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So what message exactly do you want to give me?

I'm still practicing how to bring my thoughts better to text. I have a hard time to express myself. There might be more teachers like Leo but I know that Leo is very advanced with his understanding about God and that's why it is good for me to follow him. Obviously I don't just learn from him. Since over a year now I ask myself on a daily basis questions about reality.

why do you assume that?

I will continje this thread when I'm complety sober. Thanks guys!

I'm on a comedown. On ketmaine I wouldn't be able to write. But actually where in the rules does it say that? Can you share the url? And I would have written an report about I would arrive back home.

@Inliytened1 @Leo Gura I'm here at a festival since two weeks and took a lot of different psychedelics and high dosages, meditated, was mindful as much I could, and contemplated a lot and read through many Actualized.org Quotes. When I talked to people I looked in which Spiral Dynamics stage they are and many things made sense for me. I even met other people that are in stage yellow and the conversations were amazing. Today I had a profound DMT trip and I cried in the end because of all my creation. Now I'm on MDMA & Ketamine and I felt like writing this, Everything just makes sense now. When the festival is over I will take a break of all psychedelics and be sober for a while to integrate all of this. And I'm also listining ti my favorite music. And I also had the most potent & psychedelic Ketamine I ever had and not just a little of it, I was many times in a K-Hole.

I just had a huge argument with my family on a video phone call. The more I do this work, the more I see how selfish they are and what their beliefs are. Especially now with the elections we had in Germany and them being right-wing it was hard for me to just speak normally to them. I admit that the way I talked was not the best but it's really hard if your family thinks that you're regressing as a person. My mother literally said she thinks I'm in puberty again. I wonder what is the best I can do in this case. Should I just do as if I agree with all their views and kind of live a double life or what would be a better way to avoid problems with my family?

The Drive To Be The Best People often want to be the best at something, and this is a normal part of being human. This desire goes beyond just deciding to be the best or feeling pressure from society. It's deeply connected to our minds, especially to a part called the ego. The ego gives us our sense of self and enables rational thinking. Historically, being the best was linked to having the best chance to survive. This idea comes from evolutionary psychology, which says that the traits or behaviors that help survival are the ones most likely to be passed on. In today's world, being the best doesn't directly mean you'll survive better, but it can lead to better social status, more resources, and more opportunities. These things can improve the quality of life and chances of success. The wish to be better than others comes from a deep survival instinct. This means a lot of what we do, even if it doesn't seem related to surviving, is driven by this deep-seated need. Most motivations can ultimately be traced to the instinct for survival.

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This would be a bit too extreme for me. I think it’s better for me to find a balance between not taking them too seriously and still caring about them.

You could be right with that. I thought that aswell because I always saw myself more as a good guy compared to other people in this network. I never met him in real life even if I could because of his ex business patner. They told him he can come to Romania and we were thinking about it but we both had some big business issues at that time and decided to not go. Other people that met him, described him as very charismatic and totally different than how he acts on the internet. I met Tristan at a paid event though and was also drinking alcohol with him. I thought he is a super cool and funny guy that you want to surround yourself with but back then I almost had no understanding of psychology. Nowadays, I could easily see through his fakeness. Certainly nothing good. To be able to make money with it I would need to sell courses or a mentorship/coaching and this industry became very shady, especially in the last few years. So I'm not sure if I want to do this. I was thinking of offering free courses with the option for people to donate money, but I don't know if this is a realistic way to be able to live from that. I want to focus on giving value and not on making money like most other people.

Thank you! No, you’re wrong about that. It’s just an assumption you’re making. Once a model is banned, it’s hard to get her unbanned, even with insider help or fake documents. OnlyFans didn’t ban their girlfriends for fun. They had to do it because it became serious. The Tate brothers didn't stop because they realized it was wrong. If they could they would still do it, and maybe they are doing so with new women.

That means for me that anyone who can see through their own ignorance, which is one of the hardest things to do, and admit that they were wrong, can change for the better. This is exactly why spiritual work is so important. The difference of Tate and me is that nobody forced me to stop. Literally all of his girlfriends OnlyFans accounts got banned when he went to jail.

Is it a self-deception that I see myself as a victim even if others would say it turned out good for me in the end? All the things I did at that time I did on purpose but also because they manipulated me in thinking that this is the right way to live. But maybe it was precisely the fact that I was evil from the beginning that allowed them to sell me that dream. You can be completely honest with me. I don't care about my feelings, what I want is to change myself into the better.

The goal was to find healthy virgins and not women that were already damaged. The damaged and unhealthy women are just hoes for them that they use for sex.

What many here probably don't understand is that pimping a woman isn't as efficient as just working with women that aren't attached to you. You will have a lot of problems in scaling if you take the girlfriend route. The ones that make the most money are the agencies that work professionally together with women and have contracts with them. One of the people I had the best connection to was managing the girlfriends of Andrew & Tristan. There was always a lot of drama and their pages weren't earning that much compared to other models. Pimping a woman was more of a status thing in the War Room. That doesn’t mean there weren’t people who made six figures per month with their girlfriend. However, I preferred at some point to get value from them in other ways.

I don't think so. I got them at an event and recently found them when I was checking through all my old notes. Why do you think so? Which money should I give them back? I made a deal with them that they get a fixed salary for sending me content and they agreed. I don't feel that bad about the women I just did business with. It's more about the women I only got together with to try to get them on OnlyFans. Obviously, there were things I did that I wouldn't consider good now and I also didn't mention all of them here. But one thing I can say is that I never convinced any of my ex-girlfriends or women that were in love with me to do OnlyFans for me or tattoo my name, even if I tried my best, and I'm very glad about that. If you believe me or not is up to you. Not to mention that I lost most of my money (almost a million dollars) in crypto. Maybe that was the price I had to pay. I can be happy that I recently got some money back from FTX. Otherwise, my situation would be much worse right now.

That's pretty impressive. I was skateboarding for a few years but then I stopped because it didn’t fit into my lifestyle anymore. However, the best thing I could do was a kickflip on a flat surface. I was actually thinking of buying a new board again.

Little did he know then that one day he would realize he is God.

Do I need to beat the shit out of you that you finally understand? Wait, why am I talking to myself?

Consciousness is the only thing that matters because it is all there is.

@aurum @Leo Gura An anonymous interview is something I could do. I will think about it.

Yes it really is. I have to take it more seriously. Thanks man, I'm also very excited. I've already talked to quite a few people and admitted that I was wrong but there are still some I want to talk to. This is definitely something I will do. No I didn't but I also don't have the desire for that anymore. I just want to find something that I like doing and that is enough to cover my monthly expenses. I think I'm the wrong person to ask since I'm pretty biased. For me most of what he says is very basic nowadays but I can see that there might be useful information for others. Many people aren’t able to filter out the small amount of good things he says, but if you think you can, you can try.