Kokorec

@Moksha It doesn't feel like I should be proud, but thank you. Having my ego acknowledged in any way also contributes to dissonance. I feel as if it is creating a trap for me, and this also results in me doubting the signs that I receive from people. Should I just trust them? THIS hits home. Any more detailed explanation on how I can more silently realize and how not to energize my thought with attention I will look at "The Mind Illuminated." Thank you.

@Razard86 I'll let God guide me:)

First of all thank you taking your time and replying. I'm trying, to let it sometimes it's so natural sometimes it feels unbearable. My biggest fear happens when I think about if I am losing my mind or all of it is Real which it is:). I know it somehow deep down but still cant accept it fully its feels soo unnatural and scary, The biggest obstacle I feel like I have is understanding what is my ego's Traps and what is Real and that sturggle of trying to understand which is which. It makes me quite unsure if what am experiencing is real or not and as a result gives me anxiety and a lot of heart palpitations. What can I do to ensure am on the path and get rid of anxiety in the long run? Also what would you recommend on how to build a good foundation( how to pace it etc.) and how not to feel like am losing my mind completely. I am still trying to find balance and enjoy this. Soo please give answer accordingly to my experience. Thank you <3