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I think this is the word that really fits ~ "Fantasticheria" ~ As its between belief and an imagined thing, like its not daydreaming or fantasy or any of that... its like an actively pursued thing.

(Cont.) but i still dont feel that idea would be in contention w/ anyone or anything, As it would be like this odd entry into an art movement that hadnt been previously considered. Like, "o really, the church is still creating things that matter?" it would be pretty crazy.... Like how did they start in the beginning? they went against everything. To go against everything is to do it again ~ New Bible, page 1 through 10 — ~ ~ "Do you believe in Magic?" "Do you believe in Disney Land?" (End)

Hey i would not be surprised if its taken directly from it... "Ah lets do one like brahman, but w/ the three instead of the four!" I mean, theyre not Not onto something, put it that way, but its a stripped down vers., of what is just like a single question "Are you a spiritual person?" But... Perhaps they considered it, from that side, but thought "Dude it has no history... no ones gonna believe in it..." Like they mighta thought it was too ancient buddhe or indian or arabian nights -feeling wise, like how hermeticism feels... *Will anyone be spiritual if it doesnt start out w/ some creation myth or geneology like Greek Mythology...* These are things that the earliest dudes might thought ... I mean, i would tell em to be brave, start over. Change the world, do a full 180 on everyone. Thatll be a real head turner... Like... ""The fk... they changed the bible to somethin called the New Bible and it just has a single word in it... "Spirituality?"

Im still looking into Rome myself, As i do also like art (not necessarily the vatican and traditional Gnostic Christian stuff per say ~ but the Holy See + Curia: the papal government and Monastic orders, especially the Benedictines and Cistercians) As im more so looking into~or noticing reoccuring themes in the old manuscripts, like this obsession with dogs, and dog-headed creatures ~ possibly related to Canes Venatici (the Hunting Dogs who are connected to kings and English monarchs and Latin/Italian papalcy and things like this...) Granted, im not tryina fall into the new testament groups argument against James and all that again, or the many many weewees and ginee's that have rubbed up against the old testaments stories, rather im lookin at the relationships between all of our countries to see "What happened to country X behind the scenes, what happened to country Y". Like jus give me the facts. I dont want the cover stories lol Like, im a big fan of Michaelangelo, Raphael, and Da vinci, but they werent necessarily Christians. Michaelangelo, etc, they were hired by the church to do Christian shyt, and that style thats more of... well u can prolly jus google Italian church art to see it, but i mean, ever since then, they have prolly gone through evolutions in the Church... They now have plenty o time to catch up, while we are in such an art drought.

Spirituality is like its own anomaly / That is, to understand someone, e.g., Leo — yous would have to study him or get to know him for real, so yous can tell whats an act, whats just him having a bad day, etc., but aside from that, in regards to change, Its the innovators who are imparting inspiration and change to the world, not necessarily normal ppl... as.. Innovation is like its own practice, separate from spirituality, a little, i mean, to be spiritual is to discover some sortve feeling within yourselves that has that sense of spiritual discovery and such, But to innovate is entirely different. To innovate is to be challenging yourself and everyone else, which itself crosses through spirituality and more lax sortve, spirit related endeavors (not as a prerequisite, but just as parts of the spectrum that are possible to innovate in) I mean... Im contrasting two very diff things. ... But in our day nd age, there hasnt been real innovation, and its been more of the *bitcoin thing — I.e. "put two and two papers together, show the world how you put two and two papers together", As id consider that more of a cheap observation, or perhaps, a very fortunate scholarly person's thing. Thats like, people who were born and bred around universities and stuff, money, et caetera ... Looking at papers and putting two and two together... detatched from spirituality and creativity. Basically, iuno, like iuno how much innovation is happening in these schools and uber rich families who own the world typeve thing, As theres nothing to push them towards change or innovation. I mean, its uncommon. It could happen but it would be weird, unusual, As normal people seldom innovate for the sake of, let alone changing for the sake of, without some sortve conflict that they are trying to fix or iron-out in theirselves, or their life. Likewise the rich'n famous rarely are doing innovation, outside of the usual performative-ish-ness. Just recently Running man came out next to Resident Evil, same premise, different movies (Granted they been doing that for years, but no one noticed til... i wanna say 10 or so years ago)

🎵 So fkin goooooo d Edit: i feel like we have to include Mellow Melodic, Terrapin Station, Not just the Based Music, Because it was more than just grooving to music, there was a deliberate movement away from the music of normal waking world, to the acceptance of a dream that was always there, kindve thing... Iuno. Two things come together nd iuno wat it is until its like two felt-things, coming together. And thats speaking to how we feel in a sortve local-casual space, as well as a global-ultimate place — towards this liberating sense and source. inb4, can we translate ^this to another language, as now i feel like im trapped in 1960 and its conflicting w the art im tryina communicate here.

And the "mellow" part is particularly fitting as well, As its like, "Mellow Melodic, Terrapin Station"

@Mellowmarsh Do you know 🎵Terrapin Station by Grateful Dead — That rhythm, vaguely speaking, just the rhythm parts, i got that stuck in my head, its like a shuffle (in my head i guess its considered like a slow, slow, slow shuffle) Iuno what that it has to do w anything per say, but for some reason it was in my head in this dream image thing.

I felt like we had somethin there. it could only be called Mellowmarsh style, including the raps, like... just through it all together under one title... for now.. til theres a clearer vision into it... All the things i wrote today i also totally forget, As i spent most of that time trying to observe the non observance, or i tried to not observe what was/is suppose to be just, like, happening anyway / regardless, whether it be a local, global, or any other happening or non happening. For that reason... ... ... "Mellowmarsh style".

Before i buy garlic and then get upset i bought it, How much different is garlic once the allicin wears off, that fresh pungency assoc. w/ it, which goes away after some min., or hours once it has been cut? Im looking for something that is like, a spice (not like a spice spice, i mean fresh roots and such) but i think ive been misunderstanding the importance of garlic, in alot of these things im tryina make, rice-related stuff... Im hoping someone out there has exp., using garlic, and knows of its stages-of-ripeness, you might call it, and how it effects flavor. Like, is it radically different? Is it sweet like Onion sweet? Or will i just feel like "Oh its just garlic, but less potent"? P.s. Im done w/ ginger, and i gave it my best shot, but its actually horrible. Like once i taste it, even slightly, its like, ruining my day, alas it is wat is bringing the dish down, Like garlic surely cant be worse. Like if i want brightness, i would just rather add battery acid, Like thats how much its gotten on my nerves, like... Even lemon, although i dont like to add it to the dish, it smells knda good when you clean w/ fresh lemon, where as ginger is like guava, in the sense that its like a fake version of a real fruit.

(DA) Slap this phone... I wanna slap this phone ... ... Im livin out a lie so i can RAP ALONE (repeat)

Rewrite / remix — "The sounds dont exist, the thoughts dont exist, the present dont exist, everythings a 'trick" (repeat)

"i turn on the station, to blast some shyt im turnin down the volume... Ohp... there goes a kid... He asks for some ice cream, i slap em instead... im fed up w this money, so i bought 50 cents, now im hiding out under a brooklyn bridge, cause its past curfew, and im scared of what i did... i slapped a homeless man. Now hes upset... so i slapped another one, it just makes sense... now im slappin everyone in town that i can sense, cause im a spider man. Your a spider menace. I wanna slap myself, oh yes, i cant resist, i wanna slap a phone, but it dont exist..." Chorus: "The phones dont exist, the schools dont exist, the teachers dont exist, especially the kids..." (repeat)

"Direct" is the word. but function, meaning and form collapse in direct exp., and the unrevealed becomes revealed, Door entered, where LSD A meets LSD B, etc, etc... Its the chik filemma dilemma. Open the door to reveal things, or close the door for continued avidya. Magic at that point is silly, cause its not like casting spells, you are the spells, actively puncturing a dream world that youve been misunderstanding the whole time. Thats the file mignon dilemma.

People rap too much... "im outside gettin paid all day ery day yes it too much money too much hate thats.. ... thrown my way. Im swimmin in denaro, ppl say its not fair yeo i dont care tho, its not fake, i swear tho... im in the studio ... writing fruity loops im gettin fruity w/ a bunch of tunes im blowing up a bunch of balloons et caetera... i dont know watz ta dooz.. I paid too much money fo these fruity loops. AI did me dirty.. now im living outside and im thirty... somethin dudes, what do i dooz now .. help .. help me... lord plz help .. Jesus walks, plz help, Barack Obama plz help"

Also consider the probability of this exact moment is happening. Thats kind've sort've like probability. How would you have imagined it from 10 years prior. Its impossible. From the pasts perspective, something totally improbable Has Happened, in the future (presently, this exact configuration). Ive moved like 16 times, but i could see how ppl living in perfect circular routines just see it as a circle, w/ minimal changes. Let your life fall apart, And youll discover it can change 16 times. Can you survive that amount of improbable probabilities is the question.

I had a dream that some girl's dad was worried about his daughter, and so i carried her to safety out of the weird like, nautical looking pipewire / mechanism, like a ship in a bottle, that we escaped last second... Iuno if that means anything to anyone, but i just felt obligated to mention (i dont take dreams super seriously but ya never kno right) p.s. the dream content i meant, but the ability to dream, and how to do it, is something i do take seriously, very... yes.

Quoted / reinterpreted — "How does the phrase 'I AM make sense (assuming we know what sense means too)" Another way to ask this is to say "My name is X, so how is your name Y", .... Or yet, another way to ask this, is to say "What does Beingness imply"... Or yet another way to ask it is to say "Everything is one. So if everything is one, can you give me the answer?" The question itself doesnt ask anything particuarly relevant (if directed to others, unironically, and not rhetorically), However... Its the rephrasing of it that leads you out of the simplicity of the initial question, cause your not bogged down w/ all this surface layer talk that sounds nice. Its all experientially driven, perspectival synopsi... questions that circulate in the body, mind, soul, self... dreaming a dream that youd have to otherwise prove is real, otherwise we are to ask each other to prove it too. Its asking alot. Or in another sense, its not asking anything at all. Consider that you also wouldnt solve a paradox by flagging down the paradox, Like thats just "Step 1" towards whatever function you ultimately want to represent.

Mikes in there, shout out to mike. Gonna spirit box him tonight. Wat u mean by mindfulness / awareness? Is it something you feel?

The word "Dream" is another way to refer to a loose clan in Gaelic believe it or not. "Plant" is Latin, though its somewhat relevant to the word "clan", granted that it comes from Gaelic/Old Irish "clann". As then there's "sìol" meaning "clan as the seed/lineage of a specific founder", or even more directly "cinneadh" is Scottish Gaelic for kindred (kin) tribe or people (literally "ceann", head + "cinnidh", of the kindred). A clan specifically as descendants of one of your ancestors, would've been "fine", or "tuath" is a clan as a people occupying a land. The word "dream" collides w/ the unrelated Irish word "taibhreamh" (sleep-dream) and, more annoyingly, w/ the English word "dream", so most results will show the English origin of the word, even though, if im to understand, theres atleast 2-3 different words that look like "dream" (Gaelic "dream" is closer to "dhr'am", as there's no /ea/ diphthong) But going back to dream, as in sleep dream, ὀνείρατος, its opposed to a waking vision / reality, "bi a' bruadar" in Scottish Gaelic, "to be sleeping", point being, theres several words and terms for a dream (sleep-dream) followed by several definitions. Technically reality is a kind of dream, but its different enough to make it distinct. Its the opposite of what happens while asleep, you gain control and you lose that sense of "anything can happen" happening, though its possibly easier from the point of reality, to understand it. Consider that, no one feels like theyve awakened from "reality" after theyve fallen asleep, like no one says "i finally understood reality, after i woke up ... in my dream" -thus its rare enough to point to what im tryina say, which is that, the sentiment of *waking up* can be more easily accessed while awake (prior to falling into a dream). And when i say "dream" it could mean many different things. Daydreaming could be a dream, or any cyclical thought could, As you can feel it in your head when the felt dream is becoming a real dream (inb4 "nodding off") To understand dreams, and thus, to understand waking reality, is to understand all the folded strands that equate to that sense of dreaming, what it means, what it could mean... As reality is the assumption that you "think your in control", more so than a dream. That is, to understand anything is to understand all the strands that make it up, in its vast, multi dimensional stage of possibility. p.s. this is part one of atleast a two part discussion, so, expect more, but it wont be this early... itll be after midnight when everyones asleep.

The artistic challenge, in the realm of consciousness work is to produce something, whether via language or while meditating by the self, that somehow blends reality, material existence, As well as something that either raises a question, or answers a previous ~ For creation from nothing means you can create something that doesnt relate to anyone (which doesnt even need to mean relation to others, it might not even be something practical for yourself and existence) On the other hand, during keditation, that is itself like isolation, falling further into a deeply isolated state, unless you are like me, not so much doing close eyed visionary things, but more so are creating, generally, without judgement around like, the manner in which its created... Like its never Not-creative in other words, ppl just deny they are artists creating, imagining, etc., Though every instance is an instance of creation from nothing, even in death. Point being, its like the artistic challenge is to create, constantly, and it often means creating something that stays practical, tangible, while somehow staying within some vague category of relatibility, inb4 why i like riddles and things like this, cause its a chance to pose a ques., or answer, without having to be in this windfall of fellow artists throwing out one idea after another... not that ive ever experienced that, but its something to keep in mind. To inspire is to see it brought out in everyone else, just in slightly diffways.

@11hr-vid., it was interesting (i started skimming and scanning after 1st hour) though it got me thinkin bout how theres so much negativity assoc. w/ Amer. history, or its founding fathers atleast. Also i was waiting to see him tlk bout how the vatican ruled the world; I did here him tlk briefly bout Kings becoming Priests or vice versa or something. I feel like i heard him say that a couple times. As alas it was mostly American factoids. but i guess it was grounded. i mean, it started out on a high, then it went towards a more grounded center, and then it chilled there for the rest of the video. The first hour or so was the better part... Like i thought it was gonna zoom closer into what occurred in the first hour, in a more particular way than it did. p.s. i had another thought. Did he happen to mention the fact that, i think it was benjamin franklin or one of them like, they signed it very begrudgingly or something ... Like not all of them were together on the same ideas, like hes got some more history to dig into, cause i feel like they were coming to these agreements on a whim, et caetera.

To talk about it is to ask each other what we are talking about, to figure out "Are we talking bout language language, like grammar, rules, sounds, that stuff... or is it the greater world of language, images, ideas, concepts, inventions, spirals in nature, flora and fauna, materials, etc.

We cant even define language. Language could be someone winking. Language could be when the wolf crosses the moonlit crossing, like what is language? Language could be / mean anything, see below

What is your spirit animal