kavaris

... And as far as things like; diet, exercise, social media, this that nd the other thing, are those really the primary factors around being depressed, or is it cause've an inability to integrate with these things, that are otherwise beneficial to those that have found a balanced lifestyle. In my experience of depression, the last thing im worried about is my abundance of social media, nd so forth.

i dont know that its a matter of more ppl being depressed, but rather that more ppl exist w/ more ability to express theirselves/ & more freedom to do so. historically, you had to be 'tough'.. now its a matter of communicating, being honest with yourself, and being totally open, honest and transparent.

I agree, this is your chance to work it out. Life is short, so whether or not your ready to face some of this stuff head on, we can come up w/ a plan of action around some of the issues you have hinted to ~ as everyone else is here for the same reason... and that is, 'half the world is pulling us toward something, nd the other half blatantly wants us dead'/ not that i see that as a good foundation of thought, though you have to start somewhere with these thoughts nd that's fine.

I wasnt sure if i should be asking this topic in the Consciousness or Mental Health section. As i myself am suffering from mental health issues, albeit i am suffering from a long journey of pain... And in regards to meditating or sortve 'imagining'... actualizing... whatever word you would use for contemplating and feeling-out an emotional experience, such as mine.... I'd like to traverse alot of issues involving pain by meditating or... well... you know, obviously im not saying im going to heal myself w/ my mind even though id love to learn how, but rather... ... ... I am now interested in how someone elses experience has gone... In other words, "what am i suppose to be 'feeling' when i meditate correctly... the feeling that would allow me to perhaps -> transcend these un-traversable obstacles and come out the other end with... something that doesnt feel like a loop of pain and totally obliterated physically/mentally." Can anyone translate what a meditative experience feels like, in terms of the 'feeling' ~ perhaps minus a place of pain, but still applicable in a profound sense and thus it had a sense of enriching importance. And maybe ill be able to then imagine this myself.

@Blackhawk mmm... ...... ... id break this all down, and narrow down ONE thing you'd like advice on improving. When you get this chance, and you are in a calm, meditative environment that allows you to be still and have conscious control of... well... okay well 1sec, you'll have a couple directions when in that scenario... if you want, break it down. Break those things down, maybe make a note of all those concerns, and if there is one left that is 'Shining' in your mind with an evident amount of holes and instability that you would like worked out, bring it here again and lets do just that; working it out.

cause as far as peeing, i noticed alot of times i have to pee when im also goin number 2, and it tends to help alot when theres a large quanity of liquid circulating/comin out at once.

@at_anchor okay cool, someone w/ urination issues im sure will assist u through that; what, specifically, has been impairing your sleep?... is it a result of waking up to pee? or is it as a result of 'the kinds of dreams' you're having?

Oh, one more thing, and this is good, general info for everybody; ... when you start experiencing symptoms like this where it becomes increasingly difficult in the bathroom passin' bowel movements, you would do well to rotate into your diet -> lots of water, and lots of soup, like chicken broth... plain stuff. Or if you're very determined, you would do nothing but liquids for 24 hours, which i call 'liquid assassination'.

My paradigm has completely changed, thus i thought i might atleast update this thread, or rather, give it a good refresh. I'm no longer in pain. I had to have surgery. Although it was not a pain-free exp, i eventually relaxed into my new way of life, which being in pain for so long, it is so utterly different for me now. I mean, i feel like im 3 years old again, internally. I dont mean to brag, i just simply mean to highlight the difference in paradigms. I no longer am looking at the world the same. In fact, ive grown closer to a very specific spiritual aspect (i can explain at some other time) I just recently posted to someone else's thread - in a thread about 'stomach issues', and the stress he is undergoing. It might be important for everyone to go help him, and give him some love and info / especially if you have had the same experience and got through. I know i did. I had very intimate experience, and im even going through now. So yeah, keep your eye out for others in need.

Aw man i hope im not too late brother. Im havin constipation at the moment too. But (forgive my language) that im 'scoopin the poop' out my butt w/ a tiny spoon, and thats workin. Its a long story, both how i know to do that, and why my intestines are so weak atm. Anyway, goodluck. P.s. if you already knew about this, forgive me, goodluck.

no replies yet. i suppose it was difficult to interpret. i'll start with; how we share differences & similarities in sortve the 'ASMR' aspects to a variety of things, such as different youtube videos. For example, Leo's voice in some respect is like an ASMR experience, right? ... I think there's something to hearing someone in flow state or.... I'm not really sure what it is. Its this abstract thing that (especially while in pain) helps to persevere through. And Leo is a good example. Its a... flo-statey type've thing that registers (to me) better than - the more subtle, gentle aspects of ASMR, as such when you're not in physical pain. To conclude, there's something to voices for me, while in pain. Its at a specific level of frequency that penetrates the madness, the pain and the indelible thoughts drawing dark matter into my matter. into my soul.