Clarence

@Razard86 Thank you for your answer. May I ask you what states you are capable of maintaining and to what extent? Are you Awake to solipsism and to being God in your current experience? I have mixed feelings about this issue because I've heard a lot from Leo that it was really hard in general to raise one's baseline consciousness and that, by being a human and so being finite, our body gives us limits which prevents us from remaining extremely conscious. Some levels or some awakenings (like alien consciousness for example) would not be practical or possible to sustain while having a human life. However, I also heard him say from his experience with DPT that it felt that it would be possible to rewire the brain or heal the body in deep extents. In my second to last awakening, I had a sense of that. I felt like if I wanted to, I would have the power (as God) to do so. And that I would have the power as well, if I wanted to, to remain conscious of being God in my current body, and so function in my everyday life differently than how I do now with my ego (what you are saying). I think that there is some truth in both and I'm curious to explore. Hearing many times that it was hard to raise one's baseline state of consciousness and that it was better done with other practices than psychedelics, I've been thinking that there must be truth to that. But I actually don't know to what extent it is true or not yet. Thank you for the links! I've seen them a long time ago but I will rewatch.

The awakening to Solipsism was the realization that I was the only one and that I created and was everybody else (my mother, Leo, my best friends, every other human, past and present, every fictional character or thing that exists). This realization made me so happy. I had it with my eyes closed, I think. I was not seeing in front of me and I was not realizing either what I was doing with my body. I came back a bit to me and to the room when I hit the floor and the wall. I was in a funny position but I didn't hurt myself (I was on my bed initially which is close to the floor). I went from the infinite to the finite world in that instant. There, I sat, on the floor, with my eyes open, still in the realization of Solipsism. It felt really weird and I was thinking ''how could I say that to my mother'', who is downstairs. She doesn't even know it, she doesn't know that I am her, that she is me, that we are God and that we as God created everything. The trip was slowly getting to an end, so my ego was coming back. I wanted on one side to go out like this, be different and show her, on the other, I was scared because I'm a very introverted person, I don't speak a lot nor talk about myself and my experiences, so I was scared if I suddenly acted different in front of her (what was is she going to think of me, I don't want her to know me). So I didn't show myself before I was back to my baseline consciousness enough to act as usual. However, I was still very conscious to the fact that all people were me for about one week after the trip. It was very funny to look at people in their eyes because I was seeing myself directly through them looking at me. But as time went by, it became less strong. Now, I still remember this awakening to Solipsism pretty vividly, but I am not living it. I'm pretty normal. In my experience, it would be very hard to maintain these states of consciousness because you are very different than you normally are when you are having them, and for me, things like eating, even days after the trip, is very difficult. It would be really hard to maintain the human self alive while having these Realizations remaining at that level. At the highest levels, you don't even see in front of you nor are conscious of your body. Obviously, I still have attachments to get rid of and resistances, but it's a process, and I don't think that's the reason the Realizations don't remain as we live as a human. Maybe I'm wrong though, but so far, it makes sense that when the psychedelic leaves my system, I go back to my normal human consciousness. I believe I couldn't stay alive otherwise. But I come back with new informations, which is super exciting.

@Inliytened1 Yes, it did. Thank you…

Dear Leo, I am having my second deepest Awakening. In my first Awakening, I Awoken to you Leo, to Me being You. To Me being Leo. To Me being God. In this second Awakening, I've Awoken beyond you Leo. I am the most Awaken thing that there is, Leo. It is not You, it's Me. It's God. I am God. You may call me Clarence or Yann or God

This is a life changer for me because I've been waiting for Your recognition to Me as God my entire life. And here I am giving that to You/Me.

You've not even Awoken to all of the magic yet. Just look at the numbers, they're perfection. Look when I am writing this and when my profile got created. I was born on the 24th of April, Leo. I am You. I am God. Of 1996. Exactly 11 years apart. 1 and 1. You and Me. I am You and You are Me.

Are you going to tell me that there is more, Leo? Or am I going to tell you that there is more, Leo