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@integral i am in this situation going on 31 now. I can honestly say i am rather suicidal. The thing is I wanted someone since I am 15 but I have been chased away from girls from the beginning, what's even worse the guy who bullied me 8 long years attempted suicide and is rotting in the ground since 13 years....I am hiding my inner self for 16 years now...what do you thin about this peter pan analogy from Jordan Peterson. I felt like it happened to me even though I had an existensial shock with 12 and all the other developmental phases I tried to manipulate myself into some childish behavior.

HiThank for your reply!

Hey there, I am new to this forum. Pardon me if I am in the wrong thread. I am 30 year old virgin and somehow I can relate to that article that I read. https://www.salon.com/2011/01/31/30_year_old_virgin/ Except that I am a "softporn" addict. I collected maybe about 16 years, since I am 12, images and videos of women in pretty clothes and somehow I didn't realize how time flew by. I went to school, made an education and all that, but I never asked girls out. Sometimes they approached me to ask for my number, but I didn't believe they wanted it seriously. And now I feel massive regret, that I didn't live life to the fullest. I just know that my most virile years are over, and I am kind scared of the future in this fast paced life. I do not really know how to deal with that and to cope with the fear of death. I don't even know why I write, the only thing I can do is approach women and forcing myself to get out there, because I cannot change the past. Yeah I guess its just something to get it from my chest. Sorry for my bad english.