled with lack of motivation and pessimism and self doubt. Nowadays, these kinds of modes of thinking are pretty rare, which is positive. In response to this, I did something a little different this morning. Instead of trying to grind through what I was going through and force myself to wake up and get some shit done, I decided to give myself love instead. I allowed myself to sleep in and I tried my damnedest to love every ounce of myself this morning, despite all of my "shortcomings." This is a powerful process and its not that easy to do either. We always want ourselves to change and we think that we need to brute force our way into creating change, but the real change lies in loving ourselves and opening ourselves up to the many desires that we have, opening the door to true and lasting happiness and wellbeing. This is where I am heading as I continue to unlock the door to the Field of Love. Its funny, my dad called me this morning telling me that I should be setting up appointments with heart surgeons. He was saying that hes worried about me because I'm lifting weights and I could have a stroke. As soon as he said this, I felt annoyed. But this is just how his brain opperates, he worries about the people that he loves. But his mind is not very nice to him, coming up with these tragic stories inside of his head. For me, I am in touch with my body. I am not going to have a stroke, I am healthy because I feel healthy. Yes, I understand that I need to have another heart surgery and I appreciate the doctors letting me know that, but... I am not going to worry myself about it, I have learned enough in this lifetime to understand that the Universe has its own plan, theres no need to mentally masturbate about things. Now, with all of. this self love stuff going on inside of me, I do want to get some tangible things done right now right here before I head to dance practice at 12 o'clock. This means that I have 1 hour before I have to leave. I definitely need to shower and I also want to meditate, which means that my push ups and pull ups will have to come after work tonight. Also, what am I doing this weekend? I would honestly love to go to a coffee shop and try to summon the courage to hit on a girl or two. I am going christmas shopping with my friends at 3 o'clock on Saturday and I would also like to go to the yoga studio and take a class and also ask them if I can do their work study program. I am going to head there in the morning, but I am going to find out when my co worker will be there because she is the one that will help me get into the work study program, so either Saturday or Sunday depending on when shes working there, I just have to ask her today. Then on Sunday, I am baking Christmas cookies at my cousins house and my sister will be there! I love her. 12.17.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 Brush teeth streak: 49 Floss streak: 11 Shower streak: 20 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 Funniness affirmations streak: 11 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 2 Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 20 No ejaculation streak: 20 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 47 No smoking weed streak: 3 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 For week of 12/8-12/14 Legs: done Chest: Back:

Interlude: Releasing sadness ~ 12.17.25 The song and music video perfectly depicts what I'm going through right now with the realization that I am creating my own reality of sadness and dissapointment. As you can see, I am drawing the sad balloon myself, I am creating my own reality.. I then attach the sadness to my "being" and start moving through the world.. The sadness that I am feeling is then reflected in the outside "world." But then, I get a glimpse of Infinite Love.. But I'm scared of Infinite Love because it means that I have to give up this pessimistic mindset that I have grown so fond and attached too... so I push the world away and lock myself in the comfy castle that I've constructed The solution is to summon the courage to cut ties with the sadness and make room for Infinite Love.... And I will get there, it is part of my destiny in this lifetime... What an absolutely perfect depiction of what I am going through right now. I'd like to thank the artist "Larry Pink the Human" ~ I wish you happiness and wellbeing for now and for eternity

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #46 12.16.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 6 Brush teeth streak: 48 Floss streak: 10 Shower streak: 19 Meditation streak: 12 Push ups / pull ups streak: 10 Funniness affirmations streak: 10 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 1 Brush teeth streak: 13 Wash face streak: 13 No electronics before bed streak: 0 (oops) "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 19 No ejaculation streak: 19 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 4 No alcohol streak: 46 No smoking weed streak: 2 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 For week of 12/8-12/14 Legs: done Chest: Back:

Interlude ~ Realization: I think I'm a sad boy Holy shit, is my vibrational energy that of a sad boy that attracts negativity into his life? Looking back at all of the posts from these past two weeks, almost every one is relating to being sad about something, a yearning, missing something, lacking something... Holy shit am I creating that reality for myself? I got this idea from the book "Ask and It is Given" in which they talk about how you are creating your own reality with your vibrational energy. And I am ALWAYS sad about something. There is always something wrong and I think that I really like this headspace... For example, I love songs like this: I walk this Earth all by myself I'm doing drugs but they don't help My voice says nothing when I'm screaming out for help I stretch my hand, but my grip just gives out I used to love crying in my girlfriends' arms, it felt so liberating and I felt so loved. Now heres the question, do I want to let this persona go? Or do I want to hold onto it? This is a genuine question and I should answer it honestly... No, I don't think I want to let go of it to be honest with you. Could you let it go though? Could you let go of being sad? Also, what felt so good about crying in the arms of someone that loves you? I think that I was able to fully express myself with her. I wanted to cry. I wanted to feel okay about crying. I wanted to let go of the emotion instead of bottling it in. Thats what these cries did for me. And I think that I was lacking this from my own parents, I never felt comfortable expressing my emotions with them. I want to get to a point in which I express my emotions while dancing a solo in front of people, that will be a real testament to my growth as a human being. or this song... Okay, this beat is fire though... Cause I see a vain look in your eyes Tell me, do you see the same, same look in mine? ... You're gonna leave her You have deceived her She's just a girl Now what the fuck am I going to do about this? I won't be able to actualize all of the massive goals that I have for my life if I continue to identify with being a sad boy that is never happy and that cries a lot and that feels bad for himself... Well... Lets take this back to the Sedona Method... could you let this go? Yes of course I could let it go. I mean it is possible. Would you let it go? Yes, I would let it go so that I can open myself up to a happier mindset and a more joyful and peaceful emotional state. How am I going to hit on these girls anyways if I am a sad sack all of the time? When? When are you going to let this go? I am going to let it go right now. I am going to choose to be happy, to be content, to be joyful, to be courageous, to be fearless. Huh.... that was easy...

Interlude: If I fly too far, will I still have a place inside your heart ~ 12.16.25 This song makes me think about my ex girlfriend. She was quite literally the sweetest creature I have ever met, so loving, so nurturing, not a mean bone in her body. Do I miss her sometimes? Yes absolutely.. The issue here is that I am so stuck in this human mindset mentality, creating a story for myself as if it was a soap opera. I know deep down that this is not the best way to live, at least according to the enlightened ones of this world.. but I can't help but be pulled in by the drama of it all.. I mean what a beautiful story it would be if I dated half the girls in the city and then came back to my first real crush and married her?.. will it actually happen.. who the fuck knows... So if I fly too far Would i still have a place inside your heart? When you see what I've become Will you love me for who I am not who I was?

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #45 12.15.25 Oh man... I had one of the worst days in a while yesterday... I just felt like I was bad at everything. I felt like I sucked at dancing. I felt like I sucked at teaching. I felt like I sucked as a human being. Everything. And I could not get out of this funk. That is why I was writing about the Sedona Method yesterday because I was trying my damnedest to get out of the funk that I was in. I would like to find a better way to shift my emotional state when in funks like this, I've never been very good at that. Its as if as soon as I'm feeling down, my M.O. is to just wallow in it and feel bad for myself. I HAVE to work on this if I am going to live a happy life. I've actually had several of these kinds of days over the past couple of weeks, not totally sure whats going on with me... Luckily, I have a very strong support system at work. One of my co workers is really nice to me when I am feeling low, she asks me whats wrong and gives me hugs. My boss is also really nice and encouraging towards me. I wish I didn't need this kind of attention though, I want to be the man that can handle his emotion state on his own, but I truly am grateful for their support. I've also come a long way, a year or two ago, I would have A LOT of days like this, they were not uncommon, nowadays, they are pretty rare. The funny thing was that the day actually started off quite nicely, I did my morning routine, went to the gym to do my push ups and pull ups, chatted with a few of the guys in the locker room and sauna (I'm trying to do this more), and then I went to dance practice with my dance partner. Now she was VERY out of it. She has highs and lows like crazy. She was super insecure. At first it didn't effect me at all, I was in a good mood, joking around despite her insecure emotional state. But then something shifted in me when we moved onto the rhythm dances. I stopped smiling, I stopped joking around, you know what it was... I literally did one move wrong, I can't remember if she said anything about it or not... but yeah thats what happened, I was doing great, then I did ONE FUCKING MOVE WRONG and I shut down. I stopped talking, I felt very hungry, all I wanted to do was leave. Thats insane bro... you allowed one incorrect dance move to shift your entire emotional state for the rest of the day... I mean what the fuck dude... I thought you were better than that... I guess not... but thats okay. The cool thing about this journal is I am able to shine awareness on situations like this, I wouldn't have figured that out if I didn't journal about it. After the dance practice, I felt the shift in my emotional state and I went to the bookstore to journal about The Sedona Method. I really want to start applying this, I just don't really understand it, it seems so simple but it really hasn't worked for me yet, like how do I just let the feeling just be. Its as if I am just so used to repressing my feelings in order to avoid the pain of them. I am going to contemplate this more. When I got back to the studio, I was in an emotional state that I would call "I don't give a fuck about anything." Then I looked at my lesson count, which is a meesly 7 lessons for the week, that is the lowest my lessons have been since February! That is fuckin' terrible! And boom, emotional state just took another hit. Now I'm in an emotional state of "Everything is pointless, why even bother trying." Then we had dance practice and I felt like I was so fuckin' bad at the moves. I look over at the other lead dancer and of course he is breezing through the fuckin' routine. Boom, my ego takes yet another hit, now the emotional state is "Everything is pointless, and by the way you fuckin' suck!" After this, my emotional state is absolutely fucked and everyone knows it. I am completely in my head and I have no motivation to do anything. Again, the support system at the studio is VERY supportive and everything was fine. I made it through till the end of the day, but I failed to improve my emotional state. I am going to work on this. Love you. Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 5 Brush teeth streak: 47 Floss streak: 9 Shower streak: 18 Meditation streak: 11 Push ups / pull ups streak: 9 Funniness affirmations streak: 9 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 0 Brush teeth streak: 12 Wash face streak: 12 No electronics before bed streak: 6 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 18 No ejaculation streak: 18 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 3 No alcohol streak: 45 No smoking weed streak: 1 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 For week of 12/8-12/14 Legs: Chest: Back:

Interlude: The Sedona Method What is the Sedona Method? The Sedona Method is an emotional mastery technique in which the person identifies the emotion and then releases it. It doesn't matter if the emotion is positive or negative, it is always beneficial to release. Now... How can I apply this technique while I am in the crossfires of some of these nasty emotions, such as frustration or anger or sadness? Here is a video to help: Notes: The first step to letting go is choosing to let it go Then ask yourself the question, "Could you let it go?" The next questions is "Would you let it go?" or "Would I rather hold on to this feeling or would I rather be free of it?" The last question is "When?" which is an invitation to decide to do it now Right here, right now you can be free of whatever it is that you are holding on to Try your best to be in touch with your Heart instead of your head When you answer these questions, it doesn't matter what your answer is, yes or no are both acceptable answers Think of an issue in your life or about the planet that you would like to change And in this moment, could you simply welcome how you feel, could you just let it be Now, as best you can, could you let it go? Yes or no... Would you let it go? Yes or no... When? And then repeat the process again with either the same issue or a different one. "Could you let it go? Would you? When?" People have released lifelong fears from their psyches through this work Remember, feelings are just feelings, they are not facts and they are not you, and you can let them go

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #43 12.13.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 3 Brush teeth streak: 45 Floss streak: 7 Shower streak: 16 Meditation streak: 9 Push ups / pull ups streak: 7 Funniness affirmations streak: 7 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 7 Brush teeth streak: 10 Wash face streak: 10 No electronics before bed streak: 4 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 16 No ejaculation streak: 16 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1 No alcohol streak: 43 No smoking weed streak: 9 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 For week of 12/8-12/14 Legs: done Chest: Back: done Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #42 One thing that I have been noticing as a sign of growth within myself is that I genuinely try to be a loving person in all situations. Of course, I am not perfect, I do get triggered, especially when I feel like someone is treating me unfairly. But in general I try my damnedest to love the person across from me, no matter who it is. 12.12.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 2 Brush teeth streak: 44 Floss streak: 6 Shower streak: 15 Meditation streak: 8 Push ups / pull ups streak: 6 Funniness affirmations streak: 6 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 6 Brush teeth streak: 9 Wash face streak: 9 No electronics before bed streak: 3 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 15 No ejaculation streak: 15 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 (130g - just missed it) No alcohol streak: 42 No smoking weed streak: 8 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 For week of 12/8-12/14 Legs: done Chest: Back: done Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #41 Being a human is a very intimate thing. We develop connections and attachments with each other. These connections come and go. They are always there in an Absolute sense as we are all One, but as a finite being, things die, relationships die, connections die. And we have to experience this loss. This is a hard pill to swallow. I don't want to lose these things. It makes me so sad. Part of me wants to not be attached to anything so that I don't feel the hurt of losing it. But I know thats no way to live. In that way, I would be living out of fear and not out of love. Here are some examples of songs that so beautifully illustrate this Truth of life as a human being: And I thank God every day for the girl he sent my way But I know the things he gives me he can take away And I hold you every night and thats a feeling I want to get used to But theres no man as terrified as the man who stand to lose you Oh, I hope I don't lose you Please stay, I want you, I need you, oh, God Don't take these beautiful things that I've got The artist here has an intuitive sense that things do pass, nothing is permanent and he is pleading with God to allow for things to stay the same. He is "terrified" of losing what he has. But the reality is that everything passes, nothing is permanent. Consciousness is always changing, it is never constant. Here is another example: They say you don't look, they say you don't look Cause it'll drive you mad, and if it drives you mad Drives you mad, it'll proably pass And if it drives you made, and if it drives you mad It'll probably pass Same thing, the artist understands that if something in life drives you crazy with love, then it will pass, one way or another. This doesn't just mean that the relationship will definitely end because relationships can last an entire lifetime, but the current relationship, how the two act around each other and what they do with each other, the dynamic of the relationship, that will end... because things are forever changing, they are never constant. Another Truth about reality is when one thing ends, another thing begins, just like the seasons. Every year, we have spring, winter, summer, fall. Now, if you could control all the seasons, would you keep one season constant throughout the year or would you allow it to die so that another can be born? Here is a song that illustrates this: If you can control all the seasons Would you recycle them list re-runs Or leave 'em freedom? What are your reasons? Spring, winter, summer, fall It would be very beneficial for me to go through Leo's video on Understanding Impermanence so that I can get a better grasp on what I am dealing with here. Again, my goal in this life is to surrender myself to Truth. And wherever that takes me is where I am headed. 12.11.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 1 Brush teeth streak: 43 Floss streak: 5 Shower streak: 14 Meditation streak: 7 Push ups / pull ups streak: 5 Funniness affirmations streak: 5 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 5 Brush teeth streak: 8 Wash face streak: 8 No electronics before bed streak: 2 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 14 No ejaculation streak: 14 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 41 No smoking weed streak: 7 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 For week of 12/8-12/14 Legs: done Chest: Back: done Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #40 I seem to have gotten back on the right track in terms of the habits. I have also had some successes in terms of women. I have a date set up for tomorrow with that girl that came up to me at the gym. There also seems to be a budding romance with my dance partner; two nights ago, we stayed at her studio until 2 am, rough housing with each other and making Tik Tok vidoes. I actually really like her. The problem with this is that I had a big goal of hitting on 1,000 women and having sex with 50. If I have a romantic relationship with her, this would have to be put on hold as I DO NOT want to do that to her. Sometimes goals come and go. One thing that I would like to do with her is start a YouTube channel in which we vlog about life as a ballroom dancer. 12.10.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 Brush teeth streak: 42 Floss streak: 4 Shower streak: 13 Meditation streak: 6 Push ups / pull ups streak: 4 Funniness affirmations streak: 4 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 4 Brush teeth streak: 7 Wash face streak: 7 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 13 No ejaculation streak: 13 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1 No alcohol streak: 40 No smoking weed streak: 6 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 For week of 12/8-12/24 Legs: Chest: Back: done Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #39 12.9.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 4 Brush teeth streak: 41 Floss streak: 3 Shower streak: 12 Meditation streak: 5 Push ups / pull ups streak: 3 Funniness affirmations streak: 3 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 3 Brush teeth streak: 6 Wash face streak: 6 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 12 No ejaculation streak: 12 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 39 No smoking weed streak: 5 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 For week of 12/8-12/24 Legs: Chest: Back: done Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #38 12.8.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 3 Brush teeth streak: 40 Floss streak: 2 Shower streak: 11 Meditation streak: 4 Push ups / pull ups streak: 2 Funniness affirmations streak: 2 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 2 Brush teeth streak: 5 Wash face streak: 5 No electronics before bed streak: 2 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 11 No ejaculation streak: 11 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 2 No alcohol streak: 38 No smoking weed streak: 4 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 For week of 12/8-12/24 Legs: Chest: Back: done Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #37 12.7.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 2 Brush teeth streak: 39 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 10 Meditation streak: 3 Push ups / pull ups streak: 1 Funniness affirmations streak: 1 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 1 Brush teeth streak: 4 Wash face streak: 4 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 10 No ejaculation streak: 10 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1 No alcohol streak: 37 No smoking weed streak: 3 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 For week of 12/8-12/24 Legs: Chest: Back: done Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #36 12.6.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 Brush teeth streak: 37 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 8 Meditation streak: 1 Push ups / pull ups streak: 1 Funniness affirmations streak: 3 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 1 Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed streak: 2 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 8 No ejaculation streak: 8 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1 No alcohol streak: 35 No smoking weed streak: 1 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 Legs: Done Chest: Back: Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Interlude: I am Grateful post: December 6th, 2025 I'd like to take a moment to post about this beautiful moment that I'm having right now. I am at the airport heading to Washington DC for a dance competition. I am hanging out with a beautiful young woman that I will be competing with and with whom I've been practicing with for the past year; honing my skills, developing career capital, developing chemistry and a connection. Three years ago on this date, I was traveling back home for Christmas from a cross country road trip that I had just went on. At that time, I was lost, I had no direction, no girlfriend, and still hadn't had sex. Two years ago on this date, I had just gotten this dancing job, and I was working as a host at a restaurant. I had been "heart broken" three times because I liked 3 different girls, and it didn't work out with any of them. This was tough for me, but at the same time I was finally putting myself out there. One year ago on this date, I had just broken up with my girlfriend, we dated for 8 months. This was the first relationship that I had taken seriously and it is also the first time I had sex. I was finally able to get in touch with my sexual energy while with another human being and allow myself to be vulnerable with her. Ultimately, I ended things because I realized that I wanted to take this dancing job more seriously and I wanted to have sex with more people. Since then, I have become successful as a dance instructor with about 15 students, I am surviving off of income from just dancing, I've had sex with a second person, and I have started to make some MASSIVE goals for myself that I am very confident that I will actualize in my life. By this time next year, I will have won a dance competition, I started a YouTube channel, and I have $10,000 in my bank account, and have gained 10 pounds of muscle.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #36 Its difficult to be proud of what I have done with my habit tracker over the past week. I have seen my motivation completely waver at a time where I need it the most. I am going to a dance competition today actually and I am going into it in a playful mood, but I want to be disciplined. How am I going to win a dance competition or have sex with 50 women or run a dance studio or have $100,000 in my bank account if I can't even wake up at the same time for 30 days straight, or meditate every day for 30 days straight. The thing is is that I am really trying. I mean, I'm holding myself accountable and thats all I can really do. I am doing THE BEST that I can with the skills that I have actualized thus far in my life. And I will figure all of this out and become a world champion dancer that can seduce women with ease, one that is extremely loving and affectionate but can also handle business with assertiveness and right action. I am the man that gets shit done. I get shit done. As a reminder, I am going to list out all of my massive goals again. I should probably make a habit of doing this on a daily basis: Start a Youtube Channel and get 1 million subscribers Post video about body transformation Post a day in the life vlog, talking about my morning routine Post vlogs of dance partner and I traveling and dancing Post vlogs of me hitting on women Post analysis videos of me hitting on women Donate $100,000 to charity Pay off debts by March 2026 Save $10,000 by the end of 2026 Save $30,000 by the end of 2027 Save $50,000 by the end of 2028 Become a world champion ballroom dancer Enter Washington DC Dance O Rama in 2025 Enter Seattle Dance O Rama in 2026 Eneter Texas Dance O Rama in 2026 Win at Rhythm in Boston Dance O Rama 2026 Enter in the "Rising Stars" category at TOC September 2026 Enter in the "Open" category at Washington DC Dance O Rama in 2026 Have a nice home with a pool and outdoor bar Pay off debts by March 2026 Have $10,000 in savings account by the end of 2026 Have $30,000 in savings account by end of 2027 Have $50,000 in savings account by end of 2028 Give your mom and dad money that they can buy a bigger house with. I want the world for them and I am going to make their old age as painless and enjoyable as I possibly can. Have $50,000 in savings account by end of 2028 Have $200,000 in savings account by end of 2030 Have $1,000,000 in Savings account by end of 2032 Have sex with over 50 women ( I like this right here, the end result is having sex. That is the genuine reason that I am approaching all of these women. This will also help with Approach and hit on 1 women this week Approach and hit on 10 women by by the end of the month Approach and hit on 100 women by the end of March 2026 Approach and hit on 1,000 women by the end of 2026 Weigh 160 pounds with six pack abs within 2 years Gain 10 pounds of muscle in 2026 Gain 10 pounds of muscle in 2027 Last for an hour while being inside someoneHave a full body orgasm Practice stimulating yourself with out porn Practice raising the energy up your spine Play around with the raising of energy during meditation sessions Abide in the “Field of Love” for a year straight Finish reading “Field of Love” Try to drop the “I-thought” back down to the Heart as much as possible Last 5 minutes in the “Field of Love” Last an hour in the “Field of Love” Last a day in the “Field of Love” Last a week in the “Field of Love” Last a month in the “Field of Love” Reach LOC 1,000 Finish reading the book 1,000 Reach LOC 500 by March 2026 Reach LOC 600 by the end of 2026 Reach LOC 700 by March 2027 Reach LOC 800 by the end of 2027 Reach LOC 900 by March 2028 Reach LOC 1,000 by the end of 2028 Own an Arthur Murray dance studio Be a Front Department manager by January 2028 Run an Arthur Murray dance studio by January 2029 Own my own Arthur Murray dance studio by January 2030 12.5.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 Brush teeth streak: 36 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 7 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 Funniness affirmations streak: 2 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 0 Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 7 No ejaculation streak: 7 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1 No alcohol streak: 34 No smoking weed streak: 0 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 Legs: Done Chest: Back: Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0 This song really touches my heart. Most people probably relate this song to finding a person that is their soul mate, but to me, it reminds me of finding dance as my life purpose: "We were never strangers, you were out there all along" "When I'm around you, I come alive. I want to give you all I've got" "Promise that you'll hold me close, don't let me go" "Take my heart, don't break it" "You and I stargazing. Its a twilights zone"

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #35 Before I address the habit tracker, I would like to point out a few noticeable improvements in my life over the past month, since I've started this journey. My emotional state is SIGNIFICANTLY better. I am accessing moods that are joyful and peaceful and filled with love that I have not accessed before. I would contribute this to the growing accountability through this journal and reading books such as The Field of Love and What am I? Meditation I have managed to become significantly less needy with women. As soon as I set the goal to have sex with 50 women and approach 1,000, all of a sudden, the need for the women that are already in my life to desire me almost completely disintegrated... Because my vision is much, much, much higher than any one girl. That has been the key for me. And non-neediness is VERY attractive and good for your mental health, nice job. As you can see, my tracker has taken a hit recently and I am not prioritizing hitting these habits. And you know what, I think it's precisely because I'm doing so much better and seeing progress that I stop feeling inspired to keep the habits going... Even though the habits are exactly what has allowed me to embrace this attractive non neediness and to access super joyous and peaceful moods. DO NOT allow yourself to coast, you are far from done. Let's get a move on and keep pushing towards your goals. 12.4.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 Brush teeth streak: 35 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 6 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 Funniness affirmations streak: 1 ,Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 0 Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 6 No ejaculation streak: 6 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 33 No smoking weed streak: 0 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 Legs: Done Chest: Back: Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0