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You can watch your ego. But who's watching it? Can you watch that watcher? And what about this last one? Solving this problem is part of a nice awakening. I recommend you to try it.

I think you're jumping to a conclusion. Stating the effects survival had on men and women does not in any way show you how you're supposed to behave. I can see this renouncing all power because I don't want to partake in this system (this is essentially suicide) or I can seek as much power as humanly possible because that's the nature of things (Genghis Khan path). Insights are beautiful, but don't take them as prophecy.

@mr_engineer He could easily partake in those activities with people that know how to deal with rejection and don't ask for him to give up his own interests because his fee-fees were hurt.

Man, if an actual friend is talking to a hot girl, I want him to fuck her. Even if I was also interested, but was rejected. He was bitter for being rejected by her and turned out to be even more childish trying to guilt trip you into not having sex with someone you're attracted to, and who is attracted to him just because it messes with his sense of worth. I wouldn't move a single straw to be close to someone like this. This is a very pronounced red flag. I would remove this person from my life if I were you.

Thank you for the compliment. hahahhahaha Still sad to go outside at 6:30 AM and feel a 27° C (80.6°) heat.

Brazil is unnecessarily hot.

@Leo Gura 1.5 mg per kg of body weight is a moderate trip. I weigh 60kg and taking 100mg is a safe and deep MDMA trip

Funny. After my first awakening, one of the first things I did was do the dishes, which was incredibly profound to me. I had seen through the pointlessness of all achievements, which somehow made taking care of something for my family way more meaningful. I could impact millions of people by doing societal level changes in the world, and that would have the same fundamental (although entirely different relative) meaning in the whole of reality. It made taking a single step as miraculous as the grandiosity of the universe.

Just keep your phone away and read something before sleeping. It should give you a relatively fixed sleep time. From there, put in place a wake up time.

Don't get caught up in the details and lose the big picture. I was talking about being present. You won't develop a complete presence of mind out of the blue. It is a practice. You're not stupid. I can see you can write your thoughts, although being concise is something you could work on more. See homework as a necessary social validation step to reach your goal. You can't change the education system without finishing school. It's not a matter of its usefulness or not. It might be completely stupid, you're not gonna reach your goal if you don't do it. Practical advice for not being late is getting your shit ready the day before, for example. For presence, as soon as you catch yourself drifting in thought, go back to focusing on your present moment. Try sleeping better and avoiding porn and games, as much as you can. It fucks attention span up.

Firstly, worrying so much about being on time wastes time itself. Worrying about being present distracts you from being present in the first place. Done is better than perfect. You can't move from Andy to Buddha in a blink of an eye. Do your best, and as soon as you slip into unconsciousness, move back to the present moment without worrying about the fact you slipped. It happens. Secondly, if your mission is changing the education system, intentionally observing the problems that happen, and that you're not aware of yet is a great motivator to reach your goal. Even further than that. Observe what problems that surround you involve a faulty educational system to some degree. It will help you have a more holistic view of the world and develop more presence. Write down your idea about what would a perfect educational system be. Change what you see has been tried and didn't work. Observe. Change your point of view. Try to argue from the point of view of people you disagree with to eliminate biases. Rinse & repeat. Having a clear vision is the only motivator you need. This by itself cuts a large number of your distractions and excuses. I know this first hand. It's what has been helping me. Don't take this as law. Experiment and adapt. Don't give up and never take people's advice as law.

Deep down, it's not a priority for you. Do you know what you want to do with your life? If so, does it involve finishing school or developing being on time more regularly? Change requires effort, and effort is only justifiable if the result promotes a perceived gain for you. Otherwise, you will see it as a struggle and will unconsciously resist it.

See it as the necessary cost for having the wisdom of not wasting time.

@Leo Gura If they banned you, it would be kind of a dick move. Great video by the way. I had the survival insight during my last LSD trip. It was on the same day the "Understanding the conservative mind" video came out.

What if I enjoy being slapped?

Who is labeling emotions as higher or lower? Feeling shame or fear can be painful, by would that necessarily lead you to suffer? The first step to stop running away is to recognize the implicit boundary between where you are (not necessarily physically, but mentally and spiritually), and where you want to be. If you do any practice to cease suffering, that itself is suffering, as you create more pain for not being where you want to be. That's why "do nothing" meditation is so powerful. It is practicing surrender to the present moment thoroughly, reducing distraction to nothing, or close to it. Not indulging pleasant sensations, not repelling unpleasant ones. Observe without bias what crosses your awareness and expand it so more and more of reality can fill it. Remember that the underlying feeling beneath "trying to reach a higher state of consciousness" is inadequacy. "Trying to reach a higher state" is saying "I am in a low state and can only attempt to reach a higher one". That itself is a presupposition imposed on your consciousness that you probably only assessed superficially. Have you completely explored your consciousness to the point where you can unequivocally affirm that it is shallow? I would safely bet that is those set of not questioned assumptions that lead you to an interpretation of your mental state as necessarily fooling you. It may be, but only careful analysis of your biases will show whether or not this is fact or fiction. Your frustration regarding your ignorance of self-deception comes from not observing yourself without preconceptions. You shouldn't assume deception or reality. You should observe and define it as such after consideration. Difficult task to do, but that's why you need the hours in introspection.

Many women do prostitution because of psychological manipulation and poverty. It's harder to find this in places where morality and good social and economical factors are better developed. Hence he moved to Romania. It's predation, not mutual interest.

@Leo Gura I don't know how to contact you otherwise, but can you tell me where do you get those beautiful scarves you've been wearing on your recent videos?

Can someone, or even Leo himself, tell me where this distinct gentleman acquires such stunning attires? This is of utmost relevance to my self-actualization.